Some people laugh, some people cry
Some people live, some people die
Some people run, right into the fire
Some people hide their every desire

The heart never lies –Mcfly-

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People always say that you haven't lived life to the fullest if you have no regrets or if you didn't make mistakes; they say that mistakes are the best way to learn and to grow. Right now Elena Gilbert couldn't agree more, even though at the same time she knew that was bullshit. She would give anything to turn back in time and change what she did so long ago. The mistake she had made did nothing to help her right now.

"How could you keep something like this from me?" Damon asked in a numb mode, still sitting on the bed with her hands on top of his knees.

"I was stupid, selfish and God, I was so damn angry at you." Elena said with tears in her eyes.

"Angry for something I didn't do!" he snapped and she was able to see the rage in his blue eyes. "You had no right Elena!" he stood up, violently knocking her to the ground.

"Damon wait!" she said the minute he started getting dressed.

"Wait? Are you kidding me Elena? I can't even look at you right now." The words were coming out of his mouth at full speed and even when he tried he just couldn't keep all of them inside him. "I never thought you were capable of something like that! Your mom drove us apart but you - you were keeping my child away from me!"

Elena looked down unable to face his stare one more time. After the amazing day they had shared he was looking at her as if he didn't recognize her anymore and that was breaking her heart.

"I was a kid and I was scared! What was I supposed to do?"

"You should have to come to me! Instead of making stupid assumptions you should have told me!" he punched his hand against the closet door. "You know that I would have loved that baby like nothing else..." he walked towards her with only his jeans on. "You denied me that opportunity."

"It's not my fault that she died." Her voice was a bare whisper and she looked so fragile and small that he wanted nothing else other than to hug her and make all of her pain go away, but he couldn't at the moment, he just couldn't find the strength to do it.

"Of course it's not your fault." His voice was soft and soothing as he tried his best to calm her, involuntarily. "But you should have told me. You've been lying to me for the last nine years!"

"I know Damon and I'm so sorry but I just couldn't deal with this. It was just too much..." she wrapped her arms around her middle, hugging herself to stay complete.

"Did Stefan know?" Damon asked with a hint of jealousy in his voice. He couldn't even contemplate the idea that his brother knew about his child, that she could be capable of telling him first.

"What? Of course not!" Her brown eyes pleaded for understanding with his but the only thing she found was coldness.

"God, I cannot believe this." he covered his face with his hands and a soft sob escaped his lips. "Do you have any idea how I feel right now?" His glossy blue eyes looked at her deeply.

"I'm so sorry."

"I feel like someone just ripped into my heart, Elena. This - I never saw it coming." he tried to control his temper but there was so much going on inside him. "How could you do this to me?" he said more to himself than to her and laid his head against the cold hard wall.

Elena stood still on the ground, just watching how everything was falling apart around her. She felt like something was pressing down on her chest and stopping her from breathing. Telling Damon the truth was like reliving everything again. She was never going to forget the moment when her mother told her that her baby was dead.

At first she didn't believe it, she could feel it in her heart that their baby was alive and waiting for her somewhere, she even had dreams about it but as the time went by she had to accept it: there was a grave, a certificate... there was no doubt that her baby was dead.

"Let me ask you something." she lifted her eyes and found him staring at her. "If the baby wasn't- if you -if you hadn't been in the accident," he took a deep breath before continuing. "were you going to tell me or were planning on keeping her from me, forever?" His voice broke down at the middle of the sentence.

"No, Damon. I wanted to tell you, I was going to wait until-" The sobs were taking control of her body and he wanted to comfort her, he did but he just couldn't. It was like an invisible force was keeping him glued to the ground. "After everything went down I just didn't see the point in telling you, it was all over."

"You didn't see the point?" Damon asked with disbelief. "Didn't you think I had to grieve for this too, that was not just your baby Elena! It was mine too!"

"I know Damon, it was the stupidest thing I have ever done. But I was so confused." she pleaded with him even though she knew it was useless, she had never seen him so mad, Damon was losing control.

"I can't do this Elena," he turned around and took the first shirt he saw in his closet. "I just can't." he needed to calm down, to absorb all of this and to make peace with his feelings and he just couldn't do it with her right now, he would say things that he was going to regret, he was going to hurt her more and that was the last thing he wanted. So the best choice was to have a moment of solitude.

"Damon please don't go, don't do this!" Elena pleaded with him once again.

"I just can't be here right now."

