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All that I am

All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Chasing Cars –Snow Patrol-

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"I need to talk to you" Caroline said in a firm voice as a she stepped into the apartment

"Yes, you can come in" Damon said in a sarcastic way and turned to look at her "What do you want Caroline?" He said with annoyance in his voice

"I need to talk to you about Elena" The mention of her name immediately caught Damon's attention so he motioned for her to sit on the couch of the living room

"And what do you want to talk about exactly?" He said sitting in front of her

"About what happened between you two" Her eyes looked at him fiercely "A long time ago"

Damon gave her a hard look, what right did this woman have to question him about his life? He had nothing against the blonde but the things that happened between them were not of her business

"Why don't we talk about your feelings for my brother?" He gave a smirk the minute he saw her reaction "I think it's a more entertaining subject"

"Wha-what are you talking about?" She stuttered out

Damon let out a small laugh, was she really trying to fool him? One of Damon's specialties was to read people and Caroline was an easy person in that field, the woman was head over heels for his baby brother and Stefan was just too stupid to notice

"Oh don't play dumb with me blondie you know what I'm talking about" She gave him an incredulous look and Damon couldn't help but laugh at her "You are soin love with my brother, correct me if I'm wrong"

"It's not like that" Caroline whispered looking down

"Then how is it Caroline? Because from where I'm sitting I can see we're not too different from each other" He gave her a sympathetic look "Since when?"

"Since forever" She whispered "Damon please you can't tell anyone" Her voice was filled with panic and he couldn't help but feel compassion for her

"Caroline why are you doing this? Why are you being the perfect friend for him, helping him buy tuxes and planning the wedding when all of this is eating you up inside" His blue eyes bored into hers

"For the same reason you stay close to Elena" He could see her eyes glistening with tears "Because being away from him only hurts more"

Never in his whole life had Damon expected to have something in common with the woman in front of him and quite frankly he always thought of Caroline as a shallow and empty woman but she was showing him a totally new side to him, she wasn't the woman he thought she was and didn't deserve the pain she was experiencing

"At least Elena knows how I feel" He said resting back in the couch "The burden is lighter but I won't deny that still hurts the same"

"Why are you two not together?" She changed the subject and of course Damon noticed this but suddenly he felt to urge to talk someone about what he was feeling and in this moment he found himself in sync with Caroline

"I honestly don't know" He answered simply "It wasn't supposed to be this way" His blue eyes were clouded with memories

"Do you love her?"

"You know I do" He said looking deeply at her "It's strange, I never believed in love until I met her and when I got it, I just let it slip out of my hands" He let out a chuckle "It's like life is taking everything I want, it had always been that way"

Caroline never thought that this vulnerable side of Damon Salvatore existed, in this moment he didn't look like the confident person he always was but this made him nicer to her eyes.

"Why did you guys break up? I don't get it?"

"She just walked away." Damon said with bitterness in his voice "I made mistakes, I'm not perfect and I was scared, I was so scared" His face showed a type of sadness that Caroline couldn't explain "And she just walked away from me" He covered his face with his hands trying to compose himself "She just fucking walked away on me"

"I know Elena and trust me I know she loves you" Damon's eyes showed distrust and Caroline couldn't help but smile, 'did he still doubt her love?' "She wouldn't just walk away from you without no reason…there's got to be some reason"

"Well then I don't know what it was"

"But you're here now; you want get her back after everything, why?" Caroline asked with defiance in her voice, she just needed to hear him say it so she was sure that helping them get back together was the right choice

"Because I can't live without her" He stated passionately "And I know you get it Caroline, because you know what is like to love someone so much it hurts, to feel complete when you're with them, to be one and feel nothing when you're apart, to feel like your heart is coming out of your chest with every kiss, every smile, every word she gives you" His voice was charged with emotion and his eyes were fiery "Because every day that I spent without her were hell for me and I refuse to keep living like that, I need her and she needs me, I want to live for her, I want to make her happy, I want to love her" His eyes pierced hers and Caroline felt shivers down her spine and all she saw in those blue orbs "Because I don't care what happened in the past I just care what's going to happen from now on, and I will get her back"

