*AN* After a long Hiatus I am finally back to uploading. I was going to wait until after Christmas or after New Years but this story that I am currently writing was getting long and I didnt want to lose track of Chapters. Just a word of warning this is a bit long winded I guess and I hate that it has gotten that way but I'm at a loss of whether I should go back and change or continue on, I want to do both but at the same time I'm a bit satisfied with the work I have. I took a guess at the amount of chapters and it's roughly already in the 20's and it's not quite done yet or even close to it. I'm working on a plot twist in the story right now and I'm trying to see how it is playing out or if it is going to work so bear with me as I upload chapter sporadically or whatever.

As a word of warning, the first few chapters only mention BTR as far as names, they dont get any speaking parts for a while. The bigger parts come later and will eventually surround Kendall and my OC Katie. Bear in mind that this is another alternate version of meeting BTR for the first time and becoming famous in order to meet them. I found this idea in my notebook from over the summer and I wanted to put it into a story and I somehow came up with this long story although it follows the main plot a lot in the beginning. While this follows the characters of BTR, some of the details might follow the real life BTR such as having their own show, living on their own, etc but I put in background for each similarity to kind of separate it from the real BTR.

I'll upload the first couple chapters until I at least get to some main BTR stuff and then the uploads will come randomly after that. I have more free time now that I am on vacation from school but I still have so much to do. Enjoy the story thus far and I will keep working on it or leave it as is and just create some alternate endings or even a condensed version if I need to or want to. Also as a word of warning, there is a lot of dialogue in this story in several chapters. As such, some of the more long winded conversations will be color/font coded to alleviate he said/ she said redundancy. Any time this method is used I will put a key code in the AN however in the event that I might forget, the first few lines of dialogue will have some sort of possession regarding who said what; that way you can figure it out for yourself if you had to.

PS- When I hard began writing this story, I had assumed it would be shorter than it is now. As I'm editing the tory I realized that the ages are off in accordance to the time line of the plot. this chapter my character should be 16-17 y/o as should the guys. By the time the time line reaches to the point I am at now (currently being written), they should be 22-24. I apologize for this confusion but hopefully I can put some hints/reminders where they might be needed. *

Katie received the script later in the day but she wanted to get the grading done so she worked on that first. Once she finished she looked over the page of text that she got, her lines circled, it was for a different character this time though. There were notes at the bottom from Kevin, instructing her to make 2 tapes, and read both sets of lines separately to give herself a chance at another part that was still open, in case the first one wasn't available. The 2nd part was more of a main role, it was actually the main character and she wasn't sure if she could handle that but she gave it her best shot anyway. She was more relaxed in her office on her own and not being watched as she practiced her lines.

She spent 2 days working on her lines and getting pumped, trying out different ways to say it and putting the emotion behind it. The script had brackets of notes that described how the character was standing, what he/she was doing or talking to and how they were feeling so it helped when trying to incorporate it into the actual motions. She didn't want to rush the audition but she did want to get it done in private and time was running out. She did her best, going over it carefully and left it unedited like Kevin wanted before sending it to the addresses he sent. Kevin emailed her back telling her he received it and later she received word from the staff of the project on their receipt of her tape.

Satisfied, she took the day off to chill out now that the hard work was done. All she had to do now was wait and it was going to be difficult. The academy opened up right after new years and Katie was busy teaching classes for the first few days before breaking for her own classes and the new semester at school. She had a good break but she couldn't help but think about the audition all the time, so much so that her grades slipped a bit as she handed in sloppy work. She kept up with it enough and by spring break she needed a break. She stayed in CT and kept herself busy at the Academy before forgetting all about the audition and jumped back into school when spring break was over. 3 days after spring break ended, Katie got a call from Kevin and she felt low when she heard the tone in his voice.

"Hey Katie, sorry to be the bearer of bad news but you didn't get the part. I know this must be rough, you came so far on your first audition, only to be left out in the end. I warned you though, but I'm still sorry about that." Kevin wanted to cry but she stayed strong but did let some sadness seep through.

