Title: "Careful With What You Wish - Chap 14: Blue Desert"
Author: J.J.
Warning: It's an AU BASED ON THE MANGA. It requires knowledge of the 'X' manga. It contains some Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the bottom), some OOC, a bit of sappiness, twisted relationships, suicide attempts, mentions of abuse, violence, general insanity and other stuffs I might have forgot... Deal with this fic with caution...
Notes: This is dark and twisted, dark and twisted, dark and twisted... have I mentioned it's dark and twisted? It's born to show a less nice Seishiro, how bad is Fuma's idea that Wishes must be fulfilled and how stubborn can be Subaru no matter what happened to him.
Warning over notes: This fic has notes. You will find them at the bottom. Each time you see a number between brackets it means there's a note connected to the word/sentence that preceded it. However I suggest you to read the notes AFTER you finished the fic unless the word/sentence connected to the note is really troublesome for you to understand. Anyway the fic should be still understandable without the notes. Notes are merely extra explanations for who wants to know more.
Disclaimer:
"Tokyo Babylon" and "X" belong to Clamp. I'm merely using their characters because I love them... especially Seishiro and Subaru...
Ehy, Do I own something here? Oh yes, I own the plot and a sensible heart which would surely break if you give me harsh reviews... so please be honest but nice ok?
Thanks:
To Jennifer for betaing this! Thank you a lot!
To Moko, Tanuki-dono, Meffie, Sakanagi and Yupita for supporting me while writing this fic! Thank you a lot!
Summary: After meeting Subaru in his Maboroshi 16 years ago Seishiro chose to keep him and placed him under a spell so that he would obey to him. Now, in the year of the destiny he has to face Sumeragi Hokuto who wants her brother back and Monou Fuma's obsession for fulfilling wishes...

'We should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.' Andy Rooney

"Akaku hiroi sabaku
Sora wa moeteiru doko made mo
Hifu suberi ochita
Tooi hibi no kioku
Fureru beki karada sagashi aruite
Dakedo mou mitasarenai kore ijou ni wa
Ashi ato no kieta michi wo yuku
Hateshinai Blue Desert
Dakedo mou modorenai koko kara saki wa
Dakedo mitasarenai kore ijou ni wa
Itsuka koko wo nukedasu no yo
Hateshinai Blue Desert."
("A broad red desert
The sky is burning everywhere
They slipped off my skin,
The memories of those distant days
With this body that ought to touch, I walk, searching
But I can never be satisfied with this
Walking on a road where my footsteps disappear
An endless Blue Desert
But I can never go back, from this point on
But I can never be satisfied with this
Someday I will escape from this place
This endless Blue Desert.")
(Zelda - "Blue Desert")

At the moment Seishiro wasn't having a dream he would have considered 'twisted'. It was a quite ordinary dream by his standards. He and his Subaru-kun were merely having a Hanami under a Sakura tree, eating Top's Chocolate Cake. Well... they had eaten chocolate cake. Right then they had finished eating and Seishiro was meticulously licking away the chocolate that had remained attached to Subaru-kun's slender fingers. Subaru-kun's cheeks were slightly pink in embarrassment, but he wasn't complaining, and Seishiro was wondering if the boy would consider the corpses scattered around them as an audience, or if he wouldn't mind and they could...

From the delicious moan Subaru-kun made and the way he was staring at him Seishiro was ready to bet the boy didn't care much about the corpses. Seishiro grinned. It was time to start licking something different other than his fingers...

Before he could put his plan into action he heard the Chi no Ryu's Kamui greeting him enthusiastically and a bit too cheerfully for his taste. That brat was having fun bothering him. Seishiro frowned and, for a split second, the corpses around them had features very similar to Kamui's. It didn't last long. Seishiro quickly regained control of his feelings and his dream. He allowed the corpses to return to their original faceless state as he smiled brightly at Kamui, in answer to his greeting. The dream world Subaru-kun pouted cutely and leaned against Seishiro, wrapping his arms around him. Seishiro petted him distractedly, his eyes never leaving Kamui. It didn't matter if they were on the same side, Seishiro would never trust him.

