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Murdoc P.O.V

I woke up with a tiny man folded in my arms. His face was almost sickly pale. He has grown skinnier as the days passed. He ate what he needed to keep himself alive, but that's about it. I shook him gently until his eyes popped open. I was greeted with their solid raven color. It puzzled me how they could be so lively and dead at the same time. I could tell by the look on his face that he remembered what today was. It was the day that we would say our final goodbyes to our little girl. The normally awkward silence was now comforting. He clung to my body like a lost puppy. I message his scalp with my fingers, his wild blue hair was soft.

"Are you ready?" I asked with a gentle voice. He shook his head no.

"I'll be right with you the whole time." I tried to reassure him. Sniffles could be heard. I knew it would be a hard day for all of us, especially for 2D. We needed to get ready. I unfolded myself from him and sat up. We were in 2D's room because that's where he wanted to sleep last night. Since 2D stopped being so distant a few days ago we were inseparable. I stood and moved to his closet where our suites were hanging. The black fabric was soft between my fingers, but it was in no way comforting.

"Do you want to take your shower first?" I asked the man that stayed planted in his bed.

"Will you come with me?" his small voice asked. There was nothing sexual about his request, he just didn't want to be alone. I nodded my head yes. He climbed from the bed and randomly picked two towels from his dresser. I followed him into the bathroom. I turned on the water and set it to a reasonable temperature. We began to shed our clothing, until we were both nude. 2D's body scared me deeply, he was so tiny. I could count his ribs. He looked so sick and pale.

I was first to step under the warm rain, 2D followed after. We washed ourselves off silently, our backs facing each other. We took turns standing under the water, to rinse off the soap. After our hair was free form shampoo, I turned off the water and stepped out. whipped the blue towel up and down my body. I handed the other one to 2D and he copied my motions. With our towels wrapped around our waist we made out way back out to the bedroom. I pulled the suites out of their resting spot, and put them on the bed. We dressed in silence. Our black apparel matched our moods perfectly.

"Are you okay Murdoc?" I was surprised he asked me the question. Nobody had asked me how I was dealing with all of this. I was doing better than 2D, that's for sure, but I felt… empty? I had no other way to describe it.

"I don't really know." I shrug. He nodded.

"Want me to brush your hair?" I asked. He smiled and nodded, that was the first smile I had seen him give for the first time in days. I return it and pick up a plastic brush that was on the floor. His hair was still slightly damp, so it was darker the normal. The brush scraped against his scalp, pulling our blue strands on its way down. Soon his hair was dry and slicked back. It was odd to see 2D with out his hair sanding out in every direction.

I made my way to the broken mirror that 2D had resting on his dresser, and tried to smooth out my raven locks. They ended up falling right back into my eyes. I growled and just left it that way. 2D had reclaimed his spot on his bed, under the blankets. I couldn't blame him.

"Come on love, we have to get Russell and Noodle." I spoke to him. He groaned and rolled out, landing on his bare feet. His once slicked back hair was now its normal spiky mess. I sighed. Oh well. We donned our shoes and moved out. It was windy, and cold outside. They said it was suppose to snow later today. Russell and Noodle were already waiting by the Toyota Camry. Noodle's black dress stopped half way down her thighs, its only decoration was a small white bow that was held on by a ribbon wrapped around her waist. Her head was bowed, and one of her tiny hands was held in Russell's. Russell's black dress shirt matched his pants. His white eyes looked more vacant than usual.

I climbed into the drivers seat, and 2D took his place in the passenger. Noodle and Russell squeezed in the back seats.

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2D P.O.V

Her tiny coffin rested on the table in front of us. Of coarse Lydia wasn't in the small box, the hospital had already cremated her tiny body and properly disposed of. Instead the coffin was full of baby toys, stuffed animals, baby clothes and pictures of her ultrasounds. The table its self was decorated with a pink table cloth and bows.

I looked on with dead eyes, as the ceremony began. The gentle song Hello by Evanescence filled the building.

'Playground school bell rings again.

Rain clouds come to play again.

Has no one told you she's not breathing?

Hello, I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to.

Hello.'

The beautifully sad words pulled at my heart. I knew I would cry, but I told myself not to. Lifeless eyes from everyone in the room were focused on the table. Who the hell picked this song? They were trying to make me cry. I could feel it coming. I averted my eyes from the coffin and bowed my head. A warm hand slipped into mine. My eyes locked with Murdoc's they were glassed over and mine were just begin to spill.

'If I smile and don't believe,

Soon I'll wake up from this dream.

Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken.

Hello, I'm the lie living for you so you can hide.

Don't cry.'

Amy Lee was killing me with her voice. I looked away from my love and at the floor. We could all drown in my tears. Then I can have Lydia with me. The melody was like slow knifes driving into my body. My body was shaking violently. I knew people would be staring, but I honestly couldn't care less. Let them take pictures and whisper about my poor broke life.

'Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping.

Hello, I'm still here, all that's left of yesterday…'

Her beautiful voice finished the song, but it left a mark on my heart. I shivered and cried out in pain. The funeral hadn't even really started yet and I was already a snotty mess. Murdoc's warm body swallowed me. I clung to him. I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy, no father deserves to curse of losing their first child before they even get a chance to breath their first real breath. I swallowed another cry. Damn you Amy Lee, I swore I wouldn't cry. I failed miserable with the promise I made to myself. Murdoc rocked me back and forth until I felt like I needed to leave. I suddenly stood and moved from the pew. All eyes were on me as I moved to the back of the building and to the exit. Fuck every thing! I opened the back door of the Toyota and fell on the soft seats. They absorbed my tears gratefully. I screamed and cried into them. I knew I would hate myself even more than I already do for missing the ceremony. I pulled off the jacket that matched the rest of my depressing outfit. I hadn't cried this hard since I got the life ruining news in the hospital. I heard the door open and then shut again softly. A hand caressed my back. I didn't have to look up to know it was Murdoc. I greeted him with a moan. He pulled me up and placed me so that I was straddling his lap. The curve of my face found the crook of his neck. He held me and rocked me and hushed me. By the time I quieted down, it looked like somebody pored a bucked of water on him.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered into his shirt.

"For what?"

"For running out like that, I'm such a loser. I can't even sit through my daughters funeral." could still feel tears leaking, but it wasn't the lung burning sobs that they once were.

"It's okay 2D. After you left everyone was crying, even Russell." I looked up at his face. The whites of his eyes were now red. Streaks of clear liquid were still staining his tan face. Murdoc only cried around me, and that was only when he was severely depressed. We embraced again, for what felt like ages.

"Want to go back in?" he asked me. I shook my head no. I didn't need a small ceremony to show me how much I would miss her. I already told her goodbye, severely times in fact. I talked to her every night before bed, letting her know that daddy still loves her. The car was quiet, the only sound was my loudly beating heart.

"I love you." I breathed out the words.

"I love you too Stu." he gruff voice whispered. It was wired how I was starting to feel better. I still had that empty feeling that I was sure would never leave me. But I felt like the world was lifted from my shoulders. Maybe everything would be okay? Maybe we would be okay?

Soft flakes of snow were cascading outside of the car. Each snowflake was so beautiful and pure. Just like my little girl.

RIP Lydia Snow Niccals

Wow, I made myself get all emotional writing this.

Don't worry 2D, Amy Lee makes me cry too. :/

I hoped you guys enjoyed, and I hope I made you feel something…

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-I don't own Evanescence, Amy Lee, or the song Hello.