I woke up with tears stinging my eyes. That was the worst dream I could have… I shook my head then walked out of the den. I saw Timberleaf sitting at the camp entrance while watching the apprentices den. I ran over to him excitedly. I jumped around him, as he tried not to let me out of his sight. After a while he gave up.

"Well I guess we can't go training if you keep jumping around…"

My expression fell. What?

He laughed, "I'm kidding!"

I lightly hit his face and we walked out of camp. Luckily most cats were out on patrol or being lazy, so they didn't stalk us out of camp. I practically sprinted the whole way to the training hollow. Timberleaf jogged behind me. Way behind me. I sat and waited at the training hollow.

Lazy cat!

"Quietpaw, let's do battle training today." he meowed when he got here.

I froze. What?

I backed away while shaking my head. He gave me a concerned look and walked over to me.

"We won't do too much. It's just some defensive moves for if someone attacks you. I don't want you getting hurt because I didn't teach you." he explained.

I calmed down a little, but only a little.

"Quietpaw, are you okay?"

I smiled up at him shyly. Of course I wasn't okay, but I couldn't let him know. I walked towards him, signaling that I was ready to train.

"Okay, so the first one is a simple paw swipe." he swiped his paw at a tree.

I copied him, but didn't feel comfortable doing it. He showed me a few more battle moves after that. Like one where you swipe above the cats head so you look at their paw, then you trip them with the other paw. Once he said that training was over, I sniffed the air for my brother. There was no sign of him. I frowned. He didn't get to see me practicing something that could have helped save me from my father.

I sighed in relief as I remembered, I don't have to worry about crying in front of my father again. I don't have to get forced not to hold in the screams of pain. I could show my emotion whenever I wanted to now.

I looked up and saw Timberleaf looking at me. I signaled for him to go.

"Do you want to stay out here alone?"

I nodded my head and he gave me a concerned look.

"My brother will probably come looking for you though."

That's fine. I'm pretty sure Timberleaf would freak out if he ever found out that I was fine with being murdered.

Timberleaf gave me one last glance, then turned and left. I sat down in the training hollow, wondering why my brother didn't come watch me train.

I tasted the air once again and this time caught a trace of him. Pine came out of the bushes with a sad look on his face.

"I'm sorry, Rain." he whispered.

I looked at him confused.

"I'm sorry, but I have to bring you back to our father."

I shook my head and started to back away.

"P-pine I-I can't." I whispered with a hoarse voice. This was the first time I had spoken in nearly a moon.

"I can come with you and help you explain to the clan if you want."

I shook my head and started walking towards Thunderclan camp. I knew that I had to leave. Pine obviously knew that I secretly wanted him to come with me. We walked to Thunderclan camp in pure silence. When we got there, I heard gasps, but Timberleaf quickly ran over.

"This is Quietpaws brother. It's okay." he meowed quickly.

"My parents are very worried about Quietpaw and I need to take her home." Pine meowed.

Timberleaf looked at him, in shock. Then he looked over to me.

"Is it true?" I nodded while looking down at my paws.

I wish I didn't have to leave. Especially since I was leaving to go back to my father. I glanced up and saw sorrow in his eyes. Pine and I headed out of camp. Most of the way back home was silent.

My brother suddenly spoke up, "Rain I'm so sorry. I really didn't want to bring you back, but he threatened Roses life. I had to tell him about you because he was doing the same thing to Rose. I was hoping he would attack me instead and-"

I cut him off, "It's n-not your fault."

The rest of the way there, I stared down at my paws. When we got there, I saw relief on all my family members faces. Including my fathers. He clearly liked hurting me more than he liked hurting Rose.

"I was just about to let everyone go hunting for the night." he meowed happily, "Now we have two more to help hunt!"

One more...

My mother and siblings got up and left, disappointed that they couldn't talk to me. I was happy they couldn't, but sad that they left. When everyone had left, my father walked up to me and I ducked my head.

"What were you thinking when you ran away?" he growled.

"That I couldn't take it any longer." I whispered.

He laughed, "It's not all about you, Rain!"

He unsheathed his claws and hit my face. I flinched as he kept hitting my face after that. After a while, I was in so much pain that I did something I wouldn't have dared to do before. I jumped backwards and he glared at me.

"What was that?" he spat at me.

"Dodging." I whispered.

Around my father, anything I said came out as a whisper.

He jumped onto my back and scratched it as much as he could. He jumped off, picked me up and threw me against one of the dens. I gasped in pain. I looked at my pelt and it was covered in blood. My blood.

I staggered away from him. I heard Pine yelling.

"Stay away from her!"

"Pine, do you want it instead?"

"Yes." he meowed shakily, "Rain, run!"

I ran and stumbled back to clan territory. I darted along the Windclan border. It wasn't fast, but it was as fast as I could go at the moment. By now there were tears in my eyes. Why couldn't Pine have let him kill me? I didn't want to live with what he did to me.

I eventually found myself at fourtrees. I slowed down and stumbled on Thunderclan territory.