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I tried to wipe away my tears. Edward was my past, he never was mine and never will. I had to forget him at all cost. But I couldn't avoid the magnet that pulled me closer to him. It was something I could never explain.
A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts. "Bella?" Jacob opened the door and saw my red puffy eyes. "Are you okay?" I tried to smile just to tell him that I was okay, which was obious I wasn't. He sat down next to me and hugged me tight
"Are those tears for Edward?" I stood there in shock "H-how do you know?" Jacob looked right at my eyes. "He was your bestfriend, wasn't he?" He looked away and I suddenly got confused by his sudden anger. "You should have never became friends with the Cullens" I felt my hand turn into a fist and I was ready to punch Jacob. "You don't know them, they are good people!" I yelled and Jacob grabbed my hands "Sorry, I didn't mean that" His hands calmed me down and my anger started to fade away.
Then he hugged me again but this time I didn't want this moment to end. "The Cullens are probably good people, but look at what Edward did to you. He broke your heart and when you left he didn't try to find you." He was right. Edward never called me, not even send me a message when I went away. I bet he still doesn't know where I went to. Edward never cared about me. I started to sob and Jacob started to play with my hair while he whispered "Bella, it's okay"
All the emotions I had inside were now starting to come out with my tears. But in a weird way it felt right. I was getting everything out and Jacob was here for me. Was Jacob the reason I felt this way? I couldn't think clearly, Edward was still in my mind and blocking every thought.
"I'm sorry Jacob. Today is your birthday and you are with me in the bathroom while I cry like a baby" I said feeling bad about his involvement. It was true, nobody should spend their birthday with a depressed woman. "Why would you say that?" Jacob looked confused. "You still don't believe in yourself, Bella? You are an amazing woman and you don't even have a clue"
He started to play again with my hair and I closed my eyes enjoying it. "You are so beautiful, smart and a caring person. You have so many qualities that nobody else has" I looked down trying to ignore his stare as I said "Please stop. I'm not who you think I am. This is the first time we have talked. You don't even know me" My anger showed up again and Jacob got up "I do know you, not only I talked to you but also Charlie always talks about you. I know everything that has happened in your life"
Charlie always has been the proudest father. It was imposible to make him stop talking about me. Since I was a child I loved this about Charlie but at the same time it made me even more shy.
"I-I" Words couldn't come out of my mouth and the were no excuses I could use. "Look, I'm sorry. It's just that coming back has brought back all the memories and all the emotions I had locked inside" Not only seeing my house and my family was painful but also seeing kids playing in the streets, a family eating dinner and the Black's house were making me see flashbacks all the time, in which Edward was present.
"I know. Look I'll just go and when you are ready, you can come outside" I heard Jacob's voice and I nodded not bothering to look at him. He closed the door and I got up.
I tried to not to look broken from outside. I wash my hands and then rubbed the water in my face trying to calm me down. Edward wasn't here, Jacob was here and he always had tried to help me, he is a good friend. Give him a chance to help you to be your friend my heart said but at the same time it was so broken that it was hard to feel anything that wasn't sadness. I tried to think of Charlie and how broken he was but had to get up quickly because of me, he had to be strong for me, for her daughter. I needed to be strong now, for Charlie, he deserved it.
"Where were you Bella? Your father and I were looking everywhere for you" Sue looked at me as she looked confused but then her face changed as she noticed my puffy eyes. "Um... I'm sorry Sue, I was just-" Sue interrupted me "It's okay" She smiled "I can help you to hide those red eyes" She winked at me and took me upstairs.
"Bella! Wow! Last time I saw you, you were reading in a corner, what a shy girl you were! But now, you are a confident woman" Billy Black grinned as he hugged me again. Charlie always though that I considered Billy like my uncle but I always felt awkard with him, I'm not saying he was a bad person but it was hard to get along with him because of the fear I had to talk to people. Now that I don't have it I hope I can open myself to him, I don't know how I'm going to pretend to like him.
The day ended quickly, that was what I wanted myself to believe. Jacob was distant and would try to avoid anything that had to do with me, Billy kept talking to me and it started to get annoying just how much he wanted to impress me for Charlie and Sue was stealing Charlie everytime I would talk to him so he wouldn't notice how I felt about his 'family', eventhough Sue did it to help me having my dad taken away from me made me even more desperate.
Charlie and I said goodbye to everyone and got on the car. In the car I couldn't help to feel relaxed. I closed my eyes and started to remember more about Edward. Just then my voice sounded in my head tomorrow, tomorrow you will see him again. I gasped and Charlie looked at me curiously. "Charlie, can you stop here?" The car stopped and I quickly opened the door. "Bella, where are you going?" Charlie was confused but I couldn't tell him, he didn't need to know. "I'll get safe home, don't worry" I said to Charlie ignoring his previous question and ran as fast as my legs let me. Suddenly my breath was caught in the sight in front of me, the Cullen's house, Edward's house.
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