February turned out to be the most depressing month ever and everyone felt it. The cold winter seemed to grow harsher on its last month and seem to cling to the idea that it would last forever. Kevin and Edd continued on as if Valentine's Day never happened. They just ignored it. Neither one of them talked about it or even acknowledged its passing. Conversations between them were short and filled with long bounds of silence whenever they were together. Those time had dramatically decreased. Their gentle caresses and kiss were almost nonexistent now. There relationship was suffering but it wasn't the only one.

Eddy was pushing Ed, Edd and Daniel away. Focusing on his popularity and his precious girlfriend even more than before, obsessively some would venture to say. Ed wasn't taking it too well, especially since he had always been closer to Eddy. Edd plunged himself in his studies and clubs. Further ignoring Ed that needed him so desperately. Not even Daniel was there for Ed like before when they were cast aside because their friends were too busy with their romantic relationships to bother with them. He was too busy fighting with Kevin and ignoring Eddy back, all while trying to attach himself to Edd's hip. In respond Edd tried to keep away from Daniel, not because he didn't like Daniel but because he never has forgotten New Years. Every time he looks at those blue eyes the same thoughts from that night would flood his brain. ' I don't know if this is a mistake worth making but I do enjoy making it. But will I also end up with such misery in my eyes when all is said and done?'

A mistake that's what he called it. But this is bigger than any mistake Daniel could have made, Edd tells himself every time. He thinks about the fact that he enjoyed being touched by Kevin but he shouldn't because their both men and his parents. They oppose the act of self-pleasuring and to save oneself until marriage. Yet he kept doing it, thinking about it. He hated himself for it. How could he have let things spiral down like this? He shouldn't have started dating Kevin, its wrong, isn't it? The world believes it and there is no one to give Edd the right answer. 'Math. In math there can only be one answer, the correct answer. But this isn't math, what's the right answer? And how do I know?'

Kevin's and Nazz relationship was just as strained as all the rest. She was letting cheer leading and Eddy takes up all of her time. The previous caution and anger that had become their relationship was now just as cold as the weather. There was no longer frustration in Nazz just avoidance just like Eddy was to Daniel or Edd was to Kevin.

Kevin didn't know what to do. He didn't have anyone to talk to about this, about Edd. But even if he did who would he talk to about it? Daniel? Rolf? How could he? Maybe Nazz because she already knows, but '...why does she have to know? I don't want anyone to know. This is about Double D and I. Its no else 's business. But... fuck, he won't even talk to me about Valentine's Day, not that I have brought it up. I have given him plenty of space yet it isn't enough. I don't know what I'm suppose to do. What does he want me to do? What should I do?'

Right then and there his secret has never felt heavier. Here he was the most popular guy at school with not a single friend to turn to. His closest friends too disgusted (except for Rolf whose hundreds of miles away and doesn't know about the prank against Eddy or about his relationship with Edd) with him to acknowledge his existence and everyone else is everyone else. They are just there cause his popular but if he wasn't, they would be gone.

If his teammates knew about his problem they would refuse to play with him and his future would be gone. His dad would probably beat the shit out of him, if his relationship with Edd got out. So even if there was someone, Kevin wouldn't dare take the chance. Surrounded by so many yet all alone.

Edd didn't go to the baseball games, didn't wait at the library for Kevin's training to be over and didn't spend hours texting and talking to his boyfriend on the phone. He focused on school, his club and researching. He convinced himself that this like all problems had a solution; he just needed to find it. So he poured hours into researching. He couldn't leave it alone even after every dead end. He needed an answer, the right answer. He needed to know that this was okay, that this wasn't sick or wrong. Not just because his with Kevin that was a different problem for another day but because he was gay. He liked dicks instead of chicks. He doesn't wants soft lip and curves but firm lips and strong arms.

The need to know started to consume him. The contradictions and uncertainties were eating him alive. Soon knowing became more important than eating regularly and sleeping well. It was becoming as essential as breathing.

As March began the heavy hold of winter would not relent and spring won't, couldn't bloom. The tension from February was still strong but something needed to change. That's how on Edd's way to lunch a pair of arms plucked him quickly out of the hall and dragged him in to an empty classroom before he could even realize it. He struggled at last to be turned around in Kevin's arms.

"Hey its just me." Kevin said in a soothing voice. He kissed Edd but the kiss was stiff and unpleasant. Edd shoved him back.

"Kevin? What are you doing?"

"Kissing you."

"We're in school someone could see."

"I know but. We never talk we never...not since..."

"Don't."

"Edd, if I'm going...if we're going too fast we could slow down. I-I care about you a lot Double D and I would never do anything to intentionally hurt you." He lifts Edd's chin up. "Please, believe me."

Kevin leaned in to kiss him once more but Edd turned his head and place one hand on Kevin's chest. "I do, believe you but...I need some space."

"Space?" Kevin rebutted astonished.

"Yes, space."

"There has been nothing between us but space."

"That night you said you didn't want to mess up but you did. You...did things and I didn't.."

Filled with anger he shouted. "Don't you dare say you didn't like it because we both know that isn't true."

"I didn't want you to. It felt like before you were the bully picking on me because of my sticky notes."

"I-I didn't mean it that way." He responded deflated.

"It doesn't matter because that's how I felt and I didn't like that. So just give some time."

"I understand, take all the time you need." Edd nodded and turned around to leave but a tug at his arm stopped him. "I'm sorry."

Edd expected him to try to kiss him again but instead lets him and shuffled back so that he may leave first. For a split second Edd wants to jump into Kevin's arms and kiss him like he was suppose to. Tell that he accepted his apology and spill out all his worries as well as his deep affection for him but that would have been illogical. He would still have this confusion and perhaps pull Kevin into. He didn't want that. No, now was the time to think with one's mind not one's heart. So he nodded again and walked out the classroom. Knowing that while he did not lie he didn't tell the truth.

The truth was once again left in the dark. However, the truth isn't the only thing that hides there. In the dark, revenge finds a way to use the truth to hurt us all.

A/N: Sorry for the long wait. I hopped you enjoyed it.