Pulling Me Through Part Three

Gosh, it's taken me absolutely ages to actually get an update up. I apologise for that. Anyway, I hope you enjoy this chapter and please review! A lot of the lines in this are taken from Queer as Folk in this chapter because it's such an amazing scene!

Lyrics: You belong with me, my snow white queen

Chapter Eight

Scout's POV

Jake was gone. He said he was going to stay with Jinxx for a little while until he got his head straight. It was the polite way of saying that he couldn't be around me and my stupid addiction anymore. At least he still cared enough to be polite about it all. Honestly, I was starting to think it would be better for someone to scream at me for doing this. At least then it might scare me into doing something about all these drugs.

It was at a time like this where I would use. No one was here to stop me and I was bored. Perfect time, right? Only it wasn't because a stupid frigging knock sounded at the door. At least I still had a bit of a buzz going from the last time. I ignored it, hoping they would go away soon, so I could shoot up.

"I know you're in there, Scout" A voice seeped through. There was no mistaking that it was Riley. The soft tone alerted me that it was her, but I knew that it was just going to flip around once I carried on ignoring her. She knocked again and waited until ten seconds had gone by before turning cruel. "Scout, open this fucking door right now or I swear to God I will beat the damn thing down." At least I knew that she was too weak to beat it down, but I knew that she could pick a lock. A few moments later, a click met my ears and it opened. Oh, shit.

Riley's POV

The smell was horrendous, but it wasn't enough to make me turn and leave. I would see this through until the end. The sight of it all was worse. There was alcohol all over the place and the curtains hadn't even been opened. This place looked as though it wasn't even lived in.

"Jesus, this place reeks" I complained, already hunting for any cleaning products I could find whilst she just pretended as though I wasn't there. "You should be glad that Andy isn't here. He would freak out."

"You told him. I know you did" She accused. I wasn't in the mood to lie and pretend as though I didn't. "You embarrassed me."

"I embarrassed you?" I asked in disbelief. In what world does that possibly make sense? Even though she was having problems right now. She still pissed me off more than ever.

"It's very rude to betray someone's trust" She hissed as though she was in a fit state to explain to me how to be a good person. "Andy probably thinks I need help right now."

"You do" I accused. "We all think that."

"Since when did you get so fucking superior?" She asked, standing up from the sofa as though she was ready to slap me which I didn't really put past her. "You think that just because you have two children and you're getting married, you're better than all of us. Well, guess what? It's a farce. It's a freak show. At the end of the day, you're still just a piece of shit whose father barely loves her and who was prepared to put her son up for adoption" That hurt.

"I don't need you to tell me that because I tell myself that every day" I whispered before I began to shout at her. Even my anger gets a little too much for me to get a handle on. "But at least I am not a tweaked out, fucked out crystal queen." She looked at me with utter hatred. "Scout, please, it's not too late. You can still help yourself."

"I don't want to get help" She retorted. "I'm happy like this. I'm having fun!" I couldn't believe any of the words that were pouring from her mouth.

"You call this fun?" I questioned. "This is pathetic." My words were probably a little too harsh, but I was willing to do anything to get her to see my point.

"I'm pathetic now?" She asked. "God, maybe I should just kill myself." Her words angered me. She was going to try and get sympathy now, but I was determined not to give her it. Right now, she didn't deserve it.

"Then do it" I urged, hoping that she didn't take me too literally.

"What?" She asked. It was clear to me then that she was only doing that for the attention and she didn't expect what I had said to her.

"I said 'then do it'" I repeated, before going back to cleaning the house. "Go on, kill yourself. Hell, you'd be doing all of us a favour. I mean, you've put us through quite a lot of shit when you really think about it. Oh, and when you do kill yourself, be sure to scream and sing as loud as you want because nobody's listening." That was probably the meanest thing I had ever said and I've been pretty cruel in my life. I couldn't tell if that was going too far. At least it rendered her speechless.

"Look, if you only came here to be a bitch, just go" She snapped. "I'm going to keep doing this until I want to stop, so I'd rather you didn't come over if it was to try and persuade me. Do I make myself clear?"

"Crystal"

Andy's POV

When I woke up, there was no sign of Riley. The kids were still fast asleep and Sammi was cooking something downstairs. Hopefully she would know where Riley had gone. It's not like her to just take off without telling anyone where she's going or when she'll be back.

