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my fav one because paige and nick finally speak again.
CHAPTER 4
Beautiful Samara could have anyone she wanted, it always has been that way, but she liked Emily, the fact that Emily rejected her that day, made Samara want this forbidden apple, and she wanted to taste it, her plan of becoming "partners" in Geography with Hannah worked, she wanted this to be different, but now she couldn't believe that this freshman was dumping her.
"You're breaking up with me? The blond asked again, making sure she heard right.
"y-yeah" Emily shaky, after all, it's never easy breaking up with someone weather you do or don't share the same mutual feelings with.
"Emily, if this is because of what Spencer might have told you…." Samara holding the brunette's hand
"Spencer?" she said with a –wtf face- now Emily was wondering, intrigue about it, she asked "what do you mean?"
"sh-she ….why are you ending this Emily?" the blond blurted out nervously, with a psychological answer.
"I…we rush, I rush things with you and i….why did you mention Spencer? Emily hated this conversation already, but she really wanted to end things with her, but why did she mention Spencer…she thought, why?
-sighs- "I'm sorry" -looking at the ground- "before you and I happened, I was seeing someone else, I didn't know how to break it off with her but I was going to"
Emily was shocked to hear this, feeling extremely stupid, she wanted to slap herself bad "you cheated….?" here she was feeling guilty….for having feelings for someone else. "and Spencer knew this?
Samara, didn't answer, she was quiet,
"Answer Samara"
The blond look up the sky, it was already dark, "I don't know how she found out, she didn't tell you because I practically beg her, to let me handle it, I say would tell you and I…"
"you weren't planning on telling me, right? Right!? Emily shaking her head
"no, yes, I mean yes I was going to tell you, Emily I do like you, a lot" Samara sincere but it was late.
"I don't feel the same for you, I thought I did but thing is my heart was already occupied" proud of her words "I was feeling guilty for having all these feelings for someone else but…. I have to go" smiling, nothing is stopping her now.
"wait Emily please, Please" Samara blue sad puppies eyes shine in the dark evening. Begging for forgiveness, for Emily to stay, holding Emily's hands.
"I can't, I've been waiting for so long, I don't hate you, I don't wanna waste your time either, I can't give you what you desire" said giving Samara a quick hug in a sign of peace, no holding grudges back.
"we could work this out" Samara added "please, Emily, everyone deserves a second chance, let me show you, prove to you how much I care"
"if you would have care, you would never done this" she backs off from the blond " Samara, i came here determinate to end this with you, I can't lie or continue being with you loving someone else, im sorry" she whispers.
Samara understood, there's was nothing there for her, she thought maybe it was her fault for not making an effort when Emily was into her? But since when has Emily been in love with? She took for granted Emily, no she was sorry, Emily is a great person, is better if she didn't rotten this beautiful perfect apple
"im truly sorry Emily, I wish things could be different but I screwed up big, I hope the person you love, loves you the way you deserve" Samara hugged Emily again as her tears wet Emily's face.
On her way back to her dorm, happy, smiling she couldn't wait to see Paige, to tell her and to confess all this feelings in her chest that built up, she can longer keep inside, how, she remember when Samara mention Spencer,….going through her contacts, -calling Spencer Hastings-….
"hey Em!" her friend said excitedly
"why didn't you tell me about Samara?" Her tone was sharp
"what, omg, because,I mean she said she was going to tell you, are you okay? Im sorry for not saying anything" Spencer worry her friend was going to be mad for centuries
"we broke up, well I ended things, not because of that, I had no idea, I don't think she was going to confess but how did you figure out ms. Hastings" Emily irritated already
"Paige told me, I mean she wasn't sure, why did you break up with Samara"
"Paige" she whispers dejected
"Em, are you there?" concerned about her friend
"yeah, I gotta go, talk to you later k? Emily told her friend with a confused agonized voice, what was going on she thought, Paige knew about Samara? Why didn't she tell me? Something in Emily felt broken, was it her trust? She felt betray….by the only person she was sure of never will do such a thing. She didn't want to see Paige right now, she was to umbrageous. Dials number…..
