'Somehow I feel like I am in an alternate universe because in my universe Eddy and Kevin don't get along. Nazz is never hangs on Eddy's every word nor would Eddy ever be allowed to sit at the popular table and leave us behind. No, wait I take it back in any alternate dimension or universe Eddy would ditch Ed and me for the popular table. The only thing I can't fathom is how? Plus, I still can't get over the fact he had a date with Nazz.'
"Is it that shocking?" asked Daniel pulling Edd out of his thoughts.
"Uh? Oh, a little." Edd responds.
"Well if you think about it carefully if not for Eddy's negative traits he would be one of the popular kids and he is Nazz's type."
"I-I guess you're right." 'Not sure about the Nazz's type part but I guess I am just shock that Eddy hadn't talked about it. Although he was weird last week and only Ed and I hanged out during the weekday except on Friday.'
Edd starts to blush and Ed asks concerned. "Are you feeling ok, Double D?"
Edd becomes fluster and tries to answer but Daniel cuts him off. "His alright, Big Guy. I'm sure he just remembered something good."
Daniel smiles and puts his hand on Edd's shoulder reassuring him that he doesn't have to say anything if he doesn't want to.
At the popular table Kevin is shooting darts at Daniel with his eyes. 'What the hell is Edd blushing for?' Kevin grips his carton of milk. 'Ugh, get your hands off my dork, Dan.' His grip on his carton of milk increases and his milk explodes out of its container and spills on Eddy who is sitting in front of Kevin and is in his line of vision when looking at Edd's table.
"What the hell, Shovel-face!?" Eddy yells while getting up. Nazz grabs some nearby napkins and tries to help dry Eddy.
Eddy's yell bring his focus back to his own table but his anger and jealous stay. They project in his voice. "It's just some milk."
Furious at Kevin's responds Eddy grabs his milk and dumps it on Kevin. "Don't worry it's just milk."
Kevin shoots up from his seat and grabs Eddy by his collar. He is about to punch Eddy in the face with his right fist but Nazz places her hand on it and coaxed Kevin from doing so. "Calm down dude."
Kevin looks up at Nazz's eyes and then up to Edd, who is clearly shocked. 'Fuck!' He looks back at Nazz and lets go of Eddy. Nazz smiles at Kevin then turns his attention to Eddy. "Apologize."
"W-what? But I-" Eddy starts to protest but Nazz shoots him a 'you better do as I say before I get mad' look and grumbled. "Sorry."
Nazz shoots the same look at Kevin and he apologizes as well and soon everyone is laughing and joking about Nazz being the big honcho.
Secrecy was the foundation of Edd's and Kevin's relationship but the same could not be said for Nazz's and Eddy's relationship. It always made front page news; Eddy made sure of it by finding different ways to coax Johnny into doing a story about them.
Whenever he wasn't working he would go watch her at cheer leading practice and he went to all school games that had the Cheer leading squad performing. Ed and Edd would always tag along unless they had club activities. For Edd it was the perfect excuse to go watch Kevin at his games although he did always have the excuse that he was going to go watch Daniel. He had invited him to come watch now that there were no more issues with Kevin and they had become good friends. Really he had become good friends with all three of the Eds although Eddy had become more and more distant with his new found popularity Kevin, the School King ,has his best friends and Nazz , the School's Queen, as his girlfriend.
Meanwhile, Daniel seems to have given up his popular friends to hang out with Edd and Ed. Edd had mix feeling about it. On one hand he was over joyed that Daniel had filled the vacuum that Eddy left and Edd really did like Daniel so the prospect of hanging out with him was extremely pleasing. On the other hand, the main reason as far as he could tell for him not hanging out with his teammates and the other popular people was because of Kevin. Daniel hadn't 100% forgiven Kevin and Edd couldn't figure out why but he could never get Daniel to tell him.
Days later…
Today was the game that would dictate whether or not Peach Creek High's was going to play for the Championship title against Lemon Pie High their arch-rival. The Eds were sited in their usual spot and the basketball team raced out to the cheering fans. The team gathered by the bench and Chet noted. "Look, Daniel you have your own little group cheer leading dorks." He pointed to Edd who had a sign that said "Go Peach Creek!" and Ed whose giant sign said "Go Daniel!"
Daniel smirked. "Jealous much?"
"As if bitch."
