A/N Hey guys I'm back, I know I promise to have it up by Monday, but I really tried with then, if you need to go back and read that last chapter, it has been a long time! Btw, there is a new picture of My version of Cassie on my page if you guys want to check that out! R&R

Reneesme put her head down in shame. To prevent herself from looking at Jacob and crying. Meanwhile I was in the corner sobbing, sometimes I could only feel people's feelings when I was looking directly at them, into them. But other times like this one, it didn't even take a glare to feel the hurt Jacob did. Not only was his story sad, but when you're able to feel the way someone feels it extremely emphasizes the story. I felt like I was Jacob, like I'd begged Bella to stay with me; pleaded with her but in the end lost her, even after giving her my all.

I could tell that Jacob was trying very hard not to shed a tear, he had to make himself look tough in front of me and Nessie, but once he'd gotten to the part of his story where he attended Bella's wedding, a saw a tear fall. And even though her wiped as soon as it did, I could feel it. And since Jacob had lost one tear I'd lost several. That was my downside to my gifts. And to be honest, I hated it. I hated that someone could manipulate such a good person the way Bella had manipulated Jake. Maybe if I hadn't had my gifts and Jacob just out and told me his story, I wouldn't feel so angry, upset, hurt as if Bella had done all these things to me. I could feel so strongly what Jake was feeling. I couldn't fight these feelings even when I tried my hardest not to look a Jacob, look into Jacob, his whole atmosphere.

"I loved her more than my life. More than once I proved that to her, but Bella no matter what I did she didn't want it." He's hoarse voice cracked, "She wanted someone who didn't even have a life to offer, he's already dead. And I don't blame her, the reason she didn't choose me is because I keep pushing her to it."

"I kept trying to make Bella love me, when I should have been giving her reason to love me," He sighs, "Even if I'd given her my all. I still question would that be enough?"

It was hard for me to sit there and act like this wasn't the saddest thing I'd ever heard. So many questions run through my mind, like How could Bella not see how much her actions impacted Jacob? How could she be so ungrateful of how much Jacob jeopardized his life, and his pack for her? My tears flow, and even though I am usually very calm about things like this it's impossible to hide it in.

Ever since I'd surrounded myself around other supernatural beings, my gifts almost felt stronger. Especially my gift of looking into someone, and I'd even found that it was even more strong when I was around vampires, was that a coincidence?

Jacob was the sweetest guy I'd ever met, and he held his pain in pretty well because I would have never know if he hadn't told me. The terrible thing about it was, I felt that if I could look into Bella and simply see if she was aware of the way she'd belittle and humiliated him that she wouldn't even care. My sadness almost instantly turned into anger, I could literally feel myself shaking. How could she be so oblivious to the way she was hurting him. It seemed so obvious to me, and I wasn't even there to witness it. Leaning on Jacob when she needed it, but then pushing it down when she no longer needed him just showed me how manipulative she was.

When Jacob ended his story saying that he was so glad that his feelings for her had been spared, and he no longer longed for that relationship with all I could feel was that he felt the complete opposite.

"How could you let her do that to you? If she was willing to choose Edward over you then that was her problem. You should've dropped it then! You can't let her hurt you anymore, Jake. If you really love her than you have to end it all now. She's happy, She has everything needs. Now you have to get that, no matter what happens in the past or how you think she feels my mother doesn't want to you hurt now because she loves you. Like a best friend, a brother, a therapist. Everything. Mom talks about you 24/7 now, wondering, hoping that you'll forgive her." Nessie was crying now, and I knew that she was being sincere.

I could feel the anger coming from her body. She wanted to be so mad at Jacob for letting Bella hurt him. But deep inside I believe that she knew that her mother so careless of Jake's feelings. And for that She wanted to be so angry with her mother, because it was finally settling in that Jacob had been there for her through almost everything and Bella hadn't been there even for him a little . Jacob was willing to give his life away. Hell, he nearly did, but that didn't seem matter to her. Since she had her Edward, Jacob was nothing, just the second best.

"This is my first time actually telling anyone. I didn't know how stupid I was. How much of a jerk I was to her. I can understand why she doesn't want me." This was what made me angry, also. He still wanted her, and he couldn't admit it. He thought it was his fault that Bella didn't want him.