"can I come over?" she ask the blond
"Em! Yes of course" Hannah anxious without noticing anything, she just bought some new heels that were on sale at Nordstrom.
"that's Em" she tells her roommate, opening the door, "Emily?...sweety what happen?" there was no answer, Hannah concerned now, "please Em, talk to me" she tug her best friend into her arms….
After she sort of pulled herself together, Emily explained to her best friend what just happened with samara, the cheating, betrayal and confession of love.
"This is some Jerry Springer shit" Lenny smirk
"Lenny, not now" Hannah un-humorous turning to Emily, "are you asking her, I mean there could be an explanation to all of this"
"there's no excuse for her not telling me, I will ask, but right now, I just…, can I stay here tonight?"
"yeah, definitely" Hannah said.
"Em, what about Spencer?" "She should've told you, but maybe she thought it would be better if Samara told you, but…please don't hate her"
"are you her attorney now?"
"no I mean, is not Spencer fault's that blondie was sluttin' up" Hannah with a goofy smile
"okay im not mad at her….but can we just go to bed please?"
"indeed we shall" Hannah softly smile, hugging Emily.
Is 10pm, trying to contact her roommate, cell is off, maybe they're out holding hands kissing, maybe Emily went –home- with Samara? Does she know about Samara "friendly" friends? Is she okay with that? Paige couldn't sleep, word vomit, but Pru was probably with Jacob. This was going to be a long night. Not being able to sleep at all, Paige decided to get up extra early and do some laps before practice.
"Where there hell is Fields!" coach was furious, Emily didn't come home
"Coach, she had a burrito last night for dinner, food poisoning I believe, she constantly in the bathroom" Paige convincing, hoping coach wont caught her in the lie.
"alright McCullers, if you're lying, you and Fields will be in so much trouble, understood" coach said still furious
Paige nodded "yes coach"
-Text- (Emily Fields)
"hey, where are you?" (10pm)
"call me whenever you can" (5:30am)
"Coach was hulk this morning, I lie, food poisoning, don't get us in trouble: P" (10am)
No call, no text back, no sign of Emily, Paige unhappy; she covered up for her but this was hurting Paige thinking Emily's waking up next to Samara, she needed to get away, the dorm suddenly became a prison for her. She decided to visit Pru and have lunch with her at the Hub.
"She didn't come home last night" playing with her food.
"maybe she over slept at Hannah's? Cheering her best friend
"no she would've told me" placing her elbow on the table resting her face on her palm
"you need to tell her, Paige, just tell her, what's the worst that could happen? Pru annoy of her besty not opening up to anyone, and be happy. It is always like this with Paige
"She has a girlfriend" Paige stubborn putting her plate away.
"that's probably cheating" wiser respond
"maybe she's okay with it" she shrugged trying to convince herself but Paige knew better
"stop making excuses, you know damn well that Emily isn't like that, that girl is so playing Emily and she has no clue and you should tell her, and confess already, god Paige grow some balls" Pru said with the need of inhaling and exhaling air.
Paige heated shrugged "I don't know Pru it is not as easy as it seems" she knew Pru was right, she knew it was time to finish this. Before this turns into a big mess, that's what she thought not knowing… -Phone rings-
"We need to talk immediately, im here outside your building" Nick McCullers with a demanding tone.
"I gotta go, lord voldemort ah-waits" unhappy as if…..
"What? Now, what is he doing here? Wrinkling her face…"ugh Listen call me when that bottom feeding vulture stops sucking the life out of you"
Paige smirk nodding yes, walking away ready for whatever the future brings. She haven't spoke to Nick McCullers since her last visit "No, let me speak, I've listen to your voice for long, stuck in my head, it's my turn dad, please hear me out" she let it out with hesitating "im in love, I finally know what you and mom meant when you talked about love, I see it now father….I can't hide this, I can't pretend anymore….(she pauses and without thinking twice she says those two words knowing that saying out loud will change everything for her forever but change is good she thought), Im Gay, and in love.
