IMPORTANT PLEASE READ: First off I wanted to say I am very happy with the response to the last chapter. I really thought you guys wouldn't like it. I've had some people tell me that this fic is similar to some other ones and I really have no idea what to say. Maybe you're thinking about the original version of Redeem because this re-write has all of the same content, I just added more detail to make it more realistic. Maybe you're thinking about some other fic. I'm sorry if it seems like I'm copying someone else's work, I can assure you that is not my intention. Maybe as the story progresses you will see more differences but I really do hope no one thinks I am trying to copy their fic. However, I do want to make it clear that I will not be taking this story down because it bears resemblance to other stories. I will do my best to make sure this story is unique, but I will not take it down. Okay, on with the story.

WARNING: There is some mature content in this chapter.

Confessions: Part 2

Bella's POV

I woke up the next morning alone. I looked around the room for Jacob and instead found a note on the pillow beside me.

Bells,

I'm sorry I couldn't be there when you woke up but I had some things I had to take care of.

I can't wait to see you though! Remember, we're meeting at our log on First Beach at noon.

-Jacob

I smiled at the note. It was sweet. I did notice that there were a few things crossed out above his name. I cold only make out an "l" an "o" a "y" and a "B" but I had an idea about what he was trying to say. I glanced at the clock and realized that it was already ten thirty. I jumped out of bed and into the shower. I washed my hair and when I got out I blow-dried it. I decided to just leave it down in the interest of time and went to my closet to pick out something to wear. I decided to go with a pair of faded light-wash skinny jeans and a long sleeve shirt. By then it was already eleven. I quickly picked out some earrings and put on my favorite boots before I went downstairs and made myself a small breakfast. Charlie had left out the cereal along with a thank you note for getting him home last night so I got a bowl and scarfed down my breakfast. It was already eleven thirty five so I got in my truck and started towards First Beach.

There was traffic on the way there. Just my luck. There is almost never traffic in Forks and the one day I'm in a hurry there was traffic. It was a nice day out, and because sunshine is such a rarity people are flocking towards the beach. Needless to say I ended up five minutes late. I weaved my way through the people and finally found Jacob on our log. Some girl was in front of him with some strings and pieces of fabric on which I guess was supposed to be her bathing suit. She was pushing her breasts out and twirling a piece of her hair. When I got closer I heard some of their conversation.

"Jakey come on, it's been so long."

"I know, it hasn't been an accident that you don't see me anymore. I don't do that anymore." he said in a tone I had heard him use when I ran into him at Betsy's.

"But why Jakey? Don't you want me?" the girl pouted as she pushed her chest out even more. Jacob turned his head away from her chest, which was now a few inches from his face and replied with a blunt, "No." The girl stood in shock for a few moments and then she got angry.

"Well screw you then Jake! There are plenty of guys that would kill to fuck this fine piece of ass!" she yelled as she stomped off. When she was gone I walked up and sat down next to Jacob. He turned to me with a wary look on his face.

"Hey Bells." His usual cheery nature was gone and replaced with a dreary one. I was caught off guard and I think my face showed it.

"What, not happy to see me?" I asked. My tone was humorous but the statement was serious.

"No, no, that's not it at all. I just... I'm a little stressed is all. But I am glad to see you." There was an awkward silence between us and I decided to sit down.

"Jacob I'm sorry about what happened last night." I said.

"Are you sorry you told me-" Jacob began, the confusion evident on his face.

"No, no, I'm sorry about what you saw last night. I never wanted you to see me like that. It's the reason I stayed away and got a therapist. I didn't want you to feel like you had to comfort me." I saw the confusion melt off of his face and felt his hand move to my face.

"Bella, I want you to listen to me, because I only want to say this once. I will never feel like I have to comfort you. I will never feel obligated to comfort you or hold you when you're sad or in distress. I want to hold you, and comfort you. I want you to feel safe with me, and I don't ever want you to feel like you are a burden to me. I'm happy you told me about what happened to you because now, when you're having a bad dream or when you're scared, I can be there for you. So don't apologize to me for that, alright?" His eyes were searching mine for the answer he wanted. It's weird, because while we were having this intense moment there were people all around us laughing and having fun at the beach. Jacob kept staring at me, waiting for an answer.