I didn't say a word. I could feel what Jake was feeling. What he was hiding. I begin to tap my foot against the floor, getting even more agitated. It distracted me from the agony. He felt like he wasn't worth anything, and if Bella didn't think he mattered then he didn't. I put my hand on my chest; it felt like I was getting stabbed in the heart over and over. I knew at that exact moment that that was how Jacob felt.

I didn't want anything more that to heal Jacob's broken heart. I wanted Jacob to feel some closure within the whole situation. See maybe he believe that imprinting on Nessie would help heal his heart, but what I think is that it would only break it even more. It was as if he still owed something to Bella, because he'd imprinted on her daughter. That Jacob would always have to rely on Bella. I definitely didn't want him to feel that way. I wanted to make her feel exactly what Jacob was feeling at this exact moment. Jacob deserved that much.

Bella wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for Jacob. She took advantage of Jake when Edward left her. I was sure she knew that he was falling in love with her, because she wanted to feel whole; she ignored it.

I remained silent.

"Thank you for sharing you're story," I don't move my eyes to met his. "But I think it would be better if I just left. And Jake, I'm really sorry about the imprint thing. . . very sorry."

It takes me only a second to teleport to my room. Where I've never been so happy to be.

In such a little time how could so many things go wrong, and not only that What the hell had happened today?

I wake up to go to the mall, and shop and what do I find? Vampires. Not only that but I touch Nessie and some weird thing happens between us where she can see into my mind. How great, now she can go and yap to Alice about the gifts I'd had. And for some reason, Nessie's on my side. She's not pumping Alice to come find me, and do whatever she's been trying to do to me.

And the Cullen's well, vampires have gifts sort of like mine.

And last, Jacob Black had imprinted on me. . . how? I had no clue. I mean no one had even told me he wasn't imprinted on Reneesme anymore.

My brain explodes, so what, you can undo imprinting.

Maybe Jacob could un-imprint me. I knew that I'd be absolutely no good for him. . . I fall into the bed.

I should have left. . . I should have gone along time ago. After I'd found out that there was werewolves and vampires existed I felt like it was my duty to be here with them. But I knew there's no hope for me and him. First, there was no way in hell Jacob liked me. Ever. I couldn't even imagine it.

I lay there in bed with my eyes closed, but at first I don't fall asleep. I'm completely awake, thinking about the fact that somehow everything that was happening was my fault.

All was my fault, except what had happened between Bella and Jacob. Never in my life had I experienced such a powerful reading into someone's feelings. I felt like I was inside Jake as he told his story. And right about now, that I was near Jake, instead of sadness I felt anger.

She really hurt him, she broke his heart, and no matter what it seemed like it could never be fixed.

And sad to say, I felt like I was somehow stuck with his broken heart. . . Not because I didn't want it, because Jacob was of course the best guy a girl could ask for. . . sexy, tall, sweet, handsome. I smile. Somehow I found humor in all this. I shake it off realizing that I'd possibility never get to see that I'd reacted after hearing this story, I absolutely doubted that he'd ever open up to me again. To be completely honest I didn't want him to any longer. His story had impacted me so much, that it made me feel like I didn't like Bella.

Now, me disliking her wouldn't go much past that. Well unless I decide that I maybe wanted her to feel the way Jacob had, I was seriously considering it.

I could reverse my gift by making her feel what Jacob did, and let Jacob feel what she felt. Then they would both understand how the other felt.

For some reason now, I wanted Jake all for myself. I was better than Bella.

I let out a deep breath, I had to admit I was pretty glad Jacob's sexy ass was all mine.

I drift away, no longer able to fight it.

We were both there. Standing in the middle of the forest. The atmosphere was snowy, foggy, like there was something I had been missing.

Jake pulls me in, and I flinch just for a second realizing that it's him that's holding me. His body is warm against mine which was nude. Shivering, shaking.

"I'm here now." He whispers his cool breath against my ear. I shiver at the feel. "You don't have to be afraid." The thing is I am. Terrified even. I don't believe him, it can't be, I have to be afraid.

He pulls me even closer, and kisses my hair, then my nose, my jaw, my neck line. I don't desire to kiss his lips simply because his kisses are warming me up. . . in every way. He reacts to my shiver by pulling me, much, much closer.

"Cass." He whispers in my ear, kisses it, and then looks me in the eye, my stomach drops. "What I feel for you."

I take in air as he mumbles now into my neck. "Is more then I've ever felt for. He kisses, "Anyone."

