Changes

Chapter 2

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Kensi walked in the next morning to see Mac sitting on the floor in front of the coffee table working on her lap top. She put her things down on her desk and took a deep breath. She walked over to stand in front of Mac.

"Can I talk to you for a minuet?"

Mac looked up and nodded. She stood. "What can I do for you Agent Blye?"

"First I would like to apologies for my behavior yesterday." Kensi looked at the ground for a second. "I've been under a lot of stress lately and I took it out on you." Kensi took another deep breath. "I know it's not an excuse but I am sorry."

"It's ok. I was kind of dropped on you without warning." Mac smiled at Kensi. "How is your partner doing?"

Kensi was a bit surprised that she would care. "Ok, it's going to be a long road." Kensi went to head back to her desk. "Deeks does want to meet you. He said he wants to meet the person who will have my back till he gets better."

"Ok. Just let me know when."

Sam and Callen walked in just then a bit afraid of what they would walk into. Kensi was sorting thru papers on her desk and Mac was on her laptop. The men exchanged a glance then shrugged.

"We get any leads?" asked Callen. Mac didn't even look up.

"Eric is still looking for the truck. No luck on the cell phone, last call dialed was a take a way in China Town. Place is legit."

"Mac it's ok if you want to use Deeks desk, you shouldn't have to sit on the floor." Said Kensi.

The other woman looked up and smiled. "Only if you're sure?"

"I am."

"Ok then." Mac stood and moved her stuff over to the desk. She wouldn't miss having to sit on the floor.

Callen was glad things were working out. Plus he now had a direct view of Mackenna.

The rest of the week went well. Mac worked with Callen giving Kensi a chance to get used to the idea of her being there. Even after working a week with her Callen knew little. Mac didn't share much even when asked a direct question. He did however pick up on several things. One Mac watched everything going on around her. Second she seemed to think first before answering or speaking, almost like she was afraid to say the wrong thing.

Callen finally decided if he wanted to get answers he would have to push the subject. So he did what any good agent would do he showed up at her apartment with beer and take out after work that Friday.

Mac opened the door to see a smiling Callen holding a six pack in one hand and a plastic bag in the other. "I have food and beer."

"Ok." Mac stepped back unsure of where this was going. But she was never one to pass up free beer or free food.

Callen put the food out on the coffee table and opened two beers. "I hope you like Thai?"

"It's my favorite." Said Mac sitting down and picking up a container of curried duck.

As they ate Callen decided he was going to start asking questions he was almost sure he knew the answers to.

"So how many?"

"How many what?"

"Foster homes."

"I'm that obvious?"

"I had 32."

"27."

Callen looked at Mac. That explained her cautious nature.

"How old were you when you went in?"

"Birth, my mom walked away after I was born." Mac looked at Callen. "Anything else you want to know?"

Callen smiled. "How do you like working at OSP?"

"So far so good."

"You should ask Hetty to bring you on full time."

"I really doubt that will happen. As I said Vance like to move me around."

"Well I'm sure Hetty could pull a few strings."

Mac shrugged and finished her dinner. Her and Callen talked about basic things like favorite music and books. Callen filled her in a bit more on Kensi and Deeks and their thing. All in all it was a good day, Callen headed home even more sure that Mackenna was a good fit for the team.

Kensi woke to Deeks screaming her name. He was sitting up in bed staring straight ahead sweat pouring from him.

"Deeks wake up." Kensi put her hand on his shoulder and felt Deeks shudder. "Deeks it's me Kensi please wake up."

Deeks took a deep breath and seemed to come out of it. He looked at Kensi to see the fear in her eyes.

"Kensi…"

"Hey it's ok." Kensi wrapped her arms around Deeks. "It was just a bad dream."

Deeks took several deep breaths till he felt his heart start to slow down.

"Do you want to tell me about it?"

"You were being taken away from me, I couldn't move I could only watch as you were dragged away."

"It's ok Deeks. I'm right here and I'm not going anywhere."

"You shouldn't have to go thru this with me."

Deeks stood up and pulled his sweaty shirt off and grabbed a clean one.

Kensi sat there looking like she had been slapped. "Deeks I'm your partner and your best friend I'm not going anywhere, not now not ever."

Deeks looked at her. "Kensi I don't want you to go anywhere, but I still don't like that you're going thru this with me. You don't deserve to deal with my PTSD."

Kensi got up and went over to Deeks. She wrapped her arms around him and held him tight. "I'm only going to say this once Deeks. You are not Jack, I know I couldn't help him." Kensi looked up at Deeks. "I know you will not walk out on me. I don't care what I have to go thru I will not walk away from you."

Deeks closed his eyes and pulled her close again. "I don't deserve you."

