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Chapter 5

Never Go Back

One Week from Last Chapter

Ahsoka POV

I have been secretly meeting with Lux for about a week, and I'm scared that Anakin will discover us. Padmé has been covering for us, but I'm worries that it won't be enough. My biggest fear is that Anakin will kill Lux, and believe me, he would.

I've calmed down a little bit about the death of my parents, and I wish I could say the same for Marina and Lilo. Marina has not been doing much lately, and Lilo has just been depressed. I would be too, if I didn't have Lux there to get me through it. I'm so lucky to have him, but I fear that he will stop loving me when he realizes that Anakin might kill him. I'm worried that he'll run off with another girl with whom he won't have to live in secrecy with. I want to ask him, but I'm afraid he will use it as motivation to do so.

I was in the hanger, sitting on the wing of my starfighter talking back and forth with Arseven. Well, I was the one doing most of the talking. He just kept beeping in affirmation, not really paying attention to anything I was actually saying.

"Arseven, are you even listening?" I asked with my arms crossed.

He beeped in affirmation, which was expected. "Arseven, are you not listening?"

He beeped in affirmation again. "Ha! I knew you weren't listening!" I shouted.

He just beeped again. I rolled my eyes and jumped off of the wing of the starfighter. I strolled out of the hanger and into the streets. Anakin has given me a little bit more freedom, so I could now leave the temple for exactly one hour each day. If I was gone any longer he said he would cut me in half, and I knew he wasn't bluffing.

I moved into an abandoned alleyway and pulled out my holo-transmitter and then called Lux. He finally picked up, "Hey, Soka." he said kindly.

"Hey, Lux," I said with a smile. "Where are you?" I asked.

"I'm close enough to see you," he said with a smirk.

He ended the call and I looked around the area I was in. There was Lux, standing at the other end of the alleyway. I smiled and ran to him. He wrapped his arms around me and I returned the embrace. When we separated he spoke, "How have you been?"

I wrapped my arms around his neck, "Anakin still doesn't know, but I'm worried he'll find out and do something terrible to you."

Lux chuckled; I wasn't quite sure how that was funny. "Ahsoka, I'll be fine. I'm worried for you."

I held his face in my hands, "Lux, please don't be worried for me. I promise you that I will be fine. I have fourteen years of Jedi training, I'm worried about you. Just promise me that if Anakin finds out you will get as far away from Coruscant as possible and never come back for me. Please find another girl that can love you back; if he finds out you have to promise me that."

Lux looked down, and when he looked back up there was a small tear in his eye, "I'm sorry Ahsoka, but I could never do that. You're the only girl for me, I don't want anyone else. If he finds out, I promise you that I will come for you."

I looked down and sighed, "Lux, please don't make this difficult. If he finds out he'll kill you, I know he will. Please promise me that you will leave me here and get off of Coruscant."

Lux picked me up so that I was at eyelevel with him, "You don't get it do you Ahsoka? I'm not going anywhere. I love you, and I'm not going to leave you here if Anakin finds out."

I sighed, "Why are you so stubborn?"

Lux moved his lips closer to mine, "Because I love you, Ahsoka Tano."

In that instant he kissed me and I relaxed in his arms. I slid my eyes shut and leaned on him as he held me tighter. I tilted my head so it felt like our lips belonged in that position. Lux slowly placed one of his hands under my montrals and grasped my neck. I wrapped my arms eagerly around his neck and deepened the already passionate kiss. I know that we've kissed before, but this felt different somehow. I didn't want to separate from Lux, but he slowly pulled back and gently gripped my jaw. I closed my eyes, not wanting to meet his gaze for some reason. I sighed dramatically, "Whenever you kiss me, I always feel safe."

I opened my eyes and Lux smiled warmly at me, "That's why I kiss you; I want you to feel safe in my arms."

I snuggled against his chest, "I always feel safe with you."

"I love you, Ahsoka," he said softly.

"I love you, too, Lux," I said back.

We pulled back and looked at each other. I coiled my arms around his neck and kissed him again, but he pulled away almost instantly. I frowned, "Lux is there something wrong?"

"No, there's nothing wrong," Lux said smiling at me.

"Then why aren't you kissing me?" I asked a bit hurt.

"I am kissing you," he said back.

I frowned and kissed him again, but he did the same thing. "You did it again," I said.

Lux sighed, "Ahsoka, I've been meaning to tell you something."

I didn't like the way he said that, "What is it, Lux?"

He looked around, "Let's do it somewhere else, this isn't exactly private."

"Okay," I said, still a bit cautious.

Lux took my hand in his and I walked behind him. "Oh, and Ahsoka," Lux said turning around.