"Alright," I said, and I meant it. Normally I would have agreed, but in my head I would still be holding on to my true feelings. However, something was different this time. I didn't know what it was, but I could feel myself taking in his words and accepting them. Jacob's eyes searched mine for a little while longer before he finally smiled and moved back some.

"So how did things go with Leah last night?" I asked.

"Not to well. Both of our dogs got into a fight and when they calmed down we finally got to talking." Jacob was obviously changing a few details because we were in public, but I found it slightly comical, the thought of Leah and Jacob walking tiny dogs and them getting into a scuffle.

"What did she say?"

"She asked why I had forgiven you so easily and I told her that she didn't even know the reason you were away for such a long time. She asked me if I did and I said that I understood why you had been gone. She asked why you had stayed away for so long and I told her I couldn't answer that. I said it was your question to answer and I didn't think you wanted me to tell her. She got angry after that and demanded that I tell her. Our dogs almost got into it again but Sue told us we needed to calm them down. Leah started calling you all these horrible names and said I was a pussy for just taking you back after everything. She claimed that you were not allowed in her house and that if she ever saw you again, she would attack. I was so angry by that point that I was shaking again, but I left because Sue was starting to get angry. I haven't talked to her since."

"I'm sor- I mean I didn't mean to cause so much trouble in your pack, or in your life." I said.

"You didn't Bella. You came back, which is exactly what everyone wanted. Leah was just being herself. She was the one person that was more angry than I was about your sudden departure." I felt a pang of guilt at the mention of my "sudden departure" as Jacob put it. There was yet another awkward silence between us.

"So, what have you been doing for the past four years?" I asked hesitantly. I knew that what he had to say might hurt me, but I needed to know.

"Are you sure you want to know Bella?" He asked with a concerned look on his face.

"You know me way to well. Yes I'm sure." Jacob smiled at my words but still looked worried.

"Okay, but just keep in mind that I'm not trying to hurt your feelings." He gave me a meaningful look before he continued. "Well after you left it was bad. I mean it really wasn't good. I was worried about you for the first four months. I didn't know when you were going to come back, I was angry all the time and always on edge. I went to the Cullens house but they weren't there. That was probably for the best, because if they had been there I would have killed them all." His eyes met mine for a moment before the drifted off to the sand in front of him.

"I wasn't in my right mind, and the pack knew it. After the six-month mark I started to really get angry. I was so mad at you for leaving me without a second thought. I felt betrayed in a way, which is completely unreasonable. I should have been happy. You ran away from those leeches and you were human, out living your life somewhere. Or that's what I thought at least. The thought that you might be dead crossed my mind occasionally, but the thought was immediately eradicated every time it made its way into my head. I didn't want to even think about you being dead. A few months passed and then Quil and Embry started coming around a lot. At first I was annoyed by them. I didn't think I needed a baby sitter to come and make sure I was all right, but looking back I think it was the best thing they could have done for me. They told me that I couldn't be mad at you for wanting a better life, and while they didn't agree with you taking off, they didn't hate you for it. They told me when the time was right you would come back, hopefully human."

"They started bring me back out of the dark ravine that I was in. They took me out Port Angeles for nights out on the town. During patrols they talked to me and tried their very best to make me laugh. At first their efforts went unnoticed by me, but eventually I could tell I was starting to get better. By this time it was about the two-year mark. On one of these nights out I ran into this girl. Her name was Patricia and she worked in New York at some big stock firm. Apparently her father was here in Forks Hospital after some bad fishing accident. She was nice enough, but that wasn't what drew me in." I listened tentatively, even though I felt an ache in my chest when he mentioned the pain I had caused him, and felt jealousy rise like bile when he mentioned this other woman.

