Day eleven...wow this is a lot of work haha!
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"Hold on a second, I forgot something!" James called out as he dashed back into the apartment, leaving his girlfriend and Sirius standing in the hallway.
Sirius opened his mouth for a second, staring after James before closing it and leaning against the wall. Lily tucked her hair behind her ear and sighed.
Neither one of them spoke as they waited until Lily pursed her pink lips.
"You don't like me do you." She said finally, a statement, not a question.
Sirius raised an eyebrow, glancing down at her.
"I never said that."
"But you don't."
He cocked his head, long dark hair falling in front of his face and stared at her until she looked away.
"Even at school you never liked me."
Sirius smirked, "you were a grade A bitch at school Evans."
Lily flushed and stared at the carpet.
"Marlene was a bitch, and you liked her. You even dated her!"
Sirius shifted, leaning against the wall, shoving his hands into his pockets.
"Marlene was a bitch, but she didn't activity look for ways to put down my best friend every day." He licked his lips, "And we didn't date, we fucked. It's different."
"I didn't look for ways to put James down-"
"Let me guess...he created them himself?"
"He did!" She glared at Sirius, staring at his pale face, so similar but so different from James'. "You helped him most days!"
"Yes...and I was also the person who talked sense into him after he got his heart ripped out each time." Sirius eyed her, "You certainly do have a way with words Evans, I'll give you that."
She huffed and turned away, she didn't know why she was so bothered by Sirius Black or why he was so bothered by her. It was true that she didn't care for him much, attempting to murder her best friend (at the time) was a good way to insure that you got in someones bad books.
But even before that, even before everything, down to the damn first time she had met him on the train. He was different with her, he was. Not just different than he was with James, because...well that was James. And not just different than he was with Remus and Peter, he was...
She sighed in relief as James returned, breaking the stony silence that had filled the hallway.
Sirius Black was a charismatic man, normally cheerful, prone to fits of anger and depression, but he was always suave and charming. Always ready to offer a smile or a smirk if not help.
When he was with the Marauders he was loud, full of life and laughter, always talking, always laughing. When he was with James he was, calmer, more serious, more attentive to...everything.
When he was with girls, he was a gentleman, thought there was no mistaking his intentions.
When he was with Lily he was like an empty shell.
The lights were on, but nobody was home.
He would respond to her questions, carry a conversation, nod and smile, but it was obvious that he wasn't invested in anything. Obvious that he didn't care, that he was far away in his head.
And it bothered her, because she liked James. She had gotten over all the stuff at school, and she liked him now. And Sirius was James' best friend, he was always there, always around, and she wanted to be friends with him. She wanted this whole thing to work out, even if it didn't work out how James wanted it to.
Remus was pleased with it, Peter liked her, but Sirius...he was just the same as he had been at school.
She had asked James about it and he had just shrugged.
"He takes a while to warm up to people."
But she knew that wasn't true, because she had seen Sirius become best friends with someone over the course of five minutes before.
Remus hadn't been much help either, and she was at a loss until Peter told her to just ask Sirius. Be blunt with it.
"Why don't you like me?"
Sirius turned around slowly, grey eyes staring at her heavily.
"Because you have no idea of the power you wield over James, not even the fainest idea."
Lily froze in her tracks, not expecting an answer so quickly, let alone an honest one.
"W-what?"
"He's in love with you Evans, like head over heels. And I know you think he was just fucking with you at school, but he was in love with you then too, and he really cares for you. Like he would die for you, without hesitating a beat."
Sirius took a step toward her, towering over her small frame.
"You're all happy because this is your first real boyfriend, you're talking about moving in together and all that shit, but...look. You're in the honeymoon stage of your relationship, and soon you won't be, and if you don't think carefully about your words, and your actions, and what you really want in life...you are going to crush him."
"Sirius..."
"He cares so much about you, so deeply. And everyone can see that the 'love' you have for him, isn't nearly at the same level."
He paused, watching her in that eerie way he had when he was being unusual serious.
"That's why I don't like you. Because you hold the power to destroy my best friend and you're careless and idiotic enough to actually do so, and I can't do a damn thing about it except pick up the pieces when you're through."
With that Sirius turned sharply and hurried away from her, pausing at the door. Without turning around he spoke slowly and carefully, "Christmas is not the time to break up with someone Evans, not just James. It's just bad manners."
And then he was gone and Lily ran a hand through her long hair.
When she got back to her apartment hours later she stood by the phone for a long time.
"Hi, yes it's about the dinner reservation I made. It's under Evans, yes, I'd like to cancel it, if you don't mind. Thank you."
She hung up the phone and stared at the wall for a few minutes.
Fucking James Potter and goddamn Sirius Black.
If there was ever a pair who knew how to get under her skin. It was them.
Again...not sure if you guys will get this one...I feel like I did a shitty job on it...but leave a review anyways!