I looked up as he leaned down and kissed me. When he pulled away he smirked, "Sorry about pulling away earlier. I was worried."

I tightened my grip on his hand, "About what?"

He smirked again, "I'll tell you when we get to Padmé's."

So that's where we're going, I thought. Lux led me to her building and we got into the turbo lift together.

I blushed and looked away when I realized we were still holding hands. "What is it, Soka?" Lux asked.

I looked up at him and stroked my lekku, "It's nothing."

He kissed my cheek and I could tell he wasn't convinced. When the turbo lift door opened I went to Padmé's door and knocked.

She answered with a smile, "Hello, Ahsoka. Hello, Lux. Please come in."

Lux grabbed my hand again and pulled me inside. "I'll leave you two alone," she smirked before disappearing down the hall.

Lux took both of my hands in his and turned to me. "Ahsoka, I've been thinking lately."

He paused. "About?" I asked.

He pulled me closer and placed his hands on my hips. "Us, whatever kind of relationship we have."

"Where are you going with this, Lux?" I asked, getting a bit worried.

"Ahsoka, I've decided I don't like you," Lux said turning away.

I was immediately crushed at that moment. Lux had told me he would always love me, and he had just broken that promise. My hands flew to my face and I couldn't stop my tears from falling. I turned and almost ran out the door, but Lux grabbed my hand.

I turned around with hot tears in my eyes. "You didn't let me finish, Soka," he said with a worried look.

I looked away from him, "What? Are you gonna tell me I'm hideous, stupid and worthless? Because if you are I don't want to hear it, now let go!"

I tried to pull away but he tightened his grip and pulled me to him. I fell against him and placed my hands on his chest as his arms wrapped around my waist. "Lux, stop it!" I practically screamed. He had just broken my heart and now he was making me stay with him. Anakin was right, I never should have formed an attachment.

"Ahsoka, you will listen to me. You're beautiful, smart, and the most amazing girl ever. I don't like you; I love you more than anything in the entire galaxy. More than I love my parents, more than I love my home world, more than I ever loved anything else. You are my world, and I've never been happier. After Carlac, a day didn't go by where I didn't think of you. Your beautiful smile, your kindness, your selflessness, and your gorgeous eyes could never stay out of my mind. I fell in love with you not long after I arrived on Coruscant, and I wanted to come see you. But something was holding me back, I was afraid you would be too mad at me to even talk to me or give me another chance. I love you, Ahsoka Tano. Never forget it." Lux wiped away my tears that had stopped flowing.

I was still crying, partially because I was upset with Lux for playing that cruel trick on me, but I had never felt so loved in my life. "Lux—"

Lux stopped me by giving me a very soft and passionate kiss. I know we've kissed before, but never like this. I felt wanted, like I belonged with Lux forever. My hands moved up to his neck as his wrapped tighter around my small waist. The only thing I could feel was Lux's lips against my own, and it felt truly amazing.

When we finally pulled away from each other (hesitantly I might add), I hugged him as tight as I could. "I love you, too, Lux. More than anything, I love you so much!"

Lux smiled at me and kissed me again. I was so lost in it that I didn't even hear the door open. I felt a strong hand grab my shoulder and pull me away from Lux. It was Anakin.

"Ahsoka Tano! How dare you disobey my direct orders! I forbade you to ever see that boy again!" Anakin screamed at me.

That's when Lux stepped forward. "Don't yell at her! She's done nothing wrong! You're such a hypocrite! You're allowed to be married but we aren't allowed to be in love?!"

I was shocked and touched that Lux had stood up for me, but Anakin had a different reaction. I saw him reach for his lightsaber, and for a brief moment I swear I saw him blue eyes turn yellow. "Lux, run," I screamed.

Lux stood firm, "Ahsoka, I'm not leaving you again."

I was crying now. "Lux, please, he'll kill you!" as soon as the words escaped my lips Anakin ignited his lightsaber.

That's when I saw true fear in Lux's eyes. "Ahsoka—" Lux was cut off.

Anakin turned off his lightsaber, but he still looked just as threatening. "Ani, what are you doing?" Padmé's voice rang out.

Anakin turned away from me but still kept a firm grip on my shoulder, it was actually starting to hurt. "I will deal with you later, Padmé. Ahsoka, you come with me," he said, still terrifying.

I was crying again. "Lux!" I called out for him.

Anakin yanked me towards the door with my face tearstained. I reached out for Lux, but Anakin dragged me out of Padmé's penthouse and out of the building. He dragged me all the way back to the temple and to my quarters.

He roughly threw me on the floor in my quarters. "You will stay here until further notice," he growled.

I picked myself up off of the floor and Anakin closed the door. I tried to open it but I couldn't, I was locked in.

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