"Have you seen Kevin?" I asked people here and there. I missed all my classes trying to find Kevin. He wasn't in his classes nor was he in the gym. I checked everywhere. 'Did he walk out?" I asked myself, 'I can't walk outside, I'll be suspended for 3 days and it's Tuesday!..I'll be out for the week...' I took in a deep breath and remembered what Nazz told me. "Confirm your feelings for Kevin." I love Kevin with all my heart. This feeling over Lue will be in the past. It was a small mistake. I didn't want this to happen. I didn't want to lose Kevin! A teacher walked up to me and asked me where I suppose to be? I looked behind her and seen Ash with a hall pass talking to the security. I over heard her say "I seen him in tears walking out the school..." I quickly looked up to the teacher and said "Excuse me...!"

I ran out the building. I can hear some of the teachers yelling my name and telling me to stop. I heard Ashley say "Hurry up and find that fucker!" I ran as fast as I can. I stopped and looked back at the school, I never broken the rules for school. I never disobeyed a teacher in all my years. I looked around, I searched everywhere. I then walked to the cul-de-sac. I walked around it and through it. I went to Kevin's house. looked through the window. He's not here, 'Is he hiding from me?...' I sat down in front of his house. "What do you want..." I heard someone softly say. I looked over and Kevin was still wearing his hoodie, his hands in his pocket and giving me a look, a look I can remember well. That look he would give me Ed and Eddy, followed by the name 'Dorks' Kevin were leaning against the house looking at me. "K-..Kevin, what you saw wasn't what you think it was...Lue was telling me to kiss him. I didn't! I..." I stopped knowing I wasn't making any process. his face expression still the same. "K-.."

"Get off...my property...Dork..." My heart-felt as if it's being pulled by the sides, ripping it to pieces and tossing it. "Kevin please, I'm telling the truth you have to understand!"

"I do understand! The reason you wanted to go to the movies with Lue! that fucking small date you guys went on behind my back, I was wondering why Lue wanted to hangout with you so badly, now he can have you..." Kevin voice grew louder and angrier. "If you wanted him so badly...you should of told me before you broken my heart..." He softly said walking over to me pushing me aside. "Kevin..." I didn't know what to say, I would be pretty upset with myself as well. Everything did line up perfectly together but I didn't love Lue. I didn't have feelings for him at all. I forced myself pass him into his house before Kevin had a chance to turn around. "What are you doing?!" Kevin roared. "I swear I'm going to pound you!" He screamed. I backed away from him, the way he were standing and posed ready to strike me. I'm terrified and scared. I knew what Kevin was capable of. He hit me before and I felt that pain come back to me. My legs started to shake and I held onto my hat. I couldn't move anymore, I'm to scared to move. 'Double D...' Memories of his voice ran through my head. I remember how kind and loving he were to me. That night he stayed over and we stayed under the covers. The first time he told me he loved me. The time when he held my hand on the bus. This wasn't Kevin. I knew the nice kind loving Kevin. I knew how sweet Kevin can be even at his worst times. My thoughts replayed a moment;

"I have a crush on you too Double D...For a while now...just that..Nazz gets in the way at times, I know I dated her once just for fun because it was a dare but i couldn't...keep my eyes off you. Ash told me just go for it...but..sadly it was when we both were drunk. I..I'm sorry about yesterday...My breath must have stuuuunk."

"Oh y-yes..you did reek of beer and unpleasantness. I would of r-..rather had you sober..."

"Well...you have me now..."

"k-...Kevin?..."

I stood up straight and walked to him. "I swear Double D! get out my house or I'll kill you!" I continued to walk to him. His face expression changed from angry to worried or sad. "Kevin...you wont hurt me.." I softly said. " Double D..." he let his guard down. "Kevin. I love you..." I held him, wrapping my arms around his shoulders and neck. I know he really wanted to cry but Kevin is too much of a macho man and don't show his feelings in public or even with me. Feelings as in sad, lonely or depressed, he thinks it'll make him look weak. I started to cry. I couldn't hold back any more.

We stayed like that for a while. Not one word are shared. His face resting on my shoulders. He finally said something after a while. "I need time to myself..." I released him a nodded. I tried to kiss him but he moved his head back rejecting the kiss. "I can't...knowing that he was on them...and that he touched you..." I nodded again and walked out the house. The door closed behind me I looked over at the dying leaves on the trees and the ones that have fallen. I continued to walk to my house. I seen some of the students walking this way. 'School must be out.' I seen Lue and Ashley. I stomped over to them glaring at Lue with what I assumed was an angry look. Then Ash ruined it. "Whats with the face about to shit a brick?" I ignored her and slapped Lue, but it back fired and hurt my hand. "Ouch!" I held my hand and looked over at Lue who was looking down. "Why would you do that to me! Sabotage my relationship with Kevin!" I started to cry. Ashley looked over to Lue and shook her head then walked away. She seen Rolf and jumped on his back making their way to his house. "Why would you do that to me...now he's upset he wont even look at me the same...why would you ruin something so perfect? something...something so golden!" I couldn't hold back the tears that were flowing. "Edd-.."

