A/N , heeeyyy , heey. to the people who reviewed thank you so much, just letting you guys know, this is one of my all time favoritest chapters and it was cool to go back and read it. It somehow makes me wish I had friends like Seth. Positive, and sweet.
He didn't want to hurt. . . . Not again.
That weekend, I woke up as early as I could. There was things on my mind that I couldn't even image, couldn't get off my mind. I get dressed and grab an apple. I wasn't hungry, I never really was. I was adapted to not eating, real healthy meals because back home mom didn't cook a thing. I know I was old enough to cook for myself but I never took the time to do so. I had adapted myself to eating junk food, and I actually enjoyed it very much. That was my thing.
I stepped outside and looked out at the sky. And when I did I got a memory of the first time I stepped foot in this house. I didn't know anyone; I didn't have anywhere to go. Mostly I was hopeless. Still lost in my own imaginary world, now it wasn't just my world. It was others as well. I felt so much better now knowing that I was wanted here, and that they trusted me.
First I went over to visit Seth; he was at home as usual on this Saturday morning. I knocked on the door for a few minutes.
"What's up, Cassie?" Seth asked, letting me in.
"Nothing, just didn't feel like lying in the bed all day," I said entering the house. "Emily left early this morning to go to Kim's."
"Oh yeah, you shouldn't expect her back for the rest of the day. When the girls get together they usually talk forever." He turned off the TV and we both sat down on the sofa, "Jake told me what happened the other day. . . ."
My hand moved up to my hair, to pull my fingers through my hair, "With Alice?"
"Yeah."
I bit into my lip, "Were you ever going to tell us about you?" Seth questioned.
"I don't think I would have." I was honest.
He raised an eyebrow, and kind of snorted. I still didn't know what was so funny. He stood up and walked toward the kitchen. I watched him as he tried to find something to eat.
"I mean, you guys would've told me, right?"
He stopped, "True." Seth grabbed a few pieces of bread, and started slapping some mayo on the bread.
I turned over on the couch to look at Seth, he moved as if he was starving, and something about the Quileute boys, and food entertained me. I slumped into the couch.
"Plus it's not all that easy to just tell someone that you can to weird things."
Seth came back into the living room, throwing himself against the couch. He handed me a sandwich.
"I don't think they should be classified as weird."
I take a bite of the sandwich, which as I expected was packed with Mayo, "Yeah, because it's impossible for you to think bad things about anybody."
He smirks and his dimples come out, "Well sometimes I think Sam can be an ass." I was actually surprised that he'd use the word, I grin.
"He always tells you guys what to do, and it's weird that you guys do it."
Seth wipes his mouth on the back of his hands, "He's our alpha, it's pretty impossible to say no to him." He finishes out the sandwich, and gets back up to rampage the refrigerator again.
"Now you on the other hand, have the good side of being different." I can't see his face to see his expression, and I can't tell how he's feeling because I can't see him. "I mean you don't have to listen to anyone, you can make people do stuff; which by the way, I think is pretty kickass. AND, you're super hot."
"That's not a gift, Seth." I blush, he ducks his head out of the fridge, looks at me, smirks, and then his head goes back in the fridge. I can hear him moving something around back there.
I look back forward at the couch, I'd never thought of it that way. I mean, I'd nearly always saw my gifts as a bad thing.
"Try feeling everything that everyone else feels." I sink into the couch, "Try seeing someone crying, and then all of a sudden you're sobbing for absolutely nothing."
He comes back with a bag of chips, a cheese stick, and a piece of bread with Jam, on it a drink. It was barely eleven o'clock.
"I'd love to know what my girl was feeling all the time."
I frown, "Lucky for you."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"I don't have anyone whose feeling I'd want to feel all the time."
He gave me a smile, "Give it some time. No girl in La Push goes without getting imprinted on."
I laugh, "We should do something today?" I said, switching to an easier conversation.
"I gotta take my girl out."
"Your girl? Mmm, how's she doing anyway?"
"Other than being sexy, she's been pretty good." He grinned
"I see, I see," I said, laughing.
I was halfway finished with my sandwich, when Seth started on his chips. I tried not to watch him closely eat the chips bit by bit, but somehow I kept watching him devour it.
"You're welcome to come along though."
I covered my mouth, swallowing the food down, "No, I'm good I see enough of Em and Sam making out."