He then leans up and grabs my face between his big hands. "I think I love you." These are my words. "I need you to know that before it's to la-."

His facial expression changes, and he gives me a sincere smile. "Cass I-."

"Jake." These are not my words. I jump, leaning into Jacob even closer. I'm really shaking now. So afraid . . . I turn to face her, she's so beautiful. So pale, even when the air is this cool her fact remains a smooth color. "Don't do it. Don't give in, Jake," she blinks tears down. "Remember what we talked about? It'll just be us, I swear. Just us." Her words are stumbling over. And I then know. If Jake tells me he loves me, it will all be over.

"I can't live without you."

And I'm cold again. Because Jake's arms have let go of me.

I can't even function enough to argue, my words come out as a cry. I fall to my knees. "No!NO! JAKE PLEASE DON'T GO WITH HER!" My words slur so bad that I bet he doesn't even understand me. .

Another fast nudge woke me up. It was Emily grinning.

"Well he's outside, I'm not sure he's planning on leaving any time soon." It was a blur at first. Emily shrugged my again and I leaned up.

"I'm awake."

She laughed. "Oh those dreams. Trust me, they only get worse." She pulls a piece of hair out of my face. "Believe me, I had them up until I first kissed Sam. Every dreams different but always kind of the same." I stare at her to continue. "You two never kiss?"

I nod, falling back into the bed, "He leaves you for Bella?"

She pats my leg, "Every time. It was always Leah he'd chose."

"Did you say Jacob's outside? Why?" I'm not entirely enthusiastic about seeing him right now.

"The pack came to visit you. Well it's actually supposed to be a get together." She gets up, "But I'll tell you a little secret. It's not. They boys just wanted to come over and check out Jacob's new imprint."

"Oh yeah, he imprinted on me," I wasn't exactly happy about the whole situation. I mean, I hadn't seen Jacob since the first day I'd come here, and now we were bound to be together. Well, we couldn't be that bound since he;d imprinted on Reneesme first.

"And when were you expecting to tell me this?" Emily asked, pulling the covers up for me, she was so sisterly.

"When I woke up and realized that it was all a dream." I grin at her, "Oh Emily, I had a dream that Jacob imprinted on me."

We both new Jacob imprinting on me was completely real.

But I still hadn't recovered from the real dream I'd had. Third best.

"I thought you'd be happy. You talked about him all the time."

I got out of the bed and locked my door.

"I do like him it's just he doesn't want to be imprinted with anyone. He wants Bella even now. After, hearing what happened, I don't even want to take a chance with hurting him."

I grabbed a shirt and pair of shorts. I looked back at Emily, waiting for her to give me some of her wonderful werewolf wisdom. She was hardly paying attention she had already started making my bed for me.

"Why don't you just start off as friends? I mean really friends. Let's be honest, you too hardly know each other. You met and talked for what a one day? It doesn't happen that fast, at least not for the imprintee," She already done, "You know I wish I'd told you more about the whole imprint thing. But all the boys were imprinted, and you're not exactly Quiliette. I just didn't expect it to happen."

She turns around, "What the hell? You're Quiliette."

I don't even have time to even think this over. Actually I didn't want to think about. I had already knew I had a few family secrets, but this one. I wasn't exactly prepared for.

Emily rubbed her scars and stared at me waiting for my response.

"You're right. We don't really know each other."

I lean over and kiss her cheek. "Now I really need to shower and tame this." I say, pointing to my hair.

"You're welcome." She muttered making her way out the door. She was all I could ever ask for in a friend.

I showered, brushed my teeth, and did my hair. My usual routine. It always took me a while to do my hair, since it was naturally curly and I had to try to get the curls to not look crazy.

When I walked out of my room I was completely awake. The house was polish clean, and from the kitchen I could hear the boys outside laughing. I take a peak out the window and freeze up. All this for me? I get the strength to go outside, and there is about a dozen. I glare, but only for a second at the girls bundled up. Whatever they were whispering about they didn't want the boys to hear. Even though we both knew that they would be able to.

Jacob was the first to notice me, he was grinning his pretty little face away. He approached me walking all sexy like, I try not to smile. His eyes are on my like a lioness and a gazelle. I can't help but realize that his eyes aren't the only ones one me, they all were staring at me, my cheeks began to burn. I turned my attention back at Jacob, who wore a black shirt and a pair of Levi pants. I do grin. I pretend that we were the only two people there. It wasn't easy, so much curiosity beaming off them all.