"Where are you going?" she asked between sobs.

"I'm going to mourn for the child I didn't know I'd lost." he answered coldly.

She watched him abandon the room and minutes later heard the front door close. She'd ruined everything once again, she couldn't understand how he could love her; she kept hurting him over and over again. It was like her love was toxic to him and couldn't do anything but harm.

"Please don't give up on me."

She wanted him, she wanted him back so badly. She curled up on the floor and let all of her sadness and despair out, just waiting for him to come back.

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Some people fight, some people fall
Others pretend they don't care at all
If you wanna fight I'll stand right beside you
The day that you fall I'll be right behind you
To pick up the pieces

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He had started walking not knowing where to go. His head was a big mess and frankly he had no idea of what to do, no-one had ever prepared him for something like this. It was in these moments where he missed his mom the most.

Damon rested his head against the cold wooden table, in the end he had ended up at his office, a place where he felt safe. He was in control there, he created beautiful things, knew exactly what he was doing. He felt secure there.

"Dear God." he whispered softly, but his voice echoed in between the walls of the empty room.

He felt rage, and immense rage towards her. How could she hide this from him? For so long. Didn't she think that he had the right to know something that important? He felt angry at everything and everybody. That damn woman Isobel, how was she able to send her away? She took her and disappeared, lying to him, leaving him completely alone and thinking that she wanted nothing to do with him. Rebekah and Mason, they were also a big part of destroying his relationship with Elena, he was sure that the next time he saw them he wasn't going to able to control himself, they ruined his life.

Damon let out a loud roar before covering his face with his hands and sobbing softly. Elena was the most stubborn woman he knew and he always loved that about her, except now, when her actions caused him a lot of trouble. Why didn't she come to him, tell him about the baby and about what she saw? They could have saved a lot of pain and tears if she didn't just jump to conclusions.

A child. He was going to be a father but they took that away from him too. Sometimes he wondered if destiny did those things just to hurt him. The idea that Elena carried a child of his inside of her made him happy but then the outcome of everything just shattered his world into pieces. How was it possible that you could feel so much for someone that you didn't even meet? Someone you only just found out about now?

Because at the moment he was feeling his chest constrict at cause of the pain, the pain that he felt for losing that little human being, a part of himself that he was never going to able to take back.

The sobs took complete hold of his body and he just let himself feel it, the pain and the hurt, everything that was hidden deep in his heart. He only cried this hard once in his lifetime and that was when he found out she was gone.

Elena, she was just a kid. Going through all of that alone would have been awful. Damon could almost imagine her face when they told her that the baby was gone, could hear her sobs and see her tears. She had needed him then but he wasn't around and he knew that wasn't only her fault.

This was his fault too, he shouldn't have given up. He knew that she loved him, deep inside his heart he knew. Then why didn't he try harder? Why didn't he try to find her? He was too scared of rejection, he didn't feel worthy of her - in his head it seemed perfectly reasonable that she didn't think he was enough. But right now that just seemed stupid, he should have fought for her.

He cleaned his eyes and steadied his heart-rate. A family, he could still have a family with her and Julian. Damon wasn't going to make the same mistake twice, this time nothing was coming between them, she needed him now just like she needed him so many years ago and this time he would fight for her against all odds. He opened up his laptop and started roaming through web sites, he needed some time to cool off, but there was no doubt about what he had to do.

Caroline sprayed some Nina Ricci on her and brushed her curls once again before adjusting her white top. Bonnie had asked her to go to the movies and she just couldn't refuse her friend, besides she could use the distraction, thinking about Stefan was bad for her and Elena was wrapped up in her own Damon Salvatore coconut, so Bonnie and her had to entertain themselves.

A soft knock on the door interrupted her so she just applied some cherry gloss and headed to the door thinking that it was Bonnie who had decided to pick her up early, but the moment she opened the door she saw Stefan Salvatore standing there.

"Hi." he whispered softly, looking down.

"What are you doing here Stefan?" she said in a harsh tone.

"I wanted to talk to you."

"Well hurry, I have plans." Her tone was exasperated and surprised him, this was not the Caroline he was used to.

"I'm sorry."

"You already said that and I told you, I don't care." Caroline knew that she was being harsh but at the moment there was no other way she could be with him, she was still really hurt by everything that had happened.

"Caroline please, I need you. You're my best friend." he pleaded with her and made a move to hold her hand. She didn't allow it and walked a step back to put some distance between them.

