Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Dear diary, I can't believe I'm actually starting a diary at the age of 24 but with everything going on, it's just too much to hold in and I needed to let this out somewhere. I don't even know from where to start, my mother who is just so caught up with her charities and clubs and has no freaking time for her only daughter; to talk to her or ask about what's going on in her own damn life! or my father who is treating me just like a piece of land that he owns and keeps making all the decisions for me, and I lost my dream of studying arts so I could study business to take over this damn family business, I could care less about it! I don't even have that one friend who I can trust thanks to him, with the advices of only getting involved with someone who is from the same class. You know diary, those movies? where a girl has everything; love, money, caring family…yeah well they were right when they said movies were made to make us access things which weren't really accessible in real life. I know that a person can't have everything, but what if they have nothing?
I sat there, staring at the paper in front of me, shocked. Maybe that first paper didn't have much but I could read between the lines, I felt what she was going through, my family was busy all the time as well, sure I had friends that I could trust, but they could never replace family, then again that girl's life was awful. How can somebody do that to their only daughter? I kept looking at the dates on the rest of the papers; one of them was Sunday, June 15, 2014 the day I found her! I quickly pushed the rest of the papers aside and starting reading
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Dear diary, today they are getting me engaged to someone I can't bear to look at, when I look at him I just see darkness and misery but my father unfortunately can't see that, I even once heard him talk about equipment getting delivered at 2 am at an address which I looked up and found nothing, who in hell delivers something like that unless it was illegal!? I don't know what to do, but I can't really stay here and just let them give me to that man just like that, I am not going to let that happen without a fight, I can't think of anything now but the moment something comes to mind, I will do it without thinking twice
"Wow!" I whispered, amazed. So that girl inside is technically engaged to mob boss or sth with a lost memory and a fake boyfriend great! Could this get any better already I sighed, running my hands through my hair frustrated what am I getting myself into I put all the papers inside the notebook and put the notebook on the bookshelf between the other books and went to check on Elle, I opened the door slightly and looked at the bed to find no one "Elle?" I walked inside and looked around the room, i then checked the bathroom and it was empty what the hell!? "Elle!" i raised my voice as I went outside the room to look around the house, Helen was taking the weekend off so I had no one to ask, as I went into the kitchen I heard something hit the ground outside, I ran through the backdoor to the back to find Elle trying to sit up from the ground in front of the hammock, rubbing her head
"oww" she said in pain, I rushed over to her and helped her up
"Are you okay!?" I asked
"Yeah I am fine" she asked and whimpered in pain once I touched her head "that hurts"
"That needs an ice pack"
"Okay?"
I nodded "okay, I will go get it just sit here" I helped her to the chair and rushed inside, pulling a pack of ice from the freezer and went back to her, leaning down beside her "this is going to hurt a little bit so just hold my hand, okay?" I gave her my hand, she hesitated for a second but then relaxed and held my hand, I put the ice pack on her head slowly and felt her gripping my hand am sorry this might take a while"
She nodded and tears started to form in her eyes
"hey hey" I got closer to her and kissed her on her forehead tenderly, taking in the smell of her hair which was fruity mix of berries and apricot, her hair was so smooth and hydrated, I could just sit there all day long and I think I just heard someone scream my name getting me out of my daydream "huh!?"
"Troy! Your hand is bleeding I'm so sorry I really didn't notice but it was just hurting so much" Elle kept rambling so fast with guilt filling her voice; I leaned back and looked at my hands, covered in blood. I daydreamed and kept that pack on her head which made her grip tightly and her nails dug deeply in my hands great!
Later that evening, I really wanted to take Elle somewhere but well with the accidents that happened this morning, I think it was safe to say staying home is the best choice for the day. We sat in the living room, cuddled just like any normal couple I just had to do some gestures like that every once in a while, not that I was complaining of course. I kept thinking about what I read in the notebook, looks like her life was just…empty
"Troy?" Elle pulled me once again from my thoughts with her hands resting on my cheek caressing it
Her touch was just...indescribable "yeah?" I almost whispered in a husky voice
She giggled "I don't know, you just look so cute when you're concentrating on something, which clearly isn't the movie"
I chuckled and I began scratching the back of my neck yeah I was thinking about your so called diary that I found and I think I know your entire life by now "it's nothing really, just work, don't worry that little mind of yours" we shared a smile and I leaned in and kissed her cheek softly and slowly, and her hands never left my cheeks, this was just driving me crazy, I leaned back and hugged her closely, letting her head rest on my chest
I know I am supposed to take care of her only, with no attachment till returning her safely but somehow I didn't manage to try hard to find where her family was, and when I read that notebook, I'm not likely going to search at all and return her back to them, not until she has her memory back and she can do whatever the hell she wants with her own life, but maybe I was using that as an excuse that I actually wanted her here, I just couldn't help it, the house suddenly got this new exciting feeling, and she was just so damn beautiful god what am I going to do, where did those feelings suddenly come from?
"Why don't you just call the police or something? She might be kidnapped you know" a guy with dirty blonde hair and green eyes said casually
George sighed, frustrated " I don't give a damn about her right now, David, I have a very important deal coming up and I don't need the police and the media putting an eye on me, I would end up in jail if that deal got revealed" he said while typing something on his laptop
David shrugged "I'm just saying her father is going to ask you sooner or later to do that" he plopped down on the couch
George throwed his head back a little, laughing "her father would careless about her, all he wants is his company being on top of the world and that's just about it, he is actually asking ME to search for her when clearly he should be the one doing that shit himself"
It seemed like midnight already when I jumped up suddenly, startled, I looked down to find Elle shifting my arms. I looked around for a good 5 minutes to remember, I laughed silently to myself how I would kill for a lost memory right now
it looked like both of us were just too comfortable in each other's arms that we fell asleep without noticing, I tried to get up with Elle in my arms, I stumbled a little bit but I regained my stability quickly, I went up the stairs to my room and went in, gently layed her down and hovered over her a little bit "goodnight, Elle" I whispered softly, leaning down and pressing a very soft kiss on her lips
As I made my way to the door, I suddenly heard something, looking back I saw Elle beginning to shift violently in bed, murmuring words
"no no, just stay away" she whispered, shaking
"Elle!?" I ran to the bed, sat next to her and shook her "Elle wake up! WAKE UP"
"AAHHH!" she screamed, shooting up, sweating "oh my"she buried her head in her hands, shaking her head
"Elle, Elle, come here" I took her in my arms hugging her tightly" shh, calm down I'm right here"
She held onto me tightly" its..so dark…troy…just…so dark" she managed to let out between her sobs
I kept rubbing her back till she calmed down, then I got the nerve to ask her "what did you see exactly, Elle?"
She took a deep breath and started speaking slowly "lots and lots of people, dressed in black, one of them was holding me, he had a gun holding it to my head, telling me I was never going to get out of there, i…I don't know, I just don't know" she began crying again
My heart was just shattering "Elle, im here, no one is coming near you" I assured her
She sniffled and looked up at me "you promise?" she said
I nodded "I promise" I removed a strand of hair from her face and caressed her cheeks and starred in her eyes, leaning in…..
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