"So this is the notorious pack?" I asked, enthusiastically.

Jake laughed, "Notorious? Not so much." He glares around, "Just the guys."

I bit into my lip and lean closer to him "They're staring at us." I informed him, I was sure he had already knew; but it was bothering me.

"What can I say? They love me, I'm a Dimedezal."

I let a corny laugh. I had to admit, he was pretty funny.

"You guys are huge, is that a dog thing?"

He gives me this "did she really say that look", and begans to laugh when he realizes that I'm only joking.

"Very Cute."

Jacob and I stand there laughing at each other, which gradually came to us laughing with each other. I'd wondered if he was always this easy going?

Once Jacob stopped laughing he looked around taking a deep breathe.

"Ready to meet the pack. Keep count there's sixteen werewolves in this little backyard. They're all here to see you."

"Really? This is a celebration?"

"They want me to tell you it's just a get together," He answer, "But it's really more like "Thank God he isn't imprinted with the vampire anymore." He smirks, "Plus Embry's been dying to see you."

I elbow him, giving him a look. Embry is the last thing on my mind.

The first three boys looked like they were younger than Seth. They were not as muscular as the older boys and they didn't look like they were supposed to be out hunting vampires. Their names were, Collin, Brady and Ethan. They were all a bit older than Seth; younger than Jake

"Damn Jake. I should've seen her first. I know I would've imprinted on her because I'm in love now.

I blush, "Thank you." At the teenager, he's pretty handsome, still young and very happy and full of laughter.

"Say that again."

"Thank you?"

"That's so hot!" Ethan says, Jake shoves him.

I send him that, "What's am I missing" look. "You're accent." He whispers. I look down, as long as I've been here I never thought they'd notice my slight accent. No one had ever address it, not even Leah(Who usually always has a comment on everything)

I bit into my lip, blushing.

"It's not a bad thing." Collin finally says. "Jake actually thinks it's pretty sexy." Jacob punches him again. The younger boys began to laugh among themselves.

"I didn't think anyone even noticed."

"Look, lets just keep going."

Keith was next, he was very muscular but didn't look like he was comfortable being here. . I don't say anything to Jacob, I just introduce myself and continue on to the rest of the guys.

"You know Sam, Seth, Leah, Paul, Jared, Quill, Joseph, and Embry." Jacob pointed to the group of wolves who were crowded around the food. Leah was over with the group of girls.

"I can remember all their names." I assured.

Jacob just smiles a little and waits for me to say something else. I didn't really know what to say.

"Well I'm going to go act like I know how to cook ribs. My sister is making faces at me, I'm guessing that means she wants you to come over and greet her. Just go over there and introduce yourself; she has a big mouth I'm sure she can do the rest." Jacob whispered, showing me to the girls.

I glanced over to them. They were staring at me. Jacob gave me a pat on the back and then walks away.

I walked over toward the girls who stared at me curiously, glad that there is a empty seat beside Emily.

I put a fake smile on my face. "I'm Cassie." I sat down next to Emily who rubbed my back, smiling as well.

"It's nice to meet you, Cassie. You're really pretty." She looked over her shoulder, "Nessie was pretty too."

The girls shook their heads agreeing. "I'm Rachel, Jacob's older sister; Paul imprint." The dark haired girl says across from me. Rachel didn't look like Jacob; she was lighter than he was. Her eyes and hair was a different color. She was very pretty.

"I feel like I should lecture you," She stopped watching her words, "But because I know Jacob will probably end up going back to Bella, I couldn't imagine that you'd be able to do him any damage."

"Rachel!" Emily says.

"What? There's no reason for me to talk to her as if she not wasting her time." She sucks her teeth, "She is! No matter what happens imprint or not my brother will always be a vampire lover and there's no way around it."

"Vamp Lover." The girls laughs.

"Well, I'm Kimberly; Jared imprinted me. Ignore the girls, especially Rachel."

Jamie was imprinted with Seth. Emily was imprinted with Sam. Claire who was Emily's little niece who looked like she was younger than ten was imprinted with Quill. Elsa was imprinted with Joseph.

"Okay, let me admit. I am pretty happy my brother imprinted on you. You're really pretty, you have nice skin, and you have a really nice ass." I only smile.

