New story…I'm just teeming with ideas. LOL. Anyhow, I'm just going with this story off the cuff to see where it goes in the first chapter. If it's good, I'll continue it. If not, we'll have to see. I'm delving back into the realm of vampires. But, Bella's the vamp this time. Without further ado…
Unfortunately, not mine.
Damn. It.
*Angst Warning*
*Violence Warning*
Chapter Six
"I'm sorry," I said, trying to relax my body. "Just a lot on my mind."
Thirsty! Thirsty! Smell fresh blood!
I hissed and looked around, pulling Edward behind me. "What the hell, Bella?"
"I need you to stay behind me, Edward," I said, looking into his eyes. "Trust me."
"Is there something out there?" he asked as we got to a park. "If so, I can handle it."
"No. You can't," I said. There was a low growl in front of me and I turned. Emmett stepped out from behind a tree. His eyes were bright red and his muscles were rippling.
"Emmett?" Edward choked. "Is that you?"
"Edward, no," I growled. "That is not Emmett. He looks like Emmett but the Emmett that you knew is dead."
"But…"
"Hmmmm, dinner," Emmett snarled. He crouched and readied himself to feast on my mate. His friend.
I crouched in front of Edward, growling lowly. Edward was confused as he watched me face off with his friend. However, Emmett just had one goal and that was to drain Edward. I tried to reach him but his mind was so focused on Edward; it was a futile exercise. I needed to get him out of here.
Then, Emmett charged.
"I'm sorry, Edward," I said as I pushed him away, tossing him like a rag doll onto the playground. I leapt up and landed on Emmett's back. Heaving with all of my strength, I flipped him. I zinged him with my mental 'pain control' causing him to yell out in agony. DO. NOT. KILL. MY. MATE! HE'S YOUR FRIEND! LISTEN TO MY VOICE, EMMETT MCCARTY! YOU MUST NOT KILL EDWARD.
"Bella! We're here," I heard behind me. A short woman with a pixie haircut arrived with Jasper and another blonde man.
"Get Edward out of here," I said as I kept my hold on Emmett.
"I'll take him," the blonde man said.
"Is he hurt?" I asked.
"No," he said. "Terrified. Edward?"
"Who are you?" he cried.
"I'm Carlisle Cullen. Please come with me. I promise you. I won't hurt you,"
Emmett roared and bucked me off his body. I twisted and flipped off him, landing on my feet behind Edward and Carlisle. Jasper was sending calming feelings to Emmett, trying to get him to relax. However, the scent of Edward's blood was causing him to be stay in complete bloodlust.
"Carry him," I told Carlisle. "Here are my keys." I tossed him my keys and ran toward Emmett, twisting his arm and shoving him to the ground. My brain was repeating my original thought to Emmett, for him not to kill my mate. Carlisle darted past me with Edward in his arms.
Once the scent of Edward had dissipated, Emmett became more docile. He was still wiggling against my hold, along with Jasper and presumably Alice. "Emmett," I cooed, taking his face in my hands. "Do you recognize me?"
"Bella," he grunted out, trying to escape from the hold that we had on him. "You're Bella."
"Right. Did you recognize the man who was with me? The redhead?" I pressed.
His mind rifled through his foggy human memories and settled on Edward. "My best friend," he whispered.
"Yes, Edward. Your best friend," I said. "Do you want to hurt your best friend?"
"No," he whimpered. "But he smelled so good." The memory of Edward's blood caused Emmett to buck and the bloodlust to return momentarily.
"Emmett, do you want to be a monster?" I asked, jolting him down with pain. He screamed.
"NO! NO! Please! Stop, no more burning!" he begged.
"Listen to my voice, Emmett," I said as I slowly ebbed his pain. I repeated the same thing mentally. "Edward is your best friend. You. Will. NOT. Feed. From. Him. He is my mate and if I have to, I will destroy you." Emmett's ruby red eyes stared at me and he snarled viciously. Using his newborn strength, he grabbed my arm. With a twist, my arm was pulled from my body. I screamed in pain and fell away.
