A/N: I wont be able to update for a while so here is a longer chapter! Please feel free to leave a review. :)

That night Olivia and Brian were trying to fall asleep. Neither could. Their lives and just been turned upside down. They hadn't yet discussed what to do. Brian wanted Olivia to get the treatment. He wanted her to have a chance and be with him longer.

"Brian?"

Brian reached over and turned on the lamp. "What's wrong?"

"I don't want the treatment, Brian." Olivia was crying. It was a hard decision, but she knew she couldn't take more treatment.

"Liv. Why?" tears were threatening to spill over his eyes. He couldn't believe she had just said that.

"I am going to die with or without the treatment. I don't want to be sick and miserable until I die. I have so much I want to do before I die and if I get the treatment I will be too sick to do anything. I can't go through another year of that Brian."

Both were crying now. Brian took Olivia's hand. "I want you to get the treatment, Liv. What if the doctor was wrong? What if you do well after another year of treatment?"

"No Brian. You heard the doctor. Nothing is changing. It isn't getting better."

Brian put his head in his hands. "I can't lose you."

Olivia softly sobbed. "I don't want to leave you. But I am dying, Brian. I am. If I don't get the treatment, we can spend our time together and make memories. If I do get the treatment I'll be sick and miserable and I will be asleep most of the time and most likely in the hospital. Now do you understand why I do not want to get the treatment?"

Brian nodded. He knew he was being selfish. "So no treatment?"

"No treatment."

The next morning Olivia decided she should tell her squad what was happening. She had an appointment with her doctor that afternoon, so she and Brian were having the squad over for supper.

"You ready to go, babe?" Brian was standing by the door, waiting for Olivia.

"Yes." She walked to the door, pulling her oxygen tank. Brian opened the door and let her go through first. They walked to the elevator and then made their way to the car.

Once they arrived at the hospital, Olivia's doctor was ready for them. A nurse brought them to his office and they seated themselves in their usual spots. A couple minutes later Olivia's doctor walked in and made his way to his desk.

"Hello Olivia. Brian. Have we made a decision?"

"Yes. We have decided together that I am not getting treatment." Olivia exhaled. She felt okay with her decision.

"Okay. I will still want you to come in for checkups. Not quite as often though."

Olivia and Brian nodded.

"I wish you two the best. I want to see you here again in a month."

"Thank you. See you then." Olivia and Brian stood up and walked out of the office. Before Brian started the car to drive them home, he turned to Olivia and leaned over and kissed her.

"You're beautiful."

Olivia blushed.

He softly smiled and began to drive away. "Now what?"

She smiled and took his right hand. "We make the best of what we have left."

They smiled at each other and began their journey to their home.

Later in the afternoon Olivia was napping in their bedroom, still tired from her previous chemo treatment. Brian was in the kitchen finishing their supper for themselves and the squad. He decided to make Olivia's favourite meal, chicken fettuccine and garlic bread.

Moments later there was a knock at the door. Brian opened the door revealing Cragen.

"Hello Brian."

"Hi Captain, come in."

Cragen entered and stood by the kitchen as Brian was finishing cooking.

"I can't wait for everyone to get here. Olivia is going to be shocked when she wakes up." Brian smiled. Olivia's birthday was next week and he had wanted to do something special for her. But when she suggested inviting her squad over for supper, Brian had an idea. He was going to make it into a little birthday celebration for her and invite more than just her squad over. He knew she would enjoy it.

"Me too. She hasn't talked to a lot of people other than myself, the squad and you since she got sick. She is going to be surprised." Cragen walked into the living room and seated himself.

Twenty minutes later all the guests had arrived, but Olivia was still fast asleep. Brian hoped she would wake soon. Of course he had invited Cragen, Fin, Amanda and Nick, she was expecting them. It was the other guests Olivia would not expect to see. Rafael Barba was among the guests. He had been busy with work that he really hadn't spoken to Olivia much. Brian knew she would be glad to see him there.

Alexandra Cabot happened to be in New York this weekend for a conference and managed to get a couple free hours. When Brian had called her, she had no idea Olivia was sick. Brian hadn't told anyone Olivia was dying, they decided to do that together.

Casey Novak was also present. She and Olivia haven't talked for a year, but she did know that Olivia was sick. She kept in contact with some people in the squad still and they had told her.

Melinda Warner was one of Olivia`s closest friends. Brian had been sure to invite her. Melinda was so worried ever since she found out Olivia was sick. Tonight was the first time she would see her, and she was nervous to face her. She felt like she should have helped her out more.

John Munch had left SVU a while ago. He and Olivia had kept in touch. But shortly after she got really sick they had lost contact with each other. John loved Olivia like a sister, he was thankful that Brian had invited him to see Olivia.