"I'd recommend yoga."

"Please. Between Paul in the morning, and Paul at night working out is the last thing you'll find me doing."

"Tell me about it." Kim sits back, glaring at him talking with the boys.

I don't say anything. There is no words.

"Did Jake tell you about Nessie wanting to move in?" Emily ask me, but she's saying it out to all the girls.

I shake my head, "That's a horrible idea!" I whisper on the louder side. The girls looked at me, nodding in agreement.

"Right?. I like her a lot, but she a vamp now. There's no way in hell I want her or any of them across that line into La Push. First it will be her, then her mom, then-?" These words are from Jamie.

"Who Edward?" She grins, "He can come home to Mama. He's a sexy thing." She laughs to herself, I laugh to.

"You're really fucking sick, Rachel." Leah finally comes in. "Edward is anything but sexy."

"I know, I was kidding, Lee Lee." She sits back up, "Paul is the only one that can handle me."

"Can I ask a question?" I said, catching the girls' attention quickly.

"Sure."

"What's it like being imprinted?" I asked, with a short grin on my face. The girls face started to light up and, something about what I had just said made the smile. They looked back at their imprints for a second. Took a deep breathe, and thought of an answer to tell me.

"It's wonderful, everything a girl could wish for." Jaime said glancing at Seth.

"They guys are wonderful, they always know what to say; what to do. They listen and they care, their are honest and sweet." Kim began. "They make you smile, and laugh. They make you feel so good about yourselves, about life."

"It's like he always knows what you want before you ask for it. Paul always brings me home a gift," Rachel giggled.

"Rachel." Emily says once again.

"I'm not going to hold my tongue Emily." She looks at me, "It's not like the girl has never heard about sex before."

"Don't worry I have."

"See, She does!" I watch as Rachel gets up and scoots closer to me. "See I like you! Now where was I? Oh, yeah Paul knows me like a book, he always finishes my sentences-."

"But it's the worse when he is gone; hunting. It's worrying. I think about losing him all the time. I know personally how strong a vampire is, not to insult the pack, but what if something happened. And Sam got hurt. I couldn't live my life without him." Emily explained.

"Worry is the only thing you can do. They don't want us to help in any kind of way. Being alone is the worst part, because when I'm bored I start to think of Joseph."

Another deep breathe came from Rachel's mouth. Would this happen to me? It was so sweet the way the girls felt about their imprints. It was special.

"You're going to be worried all the time when you fall in love with Jake. And with Jake safety has never been something he cared about. Being safe is the last thing on his mind. He thinks he's stronger than the other guys. He hangs out with those. . . Nothing about that boy is going to let you sleep at night without worrying."

"I bet he's gonna keep her up all night." Elsa joked, playfully.

I cover my smile. "I'm not joking! When you guys first start he will be just like rabbit!" I can't hold my laughter in any longer.

"Jake may be different though, he's a lot more good hearted, and sweet than the other guys.," Kim admitted.

"That's one thing about him. He has a really big heart. He'll let anybody in without thinking about himself."

I smiled now.

"I know I'm charming and all but you don't have to talk about me so much. You're brainwashing my imprint." Jacob said, strolling his way over to us. I just began to laugh, because he seems to come over at the perfect time. After, they've finish explaining to me about the boys behaving like "Rabbits"

"Take her and get away Jacob. I know that's all you want." Rachel giggled.

Jacob pulled his hand out toward me smiling. I grasped his warm hand in mine and stood up.

Jake never lets go of my hand, as we walk down the street. It wasn't as weird to me as it was at first when Jake grabbed my hand. It was sweet in a way. Once we were away from the girls and away from Sm's house he let go me.

He didn't say much while he took me deep into the forest. He gripped my hand within his when I started to look confused. The pair of shoes I was wearing wasn't fit to be walking over the sticks and stones. I didn't want to be too much of a girl so I keep quiet.

It didn't bother me that where he was taking me. I never knew where I was going since I was in La Push.

Jacob let me onto his back when he started to make his way to the top on the short mountain. It was hard for because I usually orbed to place they I couldn't climb.

I finally asked Jacob why he had brought me all the way up here.

"I figure we could talk. I know the last time we did, it didn't go so well. I don't want that to happen again. I don't want to upset you, but I really want you to understand. So if I start, you know getting to emotion or angry. Maybe you could stop me?" I don't understand at first, but them I just agree.

