With the holidays coming up fairly quick and Summer just about over, there was much work to be done before the stars broke for their breaks. Katie had been in and out of meetings as a head director, writer and producer of her show, to discuss the current standing of the show as a whole. Merchandise was flying off shelves and letters of commending had poured in since the show first took off but the ideas and hardships had all been covered, there was nothing left except maybe to repeat a story but in a new way. Katie didn't want the show to end but there wasn't much to offer.

A few specials, and a movie would be created before sign off but the show was at the end of it's road. Katie had an idea to ask the audience what they might like to see, what is something they deal with that should be covered in the show? She took to twitter to survey her fans and she had many responses, most of which had already been done but with a slightly different twist. After a week of reading responses she found only one new idea and the writers gave it a shot to see what they could come up with. Other than that it was agreed that season 8 was the last run and the wrap party and all the final preps had begun.
Katie was sad that her show was ending but she wasn't going to leave LA right away, the offers for new shows had already started pouring in once the news started to slowly leak out amongst inside sources. Once it hit the media and the public, no doubt shit would hit the fan and she wasn't sure if she was ready for all of the hate, disappointment and saddened emotions. She'd still make quite a kick back as re-runs played, she appeared in updated promos and network commercials as well as from merchandise, she wasn't going to be suddenly poor; plus she had all of her money saved up to live on. She'd get into a new show but not for a while; instead she'd just stick with BTR Lifestyles and commercials.

Lifestyles had finished up its season a while ago but now it was going to get more intense and cameras would be in their faces almost constantly. Kendall had a few ideas to try and get the new season the big start it needed. The season would finish airing sometime in the summer and the show wouldn't start filming until a few months later. As he pieced together everything, he and Katie had already announced their relationship and congratulations from cast, crew, friends and family had abound! It also came out that they had been dating for about 2 years already and were finally comfortable letting the public know. Of course when Katie's show cancellation would come later, her relationship would be blamed for it but it had nothing to do with it.

After a long day, Katie returned home to find the house empty; she expected Kendall to be there like he always was but he wasn't. Mrs. Knight had yet to return home, in fact she was goin to do some traveling and return home to Minnesota to continue her life before packing up everything and moving to LA. Katie and Kendall were on their own now and she was confident that the two could care for themselves now that it was confirmed they were dating. Katie was a bit scared to be alone, almost starting her own life so far from home. Coming home to an empty and dark house wasn't helping; she wasn't afraid of the dark, she was just afraid of what could be in it. She had grown up in a town that was never safe, always having to watch over her shoulder; when she was in high school her parents finally decided to pack up and leave the family homestead after having 7 murders in the course of 3 months. She made her way to the kitchen, turning on lights as she went and grabbed some water before heading to her room and locking herself inside. Taped to her laptop was a note; she pulled it off carefully and opened it to see Kendall's writing. Her heart skipped a beat as she read the first few lines.

"Katie,
I hope you find this letter in good time. As you know, I've been very busy the last few days and each day I was away from you hurt a lot but as the saying goes, 'absence makes the heart grow fonder' or is it stronger? Hmm, which ever the case, know that I will miss you in the coming days as I and the others have had to take a quick trip across the world to begin some promotional advertising for our album coming out next year. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner, this was kind of sprung on me at the last minute. I had only a few days to pack and prepare and with your busy schedule, we just didn't get to see much of each other unfortunately. Our whole trip is being documented for the TV show and I'll be checking in on you when I can. I will be back before the holidays, although I know you will be leaving for home as soon as December rolls around. I hope we cross paths before you leave but if not, I wish you a Merry Christmas and I'll see you next year.
Love,
Kendall.
P.S. I know the house is going to be quite empty and possibly a bit scary by yourself without my mom there so don't be afraid to ask if you can crash with Camille or Lucy for a few nights each. I'm sure they wont mind."

She put the letter down and sighed. She was going to be alone for a while a few weeks at least. She didn't want to stay in the house alone at night but it was too late to call someone so she had no choice but to stick it out for the night. It was tough going and she didn't fall asleep for a while, every noise making her heart skip a beat. Despite both celebs love for animals, there wasn't an animal to be had in the large house, making the strange sounds even more daunting. Soon she fell asleep and in the morning she was quite groggy and tired. She grabbed a quick breakfast and some water before heading out the door.