"No! don't 'Edd' me! you knew how I felt about Kevin and you decide to ruin it!...I don't have feelings for you it was just a quick moment of weakness! I don't ever want to see your face again!" I stormed away. I looked back for a second, Lue was looking at the ground and then looked back up at me. I seen the rest of the cul-de-sac looking at him. I walked into my house and locked the door, slid down on the floor and began the river of tears. 'please...please understand Kevin...I love you not him...'

"I love you Kevin..." His voice...his touch and his smell, everything about him I loved dearly. 'My best fucking friend Lue Ruined...everything.' I sat on my couch for a moment. 'He said he didn't kiss him but...I couldn't believe him...well I could but...why can't I get over this. He said he didn't...Damnit Lue! I swear I'm going to fucking kill yo-' I heard a loud cry 'Ouch' outside. I looked out the window, Lue Ashley and Edd outside across the cu de sac, Ashley walked away, leaving them two alone. "Now what...trying to take him on another date..." I was very frustrated and angry. I looked closer and Edd was crying, 'Is he yelling at him...' I thought to my self. I closed the shades, I didn't want to think about it anymore. I walked up stairs and took off my jacket. I then heard a knock at the door. Going downstairs I opened the door to see Lue, "Ok yes I know I-" I quickly punched him before he can say something else. He pushed me back in to my house and walked in closing the door behind him. "I'm trying to talk to you!" I didn't want to hear anything he had to say, I only seen red. "You're a piece of shit! your my best fucking friend! what gives you the fucking right to touch my Edd!" I threw another punch he dodged it and pushed me away again. I kept swinging at him getting his face and shoulders. He kept pushing me away. "Damnit! Kevin! ok fine! I do have feelings for him as well! ok!" I stopped and glared at him, his busted lip and messy hair. "Fine...I do have feelings for him...is that what you wanted to hear?...I'm also sorry! But we didn't kiss! I wanted him to kiss me..." His hands were on his knees as he's bending over to breath. "I asked him...to kiss me...he didn't..." I dashed at him again kicking him in his face, he pushed me back dodging me again, he then lost it and punched me back pushing me on the wall, I kicked him off me and punched him away. "Kevin! listen to me!" He yelled, I didn't of course kicking him in his face as he tackled me on the ground. The door is kicked open and I seen Ash jump in grabbing her brother and Rolf grabbed me. "Thy hell are you two ladies doing in here hmm?" Ashley fixed her brother's hair. "Tell Lue to get out my house..." I growled. "Fine! I will...but...you shouldn't be upset with Edd...I was the one who tried to force him to be with me...I'm the one your upset with...not him!" He roared and walked out the house holding his nose. Rolf released me and Ashley walked over to my house. She pinched my arm, Ashley nails were long so they pierced through my skin. "One for family...and One for Edd." She pinched me again but harder. she wiped my cheek with her sleeve and walked out the house. Rolf patted my shoulder and said "If I were the walking dark one, I would have went lower where the sun doesn't shine. Or your big head Kevin. " He smiled and walked out the house closing the doors behind him.

"you shouldn't be upset with Edd..."

"I was the one who tried to force him to be with me..."

"I'm the one your upset with...not him!"

I sat down on the floor. I looked over to see my body mirror, noticing my orange hair, I haven't worn my hat in days. Then I thought about where it was. "How else will I get here without an excuse?.." I remember that night. My first night I spent over his house, alone in his room under the covers. I sat there wondering and thinking to myself repeating over and over 'I love you double d...' I stood up and walked over to the front room and stretched my back. 'Lue can throw a punch...' I looked back at the mirror and noticed my black eye and cut next to my ear. I dusted myself off and walked out side and locking the door behind me. I looked at Edd's dark house. The wind picked up and the wind started to blow the leaves around. My phone vibrated, I reached in my pocket and checked it;

Nazz: what are you wait'n 4? go get him kev!

I looked over by Nazz's house, she was sitting in front of her house. She waved at me and I smiled. My phone Vibrated again, I looked down;

Nazz: He truly loves you, don't mess this up or I'll be upset with you dude.

I smiled at the message and took one step and my phone vibrated again;

Ash: you can't use sneezing in scramble right? Rolf is cheating and I may kill him tonight

I rolled my eyes and chuckled while walking to Double D's house.

Le kunn~