Okay, the clear up some confusion in the last chapter, the reason Lena and Wesley have blonde hair is because 2D had blonde hair before it was blue, or at least in my story. Sorry if you guys were confused! ;)

Enjoy this new chapter!

Murdoc P.O.V

2D and the twins had to stay in the hospital for a few days, it was just standard procedure for premature births. Still, it scared me. What if they found something wrong? What if Wesley or Lena were sick? What if 2D's stitches became infected? What if I was overreacting? I liked the last option the best. Thankfully, that was the right answer. It was the day that we finally allowed to go home, and everything was perfectly fine. The hard chair that held my weight was placed right on the side of 2D's bed. As soon as the nurse would leave the room, I would reclaim my spot on the bed, snuggled close to 2D. Our hands were tangled together, keeping the other warm. My thumb moved in circles on the back of his hand. The room seemed small as the middle aged male nurse moved back and fourth.

"Before we release you, Mr. Stuart, do you have any questions about childcare?" he asked. 2D looked thoughtful.

"Err, I can't really think of anything… I'm just nervous I guess." I held his hand a little tighter after he answered. The nurse nodded.

"That's very normal for first time parents. If you think of any questions, or would like some help with anything, feel free to call anytime." I said with a smile and handed 2D a small card with a phone number.

"Thanks." the singer seemed relived to have a helping hand that actually knew what to do when something went wrong. Both of us were kind of clueless…

"Okay guys. I'll be right back with the babies." he said and disappeared from the room. 2D turned to face me.

"I'm scared." he whispered. Even if he was freighted about the future, his eyes still held excitement. If he was scared, than I was about to shit my pants. I didn't trust myself. How could I? Thinking of all the things I've said and done makes me want to spent the rest of my days under a rock. I could just picture it. 2D calling child protective services on me because of my drunken rage. It was bound to happen, there was no doubt in my mind. Finally, I replied the only thing I could think to say.

"Me too."

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Murdoc P.O.V

Two car seats, two cribs, two pacifiers, two parents that were scared as hell. Perfect. My car moved about ten miles under the speed limit as the four of us bounced down the road. 2D was seated in the back seat, so he could keep a better eye on the babies.

"Slow down!" 2D warned after we hit a small speed bump.

"2D, if I go any slower, we'll be pulled over for going to slow." he nodded at my logic.

"We're almost there, don't worry." if only I could take my own advice. I felt my legs shaking as if they were made of Jell-O that had just been flicked. With some reassuring deep breaths, we inched closer to Kong. The nursery had been set up in one of the many unused rooms that our home had to offer. The plan was that 2D and I would move into one of the rooms across from the nursery. Everything was set, we were all ready, except my mind set. All I could feel was worry and dread. My heart began to speed up as Kong came into view. Its large and dark exterior seemed to tease and mock me, saying that I was only one small man. The wheels of the car slowly crept up the long road that lead to the front doors. Noodle and Russel had come up the hospital a few day ago, so that had already seen the bundles of joy. Well, here we are. Home with two babies. Babies that need to be feed, changed, bathed… what the hell have I gotten myself into? Finally, the car clamed its place in the car park.

"Ready?" I asked 2D. He nodded, and began unbuckling the car seats. Again, Lena was the only one who slept. Her brother was wide awake, staring at nothing, the usually. Even the doctors said it was odd for him to be so observant so soon. Noodle and Russel could be seen standing in front of the door, waiting. Noodle bounced up and down on her heels with anticipation. Russel stood with a hand planted firmly on the tiny girl's shoulder, a smile graced his face. It was only a matter of time before I would disappoint them all. With a sigh, I turned off the car and took a step out. I took Wesley while 2D held the sleeping Lena tightly. He placed a small kiss to her small cheek, and we gently made our way over to the entrance. Wesley's tiny hands twitched and moved wildly. Coos excepted his mouth.

"Someone's excited." I smiled down at the child in my arms. He wiggled in reply. His blue one piece outfit was hidden under a blanket. His mop of blonde hair was hidden under a cap. But his eyes were exposed to all. Over the few days since his birth, his eyes grew more and more intense. Lena's were just as black, but they were missing the hint of red. Maybe it would come over time?

"So adorable!" Noodle cheered and rushed over to us. When she came to visit in the hospital, the nurses had to tear her away from them.

"Congratulations guys." Russel said with a friendly pat to our backs.