"Hey, do you know where Riley is?" I asked her once I had gotten downstairs, peering into the pan to see what she was making. "Hey, are one of those rashers of bacon mine?"

"Of course, I figured you'd be up soon" She answered, pulling her hair up into a bun. "And Riley went to go see Scout. I asked why, but she said it was urgent and private. She wasn't acting how she normally does either. It worried me a little, to be honest."

I was pretty angry with her. I really didn't think going to see Scout was a good idea and if she was so set on doing it, she should have told me and I would have gone with her. She still should have told me about it. God, she needs to trust me a little more sometimes.

"Oh, that's great. I love Scout" I said, my voice then taking on a bitter quality. "But, on the other hand, I really hate her."

"Jesus, what's gotten into you?" Sammi asked, laughing a little, probably thinking this was all just a little joke, but I was deadly serious. Scout was screwing up lives now and that's out of order. "This family's a little weird sometimes."

"And don't we all know it" I laughed, not caring enough to go into detail about what happened, more content in letting her believe I was just joking on.

"I'm back" A feminine voice called from the front hallway. "Ooh, what's cooking?" Did she honestly think I was going to let her get away with acting as though everything was all normal?

"Hi, Riley" I called, smiling at her as she walked into the kitchen. "Can I talk to you for a bit upstairs?"

"Hey, your bacon's done" Sammi grumbled. "What am I supposed to do with this now?" She asked, already dishing it out onto a plate.

"You eat it" I answered. "You could do with getting a little meat on those bones." She laughed a little, sensing that whatever I had to say was important, so there was no point in arguing about it.

"What do you want to talk about?" She asked once we were in the bedroom with the door locked. "Hey, I should probably feed Savannah and Zane"

"Oh, don't even think about doing that" I laughed. There was no way I was going to let her take the easy way out of this. She had to hear this. "And don't even think about trying to pretend as though you don't know what I'm talking about."

"What are you going on about?" She asked.

"That's exactly what I meant" I accused, sitting down on the bed with my eyebrows raised at her. "Why did you go to see Scout? You know that she's going to be trouble right now."

"I couldn't help it, Andy" She defended. At least she wasn't trying to lie about it. "I hated seeing her act so weird yesterday and I really thought that if I just sat down and talked to her properly, things would just work out and she would accept the fact that she needed help.

"Damn you for having such a kind heart" I sighed, pulling her into my arms as she buried her head into the crook of my neck. "Look, Scout's going to keep using until she decides that she wants to stop and she's got to come to that realisation on her own. You can't force someone into wanting to change." I had no idea where all that wisdom came from.

"I know that you're right, but it's just too hard to watch her screw up her life" She whispered."

"I know it is" I soothed. "How did it go? Does she want to stop using?"

"Ah, it didn't go very well at all" She answered. "I walked in on her and she was pretty high and she just started arguing with me. I called her a few names and she got even more annoyed and said that she was going to kill herself, so I said that she should, but only to scare her into getting help. At the end of it, though, she said it was fun and that she was going to keep using."

"Holy shit" I exclaimed. "She really said all those things? God, she's worse than I thought."

"Jake's not staying with her anymore either" Riley complained. "That means she's just going to get worse because there's no one there for her to hide from. He's living with Jinxx for a little while. God, everything's getting so screwed up."

"Hey, calm down" I mumbled, pressing a kiss to her forehead. "Everything's going to turn out okay. It's just going to take some time, but it will all sort itself out."

"How can you be so sure?" She asked. Honestly, I didn't have an answer to that. I was just saying it to get her to calm down. I was worried too.

"I just can be" I answered, knowing it probably wouldn't satisfy her, but she wouldn't push it. "Come on, Sammi, will be wondering what we're up to."

"Do you think she'll get back with Jinxx?" Riley asked. Again, it was another question that I couldn't answer and I really wished that I could.

"I'm not sure" I answered, deciding that being truthful was the best way. "I hope so, but there's a chance she won't. We all know that Sammi is pretty hard-headed."

"Very true" Riley agreed. "I'll try and talk her into it one day."

"Seriously, Riley?" I questioned. "Haven't you learned that meddling is bad?"

"Okay, I won't try and get her to get back with him" She laughed, following me back out of the bedroom.

Ah, I'm sorry about posting such a horrible chapter. Anyway, I hope you all enjoyed this chapter and please review. Oh, a CC storyline will also be getting introduced in the next few chapters, so that should be awesome!