Deanna watched the impala drive away from Bobby's with a equal amount of fear and worry. She knew that Bobby was someone that could protect her since her daddy trusted him enough to watch her and her Uncle Dean had sworn to her that he'd protect her daddy no matter what but that didn't stop her tummy from twisting and her hands from shaking now they were actually leaving. She ran up to the room that Bobby set up for her and kneeled by her bed clasping her hands together and bowing her head like her daddy taught her so she could pray.
"Dear Gabriel I am very scared 'cause my daddy has to go away to find the bad man that hurt my mommy and I don't want him to go. What if the bad man gets him and Uncle Dean too? Plus what if it was the bad man that took away my first mommy before Jessica? I think I understand now and I don't want my daddy to go away to heaven too..." She started to cry while she prayed and suddenly she felt Gabriel pick her up holding her in his arms and rocking her gently.
"Shh precious... Shh... I got you. I promise I'm not gonna let anyone hurt your daddy. He'll be around until he's a wrinkly old man. I'm not gonna let anything bad happen to any of you. But you can't tell anybody I'm here. It has to be our little secret, okay?" He whispered to her trying to calm her down. It was true. While he wasn't going to go directly against his big brothers anytime soon be was going to do his best to protect Sam and their daughter.
Deanna looked up at Gabriel and was struck with the familiarly of that moment. "I remember this... Not this but... I remember you holding me when I was more little. You sang for me and kissed my forehead. You..." She muttered thinking back to her earliest memory. It was foggy since she was just a newborn but she could clearly remember Gabriel cooing to her and talking to her like she was the most precious thing he had seen. Gabriel sighed wondering if she'd ever stop surprising him but then sincerely hoped she wouldn't.
"Yes... That's because... Because I was your mother... Am your mother. You see Angels are not boys or girls, we're just Angels. So I fell in love with your daddy and we had you... It was the best time of my life those months. But it was very dangerous for me to stay with you as a baby so I tricked your daddy into thinking I went to heaven. I'm so sorry for leaving you. I really am so sorry princess. I love you both so much but I messed everything up and I'm sorry." He said trying to hold back the tears but not quite managing. Deanna hugged his the best she could from his arms and the kissed his cheek.
"It's okay mommy. Everybody makes mistakes. But the good part is we can fix them. You can be with us now. I don't want you to go away either okay? Cause you're my mommy and I love you and you saved me and you're my guardian angel." She said and Gabriel kissed her forehead softly closing his eyes and just relishing the feel of his daughter safe in his arms. She was right, he could fix things with her. She was only three, they still had time together. But Sam... He'd never ever get to be with Sam again. Things were just too different and it wouldn't work between them.
"Okay princess, my sweet little girl... I promise I'm not going anywhere. But you still can't tell anyone I'm here. I'll get in trouble." He told her holding her close and smiling when she purposely put her head on his chest to listen to his heart beat.
"I promise mommy. Can you sing to me like you did when I was littler?" She asked hopefully. She remembered her mommy had a pretty voice and it made her less scared as a baby do maybe it would help her feel less scared now.
Gabriel nodded and started to sing to her a lullaby Lucifer had sung to him as a fledgling when the first rainstorm had happened and get had gotten afraid of the thunder and lightning that came with it. Soon she fell asleep in his arms and he smiled wondering how much he missed with his daughter because of his fear. Her first word, her first steps, her first laugh, he lost so much.
"I'm here now and I'm never leaving you again. Not for anything or anyone, I swear." He muttered into her hair gently tucking her into her bed and turning out the light before taking a seat in a desk chair nearby to wait for her to wake up. He turned himself invisible when Bobby came in to check on her a little while later but never once left his spot watching over her as she slept determined to keep his promise.