"She had eyes that were almost identical to yours, and hair that smelled like yours too, just not as sweet. That was all I needed to ask her out though. Things were good for a couple weeks until she had to go back to New York. I suggested that we try the long distance thing, but we both knew it wasn't going to work. Nevertheless I was heartbroken, not over losing Patricia, but over losing you. She resembled you enough to where I was genuinely crushed when she went away because it made me remember how you weren't there with me. After a month of my sulking I was clubbing like crazy, looking for girls that looked like you to ease the ache in my chest." I was staring at him intently now, but his eyes were still on the sand.

"I found this other girl named Sally. She didn't look like you. But she was sweet and had this way of doing things that reminded me of you. So of course I asked her out. That relationship went better than I expected. Once I spent some time with her I realized that I began to like her for her. She was funny, and sweet, and pretty, and athletic. She loved animals and was very passionate about everything she did. For three months I was happy, and it was because of her. But things didn't work out." She could tell that he was still feeling the sting of the end of his relationship with this woman.

"What happened?" She asked gently.

"I couldn't tell her about the pack and I eventually had to start cancelling dates unexpectedly. One time I left right in the middle of a date and left her just sitting in a restaurant with a mouth full of food and a bill to pay. She accused me of cheating and I denied it. I promised her that I would never do something like that to her and she believed me. That is until she followed me out of a restaurant one night and saw me getting naked. She wouldn't even allow me the chance to explain, she just left. She never answered my calls and didn't hang out where she knew I could find her. I haven't seen her since. I was hurting after that break up for a few months. During my sulking period I decided that instead of sitting on my ass and crying I was going to do something with my life and get a job. The only problem was I needed a job that would understand that I needed to leave unexpectedly because of my pack ties, which was never going to happen unless the business was pack owned. That's how The Pack Mechanics was made. I told Quil and Embry about my idea and we invested as much money as we could into it. We got a bank loan for about ten thousand dollars and started building our shop. Within an hour of opening we got our first customer and we've been doing well ever since. I was doing really well for a few months. I thought I was finally over you." He paused and then looked at me.

"Then a month ago I saw you at Betsy's Market and I felt broken all over again. I tried to keep it together. I didn't want to scare you off by showing you all of the anger I felt for you, but at the same time I didn't want you to think that I was just going to forgive you. After that day I had a mini relapse. It seemed like I was always irritated and I was going out to Port Angeles to look at girls and I drank a lot. I tried so hard to hate you. I mean, that's how any other person would feel, despite my efforts I knew it would never happen. I was hooked." He offered me a gentle smile and kept talking.

"When I heard about Sue's party I purposely didn't go. I didn't want to talk to you when I wasn't sure how I felt. I didn't think I would be able to tell you exactly what our situation was and needed more time to think. I figured that I would think about what to say to you during the week and then next Saturday I would come and talk to you. But you beat me to the punch. When you called me last night I was surprised at first. I didn't know you knew about the shop but I figured Quil and Embry told you." He paused again and looked at me, silently asking me if that was the case.

"Yeah they told me, but that's not how I got the number. Last month I was looking for jobs and I saw the ad in the paper about a secretary at a mechanic shop. I put it in the glove compartment along with some of the other ads and never took them out." I explained.

"Why didn't you come to the shop if you were looking for a job and had the ad?" He asked.

"I had already gotten a job and I was pretty tired. Besides, like you, I wasn't really ready to talk to you and tell you about what happened over the past four years. I really spent the last month getting my life together. I think I needed a small sense of normalcy in my life before I talked to you and sent everything spiraling out of control, or that's what I thought would happen anyway." He nodded.

"So where are you working?" He asked. My eyes lit up.

"It's this place called the Book Garden. It's this little bookstore in Forks. It's amazing Jake, you have to see it!" I said excitedly and he smiled.

"I will try to come by." He said, but something was off. I couldn't be sure, but it seemed like he was holding something back. Something important. But if he didn't want to tell me then I wasn't going to push. I was just glad he decided he could start to forgive me.