"Bellsy, we're going to take him to your cabin in Michigan. Send me a text with the location," Jasper said, struggling with Emmett in his arms. He was lulling him into a trance-like state with his gift of manipulating emotions. Emmett's movements were becoming more and more lethargic.
"How?" I whimpered, crawling to my detached arm.
"Remember that sweet little red car?" Alice chirped as she grabbed my arm, holding it to my body. "This is going to hurt, Bella. I'm sorry." She leaned forward and used her tongue to reattach my limb. I gritted my teeth with each pass. She finished and helped me up. I was incredibly weak. "I know that you want to adhere to the vegetarian lifestyle but you need to hunt. There's a mugging about to happen around the corner. Go!"
"Emmett," I said as I started to move away. I could the mental voices of the victims. They were close.
"We'll handle him," she said as she pushed me away.
I sighed and darted away. I rounded the corner and found two men attacking a woman for her purse. However, their minds wanted more than just the purse. I growled lowly. "Why don't you pick on someone your own size?" I spat. The men turned and the woman managed to scramble away.
"Like you?" chuckled the taller man. "You're smaller than her."
"But at least I've got a fighting chance and well, you're going to lose," I shrugged, rotating my reattached arm. I ran toward them and knocked them together, causing them to collapse in an unconscious heap. I dragged them into an alleyway, drinking them quickly, replenishing my body. I tossed both of them into a dumpster and using a lighter in one of their pockets, I lit the dumpster on fire. I dashed back to the park where I left Alice, Jasper and Emmett only to find them gone.
With a heavy sigh, I leapt up to the rooftops and began my sprint home. Within moments, I was at my condo being let in by the evening doorman. I smiled as I snuck past him and into the elevator. Upstairs, I could hear Carlisle and Edward yelling at each other. The betrayal in Edward's voice was evident and my heart dropped to my feet. I closed my eyes and steeled myself for the evitable.
I opened my door to find Carlisle with his back to me, blocking Edward from leaving. "Edward, it's not safe for you," Carlisle said as he held up his hands. "You're safest with Bella."
"Did you see what she did?" Edward screamed, running his hands through his hair. "She threw me across a park like I weighed nothing. Then she was able to pin my best friend who looked like a fucking demon!"
"Edward," I said as I stepped from behind Carlisle.
Edward glared at me. He was seeing me as I truly was. A monster. My eyes were blood red and I probably looked a fright. My arm was still pretty weak and I now had a nasty scar along my skin. It would eventually fade, but now it was red and angry. "Now, you know."
"I know nothing, Bella! What the fuck happened? What happened to my best friend?" he yelled.
"Edward, you need to calm down. Your heart is stammering. You're going to have a heart attack," I said.
"How…? HOW?!" he bellowed.
"Either you calm yourself down or I do it for you," I said, arching a brow.
Edward turned to me, narrowing his green eyes but he took a deep breath, calming his body. He stomped to my living room and sat down, leaning forward on his knees. I rubbed my arm. "Bella, let me look. Who reattached it?"
"Alice," I whispered.
Carlisle lifted my arm and manipulated it. "Hmmm, she missed a few spots," he said as he poked my arm.
"Just do it, Carlisle," I said, looking at this man who I had never before. He was going to seal my wound with his venom. Yeah, fucking weird. He smiled sadly as he quickly mended my arm. I hissed quietly. Once he was done, we walked to the living room. Edward had calmed down significantly but I could tell that he was still seething. "Edward…first off, I'm sorry."
He looked up at me and for once, I didn't see the man that I loved. His eyes were ice cold and his face was pulled into a sneer. "You're sorry?"