"Do you ever go anywhere without dragging with you your Ten no Ryu? I see you can't give up his presence, not even in your dreams... People might think you have the Linus' complex," Kamui observed amused. The boy was perpetually amused by something. It was annoying. Besides, Seishiro had no idea what this 'Linus complex' Kamui was talking about was, and that bothered him even more because it made him feel at disadvantage. Teenagers shouldn't know more than their elders.(1)

"Kamui. To what I own the pleasure of your visit?" he asked, deliberately ignoring the question. What he did with Subaru-kun wasn't Kamui's business. The teenager sat next to him and Subaru-kun. Closer to Subaru-kun than Seishiro would have liked. He continued smiling charmingly, but Subaru-kun stood and moved to his other side, placing more distance between himself and Kamui. Seishiro didn't care much if this Subaru-kun wasn't real. Subaru-kun was his anyway. Kamui wasn't allowed to get too close to him even if the boy was merely a creation of his dream.

"You're the only one I know who can have a dreamscape filled with Sakura," Kamui observed, still grinning.

"I like them," Seishiro said shrugging. "Are you here to talk about dreamscapes?"

"You're getting rude toward me, which makes me think you discovered I was right that your precious Ten no Ryu has a Wish you weren't aware of," Kamui observed. Seishiro considered the pros and cons of trying to kill Kamui in one of his dreams as he smiled charmingly and asked what exactly he wanted.

"Oh, nothing too difficult, really. I want you to fight the Sumeragi girl," Kamui asked, smiling innocently. Seishiro's eyes narrowed.

"You let her escape," he commented. He wasn't too pleased to hear the girl was still alive. She had some influence on his Subaru-kun and he hated that. For Kamui to have killed her would have been the perfect solution. She would have no longer been able to come between Subaru-kun and him, and Seishiro wouldn't have been responsible for her death, should it have upset Subaru-kun. On the contrary, he was sure that the boy would have appreciated even more to have some extra cuddling due to it...

"Of course I did," Kamui replied happily. "Her Wish wasn't to die. She Wishes to fight you in order to get her brother back! And you know how seriously I take Wishes..."

"You aren't suggesting that I should lose, are you?" Seishiro asked raising an eyebrow. He would start to doubt his so-called leader's sanity if he was.

"Of course not. I'm merely giving her a chance. If she fails and dies... Oh well, this will teach her to not get between Kamui and I," Kamui commented, still smiling angelically as Subaru-kun used to do long ago.

"So you want me to fight Sumeragi Hokuto..." Seishiro considered. "You should know I murder people in order to protect Japan, not in order to satisfy wishes... I honestly don't give a damn about her Wishes..."

"You're just making excuses because you think your Ten no Ryu wouldn't like you murdering his twin sister," Kamui said, waving off his reply. Seishiro frowned at Kamui's words. "Yes, I know who she is, Satsuki-chan checked it for me," the boy explained. "If you're so worried don't drag your Ten no Ryu along. Satsuki-chan is going to destroy Shinjuku's Kekkai today. Face her in Shinjuku and her death will merely look like another casualty of the earthquake."

Seishiro considered Kamui's suggestion. It sounded like a good plan, and that made him suspicious, but before he could consider it further Kamui spoke again.

"Afraid that if you leave him all alone he'll escape?" he asked, raising his hand to stroke Subaru-kun's hair. Seishiro instinctively dragged the dream world Subaru-kun out of Kamui's reach and closer to himself.

"Really, if he's so loyal to you, what do you have to fear?" Kamui teased. "You have him under a spell, after all. Besides, he'll probably need a break from your attentions. I don't think it's healthy to go at it so many times. You two have been spending all the day doing nothing but having sex and sleeping," the boy pointed out shaking his head in disapprobation.

Seishiro laughed at that.