"What happens if you get mad?"

"It triggers my inner wolf. It will make me phase."

"So?"

He groaned, "You've seen Emily, Sam phased and she was too close." It never came to me that Sam was the reason Emily had scars on the left side of her face. Sam was always so careful around her.

"I couldn't do that to you," He admitted. I thought that was very sweet because I knew he was being serious. So I turned away so he wouldn't see me smile. Then I quickly looked back.

He grinned, "You smiled didn't you?" Jacob sat down on the hard rock. "Why do you act like you like when I know you don't?" He questioned.

I bit into my lip. "How do you know that?" He was wrong again. He just didn't know how much I liked him. I liked him before he imprinted me.

"It doesn't seem like it . . I know you feel like you're stuck with the screw up, and after what happened earlier." He pauses and I decide not to say anything because I really want to hear what he has to say. "I'm not the same person I was in my story." He takes my hand into his, "I'm completely over it. All of it. I'm not going back tot he way I used to be. I'll prove that to you."

"Jacob you don't mean that." I look him in his eyes, "I have gifts remember?"

He pauses again. "But I can change. I will change. I won't mess this up with you."

"But how can you be devoted to us, if you're still in love with Bella?"

"I'm not in love with Bella. I could argue, tell him I knew exactly what he felt , but when I feel his sincerity, and how bad he really wanted to believe it. I can't say anything.

"It won't be easy. Jake. I do have my own issue's . I'm not exactly ready for this whole love thing. I didn- I don't- I don't want to hurt you. But Jake. I don't-." I'm lost for words.

"Like me?" He looks down, "You don't like me?"

"Jake of course I do. It's not like that. It's just. I don't want you to expect me to adjust to this so fast. I wasn't exactly expecting it."

He looks relieved. "We have plenty of time. Well I mean, if you stay. We don't have to push things, ever."

I smile, "Well, first. I don't think you're a screw up. Nothing in your past could be worse than mine. Second the only reason I cried is because I know Bella hurt you and I- I'm not perfect, Jake. There's things about me. . .things. I don't wont to hurt you like she did. I could never live with myself."

"Nothing in you're past could push you away from me."

"You say that but you have no idea what you're saying." I have to confess, right now. "My past its- it's the reason why I left-." Jacob softly place his finger on the peak of my lips, "You don't have to tell me, I don't want to know. I want us to start off completely clean. We can forget about each others past."

"Jake you say that but, if you new."

"That's it. It's just me and you. No judgment. No matter what, you're my imprint now. And I will always, always think highly of you."

"What is it like?"

"The whole imprinting thing?"

I nod.

"I don't know how to explain it." He smiles, showing off his dimple, "It's like the best feeling in the world. When I saw you, I felt like you were everything. It was as if I saw you for the first time. You blew me away, all over again. As soon as I saw you, I just felt like I had to do anything to make you happy, to make us happy, to make you mine. I felt I saw you, I mean really saw you for the amazing, beautiful girl that you are. You became my sun. I really want this with you. I think I can move on, Cass, I can give you everything you've ever wanted, that you've ever dreamed of. You don't know how much I want this." I knew he meant this too. The way he said it made me believe, made me want this even more.

"I want to tell you that I really am glad I imprinted you. I really like you, Cassie." He didn't look up. "Plus you're a pretty good kisser, I mean you could use a little work but-." I shove him, laughing.

Once I had stopped my corner of laughter, Jacob asked, "So do you want out?"

"I've learned that there's not exact way out, so I guess where going to have to make this thing work."

"So we're friends?" He said, in a question way.

"Yes, friends." I liked the sound of that.

"I can deal with that."

I looked out into the woods. It was actually pretty beautiful out here. I lean over closer to Jake and place my head on his shoulder.

I let out a deep breathe. "I'd never guess this would happen, me and you. I can admit that when I laid eyes on you. . " I lean up to look at him, "I thought you were incredibly sexy.

"It was a mutual thing. I mean I never thought that I'd ever see a girl as beautiful again after I imprinted with Ness, but when I saw you.. ."

His eyes connected to mine, "What did you think was going to happen? You and Embry?"

I push him playfully, "Quit bringing that up." I continue , "I figure I'd just live here for while longer."

"You still can. . ."

"I hope so. . ."