"Edward, please don't be rash," Carlisle said in a calming voice. "Bella, let me, okay?" I nodded and let Carlisle take over. "Edward, Bella, Emmett, Jasper, Alice and I are all vampires. Now, I'm going out a limb by telling you since our secrecy is of utmost importance. But, there is something about you that I feel like I can trust."
"Vampires? Like you drink blood?" Edward asked.
"Yes. My family, we drink from the blood of animals. Bella is in the process of learning that way of life, but my guess is that since she was injured, she had to go back to the traditional way of eating, by drinking from humans," Carlisle answered.
"You were injured?" Edward asked, his eyes flashing to my still sore arm.
"Emmett ripped my arm off," I answered. His eyes moved to the bright red gash on my shoulder and he frowned. Despite his anger toward me, he still wanted to comfort me. His thoughts were conflicted. He wanted to hold me but also, he wanted nothing to do with me.
"Emmett is a newborn vampire," Carlisle explained. "He is ruled by his bloodlust. When he smelled you, all he wanted to do was to drink your blood. Bella, did he drink prior to coming to Chicago?"
"Yes. Some unsuspecting hunter in Wisconsin," I answered. "Victoria kidnapped him and Emmett drained him."
"How did you know?" Edward asked.
"Some of us have gifts when we moved from our human lives to vampire," Carlisle said. "Bella, explain your gift."
"I'm a telepath, Edward. I can hear the thoughts of humans and other vampires. I can also project my mental voice into other's minds, encouraging them to do what I want," I whispered. Can you hear me? Nod if you can.
Edward arched a brow and nodded his head. Can you hear me?
"I can, Edward. But, I can turn off my telepathy with a mental shield. Finally, I can give the allusion of pain," I frowned. "I don't like to use that, but it's helpful in situations like you just saw. With my gifts, we were able to stop Emmett and he's currently on his way to Michigan with Alice and Jasper." I slammed my mental shield down and walked to the window.
"So, you are a vampire?" Edward asked. "And you drink from people."
"I'm working on changing my lifestyle," I whispered. "I'm a monster, Edward. I kill people. However, I do strive to kill people who are the dregs of society. Rapists, murderers, child abusers…tonight after my injury, I killed two men who were mugging a woman for her purse. But, as soon as I can, I'll return to my animal diet. I hate being what I am…I've been alone for nearly fifty years and I'm eternally damned."
"Wait a minute, fifty years?" Edward squeaked.
"When we change to become vampires, it freezes us at the age when we were bitten," Carlisle explained. "How old do I look?"
"I don't know. Twenty-five or so?"
"I was changed when I was twenty-three, in the year 1644," Carlisle explained. "Bella was changed when she was twenty one in the year of 1955."
"I'm twenty-one?" I asked.
"Yes, Bella. Jasper will tell you more once you get to Michigan," Carlisle smiled kindly. "He doesn't know everything, but at least you'll know more." He didn't tell you while you were together, figuring you would want to hurt yourself, Bella. I'm sorry.
"So, what about Emmett? And that Victoria?" Edward asked.
"Victoria was the vampire that changed Emmett," I explained. "I didn't hear her when Emmett attacked. But she's obsessed with Edward since I took an interest in him. Well, have more than a vested interest in Edward…I…I…" I couldn't say it. I wanted to, but I was afraid of saying that I loved him if he didn't love me back.
"You love him," Carlisle said as he looked at Edward.
I looked back at Carlisle and nodded. "He's my mate, Carlisle."
"Mate? Like husband?" Edward asked, hopping up from his seat.
"Vampires mate for eternity," Carlisle said as he sat down next to Edward. "It's an undeniable pull to one other being. You would do anything to be with your mate. It's stronger than love. It's like your mate binds you to this world. Every so often, there are two mates that are so intricately wound together, that it causes them to be in pain when they are apart. I've spoken with Bella and when she's away from you, her chest constricts and she's in agony when she's away from you. When you're separated, do you feel pain?"
"Like part of me is missing. Despite the anger I feel for her right now, I'm still drawn to her," Edward murmured, rubbing his chest absent-mindedly. "Also, I was able to hear her thoughts prior to when she asked."