"Hey! It's almost game time, focus." Kevin barked displeased at Chet's comment. 'Edd is not here for Daniel his here for me.'
The game went on and in the end Peach Creek won and the gym shook with the roar from the crowd. Daniel was surrounded by fan girls and teammate all congratulating him. But from the corner of his eye he spots Edd hugging Daniel and blushing. His face turns from joy to anger in a flash. He wants to go and tear Daniel and Edd apart. Tell Daniel he needs to say away from his boyfriend. 'He needs to stay away from my…my…my dork. Yeah. No, more than my dork…Fuck.'
With disappointment filling him he walks out of the gym and into the boy's locker room. He slams the back of his head on one of the walls and slides down. 'I can't even say it in my mind. But isn't that what he is to me? But does it even matter when I can't even do anything about it? Do I have any right to? Fuck.' Before he could think another thought Nazz appeared in front of him.
"Kev? Are you alright?" Nazz worried.
"Yes. No. I don't know." Kevin conceded.
"If anything is bothering you; you can always confine in me."
"No, I can't. Not this time."
Nazz got down to her knees and hugged Kevin. "Kev, I will always be there for you. There is nothing you can't tell me. I will always understand and stand by you. I know it hard but this is just phase."
Shocked Kevin grabbed Nazz's arms and peeled her off him. Confused Kevin insisted. "A phase? How do-? What? What are you-"
Before he could continue Nazz interrupted. "I saw you at the movie theater."
"You what?"
"On my first date with Eddy."
"You're just assuming." 'Shit, I wasn't careful that time.'
"Don't treat me like an idiot, dude. You made it pretty obvious the Monday after my first date, in the hallway earlier today, I could also tell about another dozen moments and if that wasn't enough then what about right now?"
'I can't believe I have been so stupid. Nazz knows about us.' Defeated Kevin let goes of Nazz. He rest one arm on his knee and the other he rubs the back of his neck. 'I don't want anyone to find out.'
"Please, don't tell anyone. Especially not Eddy." 'The last thing I need is to have that idiot mess shit up between Double D and I. Wait; would there still be a Double D and I if we were ousted?'
Concern and despair shadowed Kevin's face. Nazz quickly shush those fears. "I won't, Kev. Look at me." Nazz touched Kevin's face and force him to look at her in the eyes. "I won't tell anyone. You don't know it now but it's just a phase."
Angered Kevin grabbed Nazz's hand. "It's not just a phase."
"How do you know?" Nazz winced.
Loosening his grip on her hand he spoke softly. "Because I have never felt this way before. So…so don't belittle my feelings. Just because it wasn't supposed to happen. Doesn't mean they're any less real."
Nazz throw herself at Kevin and apologized over and over again. He hugged her and whispered. "Let's just pretend that you never found out, okay?"
Nazz protested. "But, why?"
"This…this is a secret I don't think either one of us is really to share. And I'm not ready for anyone to know about it. I don't think I will ever be ready. I think it's better to leave things where they are now."
"Don't you care who you hurt? How about how I feel?"
'Damn it, did she notice Daniel too. Does that mean it not all in my head? But could Daniel really be gay? Then again I'm…well I not. I mean it's just Edd. Does Edd have the power to turn straight men gay? Shit, I hope not. If not I will have to fight off the entire male population-'
"Kevin." Nazz implores pulling Kevin out of his train of thought.
"I know this is a lot for you. Heck it's a lot for me to handle as well but I can't just deal with it all at once. I know he will get hurt but I…I don't know it's best to leave things how they are. Please just pretend this never happen. For our sake, please."
"And continue living this lie."
"Well, you screaming it to the seven winds is not going to solve anything. I don't even know if such a day will come."
Suddenly Nazz slaps Kevin holding back tears and get up. "You're an ass. You know that Kevin."
Kevin imminently gets up as well and hugs her leaning against the wall. "I know."
The basketball team starts to get enter and Kevin hurries Nazz through a second exit. Nobody finds out Nazz had followed Kevin to the locker room or knows of the conversation they had. Or at least that's what Kevin and Nazz believed.
Winter break began and the Basketball team's loss of the Championship title was soon forgotten. Edd and Kevin had been dating for over a month. There were on their final date for the year, tomorrow was the Cul-De-Sac's annual Christmas Party then it would be Christmas afterward Kevin would be gone on a trip and be back for New Years and the huge party at Nazz's house. So this was their final date and Edd made it special.