Emily decides to confront her roommate and have her explain, why she didn't tell her about Samara, she thought they really share everything,
"hey Emily, hey" Pru smiling
"hi" unwelcoming voice
"so Paige's has been looking for you"
"oh, where is she now?"
"her dad is here, he probably needs her to go with him to one of those campaigns, she probably will just have to agree"
"well for once she needs to come through" Emily's tone wasn't sweet
"im sorry, did I miss something here" Pru catching the girl's acrimony
" she probably told you, didn't she" Emily interrogating Pru
"you know what dude, you should probably informed yourself before assuming anything" Pru displeasure of Emily's attitude, she walks away before she snaps.
She opens the door, she throws herself on her bed, feels like she haven't been –home- in ages, she wonders what Pru meant…as she opens her drawer to get clean clothes, she spots the envelope that she has been avoiding for so long, she exhales big, but she too angry that just want to confront Paige for hidden something like that.
"what's this" Nick McCullers said furious about a Hospital bill "what happen, Paige?"
"nothing dad, I got in a bike accident" she answer careless
"bike accident" the man repeated
"yes, dad, bike accident, and no when I said bike I'm not referring to a motorcycle vehicle" she point out.
"still Paige, I would like to be informed when my daughter is in the ER for whatever unknown reason" Nick McCullers said
"okay I will informed you next time, are we done here" getting annoying by this absurd conversation with lord voldemort.
"Paige, I know you think I don't care, but you're my daughter regardless…." The father trying to reach out to his daughter when she cuts him off
"Regardless?" is this your way of showing you care because is not working Father" Paige getting tense now. Feeling like this wasn't going to end well
"watch your tone young lady" the man's face getting red, controlling his temper
"or what dad? I don't why you came just to show me this piece of paper, is it going to ruin your campaign" Paige heated now
"no, you're my daughter and I care….."
"since when dad?, you have never care ever since mom died" she was hurting now
Nick McCullers angry now sitting down on the bench next to this oak tree, it wasn't so big, but it was standing there strong, and brave to be the only tree that was small, that's what Paige needed right now, stand strong, PSU garden was beautiful after the pool area Paige thought. "How can you say that, Paige, I know things changed but that doesn't mean I don't care", he told her.
"dad when was the last time you say you love me" Paige looking away, she felt a dagger cutting her chest, her open wounds were burning….she needs to let it out she has too, there was no answer from Nick McCullers this time.
He gets up ignoring the question "I should go, I have an important meeting tomorrow" Paige still looking at the oak tree, shedding tears falls down her face, the mayor's back is facing her daughters back
"just saying it dad, say you hate me, say it was my fault,(she whispers) please just say it, I know I killed her, you have all rights to blame me to hate me, I know you wish it was me who was gone im sorry im still here" Paige sorrow is heavy now. Nick McCullers suddenly stops just enough to hear this apology.
She continues "I know all you think of me is as failure, truth is dad, im not a failure, you may not believe in me but I do dad, and so does she ( Paige wasn't peaking of her mother but Emily) and if you can't approve of me being the way i am, you leave me no chose but to move on with you in my life or not but i really love if you consider and be in my life because you all i have"
"Paige" the man said…he lays a hand on his daughter right shoulder "you are flesh of my flesh, my only family" melancholy, his eyes moist hugging his beloved daughter gently "I love you, Paige" she turns and looks at the old man, she sees how old he is now, she looks at the pain in his eyes she wasn't the only hurting all this time, he was hurting as well, knowing that none of them knew how talk instead of shouting out words. she wraps her arms around him, he doesn't seem strong as before anymore, feeling her father hugging her back the tears of joying falling down both of them, they stayed like that for quiet a while till Paige whispers -i never stop loving you daddy-