She slept through most of her meeting and although the other executives weren't too pleased, they let it slide having worked her so hard the past few days. She still completed her work on time and actually finished early and she was free to go for the holiday season after only a week. She thanked Camille for letting her stay and went home to pack her things to go home. She wanted to get back home as soon as possible but hated the thought of leaving Kendall to think she was still there. She tried several times to reach him and even tried traveling crew members but still she got nothing. Instead she wrote him a quick note and left it in his room. She shut the house down and locked it up before taking a cab to the airport.

Once she was back home in Connecticut, she grabbed her bags and found her limo driver she had called to pick her up and began her hour long journey home in peace. It was late when she came home so she walked around the house to go through the basement door, where her bedroom was. She turned on the lights and set down her bags in the corner but when she turned around, her bedroom was gone. Instead she was met with stacks of boxes and a new and improved family room. She just stood stunned at the change and looked around the corner for her room but everything was gone, even her mini fridge and microwave in her makeshift kitchen.

She was frustrated and disappointed but was too tired to do anything about it now. She dug a blanket out of one of the boxes and settled in on the couch for the night. The next morning she awoke to her name being called and to being shaken. Her dog Shadow had been staring at the basement door since early this morning and alerted her parents to her arrival. They went down stairs to see her sound asleep on the couch.

"What are you doing down here?" her father asked

"Last I checked, this used to be my bedroom…doesn't look like it anymore though…Want me out of the house completely now?"

"No! We moved everything upstairs after moving things around in the other rooms. We had some remodeling done and changed the great room into a master bedroom and gave you the original one upstairs!" Her mom said happily

"We were going to surprise you with it when you were scheduled to come home next week." Her father added

"Oh. Yeah, I got finished early so I thought I'd come home early, I missed being home. I spent the last week couch surfing with some friends. Mrs. Knight went on a 2 month vacation then decided to stay in Minnesota to resume her life before dropping everything to escort Big Time Rush to LA. It was just me and Kendall for a while; we barely saw each other, one of us was usually in bed by the time the other came home. Plus he left last week to go on a promotional tour in Europe so it got a bit scary to stay in that big house by myself. It'd be one thing if there were some animals but it was just me." She explained.

"Well you can stay here as long as you want or need too! Get some breakfast then check out your new room. We put everything in boxes so you'll have to unpack and sort everything on your own; that way you can decided where to put everything and now you have more than enough room." her father said, patting her on the shoulder.

He really didn't like her being on the other side of the country, nor did he like her spending time with so many guys without supervision. He had some tab on her whereabouts when he watched BTR Lifestyles or when her mom showed him some articles in magazines. It kept him occupied but it wasn't exactly what he wanted. He was happy that she was happy and having fun although he was concerned for her safety after hearing about Walter's arrest although only her mom knew the whole story. He helped bring her bags upstairs and then left for work and her mom started drilling her with several questions. Katie didn't want to answer any of them at the moment, what she wanted was to go upstairs to her new room and sleep for a few hours. But her mom had other plans after digging out a magazine article she kept stashed in a file box. It was from a magazine printed a few months ago.

"I havent shown your father this yet, but I thought you should see this first before you start spilling." she said, sliding the magazine to Katie. Katie put her drink down and looked at the article for a second before picking it up and skimming it.

"Is Kendall Knight dating his costar, Katie Pryszweic? What are their future plans? The duo was spotted grocery shopping together and live in a secluded and gated community outside of LA." Katie read. She trailed off knowing exactly what her mom wanted to know. She looked up to see her mom with another article that confirmed the two had been dating for a while. "Ok, Ok, I'm dating Kendall. It's true I'm not going to deny it. I appreciate your concern but I checked him over and tested the waters and I do like him. He's just as sweet as I thought he was; he's patient, gentle, kind and funny. I havent crawled into bed with him if that's what you're thinking or want to know and even if I did, honestly I'm not going to share that. I'm taking things slow enough as it is and it's safe to assume that things are going well. But then again who knows, maybe we only like each other so much because we don't see each other often. We have different schedules and work in 2 different places; but that's what dating is all about, trial and error, what work and what doesn't."