The one person Brian wasn't sure he should invite at all was Elliot Stabler. Elliot and Olivia had lost contact for a year, but then they had bumped into each other at a grocery store and began talking again. They often went for coffee or to get lunch. Brian knew Olivia didn't tell Elliot that she was sick. When he had called and had to tell Elliot himself, it was hard. That was the first time Brian had ever heard Elliot Stabler cry.

"I might go wake Olivia." Brian stood up and began to walk to the bedroom. Before he could take another step the door opened and Olivia walked out, pulling her oxygen tank. She had a purple bandana tied around her head, a black blouse and jeans on. She had also done her make-up.

Brian walked to her and kissed her cheek. "You look beautiful Olivia."

"Thank you." She smiled.

Brian quickly covered her eyes with her hand. "I have a surprise for you."

Olivia lightly laughed. "Will I like it?"

"I am sure you will." The two slowly made their way to where their guests were waiting. Brian still had Olivia`s eyes covered. He motioned for them to be quiet.

"Okay. Are you ready?" Brian turned them slightly so Olivia was facing everyone.

"Yes!" she was feeling anxious. She just wanted to know what was going on.

Brian uncovered her eyes and Olivia gasped. She saw her squad and all her old friends from work. Alex was the first one to go hug Olivia.

"Liv I`m so glad to see you. I`m so glad your okay."

Olivia released her. "Thank you, Alex. I missed you."

Olivia let everyone else hug her, she thanked them all when they said they were glad she was okay. The last person she hugged was Elliot Stabler.

"Liv. I`m really glad you're ok."

"Thank you, El." She released him and turned to the kitchen. She hadn't had much of an appetite the past few days because of her last treatment, but she suddenly felt very hungry.

"Can we eat?" she turned to Brian.

He was somewhat shocked she had asked to eat. "Of course." Everyone sat down and ate; they all visited just like old times. Olivia was grateful that everyone could act normal and treat her normal.

An hour later everyone had exchanged stories, some funny, some sad. Olivia felt like now was the time to tell them what was happening to her. There was no easy way to say it, or a good way to say it. But they all needed to know.

"Hey, I have something I need to tell you all." Olivia said loud enough for everyone to hear. Everyone grew silent and turned their undivided attention to her.

"I had a doctors appointment a few days ago. He gave me some news that-well, its hard. I am dying." She exhaled slowly. There. She had said it. Everyone`s faces went pale. Cragen looked down, holding back his tears. Elliot turned away and covered his eyes. Alex, Amanda and Casey did nothing to hide the fact that they were crying.

"The doctor said that with treatment it would be a year. Without, he guessed around seven to nine months." She wiped her eyes. There wasn't a dry eye in the room.

"You are going to get the treatment though. Right?" Casey looked at her hopefully. Everyone looked at her. Waiting for her to say, Yes, I`m getting the treatment. I am not going to give up and let cancer win.

She shook her head. "I`m not getting the treatment."

Everyone was silent. You could have heard a pin drop it was so silent. Everyone was shocked, angered that Olivia was sick with this horrible disease. Angered that she wasn't going to get the treatment. Sad that she was giving up.

"Why the hell not?" Elliot was angry. Not only at the disease, but also at Olivia. He hoped she had a damn good reason to not get the treatment.

"Because Elliot. I am dying. I am going to die with the chemo. I am going to die without the chemo. I am going to die either way. I cannot go through treatment again just to die in the end. It isn't worth it. I do not want to be sick and miserable and in the hospital until the day I die. I have so much I haven't done yet that I want to do and if I get the chemo I won`t be able to do any of it. So I am not getting the treatment."

Everyone was silent. As much as they hated to admit it, she was right. She would be very sick and miserable if she got treatment. They knew how hard it would be. She didn't deserve to go through that until she died.

No one could say anything. It was an awkward silence. John stood up to speak. Everyone expected him to say something he would regret.

"I am proud of you Olivia. You are so strong and so amazing. You are fighting two cancers at one time. Your decision not to get the chemo is brave. I am proud that you are strong enough to say no to it and live your life to the best."

No one said anything. Cragen started clapping. "We are proud of you."

Everyone was clapping for Olivia`s decision, despite their sadness they were proud that she was brave and not letting it keep her from doing things she wants.

Later that evening Olivia and Brian were again, trying to fall asleep.

"Olivia."

"Yes Bri?"

"I love you. So much."

I love you too."

"What do you mean when you say there is so much you want to do?"

"I have always been focused on the job. I never had time to live. I will never be a mother now. I will never do a lot of things because of this. It`s my biggest regret Bri; letting the job take over my life. I can`t let cancer completely take everything from me. That is why I cant get the treatment. I have to go do the things I have always wanted to do before I die."

"You mean like a bucket list?"

"Exactly. A bucket list."