"Do it, do it Damon and don't waste any more time" Caroline told him sincerely, she wanted nothing more than see her best friend happy "I truly believe you two are meant to be and it's not because I want to break her and Stefan up because I know I have no chance, but because I know that you can make her happy" The sincerity in her eyes was evident and Damon felt a twinge of care for this girl started to rise in his heart

"And what about you Caroline? Aren't you going to tell Stefan how you feel?"He asked with true concern in his voice

"No, that would only mess things up, he can't know about it" A tear feel down her cheek

"You'll never now until you try Caroline"

"There's nothing to try Damon, he loves Elena" Damon could see how tired she was, how tired of struggling against her feelings

"Caroline you can't let life pass you by you have to do something and I'm not saying this because I want Elena for myself I'm saying it because I know what is like and no one deserves that kind of pain" The blonde girl knew he was telling the truth but she couldn't let that happen, she didn't wanted to mess her friendship with him

"But I can lose him, don't you realize?" She said to him with despair in her voice

"And what then? You're just going to live your whole life in the shadow? Worshiping something you can never have?" He said hardly at her "I'm not trying to be mean but I want you to realized that if you keep like this it's only going to be worse"

"I can't" Her voice barely a whisper

"You need to tell him and if he doesn't feel the same then you can move on" He spoke more kindly this time "You deserve to be happy"

"Everything would be so much easier if we had the chance to pick out our the ones we love right?" She said with sarcasm and rolled her eyes at him

"Yes, it would be. But I would still choose her" He said with conviction on his voice

August 10, 2002

"Elena are you sure about this?" Damon asked with trembling voice as the girl below him only nodded softly, he couldn't understand why we was feeling like this, he was more nervous than when he lost his own virginity

After the argument Elena had had with her parents Damon and she hadn't been able to see each other as before, John and Isobel had been next to Elena all the time preventing her for having an encounter with the elder Salvatore brother. But tonight was different, they had gone to a charity ball in the town and Damon said he was going to a party, so no one knew they were together.

They were in the cabin across the lake, when Damon showed this to her she couldn't believe how huge this propriety was, and it was just a vacation house.

"I'm completely sure Damon, I want you to be my first" She whispered against his lips and kissed him hard again

He just couldn't resist her, what this woman did to him was something completely new, he never felt so out of control, he was completely at her mercy, hell he would even jump off a bridge right now if she would ask him to.

Her brown warm eyes looked at him and in that moment he knew he was lost, the girl had him wrapped around her finger and there was nothing that he could do. So he lowered his head once again and took her lips in a searing kiss, his hands caressing the skin of her thighs beneath her dress.

Elena moaned in his mouth when she felt his erection pressing against her most intimate places and tangled her hands in his hair, enjoying the feel of her soft locks in her hands.

"You have no idea what you do to me" He whispered against her neck as he felt her lock her legs around his waist

"Damon" She cooed while his right hand started rubbing her nipple trough the material of her dress

Her breath hitched the minute his mouth descended and the straps of her dress were lowered so he could have better access to her skin, his tongue lapped seductively around her nipple and Elena thanked god that they were far away from the main house because she just couldn't hold the sounds coming out her mouth.

After giving loving treatment to both of her breast Damon lifted himself and finished removing his shirt tossing it behind him, Elena ran her eyes all over his naked torso and instinctively licked her lips, she just couldn't' wait to feel his skin against hers.

Damon stepped off of the bed and removed his pants and his underwear and Elena's eyes almost popped out of her head at the sight of him, how was he going to fit inside her? He was huge. He saw the concern in her eyes and leaned down to her once again

"Everything's going to be fine" He said against her ear "I'm going to take care of you"

Elena felt his cock against her leg and her center ached for the contact but apparently Damon wasn't thinking of giving her that pleasure yet as he started kissing her neck once again

"I love how you smell, did I ever tell you that?" He whispered wetly against her ear

"No" Elena said with trembling words

"It's something so you, so unique. I love it" He looked at her and Elena was able to see the passion and the desire burning in them, never in her life had she seen something more beautiful

His expert hands started hitching her dress up until he was able to remove it completely from her body and throwing it behind him, the purple fabric joining his discarded pants. Elena felt herself blush from the way he was looking at her; his eyes were so hungry…

"You're the most beautiful thing I've ever seen" He said sweetly and she smiled shyly at him.