"You two are connected telepathically. Alice, my youngest daughter, says that if and when you become a vampire, you'll be a telepath, like Bella. But strictly a telepath."
"I'm going to become like you?"
"I'd prefer you not. I don't want to take you away from your family, Edward," I said, turning to him. "If I stay with you until you die, then that's how we live. Just know that I'll follow soon after…"
"No, Bella," Edward said as he got up, crossing to me. Hesitantly, he ran his fingers down my injured arm. I whimpered at the jolt of our connection, tears falling down my cheeks. "I can't bear the thought of you not being on this earth…"
"I should be dead, Edward. Or at least gray haired with grandchildren," I said. "I'm an abomination. Vampire…leech…bloodsucker…demon…MONSTER!"
Bella, please, Edward thought. I'm sorry I freaked out. You're not a monster. You saved me from Emmett.
"I'd do it again," I cried. I'd move the sun to make sure that you're protected. I need you, Edward. I never imagined I would ever be mated, but I cannot fathom not being with you. Please say you forgive me…please say you understand. I'm so sorry for deceiving you…
Edward tugged on my arm and gently pulled me into his arms. I broke down, sobbing against his shirt.
"Bella, we need to discuss what's going to happen now," Carlisle said, shifting uncomfortably. "Emmett is not going to be under control. And from what Alice told me, Victoria is circling Chicago, waiting to attack Edward if Emmett wasn't successful in his attempt to drink from him."
"I want to try something, Carlisle," I said as I removed myself from Edward's arms. I closed my eyes and focused my 'mental' shield to encompass Carlisle, hiding his scent effectively. "What do you smell?"
"Strawberries and freesia," Carlisle said as he inhaled deeply.
I removed my shield and arched a brow. "Now?"
"Strawberries, freesia, honey, linen and sunshine," Carlisle said. "How did you do that? You masked his scent."
"No, I just shielded you from his scent. If I stay fed, I should be fine," I said as I looked at Edward. "I'm stronger now since I…yeah, two dead muggers. I can also arrange for another cabin in the same vicinity for Edward."
"No, I'm staying with you," Edward said as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"I'll stay with you, Edward. But, we need to fast track Emmett in the ways of being a vampire," I said as I looked up at him. He cupped my cheek and traced a finger under my eyes. I lowered my lashes. "I'm sorry about the eyes. I'll make sure I bring the contacts."
"As weird as it sounds," he mumbled, "they suit you. Your eyes are so expressive and now I can truly see you."
"Are you afraid of me?" I asked.
"Terrified," he answered. I stiffened. "No, angel. I'm terrified of losing you. My temper got the best of me and I didn't know what was going on. It's a lot for me to figure out but it all kind of makes sense."
"You have to realize, Edward. It pains me to even think of you being hurt," I said frantically. "I hated that I had to push you away from Emmett. I was so scared that I caused permanent damage…"
"I was just shocked. I mean, you're 5'4" and weigh like a hundred pounds?" Edward snorted. "You pushed me out of the way like I weighed nothing."
"We're incredibly strong, Edward. In addition to the strength, we're also very fast and everything about us draws you in," Carlisle explained. "Our scent. Our faces. Our bodies. We are designed to kill, Edward. However, it's a conscious choice for some."
"I was taught that there were no other ways to live," I explained. "To feed off humans. It wasn't until after I met you that I considered another lifestyle. I don't want to be a monster. I truly don't."
"Why don't we continue this conversation in the car?" Carlisle suggested. "Unless you want to run with Edward?"
"No. Car sounds good. Alice and Jasper took my Ferrari," I chuckled.
"Do you have an SUV?" Carlisle asked.
"Hmmm, no," I frowned.
"I have a Volvo XC90," Edward replied. "It's an SUV."