"I know, I tried that's all that matters I suppose. It would have been nice to make a name for myself on the big screen though but I just got to take the good with the bad and accept the fact I just wasn't it. The show needs the right people to make it happen, right?" Katie replied

"Yes it does. You're taking it well." Kevin said

"I'm trying. I'm actually quite bummed I didn't get the part but I don't want to be spoiled or greedy. If I do that and I get another chance to audition for something else down the road, no one is going to want to work with me or hire me." Katie explained

"Right. We need more Hollywood stars like you, you know how things work! Anyway I have to get going, I have a lot of work to do but I'll keep in touch, I liked your style and so did a few other staff members, you are definitely on our favorites list!" Kevin assured

"Thanks, Kevin. It was great working with you!" She said

"You too, have a good day." he said ending the conversation.

"Good bye." she replied before slowly going to hang up the phone.

"Wait a minute, Katie!" Kevin called out

"Yes?" she replied

"I have some notes here that I didn't see before…hold on, let me read them real quick." he began as he mumbled through the words "Oh I see. Yeah, you didn't get the part you auditioned for, sorry to have to repeat it, however you did get the main role of the show; it's yours if you choose to accept it." Kevin said calmly. Katie was quiet for a moment, trying to retrace the words he just said.

"..W-What..?" she stammered in disbelief

"You won the lead role of Kylee, the under dog and lead role in TOSHS. The staff really enjoyed your moving audition and they believe you would be perfect for it. Keep in mind that these are professionals and they have been doing this for a while. You may not think you have what it takes but they do, if you're willing to give it a go, they are willing to give you the chance to make the show yours." Kevin said.

"I don't know what to say…I mean I've been thinking about this moment since I first auditioned but when I made the second cut I couldn't believe how close I was and now that it's actually staring me in the face, I'm more nervous than ever."

"Well, you don't have to decide right now, you'll have a week or more to decide as the show gets its bearings. Sets need to be made, more cast needs to be assigned and more. Even if you accept the part now, there is a 99% chance that you will be kept however, there are several times when the cast is put together to make faux episodes and see how well you will all click together. Sometimes people just don't get along with each other and although that isn't a deciding factor when replacing cast members, its certainly an option. Your personality is great and so is your acting so any problems that will arise will most likely be with other cast members so don't let it influence your choice." Kevin was met with silence so he continued on "If you need some advice, I say go for it. This is a once in a life time opportunity, especially to get this far and essentially be handed your future and then just throw it away like nothing. Take the dive and start swimming, the more you try, the more chance you have of staying afloat. You never know what might happen unless you try."

"Its still a big decision. I mean, I'll be finished with school by the time all this settles and I can spend my summer in LA if I have to. I can put school on hold as well, or take online classes if I had to, but how do I explain this to my parents? They didn't take the idea of my spending 1 week in LA to well, let alone, stopping my schooling to do acting." she began. "The more I think about it the more I want to do this but at the same time, I'm at a catch 22. All the more reason that I need some time to think this over and think things through." Katie said.

"Absolutely, by all means take your time, I understand completely. This is a big step in your life and you want to be sure its what you want to do and that you're doing it right. I'll get back to you with some deadlines to get back to me by. Take your time and don't panic, and good luck with everything, Katie." Kevin said.

"Thanks, Kevin." she said, hanging up the phone for real this time. Katie sat back for a while and got lost in her thoughts until her best friend and co-worker, Liam, came into her office.

"Oh, Katie. I didn't know you were here; I was wondering why the halls were lit up. Everything alright?" he asked

"Sort of I guess, its complicated." she replied

"What's up? I got time." he said coming into her office

"I don't know where to begin but I really could use someone to talk to." she hinted

"Chat away!" Liam said, sitting down on her couch.

"Well, it started over the summer…" she began and she told him her tale. She recounted ll the details that had happened thus far to fill him in as he listened intently. "And now I'm sort of stuck, I want to go for it and who knows maybe it'd be the leap of faith that I need, the one that will change my life for the better. But at the same time, I'm afraid to leave. I don't know what to do. I know the answer is obvious that I should do it but something is still holding me back and….I just…" she trailed off, tears starting to leak from her eyes as she hid her face in her hands.