"No, Stefan. I can't be your best friend. I'm in love with you and I tried, I tried trust me but I just can't help feeling this way." she took a deep breath and tried to compose herself, not wanting to spill one single tear in his presence. "But if you think that my love ruined our friendship, that's not true, you ruined it."

"Caroline I can't - I don't even know what to say." Stefan looked ashamed, he couldn't believe that he had brought so much pain in her life. He never meant to hurt her but things just turned out this way and he couldn't bring things back to the way they were, it was just too late.

"There is no more to say." Her voice was a soft whisper. "Do you know how I felt Stefan? Watching you with Elena every day, knowing that you cared about her in a way that you could never care about me? But I didn't blame you, I didn't because you can't control how you feel and it wasn't your fault that I was in love with you." she could see how her words were sinking in, the emotion in his eyes was something that she couldn't put a name on. "But then we had sex, you made me think that you wanted me in another way and I loved it, I thought that there was a small chance that you had those kind of feelings towards me." Despite her best effort she couldn't stop the small tears that started to fall from her eyes.

"I never meant to hurt you."

"It doesn't really matter now Stefan," she took a deep breath and spoke again. "I felt so ashamed for doing that to Elena but I did it because I love you. Now it just doesn't matter."

"Don't say her name." Stefan said with a clenched jaw. "You have nothing to be ashamed about, she was probably screwing my brother for the last months."

"You see!" Caroline let out a sardonic laugh. "Even now you can't get her out your mind." Stefan didn't know how much this fact hurt the blond girl, Caroline was excellent at hiding her emotions. "And of course I get to feel ashamed, she's my best friend! And she didn't do anything to me. And trust me, she did not screw Damon. She's better than that."

"Yeah right, who can believe that? And how can you ask me to get her out my mind after what she and Damon did to me?" he spat furiously. "They're going to pay for it."

"What the hell are you talking about?" Caroline said with a serious expression on her face. "Let them be happy Stefan, they're in love."

"But that didn't give them the right to hurt me." His tone was sober and sent a shiver down the blond girl's spine.

"You did not just say that to me." Her blue eyes were fixed fiercely on his face. "I know that what they did wasn't right but hey, you screwed her best friend right before the wedding, so don't come here and play Saint Stefan with me!" he couldn't believe the words that were coming out of Caroline's mouth, she had never talked to him that way.

"That is different!"

"Yes, it is. They're actually in love. What they have is big and special."

"Stop it!" Stefan closed his eyes and Caroline could see him shaking with rage.

"Listen to me Stefan Salvatore, you're going to back off and leave Elena and Damon alone, they're in love - you know that. Deep down inside you always knew that." Caroline walked closer to him and Stefan enjoyed the closeness she was giving him. "You have to let this go, don't carry all of this on your back."

"Caroline, please-" he walked one step closer and put both of his hands on each side of her head. "I need you." he rested his forehead against hers and Caroline could feel her control slipping, he was breaking all of the barriers around her heart.

"Stefan, I can't-" Her voice was a strained whisper and she could feel him running his hand through her blonde locks.

"Shh..." he whispered against her mouth before kissing her lips softly. He longed for this feeling, the warmth she could give him, the comfort. Nothing had ever felt more right than being with her and Caroline hated herself for surrendering to him once again. How could this man have so much power over her? Women in love always lost their judgment, but she wasn't going to be one of them.

"Stop it, I won't do this." she said breathlessly. "I won't be your replacement."

"Caroline, I don't want you to be my-" she put a finger against his lips to shush him.

"I won't be with you just because you can't have her." Her eyes were shining with unshed tears. "I'm sorry." And with that she closed the door on him, leaving him stunned and standing on her doorstep.

On the other side Caroline let herself fall against the door, the cold oak feeling comforting against her back. She wondered how her life got like this, the only thing that she had wanted was to keep Stefan's friendship and now she had lost him, she'd lost him forever.

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Another year over, and we're still together
It's not always easy, but I'm here forever
We are the lovers
I know you believe me
When you look into my eyes
'cause the heart never lies

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Elena was resting on the bed with her back against the headboard and her knees against her chest. She had been in this exact position since he left, it seemed like ages ago. She had considered going home but there wasn't any of her clothes there except for her wedding dress, so there was no way for her to get out. And besides, she wanted to be there for when he returned, this couldn't be the end. It just couldn't.