He snorted, "That never get's old."
"No, it's ancient." I was being sarcastic but, I could see it made him laugh…
"So, you're not in?"
"Nope, I-out." I stood up.
He stared up at me with a weird expression, "No way, you're not leaving right now. I made you a sandwich, the least you can do is stay."
I frowned, and then sat down. "Well it wasn't the best sandwich I've tasted but I'll give you your credit."
He flicked the TV on, and I kicked my feet up on the couch. He turned it on some show on MTV called: Jersey Shore.
I admired reality shows, so did Seth, which somehow freaked me out since he was a guy. He watched more chick flicks and reality shows than Emily and I.
"Why are we watching this again?"
His eyes caught mine, "I'll change it if you want." Seth grabbed the remote.
"No, I just asked a question. I wasn't telling you to do anything."
"This is Jamie's favorite show that's it."
I smiled, "Your so sweet, Seth."
His face light up, "I try really hard."
I liked the way he acted when we talked about him and Jamie. Like honestly, if we started talking about her, we could talk about her for hours and it seemed like we'd never stop. I didn't mind, I liked how open Seth was about him and Jamie. I left his house less than an hour later, already planned out with what I was going to do for the day.
Today I wanted to learn more about Forks, and the people there. I wanted to meet a vampire in person. I wanted to meet a vampire that wasn't Alice, and didn't want to meet one and be obligated to do something I didn't want to. Since I didn't have a car, and Forks was a few miles away I decided to teleport, get used to using more of my gifts.
It was always a tricky thing for me, sometime I could choose where I wanted to go and sometimes, it took me where it wanted to go.
I'd hoped to teleport to Forks to find something I wasn't sure was going to be found. But when I did appear it was in front of a shopping mall called, "Port Angeles Shopping center" I went inside and looked around, honestly I had lots of money. And since I'd only given Emily about 70 dollars since I've been here, I hadn't even spent a bit of my money. I go into the nearest store and browse but I know that I'm not really here to shop, there's a reason my gives teleported me here. Vampire.
Browsing turns into shopping and I pick up a few cute bra's from Victoria's Secret. Three pairs of ankle length wedge boots, one cute pair with fur, and finally I find a dress that I'm sure I'll never get to wear here in La Push, it was thigh length in the front and went down to my ankles in the back. After looking around in a few shops I'd forgotten completely what I had teleported here for. So after I left out of another dress store I headed back toward the bathrooms so I could teleport out of here.
In all a sudden, I felt severe boredom, and even though people were walking passed me, I hadn't looked at anyone for longer than a second.
I stopped and looked around, I remember when I felt Alice's presence before I'd even laid eyes on her. That's how I knew, this was why I had orbided here instead of some place in Forks.
I turned around, and inside of a dress shop I saw Reneesme, I don't know how I had passed by her the whole time, and didn't notice her shopping there. She was standing there with a woman who was as pale as she was. Reneesme had looked like she was at least sixteen now. My eyes switched to the women she was with who looked like she was in her twenties. She looked as if she was Reneesme's sister because they were identical. Reneesme recognized me as soon as I recognized her. She started smiling and walked towards me, the girl behind stared at me curiously.
Reneesme was dressed casual. She wore a dress and black flats; her hair was pinned up in a ponytail. Though this was my second time seeing her I was still blown away by her sight. I realized that her eyes weren't brown anymore they wore topaz just like Alice's.
When she spotted me, she instantly stopped fake looking around and swiftly walked my way. "How's Jacob?" was the first thing she said when she walked over she put her hand out to shake mine. I shook it and then replied.
"I haven't seen Jake-well I saw him last week some chick came trying to-." The girl who was with Reneesme came over and touched her shoulder.
"Sweetie is there anything else you want. This store is boring?" She asked her voice as soft as Reneesme's.
Reneesme turned around and grabbed the girl's hand, they started to stare at each other and then a glare came to me. The women's face changed. Whatever Reneesme had done it had made the woman's feelings change.
"Is Jacob okay?" She asked her face was a little more serious now. "He won't answer my phone calls and I can't go over there. I really miss him, and I'm worried like hell. He's my best friend, and I totally did some things to make him hate me."
This was Bella. Bella Cullen was worried about Jacob.