"Anyways when you came by and told me everything that happened to you I felt like I had been punched in the gut. I mean when you started I was just glad you left Cullen, but when you said you went down an alley I knew where it was going. I was hoping I was wrong but when you said you blacked out and were in that room I knew it was true. And then you told me about how he raped you and I could tell you were in pain telling the story." He grabbed my hand and kissed the back of it. Then keeping eye contact he continued.

"You were so strong Bells. While you were telling me all of those things I was getting so angry, but I knew that me phasing wouldn't help you at all. I did my best to keep my emotions in check, but it was hard. When you told me about your escape I couldn't help but thinking how my Bells was a survivor, and then you got shot. When you told me that I felt like the luckiest man on Earth to have you sitting next to me. It broke my heart to hear how you were thinking and feeling after you got back from the hospital, but I understood. Most girls would have done it, just popped a few more of the pain medication or jumped out of a window from the top floor, but you didn't. You chose to live and face your problems. You found someone to help you and stared what had happened to you right in the face and conquered it. I know you aren't completely healed but you healed yourself enough to come back to me, to come back home. And you have no idea how grateful I am that you did." He said. I let his words sink in for a moment and couldn't help but feel a little guilty.

"I knew I needed to come back Jacob. I couldn't just leave thing the way they were before I left. You were off somewhere angry and hurt because I had chosen to marry Edward and I was confused and anxious for you to come back home. I needed to come back and fix everything. I know you don't want to hear this again, but I'm going to say it anyway because I feel like I need to. I'm sorry I put you through that. I should have sent you a letter or something once I was in Phoenix to tell you where I was. You didn't deserve to be put through that. You didn't deserve me turning you away after you put me back together when Edward left me. You didn't deserve that right hook I gave you when you kissed me for the first time, you didn't deserve me turning you away after you told me you loved me, and you definitely didn't deserve all of the pain that I put you through when I agreed to marry Edward." I kept eye contact with him to make sure he understood how I felt. By now the most of the people had left the beach because unexpected clouds had moved in, making the moment much more intimate.

"Thanks Bells, really. But I would have done anything to have you in my life. It didn't matter if you were his leech wife, or his human fiancé, I loved you, and I still do. At the same time I'm anxious to meet this new woman sitting next to me. Because it looks like she's, beautiful, strong, independent, funny, and willing to love me." I could see all of the hope that shone in his eyes. I brushed some hair out of his eyes and them moved my hand down rubbed his stubbled cheek with the pad of my thumb. I became aware of how close we were to each other. If I just leaned a little I would be able to catch his lips with mine. I felt the urge burning within me. I hadn't felt his lips in so long. I haven't felt his loving touch in what seemed like forever, and it was what I craved most.

He closed his eyes as my thumb ran across his cheek and right over his top lip. He leaned into my hand and I could tell he wanted to kiss me too. I wanted to move in and get in over with. I knew we both wanted it, but I didn't want to rush into it. I didn't want us to move to fast. We just got back on speaking terms, a kiss would just complicate things. Thankfully we were interrupted by the loud rumbling thunder. Jacob pulled back, settling with taking my hand in his, and got off of our log, pulling me with him.

"It looks like it's about to rain, do you want to go back to my place. We could put on a old movie and pig out on ice cream, donuts, and whatever else we have in the house." He said with a grin.

"Hmm it does sound tempting, I think I'll have to take you up on that." I said with my own stupid grin. We ran over to my truck, because I guess Jake walked over, and drove to his house. We got in just as it started drizzling.

"Alright Bells, you pick a movie, I'll get the snacks." Jake said. I walked into the living room and inspected their shelf of DVDs settling on Harry Potter and the Sorcerers' Stone. A few minutes later Jake came back with a bunch of junk food and some sodas. He sat everything down on the coffee table and I laughed.

"Got enough food there Jake?" He laughed.

