"You shouldn't have left the house if you aren't feeling well."
"Uhm.."
"No arguments ojou-sama. Rest well while I visit the other hard-headed hime-sama. Hahaha. But, thank you for taking the time to visit Asuka."
And I thought I could stay with you all night.
Together at this special day.
"Shin... Can't you stay?"
I probabyly know what you're about to say... yet I keep my hopes up.
"Hmm.. I would love to. But.. I already promised i'll spend the night with her. And!
She's going to be discharged tomorrow. Hehe."
You look genuinely happy.
Very contradicting from what I saw not too long ago.
"Is that so. Good for her."
Good for her.
You never neglected me before, but lately.. I just became the other option.. the less priority..
Or maybe you're just running away because of what i've said.
"I'm really sorry I won't be able to look after you. I'll call once I get there, alright?
My Rei's a big girl now."
You softly ruffled my hair.
Once again, i'm lost, deep within your unknown gaze.
We left the living room.
The walk through the hallway, I wonder if I can make it a little further.
Should I cast a spell on my room to make it disappear?
We both stopped right outside my room.
You held you right hand up and lay it on my left cheek.
You swiftly ran your thumb across my lower lip and walked away.
"Shinji!"
"Hmm?"
What was that.
I was seeking for an answer.
None, I couldn't read you at all.
I can't grasp the meaning of your actions.
"Mm-mm. See you. Take care."
"Yes, ma'am!"
You smiled, like nothing happened.
I gasped, a lot has happened.
The previous events, due to my fever, were nothing but misconceptions, yet again.
A never-ending cycle.
You would always choose her.
I'd let you, knowing you'll always come back.
Right?
You'll always come back to me, right?
No matter what happens, at the end, yo'll end up needing me most.
I know it, no, i'm certain of it.
The thought brought a small smile to my lips.
I entered my room and sat on my bed.
I saw it.. my own expression at the mirror.
and honestly it creeped me out... just a little.
xoxo
I was sheated in a calm and warm feeling of his embrace when I opened my eyes the following day.
He was in deep forty winks I didn't dare mess it up.
Dozing my mind off from life's actuality through studying his unconscious form is like listening to an unfamiliar song with a pleasing melody.
I can't fathom a distinct word but the harmony alone makes me want to continually listen to it as I fall in abysmal serenity.
"Rei... You... You're sleeping in my room again."
He
I engulfed my face on the crook of his neck.
Lost in his scent mixed with hers.
Its too bittersweet but nothing I couldn't handle.
After all i'm sure she felt stingy when she caught mine last night.
"Good. Your fever's gone."
It started when we were young, probably 7 years old.
That's when I started having strange dreams.
A time when kids would normally run to their parents room to seek comfort, I don't.
I always found my way inside my brother's arms.
"You're here, what about her."
He let out a deep breath.
Silence means they fought, yet again.
"She's so stubborn. I told her you're sick and you didn't respond to my messages and calls so I was worried I want to go home right after I bring her home. She wouldn't let me."
So this time I was the cause of her tantrums.
Its a first, might've been because of that.
Well, its partly my fault for leaving my phone inside my room.
"Sorry."
"Shhh. You're not at fault."
He arose from the bed as my head fell hitting his pillow.
He never, even once blamed me, even if its entirely my wrong doing.
"You should stop going to my room, Rei."
But most of the time, he does things that make me bitter.
"Why."
Its as if he wanted to shut down the place where I freely roam my thoughts somewhere else so that I can mindlessly lock myself inside the tranquility I could only seek when we're together, alone.
"We're adults. Siblings don't normally sleep together at this stage."
His back was facing me so I didn't know how he looked like.
"Who says so."
I sat up, sheets falling flat on the ground exposing my skin to the cold.
"When you find yourself a guy, you'll know what i'm talking about."
"You know who I really-"
"Stop it, please."
*Ding Dong*
He got a hold of the fallen sheet.
*Ding Dong Ding Dong*
We fixed our eyes against each other, his' practically wandered on my exposed skin but then he darted his eyes away.
He wrapped the blanket on me and before I could mouth a word, he's out of my sight.
I lunged backward, crumbling rocklike in the mattress, bringing my left hand up to my face making sure I put enough pressure in my eyes to prevent something.
To cease a release.
While at it, I felt something hard against my face and a little added weight on my wrist.