I really didn't know much about her other than the things Sam had told me, though when Sam talked to me, he'd brought Jake's feeling out to the open and I understood just exactly how she mad Jake feel. Terrible about himself, and Bella's words, 'everything he'd touch.'
"Jake's been really depressed lately. I talked to him last night, but he really didn't have anything to say. He wanted to tell me but he said he couldn't. He had promise someone he wouldn't tell."
Bella's eyes looked around. I could feel the sadness coming off her and Reneesme's body. They loved Jake (I could feel that too).
They were taking it so seriously that Bella's eyes were watering. She felt sorry, she felt like it was her to blame.
"Some chick named Bella really did get to him. She broke his heart and now he never wants to be with anyone ever again. He said that she ruined him, and she didn't have feelings." I looked into the ceiling. "He said she's empty hearted. I think any girl that would hurt Jacob is horrible. Jake is the sweetest person I've ever met. I'm trying to figure out why she would hurt him?" This lie was actually true in a way. I knew Jake had never told me thing like that. It felt good to put Bella in shame; I could feel the pity coming off her body. She hated the fact that he was depressed because of her.
I didn't blame Reneesme, I knew none of this was her fault. I knew she loved Jake as much as Bella did and she had no intention on hurting him. Bella on the other hand had shown no compassion to him. I didn't hate her though, she seemed very sincere.
"See mom I told you not to be so freaking hard on him. You acted like this was his fault, and now he's never gonna see us again!" Reneesme pounded a very upset vibe on me. She grabbed my arm and pulled me away from the store, away from Bella.
"Tell Jacob that I said I don't blame him for hating mom, but please makes sure he finds someone who's good for him." She looked into my eyes. "You have to understand that he doesn't deserve anything that happened to him, and that my mom didn't mean anything she said to him. She was just upset."
As Reneesme's hand was connected to my arm I felt something strange I felt like I could see the things going on in her head. It was the first time that had ever happened to me, but it was strange because now Reneesme had realized that she could see what was in my mind. She pulled away quickly. Her eyes were big now and she felt something new. I could see the things in her mind; she kept replaying the things in mine. She was trying to figure out how she could see what was in my mind. We were both standing there trying to figure out what had happened.
While looking into her head I found out that she had a gift that made other people see things she had saw in the past. I guess I had a gift that I had not yet found out. If someone had a gift I was able to use them if they touched me. Wait. . Vampires had gifts, at least she did.
"You have gifts." Reneesme whispered.
"So do you," I replied. I was terrified that she might tell one of the Cullen's about my gifts, and then I'd never been able to find out what I was.
"My parent's could help you with that," Reneesme answer one of my thoughts.
"I'm not supposed to tell you guys anything, I'm not even supposed to be here. and is Alice finds out that will be even worse . . ." Oh My God how could this happen.
Reneesme looked back toward the store to see if her mother was any where near she was about to tell me something.
"Alice is my aunt, I swear she's sweeter than Jake. She would have never come past the treaty line if it wasn't serious.
I knew from the start you were different. The moment I started chasing you I knew you had gifts. I haven't told anyone about it, and I never will. Alice can see the future she wanted to see your future she wanted to touch you. She sees you in all of her premonitions something about you is messing with ever vision she sees." Reneesme looked back again.
"Something like what?"
Reneesme's eyes came back to me. "Every time she's about to see something serious something about you always pops up; none of us understands it. Even though I know about you I don't know what you mean to her, but its important."
I put my hands in my face, I didn't understand it. I could see myself trying to do anything wrong to the Cullen's, or to anyone.
"I don't see me doing anything to harm you and your family and I don't know Alice at all I've never seen her my life."
Reneesme seemed to understand what I was saying. I wasn't sure how to look into someone's mind but I was trying and I was seeing just bits of stuff. I was seeing how fast she was growing, and how fast had learned things.
While looking in her head I found out that her vampire family had gifts. Jasper was able to change what other felt, his gift was like mine. Though I wasn't able to change feelings, I could feel them.
Her father, Edward, was able to read minds. He could read many minds at the same time. One of his downsides was that he couldn't read Bella's.
Bella could block out anyone's gift. She was able to avoid anyone using there gifts on her.
Carlisle her grandfather was able to handle himself in front of humans. There blood didn't bother him as much as it did with the other vampires. He could fumble with there blood and it would be like he was drinking water, he didn't really want it.
The vampire coven was very unique. why I hadn't Sam told me this?