"I would get more put Billy has me on a tight food ration." I put in the movie and went to lay on the couch only to find it completely filled up by Jake. I shook my head and lay down next to him. His arms circled around my waist and pulled me into him. He lightly kissed my hair and I leaned into the warmth of his body. The movie started and Jacob smiled into my hair, "Harry Potter, really Bells?"

"Oh come on, you know you need that daily dose of Harry, Ron and Hermione." I teased. I felt him chuckle lightly.

"Well if I'm gonna watch this I'm gonna need some goodies." He said as he sat up. I laughed and sat up, snatching a doughnut he was reaching for and taking a bite.

"Oh so that's how it is?" He asked. Before I had time to respond the doughnut was out of my hands and he had popped the entire thing into his mouth. I watched him in disbelief and he chewed and swallowed the whole thing.

"How did you-" He didn't say anything, just smiled and waggled his eyebrows. I laughed and he continued to attack the food. He ate nearly all of the ice cream, chips, all of the doughnuts, and drank half of the soda. I got the scraps which was more than fine with me. When he was finished eating he laid back down and pulled me into the position we were in when the movie started. I was silent for a moment before a question bubbled to my lips.

"Hey Jake?"

"Yeah?"

"Why are you Alpha of the pack now? Did something happen to Sam?" I asked.

"No. It happened right after Sally and I broke up. I was angry with Sam because I felt like he was, once again, controlling my life. I told him it was his fault Sally broke up with me because he ordered me to keep quiet about the back. I argued that he couldn't keep sticking his nose in my private life and he said that because he was the Alpha of the pack it was his job to keep an eye on me. I was angry throughout the whole conversation, but not angry enough to take the Alpha position away from him. But then he mentioned you and I lost it. He said that he had done the right thing in ordering me not to talk to you and that he was right in ordering me not to tell Sally. I didn't hear the rest. I phased and jumped on top of him. I felt this huge surge of adrenaline rush through my body and I just felt… powerful. I told him that from then on I would be in control of my own life. I had only realized what happened when he whimpered and his knees gave out."

"Was Sam angry when he found out?" I asked.

"No, he said he was sorry about bringing you into it and he was sorry about Sally. He told me he was actually going to stop phasing and that I made his life a lot easier by taking the position."

"Oh. Do you regret it?"

"At first I did. I didn't know how I was going to explain everything to the pack, much less lead them. I got used to it though. By the that time we had gotten two more additions to the pack. Collin and Brady were only thirteen at the time and were the youngest members of our tribe to phase."

"Wait, why would they phase if there were no vampires here?" I asked confused.

"What do you mean?"

"I mean the Cullens, they didn't leave?" I asked.

"No, they left about three months ago."

"Oh," was all I said. My mind was reeling. There was something significant about that date. I couldn't remember what at the moment but I knew there was something that happened on that day.

I was about to ask another question but it looked like Jacob was about to go into a food coma. I put my hand on one of his hand that was around my waist and rubbed small circles into it. Before long he was fast asleep and I was well on my way to following him.

~Redeem~

Hazel eyes were the only thing I could see in the darkness. They kept coming towards me and no matter how far and fast I ran they got closer and closer until I could feel his breath on my neck. His hand was on my thigh, spreading my legs until I heard a sickening crack and felt pain shooting up from my feet to my waist. I screamed but as soon as sound left my voice I was bound and gagged.

I felt him pounding into me, into both my body and my vagina. His fists were red with my blood and with each punch I could feel my consciousness fading. Was I dying? Would God be that merciful? Or would I wake up in a different position, awaiting the same fate.

I waited and waited for darkness to overtake me but it did not come. I still felt him beating me, I still felt him sliding into me. I felt cuts being re-opened and my breasts being tugged at. I felt him pinching my clit roughly, trying to pull a release out of me and him hitting me in the stomach when it didn't come. Finally, I felt him come inside me. I felt sick at the thought of part of him being inside me, looking to make a baby. I felt even more repulsed when he succeeded and proceeded to beat it out of me. He clawed and whipped my stomach. The next time I woke up I felt blood all over my legs and saw a small dead fetus on the floor.