He lowered his head and kissed her belly softly earning a giggle from her, he smiled against her skin and continued going down hocking his thumps in the lace of her panties and slowly sliding out of her. Once the fabric hit the floor he started kissing her legs lovingly and Elena thought she was in heaven because nothing could feel better than that.

He kissed the inside of her thighs and inhaled deeply smelling the proof of her desire, his cook throbbing awfully immediately.

"I want to taste you so bad" He said in a desperate tone "But I can't hold on anymore"

Elena couldn't respond, she couldn't for the life of her even remember her own name. The only thing consuming her brain was the raw need of have Damon inside of her

He took the condom that was resting in his night stand and gingerly rolled down his member as Elena watched enchanted the entire time

"Are you ready?" He asked positioning himself between her legs and pressing their foreheads together

"Yes" Was the only thing that could come out of her mouth

"If you want me to stop all you need to do is say it"

He gave her a long kiss and started pushing slowly, her pussy was dripping wet and the eyes rolled in his head at the feel. She let out a small whimper and Damon stopped immediately

"You ok?" He asked raggedly, her beautiful eyes looked at him and she nodded with her head.

He felt her hymen break and kissed away the tear that left out her eye, he stood still for a few seconds letting her adjust to the size of him before he started moving

Her mouth found his again and their tongues started a seductive dance while her legs clasped behind his back urging him in, he lost control when her nails started scraping down his back

"Oh god Damon" The moans coming out of her mouth turned him on like nothing else and he started going faster, needing to reach the release that was waiting for him

Elena clenched her inner muscles squeezing his cock and Damon let out a low growl at this, his movements started being frantic and the only sound in the whole place was the flesh meeting flesh.

"You're perfect, so perfect" He murmured against her lips

Her hips rubbing hard against each other, their bodies damp with perspiration and their breathing ragged, nothing about that moment could have been more perfect for him, this was the memory he would hold in his mind forever

"All mine" He said while his thumb found her clitoris and started massaging it in slow circles

"Oh god, oh god Damon, Damon" Elena chanted his name like a prayer as she felt her orgasm getting closer

"Come for me angel, please come for me" He said breathlessly before kissing her and that did it for her, she clamped her legs even harder around his body as she arched against him when the first waves of her orgasm reached her

"Damon!" She cried out as she felt him grow harder inside her and knew he was experiencing oblivion as well

She clung to him as the waves of her climax started to subside and he started plating kisses all over her face

"You have no idea how perfect that was" He whispered sweetly against her ear

"I think I have a pretty good idea" She said with a smile still trying to catch her breath, his blue eyes looked at her with amazement

Damon rolled out of her and removed the condom throwing it in the garbage can next to the bed

"I don't want for this to ever stop" She said with fear on her voice

"It won't" He answered softly at her "Trust me"

She gave him a small smile and let herself be dragged to the center of his arms where he started petting her hair

"Go to sleep" He said lovingly

"But what if they come, I have to go to my own room" Her voice was a nervous and Damon smiled at that

"I'll wake you up when it's time, now go to sleep. Let me feel you in my arms, just for tonight"

She felt her heart melt at this words and closed her eyes slowly, the tiredness from their early activity already taking her in and as she drifted to sleep she felt his hands caressing her arms and she was able to hear him singing to her.

'You are my sunshine, my only sunshine.

You make me happy when skies are gray.

You'll never know dear how much I love you.

Please don't take my sunshine away'

Elena's cheeks were tainted with tears and the sobs keep racking her tiny form as she walked through the long hallway that led to her apartment.

When she saw Damon's form sitting in the floor, his back resting against the door she wiped her eyes immediately and pulled out the key of her purse.

"Lena are you ok?" Damon asked with worry in his voice

"Yes, Damon please I don't want to talk" She said looking down as Damon got up from the floor

"No, we need to talk" He stated seriously

"Damon please" She pleaded him while tears started to fall again "I need to be alone"

"Elena I'm not leaving you alone" He answered stubbornly "Not like this"

Elena opened the door of the apartment and stepped in throwing her purse into the floor and broke in a mess of cries. Almost immediately Damon's arms were surrounding her while she cried freely against his shirt

"Are you going to tell me what's wrong?" He asked sweetly while caressing her hair softly

"No" Elena shook her head violently

"Elena, how can I help you if you don't tell me?" Damon tried to reason with her

"You can't help me, no one can help me" She answered doggedly

"Angel, please"

"I don't want to talk about it Damon" He couldn't understand what was wrong with her, he had never seen her like this and all he wanted to do was help but she was making that impossible for him.