"If you want to learn about my family you have to let me tell you. Looking into my mind won't tell you what you want to know," Reneesme said still looking into my past. She was able to look into my past while talking.
"I can't be with you for too long, if Alice comes here I'll have to leave."
Suddenly Reneesme looked up. Her eye's flared. "Speak of the devil."
"I have to go then," I hurried. I closed my eyes. Just before I started to teleport I felt an ice cold hand latch onto mine. We landed in front of Jake's house. It was the only place I thought they would allow her without trying to demolish her.
It was had concentrating with her extra weight. This was why I didn't eat; I didn't want it to be hard for me to teleport.
Now Reneesme and I were standing in front of Jacob's house. Reneesme stood the normal like it didn't matter to her that she was in La Push were almost everybody wanted her killed.
"You can't be here. I have to take you back its not safe here."
Reneesme's topaz eyes looked back at me as if she really didn't care.
"They will kill you!"
Just that second Jacob came running out from his little red house. Once he saw me he stopped. He had a serious, dull look on his face. I looked into him feeling what he felt. It felt good like the feeling where something is so bright, so beautiful. It was everything you ever wanted in your life, it was your destiny. The feeling was full of love and care. It was a feeling that had only filled me once. A long time ago when at my best friend's wedding. She was getting married to the main she loved since childhood. It was an inseparable feeling.
Jacob bit into his bottom lip. He had imprinted on me, and he didn't like it one bit.
"Oh please?" This was the first thing that came out his mouth. Reneesme stood there shocked and unable to understand his anger. He didn't want to be imprinted on me. I wasn't even sure he liked me. Putting that aside he didn't want to hurt. . . Not again.
"How could I imprint on superwomen? Wasn't the bloodsucker enough?" Jacob was looking up into the sky. I didn't really know what to say. I was so afraid of what was about to happen. I felt so bad about the whole thing.
"I'm sorry," I cried a tear falling down my eye. It was just that fast that I had gotten upset. Jacob was still standing there staring at the sky with disappointment and anger.
Reneesme touched my shoulder with her cold hand. I turned to look at her and she brushed the tear from my face. I wanted to hug her tightly, because we both had been an influence to Jacob's pain. I couldn't move though because now I had my own pain.
Jacob looked at me for a second; his eyes were cold now. He walked over to me and gripped me in his morph arms pulled me next to him. He was boiling compared to Reneesme. I didn't pull away I just stood there next to him. It was what I wanted to be, but I wasn't sure he wanted me to be there forever.
"It's not your fault," Jacob sighed in my ear. His muscular arms wrapped around me. I felt safe there; I wondered if he knew. Jacob's words were completely wrong. It was indeed all my fault. I should have never come here and corrupted his life. He knew it was fault.
I could feel Reneesme's eyes on the both of us. She knew we had imprinted, but she didn't fully understand why I was crying or why Jacob was so mad.
"You shouldn't blame her Jacob. She shouldn't blame herself. Remember it was meant to be. She's your destiny don't desert her like I deserted you. You would have imprinted with her anyway. So deal with it and don't sob over great things." Reneesme cried.
Jacob pulled away from me and looked into my eyes. He was so beautiful, so perfect.
He walked over to Reneesme and hugged her as well. She smiled.
"I've missed you so much, Nessie." He tugged.
"I also have missed you, Jacob. I hope things that Bella said didn't make you mad at me."
Jacob let go off her. "No, that had nothing to do with you. Bella and I aren't meant to be and I need to learn to back that up."
Reneesme touched Jacob shoulder. He closed his eyes calmly.
"I can't stay mad at Bella for to long. I know she didn't mean those things; she was just angry," Jacob emphasized.
"I can't understand why she can't get along with you. You are always there for us."
Jacob glanced over at me. Then he opened the gate to his yard to let us in. He had a serious grin on his face.
"Would you like to hear the story of the Jacob and Bella Chronicles?"
A/N , aaayee, ay. A. I'm having drill team (dance tryouts) next week so, if I don't update a whole loot, you know why. But I've been editing so much on Jacob's choice that I forgot my other story. 'IthoughtSo' But anyway, you guys should review, cus they make me happy (and motivated to update faster), and another thing to review about is telling me what you think about ff with lemons, just curious. Cus Jacob's choice may or may not have some coming.
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