"Those are the words of a frustrated, virgin teenager. What's wrong, Kamui? None of your admirers like you that way? Or it's only the Ten no Ryu's Kamui that you want?" Seishiro teased.

"Are you suggesting to an innocent teenager that he should get laid, Sakurazukamori?" Kamui asked, giving him an innocent glance.

"You're all but innocent, 'Kamui-chan'. Too bad I've already my hands full..." No, not too bad. He was more than satisfied with what he got. And Kamui wasn't his type. Too tall. He couldn't help but compare him to how Subaru-kun had been at the same age. Well, he didn't even need to go that far back - Subaru-kun still blushed if he kissed him in public, thank Kami-sama in private he handled things pretty well... Seishiro allowed himself a self-satisfied smile, as he remembered what they had been doing not long before, and realized he wanted to go back to the real world and the real Subaru-kun...

"You're entirely too wrapped up in your plaything," Kamui commented, shaking his head. "It's a shame he's a mere puppet, isn't it? A puppet that could so easily be stolen by another..."

"No one can touch Subaru-kun. He's mine." And the threat in his voice was so obvious anyone else would have fled. Kamui, however, wasn't like anyone else.

"So, will you fight the Sumeragi girl, or do your professional ethics stop you from taking care of her?" the boy asked again. Seishiro shrugged.

"If you insist," he agreed in the end in a casual tone. Kamui smiled, satisfied.

"Very well. I'll leave you with your oh so loyal Ten no Ryu then," he said as he stood and vanished.

Seishiro frowned. He looked at the dream world Subaru-kun and found him... strangely unsatisfying. He wanted the real one, he realized. He wanted the real one as he had never wanted him before. He wanted the real one and he would never let anyone take the boy away from him. Never.

To be continued...

JJ's Notes:

1. Linus is a character from 'Peanuts' a comic made by Charles M. Schulz. He always wanders around with a blanket and he can't leave it not even for a minute.

JJ's Extra Notes:
Actually I enjoyed having Kamui and Seishiro talking together with each of them persuaded he knows better than the other.
As for Kamui being manipulative... well, I think he is, in a fashion. Kamui has the dangerous habit to think that Wishes must be fulfilled and forces people to fulfil them, uncaring of the damage this could cause.
Oh, by the way 'Blue Desert' is a 'Tokyo Babylon' image song.

Dictionary:
-chan: Name ending used to express affection and familiarity or to talk with a child
-kun: Young
-sama: "Lord" or "Lady"
-san: "Mr." or "Mrs."
Chi no Ryu: Dragon of Earth
Kami: God
Kekkai: Shield
Maboroshi: Illusion
Onmyoudo: "Way of Yin and Yang". Yin and Yang are the male and female forces underlying the movement and changes of nature. Onmyoudo is based upon the Chinese arts of astrology, divination and Taoist magic and also represents a mystical way of living in harmony with the forces of nature Onmyoujutsu: "Art of Yin and Yang". The ability to use Onmyoudo spells Sakura: "Cherry Tree" or "Cherry Blossom"
Sakurazukamori: "Guardian of the Cherry Blossom Burial Mound". The assassin who uses Onmyoujutsu to kill who threatens Japan
Ten no Ryu: Dragon of Heaven

Replies to reviews:

To Everyone who reviewed: Thank you! You're a great encouragement for me!

To kuraitsubasa: Kamui of course is going to try to manipulate Seishiro... as for Subaru... you'll see...

To Momo: It's too bad you couldn't read the original... I'm glad you like this story!

To Dark Angel Of Fire Ice: Subaru is just born to love Seishiro... now... if only Seishiro would realize it he would save them both lots of troubles...

To Lady Samurai: As you could see Seishiro's dream was pretty innocent... kinda... Kamui didn't really give him the time to do more...

To Gray Wings: Well... Seishiro didn't mean anything bad killing puppies... to him they're on a step even lower than people... and he's deadly jealous of Subaru... even if he doesn't realize it yet... (sighs) I'm glad you like how I characterize them!

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