I held it up, my eyes appraising the simple chains entwined together, encircling my wrist.
"Insensitive bastard.."
xoxo
So this is what taking you so long.
I searched for him throught the whole house only to find him in the entrance hallway, liplocking her.
They've been doing this scheme for so long, don't know why it never gets old.
She'd start an argument, most of the time childish nonsense ones but will eventually approach him first.
Not to apologize, he'll do all the talking, owning the blame.
She gets mad like nothing but cools off her head in a haste.
Shinji gets annoyed at her too but when he sees her, he'd yet again fall in her bewitchery in the course of time.
Asuka opened her eyes and immediately caught mine, concluding the kiss they shared.
She then caught him in her arms, still sharply gazing at me.
"How's Rei doing?"
"Her fever's gone. She's a lot better."
"That's great."
She pushed her mouth in a sardonic smile.
She's transparently doing this on purpose.
She nibbled his ear.
Really intentionally.
My eyes are glued, I couldn't drift them away.
No.
I don't want to take my eyes off them.
Still.. it pricks like hell.
Shinji tightened his grip on her waist.
She whispered at him.
He turned his head.
"Rei? What..."
She.. This woman.
Her quirky behavior is really something.
"I'm going out."
I softly said.
Just enough for them to hear.
My voice might've cracked a bit.
I don't think they took notice.
I walked past them.
"Rei! I'll come with you."
You shouldn't say that when she's around.
"Let me just get the umbrella."
"Wait Shin-"
Shinji dashed to get the umbrella, inbetween Asuka's attempt to stop him.
"Tell him I went ahead."
I ordered, my back facing her.
"Stop. What do you think you're doing?"
She asked coldly.
"And I don't accept questions as a feedback."
She added, as if she already knew I didn't intend to counterclaim directly.
"I don't want to see you together."
You want honest, i'll give you honest.
"Hah! Are you making me laugh? You didn't take your eyes off the whole time. If I didn't tell him, you might've seen something you wouldn't want to witness at all. You're pretty brave.. but crazy."
You just don't get it do you, Soryu.
You'll never know how it feels to have something that is within your reach yet still you couldn't get a hold of it.
Running away is not my thing.
Right now, all I want is to cool my head off.
As long as I know i'm capable of enduring, I will.
As long as he is existing, so do I.. and so are these feelings.
"I'm going."
But with your existence invading, there's nothing more I could do.
Just holding onto this little hope.
I recalled, I said I don't hate this woman.
I lied.
"I'll go with you, I have an umbrella."
"You don't have to."
I might do things offhandedly.
"I insist! Let's go."
Her way of thinking, so impervious.
I took off while she's busy with her umbrella.
"HEY! I said! What! Argh. REI!"
I don't know why she wanted to come, she doesn't give a damn.
I walked fast.
She won't be able to catch up, she's got a sprained ankle after all.
I needed to go as far as I could before he comes.
I don't want to see it.
Him taking her side.
Of course I want him to choose me.
But he doesn't have to, because he knows, we both know.. he already got me.
Just not in the way I want it to be.
Because i'm greedy..
..and I think so is he.
t.b.c.
A/N: I read a disturbing manga last night. Argh. It was soo dark and its yaoi. And, its still ongoing which is torture. Reading manga such as that was a punch in the face. But it might also get me in the mood. Kekeke.
If you guys wanted to read something for fun after reading my gloomy story, read this webtoon entitled My Heart is Beating. Interesting fun.
NapalmInTheRain: Hmmm. Soon. ^_^ thanks.
KendrixTermina: Thanks for reviewing and nope, i'm not going to create a yandere Rei. haha. Definitely, not heading that way. There are instances that we do things impulsively, and we don't even know we're capable of such actions.
qwertyui: Yeah.. She sure does. XD and thanks for constantly reviewing.
Hashumba: LOL. My gosh. I don't know... about that. but anyways, thanks.
Malevolent Dark Reflection: My story loves you... too. Keke. Rei's just... in love. Someone she's not supposed to feel that way. Thanks for the review.
Been dealing with personal matters of my own. Actually, these fics.. some of it are of my own experience then i'll just add some twist and turns. And as always, I really appreciate my readers and reviewers. Its awesome to know somebody appreciates...
Thanks once again, lets all have an epic day(s), laters.