"I really don't know what to say to be honest. I'm kind of jealous that you got offered the chance of a lifetime but at the same time, I'm happy for you. I don't know if I can be the neutral voice you're looking for. If you throw this chance away, regardless if it just feel into your lap or not, it's a waste and you'll regret it for the rest of your life. You'll always be wondering what could have been if you had taken the job. Your life could get better or it could get worse. I cant sit here and honestly say that you should go for it and that I wont miss you. We've been friends all this time and you gave me an option that involves up and leaving me behind and I just have to accept that and the fact that you may turn into some Hollywood Diva who's going to forget the little people that got you there in the first place? I cant do it. I gave you the options but I cant give you the answers." he said, standing abruptly. He stopped as he reached the door and sighed. "I know that wasn't what you wanted to hear from me but I am a tad hurt. You need to do what is right for you, not me. Stop stepping around everyone's feelings and just do for yourself for once. I'll miss you a lot if you go but I'll be behind you every step of the way as long as you promise not to forget me." he continued as he exited, slightly slamming the door behind him. He walked down the hallway and back to the kennel before sliding to the floor in a heap of emotion.

Katie was left alone in her office, still confused as ever, if not more so and couldn't help but let the waterworks flow. Her dog Shadow nudged her in the side, not liking her sadness and just stayed with her, letting her hold him tightly as she cried into his fur. Katie's mind flooded with so many reasons not to go but she desperately wanted and needed change in her life, she needed to be recognized for something, she wanted a chance to prove to everyone that she wasn't a failure. Sure she ran this empire of a dog school but the fact that she inherited the school overlooked all of the building she did to it when it was in previous hands. She wanted to make new friends, she wanted to be the person that most people would lie, she wanted recognition and that just wasn't happening here.

The problem was, she couldn't leave home. She was an only child and her parents had always been over protective. That and Katie knew of no one else to turn to when things got rough. Her family and life as a whole were falling apart and nothing seemed to help, she took verbal abuse from her family, school mates and even strangers as they criticized and ostracized her based on rumors that just appeared out of nowhere. She had been tied on a leash to her parents so long that she didn't know any other way to live. Even if she wanted to go and pursue this career for as long as she could, would she be physically able to go?
She gave it some more thought and thought of ways to bring it up, even playing out conversations in her head. She decided to bite the bullet and packed up her stuff to go home. Once she was there, the negative tension in the air was thick, she wasn't greeted at the door and she had to make her own dinner. No on talked at all and she decided best to keep this to herself until things seemed to cool down a little bit. Things seemed a bit better when she woke up the next morning, her dad had left for work and her mom was doing some cleaning, fighting with the inanimate objects that wouldn't fit in the cupboard, with her leftover anger from the night before.

Katie didn't get any words in before her mom went off on a rant about the night before and everything that her and Katie's father argued about. Katie listened half heartedly, mostly hearing the same complaints as before, while she grabbed a cookie for breakfast. She waited for a bit before cutting her mom off, which she regretted almost instantly for fear her mom would rip into her. Katie was so nervous about the conversation she desperately wanted to have and had no idea where to start or how to explain it. She thought it was best to at least get it out in the open and hope for the best.

"I know what you're saying is important and all but it's all stuff that I have heard before. I know that lately, you guys havent been getting along and its taking a toll on all of us. But I've just had something on my mind for the longest time and I want to get it out in the open. I've been doing a lot of thinking about this and I'm not sure how it's going to affect everyone but that's why I want some opinions."

"Oh." her mom stated calmly, she sensed the seriousness of the tone and paid full attention to her daughter. "Well, then let's talk."

"Easier said then done…" Katie sighed

"Honey, you know you can talk to me about anything." her mom urged

"I know, but this is something completely different." Katie replied

"How so?" her mom asked

"Well, you have to hear me out first, don't start jumping to conclusions or cutting me off with questions or opinions. Its fairly important but not life threatening and nothing bad." She started. She was silent for a moment, waiting for her mom to ask a question or say something but when met with silence, she continued. "Remember over the summer when I went to LA to meet Big Time Rush, see how an episode is made and all that?"