"Is it alright if we take that?" Carlisle asked, nodding his head. Edward replied with a quiet yes. "Great. Bella, we need to pack clothes for you and Edward."
"Already done. In my room," I said as I dashed from Edward's side. I swiped his duffel and my bag that was already filled with my clothes from my closet. I also changed into a pair of jeans along with a long-sleeved t-shirt. Once I rebraided my hair, I dashed back out to the living room and swiped my laptop, putting it into my bag. Edward was gaping at me. "What?"
"Um, yeah. You were a blur," Edward said as he pointed to the bedroom and then back to me."
"When we get to Michigan, I'll really show you what we can do," I winked.
"You're not going to eat me, are you?" Edward gulped.
"No. Edward, I can't hunt with you nearby," I said, biting my lip. "We are ruled by our instincts when we hunt and the bloodlust would be too much."
"Even if you're hunting animals?" Edward asked.
"Yes. We may hunt animals, but we still succumb to bloodlust," Carlisle explained. "Some animals elicit a more guttural reaction than others."
"Your friend, Eleazar, said that carnivores are more 'human-tasting,'" I said.
"This is true. Each animal has a distinct flavor and we all have our preferences," Carlisle chuckled. "I love black bears. Rosalie, my other daughter, prefers elk or moose. But then again, she was a vegetarian when she was a human. We should go."
"Edward, do you mind if I drive?" I asked, holding my hand out for his keys.
"No one drives my baby," Edward frowned.
"Yeah, but you sleep. We don't," I said as I wiggled my fingers. "Besides, I have a built in radar detector."
He pursed his lips and put his car keys into my hands. I turned to Carlisle and we turned off the lights in my condo. With one more glance, I locked up my condo and made a mental note to call Jenks to lock it up permanently. We got into Edward's car. I was driving while Carlisle sat in the back and Edward was in the passenger seat. "Where are we going?"
"Upper peninsula Michigan. I have property up there," I explained. "Hmmm, your windows aren't tinted. What's the fastest you've driven this?"
"I don't know. Umm, ninety?" Edward shrugged.
"What's the speedometer go up to," Carlisle asked from the backseat.
"One-sixty," I answered.
"You can cruise around one-forty, no big deal," Carlisle said with a wave of the hand.
"One-forty?"
"Relax, Edward," I said as I patted his hand. I started the car and eased it away from the curb. I got us to the highway and once we were past the tolls on the Skyway, I turned off the lights and floored it. Edward gripped the 'oh-shit' handle as he watched me handle his car with ease but it was fast for him. "Edward, I run faster than this. Trust me."
"You run faster than a hundred and forty miles an hour?" he whimpered.
"I think I was clocked at around one-ninety," I said. "What about you, Carlisle?"
"I've never been clocked," he chuckled. "But, I'm slower than that. Edward, would you like a sleeping pill? You're very tense."
"My vampire girlfriend is driving my car at a hundred and forty miles an hour. She can run faster than that. Um, a sleeping pill really won't help, Carlisle," he said.
"Hmmm," I mumbled. "When I stop for gas, Carlisle, you take over. I'm going in the back with Edward. He needs to be distracted."
"Good idea," Carlisle said.
About fifteen minutes later, Edward's stammering heart was too much for me and I got off at the next exit. Carlisle filled up the gas tank while I gently prodded Edward into the backseat. I sat him behind Carlisle and I took his face in my hands. Listen to my voice, Edward. I won't ever hurt you.
"That's so weird," he mumbled.
What? Hearing me in your mind? I asked
"Yeah. I like your voice. Your actual voice," he pouted.
Well, this can become handy when I want to tell you something and I don't want anyone else to know.
"Like what?" he asked, his green eyes darkening.
Like I think that you are the strongest, bravest man I've ever met. Try and answer me with your mind, Edward. You've done it before.
It's weird. Edward wrinkled his nose. "I'll stick with verbal communication for now."
"Suit yourself," I said. "Are you truly okay with this? With what you've learned about me?"
