A/N: well this chapter is sad and a lot of you may be mad. But that is okay because it is my fanfic. Please leave a review if you liked or disliked this chapter :)

Cragen sat in his office watching three of his four best detectives visit in the squad room. It almost seemed empty without Olivia. Everyone missed her. Olivia was still in the hospital two days after they found the cancer in her lungs. She had told Cragen to tell Nick, Amanda and Fin because she couldn't do it. He still hadn't told them, and he didn't know if he would be able too.

He stood up and walked to the door. Deciding he was finally going to tell them. He opened the door. "Detectives. A word please." He walked back into his office followed by Amanda, Fin and Nick. Nick closed the door behind himself and they all stood in front of Cragens desk.

Cragen stood behind his desk. He looked at the detectives in front of him, not knowing how they would react.

"What's going on Captain?" Amanda could tell by the look on his face he was upset.

"A couple nights ago Olivia woke up in the night unable to breathe. She passed out just as the ambulance arrived. Brian called me and I went to the hospital. Before we could see Olivia her doctor wanted to speak with us. Olivia's cancer has spread to her lungs. It isn't looking good. She said she was having breathing issues for a while but she didn't really tell anyone. If she would have said something, things would be looking a lot better." Cragen sat in his chair rubbing his forehead. He felt like it just hit him. He just realized how very sick Olivia is.

Amanda wiped tears from her eyes. Nick didn't show any emotions. Fin stood there, looking deep in thought. He suddenly turned around and walked towards the door.

"Fin. Where are you going?" Cragen stood up.

"To see Liv." He answered as he opened the door and made his way out.

"Me too." Amanda quickly left to catch up to Fin.

"Make that three." Nick followed Amanda and Fin out to the car. The three made their way to the hospital to see Olivia.

Olivia was asleep in her hospital bed. She has about 4 blankets wrapped around her. She was always freezing. Brian sat in the chair beside her bed watching a TV show. He actually wasn't watching the TV. He was thinking about how tired and sick Olivia was. It broke his heart to see her like this. And it scared him too. He knew the doctors had doubts. He knew Olivia herself had doubts. As much as he hated to admit it, he also had his doubts. He prayed every day Olivia would get just a little bit better. It almost seemed as though she got worse every day.

Brian heard a knock at the door and looked up. Fin, Amanda and Nick quietly walked in.

"Hey guys." Brian shut the TV off.

"How is she?" Fin looked at Olivia sadly. She looked so small and sick. Even in her sleep she looked in pain.

"She is a fighter. She sleeps almost all the time."

They all nodded sadly. They talked quietly with Brian for 20 minutes. They were just about to leave when Olivia began to wake up.

She groaned softly and rolled onto her side. Brian walked over the side of her bed and took her hand. "I'm here Liv."

"I feel nauseous." Her voice was quiet and raspy.

Brian quickly grabbed the pail and slowly helped Olivia sit up. Just as she was sitting up she emptied her stomach into the pail. Brian rubbed her back and took the pail from her once she finished. He left the room, leaving Olivia alone with her squad.

"Hey Liv." Fin took the chair Brian was sitting in.

"Hi guys." She lay back down on the bed and began to cough.

"Cragen told us the cancer spread. Liv, we are here for you." Nick sat at the end of her bed.

"Thanks Nick. I just hope I can get out of here soon."

"I hope you can too. Maybe when you get out we can all go for coffee or something." Amanda stood at the foot of Olivia's bed.

Olivia nodded. "I would like that."

Olivia visited with her squad for a few more minutes before they had to get back to work. They exchanged goodbyes and wished Olivia the best and let themselves out.

Brian walked back in shortly after with the doctor. Olivia opened her eyes when they entered.

"Hello Olivia. How are you feeling?" the doctor checked her IV and her oxygen.

"A little better. I was wondering when I can go back home?"

"Well you do seem to be doing a little bit better. I think tomorrow sometime you should be able to go."

Olivia nodded. She wanted nothing more than to be in the comfort of her own home.

"Is the chemo working?" Olivia had made it very clear to her doctor that she wanted the truth about everything. If she was dying, the doctor was to tell her she is dying.

"Well your lung cancer is still the same as we just began fighting that a couple days ago. Your lymphoma seems to be getting better than it was. That is a good sign."

"Thank you." The doctor left the room and soon Olivia fell back asleep.

THREE MONTHS LATER

Olivia and Brian sat in the doctor's office waiting to hear Olivia's progress report. They were both nervous. It had been 5 months of very hard chemotherapy and sickness. Olivia just wanted to know if she was getting better and how much longer she would have to deal with it.

The doctor entered the room and said hello to Olivia and Brian. He sat down at his desk and opened the file and sighed.

"Olivia."

She looked him in the eye. She could tell what he was about to say wasn't good.

"The chemo was working. But it isn't working very well anymore. Olivia, you are going to die because of the cancer."

Olivia felt Brian grab her hand and squeeze it. Tears filled her eyes. She was dying.

"How long?" her voice cracked as she said it. She couldn't believe what she had just heard.

"With aggressive chemotherapy, this will make you very sick again, about a year. Without chemotherapy you won't be very sick. Maybe not even sick at all. But without chemo I would say about seven to nine months."

Olivia heard Brian trying to hold back a sob. She was also trying not to break down.

"I'll give you two a couple days to discuss whether or not to go ahead with the treatment. Just call and then we can schedule an appointment once you know what you would like to do."

They nodded and thanked the doctor and stood to leave. They slowly walked out of the hospital, Olivia pulling her oxygen tank behind her. Brian helped her get into the car and lifted the oxygen tank into the car. He walked over to the driver's side and got in.

The whole ride home no one talked. They couldn't talk. Olivia had just found out she was dying. Brian had just found out his wife was dying. Olivia looked over at Brian. Tears were steadily flowing down his cheeks. Olivia looked at him sadly. She felt it was all her fault she was dying. She could have gone to the doctor sooner and she might be okay. But she hadn't. And that would be the biggest regret of her life.