"Hello little ones, I'm your big sister, Noodle." she properly introduced herself. Standing on her toes, she touched her lips down on both of their heads. Lean began to stir, and slowly popped her big deer eyes open. A whimper left her lips, the warming sign she gives off when she's about to cry. And she didn't just cry, she screamed, and yelled until she was almost blue. Thankfully, her brother was much calmer, only shedding a few tears when hungry or wet. Just as I thought, Lena took in a large breath and released it in the form of a scream. Her eyes grew puffy and swollen. Noodle's eyes grew wide with shock.

"I'm sorry! What did I do?" she said with worry.

"It's okay Noodle, she just doesn't like being woken up." 2D reassured the small girl. Still, she looked sorry. 2D lifted Lena in a better position and bounced her up and down. After a minuet or two the screams died down to whimpers, then stopped all together.

"See, everything's fine." I told Noodle. She nodded and took a few steps back, like she was afraid to make them cry again.

"Lets go inside. It's kind of cool out here." I suggested. Winter was long gone, but it was still nippy outside. The six of us made our way inside. Wesley was pressed close to my chest, I could feel drool seeping through my shirt, sticking to my skin. Gross. I pulled him back and wiped his mouth clean. He was so fragile and small, so easily broken. These two children needed me. I felt my arms quaking as we made our way to the elevator. The high pitched ding sounded off, 2D was the first one to enter, I followed close behind. Noodle and Russel stayed behind in the living room. I was beginning to have doubts about everything. This wasn't going to work. As soon as it started getting tough I would leave. I would retreat back to my bottles. I felt like I need a drink right then! With some deep breathes I started to try and clam myself down. 2D noticed my anxiety.

"What's wrong Muds?" he asked concerned.

"I'm just… terrified. I don't know if I can do this." I looked down at the silver floor of the elevator. Stuart looked over at me surprised.

"What are you talking about Murdoc? Don't be stupid." he said worried. His worry probably came from the fear of me leaving him. Guilt rushed over me for even thinking of abandoning him with Lena and Wesley. Another dig rang out, alerting us that we were at our destination. I tied to move out, but 2D grabbed onto my neck.

"Wait. Murdoc, you should know that I'll be here with you. We're not doing this alone, we have each other, so shut up. You are going to do wonderful, okay?" I nodded even thought I didn't agree with his comforting words.

"Okay. I'm sorry." I said and moved from the elevator. This time 2D waited until I actually out before he grabbed at me.

"I'm serious Murdoc! You are nothing like your father, I know he is what this is all about." 2D said smugly.

"I am exactly like him! It will only get worse, and something terrible is going to happen!" I exploded, causing Lena to grumble slightly.

"See, It's started already." I pointed to the child.

"Stop it. If I thought you were going to be a horrible father, than I would have never had these children." he pointed a finger into my chest, while his other arm was wrapped tightly around Lena.

"2D… I just don't know. He's my dad. How can I not be like him? It's in my blood." I whispered. This was all starting to become to much. It was all to real.

"You've never hurt Noodle, have you?"

"No, but Noodle isn't my daughter. I can just feel it Stuart, I can feel how bad I'm going to screw up."

"Well, it you keep thinking that, then it will happen. Can you at least try and be positive? Please?" I nodded and hung my head. 2D moved closer to me, and placed a hand on my cheek. He tipped his lips until they met with mine.

"I love you. You can do this Murdoc." my lips turned up into a smile.

"I love you too, Stuart." We entered the pink and blur nursery. One crib was painted a soft yellow, and the other a light blue. They rested on different sides of the room. In the corner was a wooden rocking chair. A Varity of stuffed animals rested on the floor. Some of them basic, other a little unorthodox, like the little red devil made of plush fabrics, my decision of course. There were small touches of Gorillaz hidden around the large room, but other than that it was pretty much a basic nursery.

"Well. We finally did it. Remember when I first wanted a baby? That was so long ago." 2D daydreamed. I looked back myself, I allowed myself to remember all the things that lead to this moment. All the hear ache, all the screaming, all the tears, Lydia… We've come so far since then, and we still had a lot more road ahead of us. Road that I was not ready to drive on.

Well, there you have it! I hoped you guys liked it. If you review it would mean so much to me. I can't wait to hear what you guys think!

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Sound Track: If You Can't Hang by Sleeping With Sirens.

Take One Last Breath by Abandon All Ships.

What's My Age Again by Blink182

Empire Ants by Gorillaz

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