"Please, you can tell me anything" He whispered soothingly

"I'm late, and I'm never late" She whispered against his chest "I made an appointment with the doctor to find out if I was pregnant" Damon's jaw clenched immediately at her words, the idea that she could be bearing his brother's child was simply excruciating to him

"But I'm not" She said between sobs and Damon felt bad because he was relieved that she wasn't pregnant "Doctor said it was just stress"

"I'm sorry" Was his only answer

"Damon" She lifted her head and looked at him with broken eyes "I can't have kids"

In that moment Damon immediately regretted his earlier thoughts, the look on Elena's eyes was totally heart breaking and he knew how much she wanted to be a mom someday, how could something like that could be taken from her. She buried her head in his chest once again and held to him for dear life.

"Doctor said a developed a condition in the last few years…" Her voice muffled against his chest "And that even if I get pregnant my body won't hold the baby for too long"

"Elena you have no idea how sorry I am" He said softly while rubbing circles on her back soothingly "I wish there was something I can do" He said desperately

Damon just couldn't take seeing her so broken. He wanted to fix this for her but it was something way beyond his reach. He didn't know what to do to make her feel better.

"Nothing can be done Damon" She answered simply "And this is all my fault"

"Hey, hey" He took her chin and lifted her head so he could see her in the eyes "This is not your fault Elena, this is no one's fault"

"Yes it is Damon, god is punishing me" Tears racked down her cheeks as she spoke "When I thought I was pregnant I wished with every fiber of my being that it wasn't the case" Her eyes were lost in despair and Damon just couldn't handle it "I didn't wanted to have a baby, not right know, not his baby" Blue eyes looked at her with compassion

"Elena that doesn't mean that-"

"And I shouldn't have thought like that" She cut him with her own words "Because he's the man I'm marrying, he should have been the father of my children, but I didn't want that" Her eyes were read from all the crying as she looked at him "Because of you, because of how I love you and now-"Her voice broke down and Damon touched her cheek lightly

"Now I'm never going to be a mom"

"Angel that's not true" He said softly at her "You could adopt a baby"

"But Stefan wants a kid of his own and I can give that to him" She said with an edge on her voice "And I wanted to want that too, to give a child to him, but now…I'm never going to be able too"

"Well then he just has to learn how to love another kid as his own" He said with such passion on his voice that startled Elena "And if he can't then he's just not the one for you"

Her sore eyes looked at him with amazement and he was surprised to see her so small, she was always taut and fiery and now she just looked scared and sad and that was something he wasn't used to see. He wiped her eyes softly before speaking again

"Everything's going to be all right Elena, I promise you" He kissed her forehead lightly and started walking towards the living room

"Where are you going?" Elena asked with despair in her voice

"I'm going to call blondie" He said before lifting the phone from the coffee table "I don't want you to be alone tonight and figure you would like to be with her"

"No…"Her voice was barebelly audible but it was charged with anguish and worry so stopped Damon right on his tracks

She didn't wanted to be alone that was for sure but Caroline's company was not what she needed, the only thing that could make feel better right now was to have that beautiful man with blue eyes with her. He could always find the way of making her feel better, no matter what.

"Don't leave please Damon, I need you" Her brown eyes pleaded at him and Damon wasn't strong enough to resist them "Would you stay with me please?"

"If you jump I jump angel" He said getting closer to her "I'll do anything you want" He said before giving her a soft kiss on the lips with left Elena feeling butterflies in her stomach

"Can we just watch a movie and forget about everything?"

"Sure" He gave her a small smile and lifted her in his arms carrying her towards her bedroom where he placed her gently in the bed before going through her stack of movies where he picked up "My best friend's wedding" and put it on the DVD.

He lay down next to her on the bed and she moved to lay on his chest, feeling the difference, feeling how good her body fitted with his. In that moment she wanted that the time stopped so she could stay in this moment forever and just lay here with him.