A/N: i cried writing this. Please review for more :)

"Well, the results we got back today are not what we had been hoping for."

Olivia sadly looked at the doctor, silently urging him to continue.

"From what we can see there hasn't been much of change. There is also a possibility it could have spread."

Olivia wiped her eyes. She hated to admit it, but she was scared. What if the cancer had spread?

"We will run a test and we will know within the next 2-3 days whether the cancer has spread or not."

Olivia nodded. They took some of Olivia's blood and told Olivia to take it easy and they would call with the results. Olivia was scheduled for more chemo in 3 days.

The drive home was another silent drive home. Other than Olivia's coughing the whole way home, Brian and Olivia didn't speak.

When they arrived at their apartment Olivia walked into the bedroom and changed into her pajamas. She was feeling sick again. Just as she was turning around to climb into bed she walked right into Brian's open arms. He enveloped her in a hug. She hugged him back and laid her head on his chest. They stood like that for a few minutes. Olivia felt so calm in his arms.

Olivia was about to release him when she felt his tears soaking through her scarf and his body beginning to shake. He was trying so hard not to sob.

"Brian, it's okay." Olivia felt tears filling her eyes. Brian never cried.

"I can't lose you." He whispered it quietly, but Olivia could hear the sadness in his voice.

"I'm not going anywhere Brian."

They remained standing in eachothers arms until Olivia became out of breathe. She was breathing like she had just ran a marathon.

"You forgot to tell the doctor about your breathing issues." Brian helped Olivia into bed and then got into bed himself.

"I know. I'll tell him on Thursday." Olivia's eyes were growing heavy. Brian continued talking, and she fell asleep to the sound of her husband telling her how much he loved her.

It was 2:19 am when she woke up.

She sat straight upright and couldn't breathe. She had one hand on her chest and was trying to catch her breath, but she couldn't. She felt a pain in her chest. She started crying; partly from fear and from the pain.

Brian heard Olivia struggling to breathe and quickly woke up. "Olivia. Say something"

She shook her head and continued to fight for air.

Brian was panicking. He quickly grabbed his cell phone and dialed 911. He took Olivia's hand in his a reassured her it would be okay.

The 911 operator answered.

"My wife. She-she has cancer and she can`t breathe."Brian was panicking. Tears were streaming down his face as Olivia continued fighting to catch her breath. She was beginning to grow faint from the lack of oxygen.

Brian finished the call and hung up the phone. He kept reassuring Olivia that she was going to fine.

In the distance Brian could hear the sirens approaching. Olivia was still trying to catch her breath, but she was becoming weaker every second. Not wanting Olivia to be pain for much longer, he scooped her up into his arms and ran out of the apartment to meet the ambulance. He hadn't realized just how much weight Olivia had lost until he was carrying her.

Just as Brian went through the lobby, the ambulance pulled up and two paramedics jumped out of the back. Brian burst through to door, holding a very week and nearly unconscious Olivia.

"Hey! Help her. Please help her." Brian began crying watching as the loaded Olivia into the back of the ambulance. He climbed in after the paramedics and held Olivia`s weak hand all the way to the hospital.

Once they arrived at the hospital they rushed Olivia away from Brian. Brian paced the room, scared of what news he would hear in the near future. Figuring it could be a while, Brian decided to call Cragen and let him know what has happening. He had made a promise he would keep Cragen up to date on Olivia.

He dialed Cragen`s phone number and hoped he picked up.

"Captain Cragen." He sounded very tired.

"Cragen it`s Brian." His voice cracked when he said that.

"Brian. What happened? Is it Olivia? Is she okay?" Brian could hear the panic in Cragens voice.

Brian took a deep breath. "Olivia- um. She woke up in the night with severe chest pains and she couldn't breathe. It`s bad Don. Really bad." Brian was crying now. He was sitting in a chair in the corner, crying.

He could hear that Don was holding back tears over the phone. Brian knew that Don loved Olivia like a daughter. "I am coming down to the hospital."

"Okay." Brian and Cragen finished their conversation and Brian hung up. He was growing anxious. He wanted to see Olivia now. He needed to know that she was okay.

20 minutes later Cragen walked in and saw Brian sitting with his head in his hands.

"Any word yet?"

Brian looked up at Cragen as he sat down. "No. Nothing yet. It has been an hour!"

Cragen frowned and looked at the floor. He felt sick to his stomach.

15 minutes later the doctor walked into the waiting room. Brian and Cragen rushed over to him.

"Is she okay?" Brian just wanted hear that she was okay.

"Let`s go into my office so we can talk in private."

Brian and Cragen both felt nervous. It couldn't be anything good if they needed privacy to talk with the doctor.

"Have a seat." The doctor gestured to the two chairs in front of his desk.

Brian and Cragen sat down and braced themselves for whatever news they were about to hear.

"Olivia told me after we figured out the problem that she had been having difficulty breathing for a while now. I wish she would have told us as soon as it started. It`s not looking too good now."

"What is wrong with her?" Brian unsuccessfully held back his tears.

"Olivia`s cancer has spread to her lungs. It isn't looking good. We have her on chemo and oxygen right now."

Brian let out a loud sob and put his head in his hands. He felt Cragen put a hand on his shoulder. He looked over and Don was also crying.

"Can we see her?" Don asked the question that Brian was desperate to hear the answer to.

The doctor nodded. "She is in pain, and she is very weak and very sick. She is worse than she was before, and it shows in her appearance."

Brian and Cragen sadly nodded. The followed the doctor down the hall to Olivia`s hospital room.

When they entered the room they saw Olivia leaning over the side of the bed vomiting onto the floor. She leaned back into her bed with her eyes closed; not even noticing the people in the room.

Brian`s eyes filled with tears seeing her like this. She was so sick and he couldn't do anything. She was so pale and sick looking it hurt him.

The doctor called in a nurse who began cleaning Olivia`s vomit. Brian walked over to Olivia and sat down in the chair next to her and took he hand. Cragen leaned against the back wall, trying to compose himself.

"Hey beautiful." Brian smiled at her through his tears.

Olivia tiredly opened her eyes. "Hey." Her voice was quiet and raspy. She sounded really sick.

"The doctor said the cancer spread to your lungs. Thats why you couldn't breathe."

Olivia nodded. "I know. I am just glad I can breathe again." She pointed to the oxygen tank beside her. She had oxygen tubes in her nose, which was helping her breathe.

Brian smiled sadly. "You are going to need that all the time now."

Olivia`s eyes closed and she sadly nodded. She rubbed her temples with her hands. "I feel so nauseous."

Brian held her hand and reassured her she would be just fine.