Disclaimer: The only thing I own is a copy of Black Edition volume 6 thanks :3 Oh and L change the World. OH and Another Note: The Los Angeles BB Murder case…OH AND Volume 13-how to read.

A/N: WHOOOT finally had the time to get this up :3 What with finals and SOOOOOOO much work my brain exploded! (I really shouldn't complain, schools in the U.S are shit compared to the rest)

Music: Lacrymosa- Evanescence

Let Me Love You

Realization

~Mihael~

"Mel….up….olate….breakfa….c'mon…get…..hurts." I groaned and rolled over, not having a damn clue what was being said. I hissed in pain as the motion twisted my lower half and opened my eyes, what the fuck?

Matt was kneeling over me, smiling softly, completely naked.

"Perv, would you go put some clothes on, I have a hangover from hell and I don't need your white ass-ness blinding me." I grumbled, closing my eyes and stretching a bit, "and what the hell were you trying to say?"

I opened my eyes in time to see the blood drain from his face as he pulled away from me, he stood up fully and looked at the floor, "I wanted to know if you wanted chocolate pancakes for breakfast." He muttered, voice sounding strained.

"Yeah…sounds good." I moved again and more pain shot through me, nudging it to the front of my mind as he moved to leave, "Matt, what the fuck did I do last night? My ass hurts like I got rammed."

His fingers turned white as his hand gripped the door and I could see the tear tracking its way down his cheek as he bit his lip hard, his voice shook when he answered, "I don't know Mel, I don't fucking know."

Matt wrenched the door open and slammed it hard behind him, leaving me to stare down at the blankets, my tightly controlled emotions breaking free as tears began to fall on my sheets and I curled into myself, trying to stay silent.

I knew that I'd slept with Matt, I knew exactly what happened and I've never regretted something so much in my entire life. I realized while I lay beside him almost asleep after we'd made love that it was horribly dangerous for him to be with me and I can't do that to him.

He's everything I've never been and everything I've ever wanted but….I can't put him in danger. I curled into myself further as another realization hit me, if sleeping with me put him in danger, living with me definitely did.

Oh god, I have to leave.

A/N: Yeah, I had to do that :3 Oh and please note that I will be mega-updating this week, not in any order mind you, so look for new chapters :3 guys i think i have to many multichap fics up...

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