"Hi." she heard a deep voice and lifted her head to see him standing in the doorway, she didn't hear the front door but she was glad that he was back.

"Hi." Elena answered back softly.

"I'm so sorry." he said, walking towards her. "So sorry baby." he left some sheets of paper on the night stand and climbed into the bed with her.

"No Damon, it was my fault." she said with tears falling from her eyes once again.

"It was no one's fault baby." he wrapped his arms around her and let her sob into his chest. "It wasn't your fault." he whispered soothing words against her hair while she let out all of her pain and sorrow.

"I should have told you." Elena said between sobs and fisted her hand into his shirt, needing to be closer to him. Damon pressed her tightly against him while tears started to fall from his own eyes.

This was what she needed, through the last years this was the thing that she'd been yearning for, the closure, for him to know her pain and to grieve it with her, she just couldn't do it alone anymore.

"It's gonna be okay Lena, it's all gonna be okay." he whispered between sobs and rubbed her back in a soothing manner.

"You don't hate me?" she lifted her eyes and found his glossy eyes staring at her.

"How could I hate you, my love?" His voice cracked at the last word and she buried her head in his chest once again, letting all of her pain out.

"I'm so sorry." she kept whispering against his chest while her tears soaked his shirt.

"It's the past now." he said and gave her a kiss on the top of her head. "We can have a family now." he gave her a watery smile. "We have Julian."

Nothing that had happened in the past mattered now, they were together finally, after everything and he just wasn't going to let everything get ruined again. He could understand her, a scared little girl who didn't know what to do, he didn't blame her, he could never do that.

"Yes, we can." she gave him a smile and kissed his lips softly.

It seemed like hours that they stayed like that, wrapped up in each other's bodies, crying, smiling and getting comfort with the closeness. Elena was glad that she had finally come clean with him, it was as if a big burden was suddenly lifted off of her shoulders. She felt free for the first time in a while.

"Look what I got." he said, detangling himself from her and moving to retrieve the papers he'd left on the night stand.

"What is this?" she answered once Damon gave her the papers.

"Well, I couldn't find ten but I downloaded 7 pages of the meaning of twin flames." A smirk appeared on his lips and Elena couldn't help but laugh out loud.

"I cannot believe you did this." she couldn't hide her smile and her joy at this, sometimes Damon Salvatore could really surprise you.

"Well I wanted to know what the hell you were talking about, so-" he said nonchalantly like it wasn't nothing important, he did that all the time - he underestimated himself.

"I love you." she said before kissing him again, a little bit harder this time.

"Love you too princess." He laid down on the bed and took her in his arms. "So how about we read this now." he took hold of the papers and started reading out loud while she rested her head against his chest.

"With your soulmates you get together and everything is perfect, with a Twin flame there's always chaos' Okay, after what happened at that wedding I believe this is true, we should totally read this to baby bro."

"Oh don't be mean." Elena rolled her eyes at him and smacked his cheek playfully.

"Bla bla bla..." he skimmed through various lines until he reached the ones that he wanted. "It doesn't matter if there is a huge age difference between them or if one or the other of them is already married or in a committed relationship. They WILL find each other." he raised his eyebrow and looked at Elena. "Okay that is so true. I swear this thing is just getting creepy."

"Keep reading." Elena said with a smile while stroking his arm that was currently around her waist.

"Okay, let's see 'they are difficult to live with, your literal other half embodies everything you are and usually reflects EVERYTHING you do not like about yourself." he let out a snort. "Pff, that is so not true, living with you is so easy, except of course when you're being a total bitch."

"Hey!" Elena shoved his chest playfully.

"You know what? I think it's time to call it a night. This thing makes me want to sleep." he threw the papers onto the floor while Elena looked at him with an offended look.

"You are so mean." she stuck her tongue out at him and escaped his embrace.

"Oh but you wouldn't want me any other way." he took hold of her once again and kissed her passionately. Her hands tangled in his hair while his kisses grew urgently. "Okay, I think these twin flames need to reconnect." he said before opening up her robe and feasting on her body once again.

This was definitely heaven.

Please please tell me what you think? :D Thansk a lot to everyone reading this, I really can't thank you guys enough for it.

Also I was wondering what you think about Caroline and Stefan? When I first started with this I had all about their relationship figure it out but now Stefan's character isn't what I had planned in the beginning, so I'm not sure what to do with it anymore, do you think they should be together?

Love,

Sam