Edward blushed and looked at Carlisle. What about him? I mean, I want to talk to you, Bella. It's just odd to do it using my head. Not my voice.
"When we get to Michigan, we can sit down and discuss anything you want," I said as I tentatively touched his face. He flinched back. I snapped my hand back and dropped my gaze to the upholstery in his backseat. I'm sorry, Edward. I'll back off.
Edward took my hand from my lap, placed on his face and stared into my ruby red eyes. "I'm the one who's sorry, Bella. This is what you are. I know that you would never hurt me but I'm still afraid of the power that I know that's inside of your body," he murmured. He yawned and blushed, heating up my hand.
"You're tired," I said. "Why don't you try to sleep?"
"I'm fine," he said, hiding behind his hand. I arched a brow. "Okay, fine. I'm exhausted."
"Please try to sleep, Edward. It'll be some time before we reach my cabin," I said as I ran my hand through his hair. "Put your head in my lap."
His mind was weary and he nodded. He lay down, putting his cheek against my thigh. He was facing my stomach, looking up at me. It's a ton to wrap my head around but Bella, one thing hasn't changed.
What's that? I asked, looking down at him.
I still love you, he whispered mentally. My hand flew to my mouth and I bit back a sob. He sat up and wrapped me in his arms, cupping my neck as I felt myself become whole. I can't be without you, Bella. I just can't. I'm sorry for yelling. I'm sorry for everything. I love you.
"Say it. Out loud," I said as I pulled away, looking into his deep green eyes. "I need to hear your voice."
"I love you," he whispered, running his fingers over my cheeks.
"I love you, too, Edward. You are my life now. I will do anything to ensure your happiness, safety and love," I said as I threw my arms around his neck. He let out a whoosh of air as I squeezed him tightly.
"Bella…"
"What?" I asked.
"Can't…breathe…too…tight," he choked out.
"Oh, shit! I'm sorry," I said as I pulled away.
"Now I understand why you need to be in control," he chuckled, rolling his neck and cracking his bones. He flashed me signature grin and leaned forward. He pressed his lips to mine in an angelic, loving kiss. Moving away, he smiled softly. However, the exhaustion was evident in his tired eyes.
Sleep, my love, I thought to him. With a weary sigh, he fell to my lap, wrapping his arms around my waist. Within minutes, his breathing evened out and he snoring quietly against my stomach.
xx A&M xx
Eight hours later, Carlisle pulled up to my cabin in the upper peninsula of Michigan. Edward was still sleeping soundly. Carlisle parked the car and he picked up Edward easily. I could have done it but Carlisle wanted me to go to talk to Jasper who was waiting at the tree line of my property.
I darted to his side where I was enveloped in his calm and his arms. "Bellsy! It's so good to see you," he said.
"You too, Jas," I said against his shoulder. "Where's Alice and Emmett?"
"She's teaching him how to hunt in Canada. Esme and Rosalie are meeting her there and should be here by sundown," Jasper explained. "Once we got him calmed down, he felt horrible for attacking Edward and hurting you. Despite his brutal introduction to this world, he's maintained his conscience."
I nodded and turned back to the house. Edward's heart was still beating slowly and his mind was still foggy. He was dreaming of us and being with me forever.
"Come on, Bellsy. Your mate will be there when we get back. I want to talk to you about well, you," Jasper chuckled. But his smile faded. "You'll need him. The love radiating from you both is blinding and honestly, he's so in tune with you, it's scary."
"Why will I need him?"
Jasper smiled at me sadly before tugging on my arm. We took off and ran for several miles. Eventually, Jasper veered to the left. I followed him and I knew he was taking us to a small meadow near the cabin. It had a creek that ran parallel to it and it was secluded. Jasper slowed down and we walked the rest of the way until we got to a fallen tree near the creek. The sun was fighting to burst through the clouds, but it was losing that battle. It did give Jasper and me a nice iridescent glow, though.