"Yes you do."

Kensi pulled away and led Deeks back to bed.

"Kensi how long do you plan on living here?"

"As long as you need me too, why?"

"Well I was thinking maybe you should just move in completely."

Kensi propped herself up and looked down at Deeks. "Really?"

"Well my place is bigger and all your clothing is already here plus all your movies."

"Deeks you do realize I have a lot of stuff?"

"Yeah well we can always rent out a storage locker for some of it."

Kensi smiled and leaned down to kiss Deeks. "Yes Deeks I will move in with you."

"Good." Deeks pulled Kensi into his arms tightly and relaxed. Tomorrow he would call Hetty and see if she could find him someone to talk about. He wanted to get better for Kensi, she deserved the best from him and right now he couldn't give her that.

The next morning Hetty got the call from Deeks. She promised him she would find him someone as soon as possible. As soon as she hung up she called the first person she thought of that could help.

Everyone was at their desks except Mac. She was late. Callen kept looking up at the hallway waiting on her to show. Finally fifteen minutes later he saw her. She had a white box in her hand and a cup of coffee in the other. "Morning, sorry I'm late traffic was backed up for blocks."

"We will forgive you if you tell us what's in the box." Joked Callen.

"Well I did bring it for everyone." Mac put the box down on Callen's desk. He opened the box to see it full of donuts.

"Dibs on the cream filled one." Said Kensi almost knocking Callen out of the way to get to it.

Mac laughed and took her seat. After Callen picked out his he passed the box over to Sam.

"OMG! These are still warm." Moaned Kensi as she bit into hers.

"I got them before they were put out." Mac smiled over at Kensi. She had powdered sugar all over her face and looked like she was in heaven. Callen handed her a napkin and shook his head. He had told Mac last night that Kensi had a sweet spot for donuts and Twinkies. He was glad she decided to make the effort.

The next case Kensi would have to work with Mac. He just hoped Kensi would give her a chance. If everything worked out he hoped Hetty would be able to keep Mac around.

Two days later Deeks was sitting on his couch trying to watch tv. He had been getting less than two hours of sleep each night. He told Kensi he napped during the day but every time he closed his eyes he was back in that garage.

He had a dental appointment in three days to start replacing his missing teeth. Deeks was not sure he would be able to stand the appointment without breaking down. Hopefully they would just knock him out. Deeks jumped when he heard someone knock at his door. He stood grabbed his gun and took a deep breath before opening the door.

"Deeks." Nate stood there with his hands raised in defense.

"Sorry man, wasn't expecting anyone."

"That's ok." Nate waited till Deeks moved aside before entering the apartment. "Hetty said you wanted to talk."

"Didn't expect her to send you."

The two men sat on the couch. Nate was surprised that the apartment was clean. Deeks noticed Nate looking around.

"Kensi moved in she's been keeping the place clean which is a shock sense she really doesn't know how to clean."

"Moved in huh, your idea or hers?"

"Hers at first then I just told her to move in all the way and she said yes."

"Do you really want her here?"

"Yes and no." Deeks leaned back on the couch and grabbed his cat pillow. "She deserves better."

"She loves you."

"Yeah I know."

"And you love her?"

"Yes I do." Deeks closed his eyes. "I just want her to be happy."

"She is happy being with you Deeks."

"Maybe, maybe she just wants to make up for not getting me out of the garage sooner."

"So you think she is here because of guilt?"

"Maybe."

"Are you sleeping?"

"No."

"I can prescribe you something."

"Sure, whatever."

"She went thru this once before with her ex fiancé."

"Do you plan on walking out on her too?"

"No, I could never leave her."

"Have you told her you love her?"

"No."

"Deeks Kensi is here because it's where she wants to be. I think that when you are able to forgive her for leaving you in that garage and are able to tell her how you feel I think you will start to sleep."

"I need to get better; Kensi isn't too thrilled with her new partner."

"From what I saw this morning they seemed fine. Of course it may be that she has been bribing Kensi with donuts."

Deeks bust out laughing at this. He really had to meet this woman. Just laughing seemed to take some of the weight off his shoulders. Nate noticed that Deeks face relaxed.

"How about we meet up again tomorrow and talk some more?"

"Yeah sounds good."

After Nate left Deeks decided to take a walk to the beach. This was something he hadn't done sense before all hell had broken loose. He sat for what seemed forever just watching the waves. He knew Nate was right, he needed to forgive Kensi. He knew she wasn't going anywhere and he didn't want her too.

Hell he'd been in love with her from the first moment he saw her. And for some reason she wanted to be with him, even if he was messed up and lost. Deeks decide it was time to start living again. Now if he could just get thru the dentist apt he would be good.