"Yeah…"

"Well, a little more happened. Like I said, nothing bad. I made a friend while I was there, a girl named Jess; she stays at the bunkhouse where I stayed, living with other actresses. All of them are generic extras or any and all of the TV shows and movies shot on the grounds. Jess says, she's been in at least 6 shows."

"Well that's nice. I'm glad you made a friend."

"It gets better. Thanks to her, I even got a spot on BTR's show. I'll be laying on a lounger next to James and also handing out smoothies. The show finished early and I had a few free days to myself and I went with Jess to work and got another spot on the show she was working on that week. Anyway, after all was said and done, she mentioned that for fun, a lot of 'newbies' try out for an acting job just for fun while in LA; you know to test their skills and see if they have anything to offer. Well, I did just that, for a show being produced on Kid's Network TV."

"Oh! How was it?!"

"It was nerve wracking to be honest but it went over pretty well."

"That's good. As long as you had fun. Did you get any feedback from the director or whoever does those casting calls?"

"I did."

"What did he say?"

"He told me that the part that I tried out for, I didn't get."

"Oh no!"

"Yeah, I was kind of down but at the same time, I don't have an acting or singing background like most of the people in that town."

"But you are good at it! You've done your share of plays and solos"

"That's different than official Hollywood business, Mom. Those silly little plays and Christmas songs, have no merit in Hollywood. I just did this for fun and wasn't expecting much out of it. I thought I bombed though, I was so nervous I didn't think my audition tape would even make it to being viewed. I thought the guy would just delete it after I left!" Katie smiled. "I learned a lot about acting and how things work while I was in LA though, it's pretty cool to see first hand how your favorite TV shows are made and what goes into creating them."

"Well I'm glad you had fun. Who knows when you'd be able to experience it again."

"That's kind of what I wanted to talk about."

"Oh?"

"Yeah, see when the audition guy, Kevin, called to tell me that I didn't get the role I originally tried out for, he told me at the end that I actually got the lead role in the show."

"The lead role?"

"Yeah, I tried out for a side kick role or supporting character but I guess the casting people enjoyed my audition and saw me as a better fit as the main character instead. I'd have my own show on Kids Network."

"Honey, that's great! I'm so proud of you! When does it start?"

"I don't know yet, they still need to find other cast members, build the sets and outline the show, they only have the pilot half way done."

"Well, as long as it's during the summer so it doesn't interfere with your schooling."

"That's the thing, it shoots in LA so I have to move out there for as long as it takes. School will have to be put on hold. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I don't want to pass it up. Yes I'm nervous, yes I'm scared but I think this might just be the change that I need in my life. Not only that, I'll be making some decent money, we can finally move out of this lowly town and get the house of our dreams! No more waiting and wishing on winning the lottery, something that will never happen! This chance to be famous is just as rare but at least its here; I'm taking the chance of a lifetime, this could make or break me as a person but I really need my life to change."

"Well, if its really what you want. I don't really think it's best but I do want a change to and if the option is there to make our lives better the way we want, I say go for it. Once the shoe ends and you arent as busy, you'll go back to school right?"

"Most likely. Depending on how my schedule turns out, I might be able to take a class or two online. Since I'm close to graduating, I'm not just going to drop out and forget about it; just taking a break. Depending on how big of a success the show becomes, I probably wont have too much to do when we arent filming so maybe I can fit in a light semester during that time. It'll take a little longer to finish but at least I wont be quitting."

"As long as you finish. You'll need to run this by your father. He's not going to let you go easily. In fact he's not going to believe you; I don't believe you to be honest."

"Didn't think you would but I'll take it. I don't know what life is like outside these walls, and I'm taking the biggest risk ever, I could be a complete failure at this and make my life worse. I'm leaving everything that is good and stable behind and going for something that isn't going to last, I know that but I still want to go for it. I just want to know if you'll stand behind me all the way, if I fail will I have a place to come home to?"

"Of course! We arent going anywhere and whatever you decide, we'll be here. And if your father isn't, I will be!" her mom assured, pulling her daughter into a hug.