Chapter 4

"God, I´m starving. I had a little meal at the hospital and it wasn´t enough" said Rachel while finishing her steak. "Hey sweetheart, you have already interviews to give. E Entertainment wants to know what happened and right now I have arranged a phone call" Shelley said then she got up, said goodbye to the guests and left. The whole scene was very bizarre to Rachel, she felt that Frank was so close yet so far at once. When they were in the van, they exchanged glances but now she noticed that he was trying to avoid her. "Frank when did you go? asked Fletcher interrupting Rachel´s thoughts. Frank answered that as soon as he can, that he just wanted to know if they were OK. Fletcher grimaced and his face got sad. "I´d like you to stay longer".

The sun was falling. "Mommy I don´t wanna go to the pj´s party if you´re this way" said Fletcher. Rachel was walking to her room by the help of Frank and her son, "But baby, there will be a bonfire and all your friends expect you to go, my ankle is a little twisted, that's all. Got prepared, I already told Shelley to take you to the party". Frank stopped and said "I´ll take care of your mother, Fletch. Go and have fun". They entered to Rachel´s room, son and mother said goodbye. Fletcher also said goodbye to Frank and the ex-bodyguard said to him "We´ll see each other again, I promise."

Rachel and Frank were finally alone; they were sat in her bed. Although the night was a little bit chilly, Rachel wore a little dress because it was easy to put (she had a splint on her left foot) and she also was wearing a jacket. She began to shiver, was not only cold but nerves. "Good thing the accident didn´t came to worst! And I'm glad it wasn´t a fucking crazy fan" Frank said calmly. "Thank you for coming Frank, I really appreciate it. But… may I ask you something? Rachel put her hand on Frank´s arm. That touch and question made the ex-bodyguard got tense. "You could´ve make a call to ask if I was alright, why did you come? The singer didn´t know that the man with her flew across the country to see her, she thought he was still living in L.A.

Frank pondered the question, he didn´t want to tell her what he done, he was unsure about his feelings about her and also her feelings about him. "Umm… Why should I call if I was so close to here?" He felt stupid saying it, Rachel was silent for a minute and suddenly a tear rolled down her cheek. She tried to hide her face so that Farmer wouldn´t see. She was very confused because, what was the point that Frank has gone to the hospital to see her, that for a moment he behave friendly and seconds later was treating her like shit? She had set his heart on that song without intention to became success and his former bodyguard seemed not to have reacted to it.

She wondered if he loved her or was another one of those bastards that because of money and fame, came to her. It was hard for her to think about this, because she knew that Frank was not that way, and that´s why she was in loved with him. But all his actions till now, say otherwise.

"Rach" he softly wiped his tear with his finger, "Rach" he called her by the second time but she had her face looking down and then she felt a warm kiss in her cheek, then another one and he was getting closer to her. His arms surrounded her, his lips were in her neck and they tried to reach her mouth but she refused him. Farmer began stroking her back and put his lips into hers, he opened her mouth with his fingers and she couldn´t resist him anymore. As the kissing became more passionate, also caresses and hugs. She circled his neck with her arms and put his fingers in his hair. A warm hand was going through her waist and rose under her breast, touching it slowly. She began to unzip his jeans. Her nails dug into his body, Frank Farmer carefully lay her down and lifted her dress, he already felt his bottom began to heat up, to swell and he had to release it when Rachel, sighing, said "I´m pregnant, I have three months".

He froze, closed his eyes and sat up. He saw her for a second and turned away. He stood like this for a while and finally said "I can´t do this". Rachel couldn´t believe it and started to cry "Oh my God, I should´ve knew it! How stupid I am, I mean, I thought you were in lo… (she cut the word and sat in the bed). Why the hell you came Frank? She yelled at him. "I don´t want…" he tried to say but was interrupted by her "This reminds me exactly to Fletcher´s fath…" Farmer took a deep breath "For God sake. I don´t want to make love with you because I don´t wanna hurt you nor our baby!"

She was petrified, her eyes full of anger began to sweeten. Frank knelt in front of her, he took her hands "So, we´re gonna have a baby?" Rachel smiled. Frank put his hands around her waist and gave a soft kiss to her belly. "Forgive me, I have just made you cry. When did you know this? Why you didn´t tell me Rachel?" With the sleeve of his sweater wiped her tears. Sobbing, she said "First I thought it was the stress of going up and down due to my tour, that my body got unbalance and two weeks ago I decided to go to the doctor to give me some tranquilizer pills. Then I found I was pregnant. Oh Frank, I still can´t believe it. I was so nervous, insecure but so happy. I haven´t told anyone about this, I do not know how, you know what I mean? At this point in my career and you were already out of my life. This is too much!" she finally said.

All this information caught him off guard, Frank didn´t know exactly how to react or what to say to Rachel, he even didn´t know if she wanted to have the baby. He often wondered if "this thing" was love or too much of physical attraction. Having a baby with this superstar when he didn´t even know if he felt love for her and vice versa? But at the same time, the image of a baby with her made him very happy. He always wanted to have a family but never find the time. "Rachel, this caught me off guard, in my plans there was no babies" and before she could reply to this, he kept saying "But I do want to have this baby. Would you do the same?

Rachel put her hand on Frank´s, who was stroking her belly "Our daughter wasn´t in my plans, but when I knew of her, I realized that I loved her". "Oh my God, and the accident. If something would have happened…" he said as he dipped his head into Rachel´s body. "Wait, you said our daughter?" he reacted. "Yes, I feel it´s a girl. She will be your princess!" and she ran her fingers over his hair. "If that´s so, we will be just perfect. Fletcher and me, two strong men and you two, the most beautiful ladies on earth. By the way, does Fletcher know about this?" Frank sat beside Rachel, and started to kiss her, this time with less passion but with more love and sweetness. "I haven´t yet told Fletcher" she said.