Was it something I said or just my personality?
When you're caught in a lie and you've got nothing to hide
When you've got nowhere to run and you've got nothing inside
It tears right through me, you thought that you knew me
You thought that you knew
-Perfect by Hedley

That was one of the bad things about being imprisoned. You couldn't order people to leave you along. You couldn't even leave so you could escape the company of others. No matter how they dressed it up, the Avenger's mansion would always be an elaborate cell with Loki as its prisoner. Loki scratched a nail at his skin and tore off the small clumps of dead skin on the surface. Moments later, the small pink mark on his hand disappeared back into nothingness.

He was a god kept by mortal restraints, but in the end it seemed that he was still a god. He clawed again and his hand and this time drew blood that trickled down his wrist, but that too disappeared within minutes. Why? Why couldn't he just die already? The frost giants were able to die. Odin had killed his own father after all. If he was a frost giant then shouldn't Loki have been able to die as well?

Loki buried his face into his hands and bit his lip tightly. It was silly to be thinking these thoughts, that he knew, but he couldn't stop them from coming. He just wanted it to be over already. Two thousand years of pain was enough already. Was Odin laughing at him? Was Heimdall watching from his post as if Loki was some kind of entertainment? Was his suffering really that amusing? If the all-knowing Odin really knew all then why couldn't he have known of Loki's misery? He had to have known and he had to have condoned it.

Warm tears turned cold in his hands as he cried. Secretly he cursed the Asgardeans that watched him and took pleasure in this punishment. Life was more painful than death. He wanted it to be over already.

"My brother, are you awake? It is time for breakfast if you are willing." Thor's voice boomed through the thin door provided to him. Loki didn't answer. It wasn't as if they'd leave him alone anyways. After last night he didn't particularly want to talk to Thor anymore. Talking to him would make it hurt all over again because it would remind him of the things he couldn't have.

Sure enough, the doorknob twisted open and Thor stepped into the room. Loki couldn't help but notice that Thor seemed to glow as if he was basking in the heavenly radiance. Jealousy plagued Loki's heart as he looked at Thor. Hadn't humans had some sort of conflict like this a while ago? Was it not that all humans were equal whether or not they shared the same blood or the same skin? Why could it not be the same way in Asgard?

"I see you are already dressed, my brother. Come, let us go dine with the other inhabitants of this villa." Thor smiled amiably and walked over to Loki's beside and reached out a hand to help pull the other up. Loki swerved around the out-stretched hand and kept his distance away from the thunder god.

"You are not my brother, Odinsson. I thought I made that clear last night." Loki replied in a clipped tone. "But if you call me to eat then eat I must. You would not have it any other way, that I know." They obsessed over him too much to let him starve. Loki didn't doubt that they would force feed him or put an NG tube into him if it really came right down to it. Blast them and their worrying, he didn't want it.

"You may not consider me to be your brother, but I still consider you to be my brother." Thor's face softened as he gave a sad smile. It may have been meant to show compassion, but all Loki could see was a patronizing smile. "But yes, shall we go eat together?" Thor looped an arm around his brother and ignored his younger brother's struggles as he herded the man out into the hallway.

His metal wristband clicked as he was pulled out of the room. A glowing red light appeared on the side of the machine that signaled that the GPS tracker was turned on. Loki hated the thing. Not only did it give the avengers the perfect tool to stalk him with, but its primary function was to suck up his magical energy. It acted much like an arterial line, but constantly pulled out the energy before letting it dissipate into the air. The thing was a leech.

Loki stumbled in the elevator before the doors shut behind him. This was probably the one place in the entirety of the mansion where there were no cameras. Because of this, Thor would probably think it was the perfect time to have a heart to heart. "Brother, I want things to be made right between you and I. You and father as well. It pains me to see you like this." Yes, it was time for the heart to heart.

"There is nothing to be made right, Odinsson. Things are as they always have been and as they always will be. I do not see any reason to change from the status quo." Loki said flippantly as his eyes bore into the elevator. Why didn't the blasted thing move faster?

"It isn't right if you aren't happy." Thor said with a frown. "Don't deny what happened yesterday, brother. You aren't happy and I know it. Why are you so reluctant to change and let people change around you? We want what is best for you."

Loki looked up to face Thor's sad eyes before letting out a sigh. He would never get it, would he? "Odinsson, my happiness is of no consequence. I have come to terms with the fact that I am hated. I deserve to be hated. You and I both know the only reason I am not dead is because of your protection. Give up this farce already. It's prolonging things and it's painful for all parties involved."

Asgardeans all had regenerative qualities. The most notable of which was their ability to heal cuts and the second most notable was the reattachment of limbs. They did not regrow limbs like lizards because they needed to work with material that already existed. Something was never created out of nothing. Thus, the one of the only ways to kill an Asgardean was to dismember and wait for the limbs to decompose. As long as the heart and mind remained connected and as long as he had bones to continue blood production, Loki would never bleed out or die. The second of which was draining them of their entire life source. The only way for that to happen though was if the user forced the magic out or it was sucked out.

Loki wasn't particularly looking forward to being torn apart or being drained of his life energy, but he wanted it all to end already. Darkness was a luxury that only he seemed to enjoy.

"Brother," Thor's voice went cold as he stared down at his brother, "no matter what you think, I know you do not deserve to perish. Everyone can change, brother. It is not too late for you to reconcile with Asgard!"

Loki snapped. "Asgard needs to reconcile with me as well, brother." Loki said mockingly. "I can't apologize to people who feel no remorse. I will not grovel on the ground just to please self-righteous creatures that do not care for the feelings of others. The gods are selfish, Odinsson. Do not deny yourself that getting them to apologize is an impossibility."

"They do with to reconcile with you!" Thor thundered. "Ever since you left Asgard we had been searching for you."

Loki cut in. "Looking for me as if I am a lost dog. It does not mean they feel as if they have wronged me. I am a tool for amusement and nothing more." Loki drooped his head and stared at the flooring. "You may feel... sorry for me, but your pity is not what I want. Even if you somehow care for a wretch like me, I can assure you Odin would never feel such sentimental things like love. Least of all, he would never feel them towards me."

"I was only taken in because Bor had cursed Odin to do so. I am not wanted. I am the seed of guilt left in Odin for letting his father die. I might not even be saved of guilt. A mistake made by a spell of a dying man is what I am." Loki whispered.

The elevator binged as they reached the bottom floor and Loki rushed out and into the hallway. He didn't know he was hurrying out. Things would be no better once he arrived.

Due to the reception of the fic I decided to continue! I'm going to update this fanfiction on Tuesdays and Thursdays from now on at 9pm. (: Hopefully I'll see you all around! Review and tell me what you think? I'd really appreciate it. :DW