"Bella, I want you to know that what I'm about to tell you is not your complete story. Also, I chose to not tell you since it's very difficult for me to say and for me even think that these things happen to you. You were upset enough as it was in being a vampire. I didn't want to add to your sadness and pain," Jasper said, staring off into the field.
"Just show me, Jas," I said.
"No. I need to tell you first before I show you," he said. I looked into his eyes and I saw pain and agony there. My pain. In his mind, he was reciting the book of Genesis in Latin. With a heavy sigh, I lowered my mental block and sat back. "Okay, as Carlisle told you, I'm not your sire. I just found you."
"You found me? Where?"
"In Phoenix, Arizona. I was passing through when I heard your screams. I ran toward you and found you being, um, raped by another vampire," Jasper said as he looked into my eyes. "I didn't recognize him but he was horrifically cruel to you. There was so much blood, Bella. It was like he was impaling you with a knife. You were begging for death but this monster just kept pounding inside of you.
"I growled at him and he hissed at me, picking up your wrist. He bit down and took off, leaving you in a pool of your own blood, naked and in agony. Within minutes, your change began. I debated on whether or not to finish draining you but, you begged me to save you. You called me your guardian angel," he said with a sad grin. "So, I put my shirt around your broken, fragile body and swept you into my arms. I ran all through the night until I reached Denver where I had a small cabin there. I placed you on the bed and promised that I would be back. I bought you some clothes and other necessities to clean your body. I washed you of your dried blood and dressed you in a pretty blue dress. I used my gift to calm you, to provide with reassurance that you weren't alone.
"Your change took five days as opposed to three," Jasper explained. "I think it was due in part to the massive blood loss you had endured and the location where he bit you, your wrist. When you woke up, you looked at me and attacked. Damn near took off my legs with your snapping but I managed to calm you down. Then, your thirst was overwhelming and I brought you to Denver at night. We hunted together and we stayed together until you got your bloodlust under control.
"The thing that startled me was that you didn't remember your human life," Jasper sighed. "You knew your name. But your age, where you were from, your age, all of that was unknown. In a way, I was happy for that since I didn't want you to remember that you were hurt so badly prior to your transformation.
"After you left, I began a hunt about your life. Also, to find the monster who had changed you. Hurt you. Brutalized you. I started in Phoenix. I found out that the daughter of the police chief was missing and presumed dead. Going to the local library, it turned out that it was you. Your father, Charles Swan and his wife, Renee, searched high and low for you. The night you disappeared was your birthday and you had a party on campus of the local university. Unfortunately, their search ended up with one dead end after another and they eventually ruled your disappearance a death. It took a toll on your parents. Renee started drinking and died about five years after you 'passed.' Charles died in the early eighties from a heart attack.
"Now, in regards to your creator, he disappeared. I contacted the Volturi and asked them if they had a vampire on record that matched the description I gave them."
"What did he look like, Jasper?" I asked, my voice sounding hollow.
"He was around 5'9" with long blonde hair. He had it tied back in a ponytail but some of his hair had been pulled out. Presumably by you. You fought so hard against him. Anyhow, he was probably very plain as a human as he was not very attractive as a vampire. His face was in a permanent sneer and he seemed to enjoy your pain. Relished in it. It was sickening to watch. I did some violent things in my life, but nothing, absolutely nothing, prepared for the violence he imparted on your fragile, human body."
"Can I see, Jas?" I whispered.
"No, Bella. Don't. It'll break you," he said as he took my hands.
"I'm already broken," I said as I stared into his eyes. "Perhaps showing it to me will allow you to forgive yourself. You blame what happened to me on your inaction. Don't, Jasper. You were not the one who did that to me. You saved me."
Jasper was conflicted. He knew that what I had said was true but the vision of me being raped by this evil vampire must have been horrific. Evil. Sick. Jasper pulled me into his arms. "Forgive me, Bella," he whispered and his memories drifted back to the day of my change. Apparently, my birthday.