I woke up feeling nauseated with a sheen of sweat covering my body. I jumped off of the couch and ran to the bathroom to throw up. I felt all the food I just ate rise and finally come up out of my body and into the toilet. I flushed and went to the sink. I put my hands on either side of the counter and looked into the mirror. "You're not there anymore Bella. You're safe." I said to myself. I turned on the water and splashed some into my face and wiping it off with the hand towel. I went back out into the living room expecting to find Jacob sleeping, but he was looking at me with a worried expression.

"Are you okay Bells? I heard you throwing up."

"Yeah, I'm fine." My voice shook as I forced the words out of my mouth. I didn't want anyone to see me like this, I certainly didn't want Jacob seeing me like this. But he didn't buy it. He got off of the couch and pulled me into his arms. I couldn't take it anymore. I began to sob into his chest.

"Shh, it's okay I'm here." Jacob whispered as he stroked my hair. I tried to pull myself together, but instead I was falling apart. When I started to calm down Jacob pulled back to look at me.

"What happened Bella? Was it a dream?" He asked gently. I nodded.

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No… well yes. I should, it would probably make me feel better. I just don't want to." I explained. He brushed some of my tears away with his thumb.

"I'm not going to push you Bells, but if you want to talk about it I'm right here." I took a deep breath to compose myself.

"I was with him again, I don't even know where we were, all I know is it was dark. He was inside me again, and beating me. I guess the two go hand in hand with him. Anyway, he never used a condom when he raped me and a few times I got pregnant. When I started to show symptoms and he suspected I was pregnant he started to beat me. I remember he whipped me across my stomach and punched me till I was covered in these black and blue splotches. The next day I woke up and my legs were bloody and on the floor there was the dead fetus." My voice was still shaky, but at least the tears had stopped. Jacob was shaking a bit, but I could tell he was trying to keep calm.

"I'm sorry honey." He said, rubbing my back. We were silent for a moment and then Jacob spoke again.

"I don't want to upset you or anything Bella, but if he never used a condom you need to get tested for-"

"STDs. They did that at the hospital. They all came back negative." He let out a sigh of relief and pulled me into him again. We stayed like that for a while until Jacob's stomach growled. I laughed and Jacob looked at me sheepishly.

"Come on," I said as I grabbed his hand, "Let's make you something to eat." He laughed and allowed me to pull him along into the kitchen. I made him a couple of sandwiches and made myself one PB&J. We ate in a comfortable silence. Shortly after eating Jacob offered to drive me home. I argued that he would have to walk home but he said he had to patrol anyway. I agreed to let him drive me home if he agreed to come to the Book Garden the next day. He said he would do his best and we got in my truck. We were silent the whole ride, the only sound coming out of the radio. When we got to my house Jacob turned to me.

"Don't forget to come to the Book Garden tomorrow." I said, not knowing what else to say. I wanted to stay with Jacob. His presence alone made me happy.

"I won't." I reached for the door when Jacob's hand on my arm stopped me. I turned around and his hand moved to my face. He moved in closer to me. At first I thought he was going to kiss me. He got closer and closer until his lips were a breath a way from mine. I began to close my eyes when I felt him kiss my cheek.

"Have a goodnight Bella." He whispered before pulling back and opening my door for me. I was about to get out when he stopped me again, but when I looked back the expression on his face was murderous. He pulled me back into the car and shut the door.

"What Jake? What is it?" I asked.

"Vampire," was the only thing he said before I looked up and saw a pair of golden eyes looking back at me.

Dum, dum, dum! Who is it? Can anybody guess? I usually don't do cliffys but I felt like this one was necessary to break up chapters. Personally I think this chapter is a little iffy, but it's what you guys think that really matters. Thanks you to everyone who is reviewing, you have no idea how happy they make me!