It was quiet for a few minutes.

"Do you ever think about your parents? Jake asked softly.

"I think of my mom all the time, everyday. My dad, not so much, he always lied to me about my gifts. I guess he didn't want me to be like my mother." I licked my lips. "My mom used to tell me stories. She told me stories about her own gifts."

"she can do things like you?"

"Not exactly, she can guide you to where you need to go. That's how I put it."

Jacob's eyebrows rose on the left side, "Like direction wise?"

I laughed, "No silly, she's able to tell people what they should do about certain situations. She leads them on the right path." I felt a slight tingle in the middle of my throat. "I never got to spend time with her. So many people I hardly knew took up her time. She was very devoted to what she did. . When she did talk to me it was always about the greater good. I guess I wanted to spend time with my mom, when my gifts first came. . . she didn't even talk about it with me. She belittled it immediately, tell me that it wasn't possible. Always."

I put my head down in shame. "She was so busy telling people how to live their lives that she forgot to live hers." I look away, "When my dad left. She almost got worse with it, seeing more people, advising more people."

I looked up into the sky before I let a tear fall.

"Is she the reason you left?"

I shook my head, "I don't want to blame her for anything. It was about me. I seriously needed someone to talk to, you know, about my gifts. Things about me started to get abnormal more and more everyday. New gifts keep coming, and I kept trying to confide in her, and every time. She'd put it aside. I know I'm a grown women, and I still want those things with my mom that I missed out on. It's not the reason I left, but it was a factor."

Jacob only pulled me closer.

"I admire that. Some people really wish they could have one last time to talk to their mothers. Some mothers won't even give their child the time of day."

"What do you mean?"

"If I had one last time to talk to my mother I'd thank her for everything. If it wouldn't be for her I wouldn't have been the person I am today. I never got to tell my mom that I became a werewolf, or that I imprinted. I wish I could get the chance to tell my mom I love her."

I squeezed Jacob's warm hand. "What happened to her?"

"A couple years ago, Billy and my mom went to Alaska for a while. On their way back a car ran into them. It killed my mother, and left my dad cripple." Jacob gripped my hand as well. "I know it's wrong of me, but sometimes I wish it was Billy instead of my mom."

I wrapped my arms around Jacob. He hugged me back tightly.

"I guess we have to stick together, Jake," I sighed.

He looked up into the hair. "I don't think my mom would have wanted me to be a killer though," Jacob added once we had let go. "It's the only thing keeping my mind off everything that going on. When I'm a wolf, it's like nothing matters."

"I have that gift. I don't really tell people about it. You'll be the only one to know, too."

"So you can kill people?" He looked more happy about than, scared or nervous.

"I have before." I look away uncomfortably.

"I was like that at first. I honestly didn't think I was capable of taking someone's life, vampire or not. Once I knew what they were doing and what they did. I felt like they deserved it. I figure I don't have the ability to morph into a giant werewolf for nothing. You aren't full of gifts for nothing; being able to kill, that's definitely there for something."

What Jacob was saying was completely understandable. I had never look at my deadly gift that way. Maybe it was meant for something. I had realized it but maybe it was to kill vampires. At that moment I had realized that I was meant for Jacob; I was meant to be here.

"But, you weren't afraid?" I asked out of curiosity.

"At first, now my adrenaline runs on killing vampires." Jacob almost started to laugh.

I shook my head. It must have been hard for him to do that. To change into something he wasn't sure about.

"Are you happy with being a werewolf?" I inquire.

He nodded, "Not exactly happy, I'm proud of myself. It makes me proud knowing I keep people safe." That was a good way to put it. I felt the same way. I loved how he stood up for himself, and we he lived for.

"How about you, are you happy?"

Just to make myself feel proud I answered, "I'm defiantly lucky. I'm happy that my gifts led me to you. I met Emily and Sam because of them. I've never really saved anyone's life. Instead, I've hurt people because of them. I can't see myself being happy any other way." I admitted.

"I can agree with that."

It was easier to talk to Jacob then anyone. He was mostly in comparison with me. We talked for hours. It felt nice to get to know someone that I could open up even a little bit with, and I never wanted to let that feeling go. I wanted to spend my life like this, happy, free. He made me feel different about myself, just because I knew that I wasn't the only one that felt like it.

This thing might actually work between me and Jacob Black. All I can do now is smile.

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