Jasper really glossed over a lot of details of what had happened to me. This twisted monster had carved a pattern into my breasts with his hands and he was brutal with his thrusts. The blood that surrounded us was plentiful and he was licking it up as he raped me. It was when he removed his blood soaked penis from my body and he moved to my butt that I slammed my mental block down. I pushed Jasper away and took off. My sobs were filling the forest and I hated what I sw. I hated what he did to me.
I was better off not knowing.
I truly wished that Jasper had killed me.
I stopped running once I hit a small lake. I plopped down on a boulder and sobbed for my lost innocence.
"Bella?" I heard behind me. I turned and saw Edward standing ten feet behind me.
"How did you get here?" I asked.
"Jasper said that you were upset, threw me on his back and took off running. I think I'm about to hurl, but that's the least of my worries," he said as he tentatively stepped toward me. He climbed up onto the boulder and sat near me. "What's wrong, angel?"
"I'm broken," I said as I stared out over the lake. "Jasper told me about how I was changed and then he showed me. I'm broken. Not fixable, Edward. I'm not worthy of your love."
"Hey now," Edward said as he moved closer to me, brushing my hair from my face. "You are worthy of everything I want to give you, Bella. Just like you said, you are my life now. I will do everything to ensure your happiness, safety and love."
I shot him a look. He smiled crookedly until he saw the pain behind my eyes. "Bella, what did Jasper say to you?"
"He told me about how this monster had…had…r-r-raped me before he ch-ch-changed m-me," I sobbed. "I had no recollection of it when I woke up from my transformation but Jasper had known all along. He saw it happen. And it happened on my birthday."
"Fuck," Edward moaned as he pulled me closer to his body. He held me to his chest, pressing my ear above his heart. He held me, swaying me as I continued to cry for my past. Yes, it happened nearly sixty years ago, but it still happened. I had been violated in the most sadistic and evil ways. And this sick fuck got off from it.
Bella, I know that you think that you're broken, but you're not, Edward thought to me. His mental voice was obviously very upset but had he spoken verbally, he probably wouldn't have been able to say anything. You are the strongest woman I know. Literally and figuratively. And if I seen this guy, human or not, I will kick his ever loving ass for touching my mate. My wife. My life. My soul. My love. I will be here for you, Isabella Swan. I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me. Do you hear me?
I nodded and pressed my ear closer to his stuttering heart. We sat there until the sun had finally broke free of the clouds and Edward finally saw me. His gasp indicated that he saw the glittering facets of my skin. "Bella," he whispered.
"I know. I'm a freak," I sniffled.
"No," he said, taking my face into his hands. His thumbs moved across my cheeks and down to my lips. "You are the most beautiful creature I've ever seen. And I'm not talking about the sparkling skin. Though, that's pretty fucking cool."
"Edward…"I warned.
"Seriously, you are beautiful and smart and loving and despite you say about yourself, you are not a monster. You are an angel. The woman that I am holding in my arms is an angel. My angel and I will never want to leave you. I don't think I can," he said as he brushed a piece of my hair away from my lips.
"But, you'll eventually die, Edward," I said.
"Not if you turn me," he said simply, grinning crookedly.
A/N: Lots of stuff happened here. Emmett attacked. Bella's true identity is revealed in more ways that two (sorry about that. I did warn you though.) Anyhow, up next will be Bella's reaction to Edward's request, Emmett's struggle to not kill Edward and some possible citrus? Eventually, I will put in an EPOV but I'm not sure when. Maybe next chapter, or the one after that. We'll see. Anyhow, please check out my blog (link in my profile) for extra teasers, pic teasers and just ramblings about my life, Robert Pattinson and schtuff. And come hang out in my facebook group: Tufano79 Twilight Fanfic Appreciation. We're a lot of fun and a bunch of wild and crazy kids. So, yeah! Leave me love. HUGS!