Kevin was about to leave Edd's house to go home. "I'll see you tomorrow at the Christmas Party." Smiled Kevin.
"Indisputably." Edd smiled back.
Kevin reached for his coat but soon found himself shoved against Edd's front door. Edd wrapped his arms around Kevin's neck and his lips caressed the object of his affection. Kevin was happily surprise by this unexpected development. Kevin wrapped his arms around Edd's waist and swiped his tongue on Edd's lower lip asking permission to enter. For the first time since they started making out Edd without hesitation slightly opened his mouth and meet with Kevin's tongue. Their kiss became more and more passionate but was cut short for their need for air.
Kevin stared at Edd as he caught his breath. 'His so hot. I never knew he had this side to him.' Kevin aims at Edd neck as Edd still tries to even out his breathing and gives him a hickey. Edd doesn't squirm or protest as he usually would which came as a slight disappointment to Kevin. He looks up to Edd and he notices sadness in Edd's eyes. "Hey, is something wrong?" Kevin asks placing both his hands on either side of Edd's face.
Edd warmly smiles. "Yeah I am just going to miss you."
"It's only for a few days and I will see you tomorrow." Kevin kisses Edd on the forehead and releases him to grab his coat. "I best be going before it gets any later."
Kevin leaves and Edd walks over to his couch and slums down.
'I kissed him and I don't regret it.' His fingers touch his lips. 'Preposterous. I know. Not too long ago I was having an internal conflict with the rightness of Kevin and I being together not only because of our history, social status but more importantly our genders. Now I just want to pretend it all doesn't matter. Being with Kevin just feels right and it makes me happy, why does it have to be wrong? Why can't I like whoever I want? Why can't I continue with this lie?'
*Flashback*
"He is probably going to the locker room." Daniel tells Eddy.
"Oh, yeah." Edd responds watching Nazz trail after Kevin.
"No need to hesitate on my part."
"What?"
Daniel sighs. "Kevin left without basking in the glory of winning the game that sets us up for the Championship. That's weird and unlike him. You should go check on him."
Without even questioning Daniel Edd shuffles through the crowd and out of the gym. He heads to the boy's locker room and hears voices inside. "Kevin?" he calls out softly but goes unnoticed. He hears Nazz.
"Don't you care who you hurt? How about how I feel?" 'Hurt? Hurt who?' After a few moment of silence she implores. "Kevin."
"I know this is a lot for you. Heck it's a lot for me to handle as well but I can't just deal with it all at once. I know he will get hurt but I…I don't know it's best to leave things how they are. Please just pretend this never happen. For our sake, please." 'Who is Kevin talking about? Me?'
"And continue living this lie."
"Well, you screaming it to the seven winds is not going to solve anything. I don't even know if such a day will come."
Suddenly Nazz slaps Kevin holding back tears and get up. "You're an ass. You know that Kevin."
Kevin imminently gets up as well and hugs her leaning against the wall. "I know."
*End of Flashback*
'I want to believe he wasn't talking about me. But there is no one else he could be talking about except for Eddy and in the end that draws the same conclusion. Him and Nazz like each other. Dating me must of made him realize that but now he doesn't want to hurt me so his living this lie. But, for how long? I know this should end and I was going to today but…but I couldn't. I always assume he would be honest with me and as far as I knew he was. For how long do you plan to keep me in the dark, Kevin? How long before you leave me for Nazz?'
'Do you know that feeling you get in the pit of your stomach when something bad is going to happen? You want to ignore it but it's there no matter what you do. It feels like you know more than you think you do but reality is too harsh or you just don't want to see it, so you don't. Well when Edd kiss me goodbye it felt that way almost like he was saying goodbye for good. I will be back on December 31 so I don't get why he would act that way. Maybe he can sense I am not being honest about more than one thing.' Kevin toys with a light green handmade rope braided bracelet before placing it in present box and stowing it away in one of his drawers. Kevin smiles and heads out the door. 'Well, I guess I will have to fix that when I get back.'
A/N: Honesty is in this case is the best policy. Edd you need to speak the hell up and not suffer alone because of base-less assumptions. It helps cut out the drama. Do you agree, readers?
P.S. I started to notice that I will probably update Monday in the late afternoon instead of early afternoon and on Friday probably the same, late afternoons. Just so you guys know.