Katie trailed off and let her mom continue her side of the discussion. Katie took in her moms words of caution and concern; Katie couldn't help but think that after what she said her self and her mom's words that maybe there was another reason why the relationship was working out so well. What if it was because they didn't spend all their time together. They didn't get a chance to get sick of each other or see each other at their worst. What if? She was totally bummed out now and full of thought about her seemingly stable relationship. She sat in bed for a while before she took a quick nap and woke up refreshed but still down at the entire conversation. She started unpacking and organizing her things to try and keep her mind off it. After spending a few hours cleaning, her phone started ringing so she took a much deserved break to answer it and didn't bother to look at the number.

"Hello?"

"Katie!"

"Hi, Kendall."

"Don't sound so enthusiastic!" he laughed off.

"Sorry, I've got a lot on my mind."

"is that why you rushed home?"

"How did you know?"

"Paparazzi caught you getting on a plane in a hurry. I was just calling in to see if everything was alright."

"Yeah, everything's fine I had finished my work early and was free to go so I packed up and went home early. I was really looking forward to it. I left you a note in your room explaining this."

"Oh ok, I'm still in Europe right now actually; I'll be here for another week. Tell me something, you don't sound like yourself, what's up and don't tell me you're tired because I can tell the difference."

"Well I had a discussion with my mom this morning; she showed me some articles that rumored and then confirmed us dating so she started asking all kinds of questions and…"

"And…? And what? You can tell me."

"I'm just…confused I guess you could say. I don't want to say second guessing this relationship, I'm just very, very confused and I don't know what to do or where to even begin." she said trying to hold back the tears. Kendall just stayed quiet, not sure what to say but also wanting to give her the chance to keep going. "In your letter, you said yourself that absence makes the heart grow stronger. What if that's true with us but on a different level? We don't spend that much time together, we havent seen each other at our worst, we've never argued, we havent gotten sick of each other yet."

"That's because we get along so well."

"But that's the point! What couple gets along this well? What relationship never has any turmoil?! How can we be so happy all the time when we never see each other? It doesn't add up; think about it, how many times have you and Logan, James and Carlos gotten into an argument?"

"We fight all the time; but we're still friends!"

"We don't fight because we're never in each others way. We can keep this charade up only until our careers end and then what are we supposed to do? How are we going to know if we can keep going with each other? I need some time to think this over; I don't want to keep going on the phone so just get your work done and get back home as soon as you can, safely. I'll talk to you soon." she said before hanging up. She set the phone down on the table and couldn't help but let the tears start to fall down her cheeks after holding them in for so long. She put her head in her hands and just cried for several minutes, her dog Shadow coming to comfort her, sensing her sadness.

Kendall still had his phone in his hand, stunned at her words. He tried to stop her from hanging up or at least say goodbye but the dial tone cut him off. He had no idea what to do and couldn't feel anything emotionally, not that he even knew what to feel that is. He was alone in his hotel room and wanted some time to himself to think about what just happened but his staff had other ideas. Kendall had to get ready for an interview that he was no longer emotionally prepared for; he couldn't think straight, his mind was a blur. He was distant towards his band mates and staff which was totally unlike him and they began to wonder what was going on.

Kendall went on stage to do his thing and although he felt like utter crap as his heart was breaking in two, he managed to pull himself together long enough to answer some questions and pretend like everything was ok. After some laughs and jokes their segment ended and they all returned to their dressing room where his band mates started interrogating him.

"Guys! I appreciate your concern, but I just want to be left alone for a little while, ok?" he said grabbing his coat. He started for the door when Logan piped up.

"Whenever your ready to talk or something, we're all here for you." he said sincerely. Kendall had his hand on the door knob and he bowed his head as he sighed.

"Yeah…I know…" he sighed. He opened the door and let it somewhat slam behind him as he left for the van. It wasn't ready so he just walked to the hotel which was a few blocks away. He put on a hat and sunglasses as well as his heavy trench coat since it was windy and rainy. It hid him well and no one would be able to recognize him as he made his way back to his hotel room in one piece. Once he was alone in the quiet room he was overcome by sheer sadness as he sank on the bed in tears.