Chapter 25

Metal Kisses and Shadows

Kagome hadn't gone back to school yet. Leven didn't know that though. Kagome had walked to school everyday. And everyday she had walked, she went to the warehouse. She went up to her special room, at the very top of the building. She had lit every candle and stared.

She thought about that night. The very first time Hojo raped her. She was immature. She wanted to try something new. She didn't know that it would end up like that. She never knew she would lose all of her friends. She never knew she would be raped. She didn't know. She never knew. Tears burned the back of her eyes.

She bit her lip hard, as the cold tears rolled down her eyes. She was so dirty. She rocked her body back and forth as she silently sobbed. Her candles watched her cry. A choked sob escaped her throat. She didn't understand. She would never understand. Why would Hojo do this to her? She liked him, she wanted to be his girlfriend, why would he doe this to her?

Kagome got up and paced the room. Tears still rolled down her face. She began wailing. "Why Hojo! Why! What did I do! Why! Someone, anyone, please answer me! What did I do!" She wailed. She fell to her knees, and buried her head in her hands. She screamed.

She stood back up and ran to the toilet. She puked her brains out. She sat back and put her back against the wall. Her tears couldn't stop. After not crying for so long, the must come out some how. She looked over to the bathtub. She eyed a razor blade that sat on the ledge. She hadn't cut in years. Her throat started constricting really tight. She wanted to. Oh god, she wanted to.

The feel the warmth of the blood run down her arms as she carved words into her arms, legs, and stomach. The cool feel of the steel. The way it felt like metal kisses across her skin. She got on her knees and reached for it. She grabbed it. The cool metal felt good between her fingers. She pulled her sleeve up.

She, then, began to carve the word 'Slut' into her arm. She pulled her shirt up, showing her scarred belly. She carved the words 'Whore' and 'Bitch' into her stomach. Blood started to pool around her. She looked at it. 'That's enough for today.' she thought. She stood up and slipped a bit. She got up and stood in the tub.

She just stood there for a second, then she turned the water to freezing cold and turned it on. She stood in that tub for a while. She thought about things. Her brother, her friends, her life,her...boyfriend. What would Sesshomaru think of her if he knew she cut. He'd think she was a suicidal freak.

Her throat constricted. She had forgotten how to breathe. She should have took a bath. Maybe she could have drowned her self, it'd make a lot of people happy. She turned the water off and yanked open the curtain. She looked down at the mess on the floor. Her eyes dulled while she stared at its crimson color.

When she came out of her stupor, she grabbed two towels and laid them down. She had to get over the blood to get on some clothes. Then she'd clean up the bloody mess. She got out of the tub and walked back into her special room.

She walked towards the back door. The room was a dark champagne color. The bed was a large four poster bed and had a canopy. The sheets are black with golden trim and golden accent pillows. There was a desk in the corner and a walk closet and bathroom. Little light was filtered into the room so she kept lots of candles, and a big five lighted lamp in there.

Kagome walked over towards her closet. She grabbed a white so spaghetti strap shirt, and a grey pair of shorts. She laid them down on. Now to take care her cuts.

She went to the desk. It was mahogany Brown. It had a smooth desk top, and four drawers. Kagome reached for the bottom drawer on the left. She got out a pretty big first aid kit. She popped it open and got out bandages and boo-boo spray. Kagome clenched her eyes shut as she sprayed her arm and stomach. She hissed as the spray did it's magic.

She took a deep breath as stinging resided. Then She took the bandages and started wrapping herself up. Once she was all bandaged up, she got up and put her clothes on.

When was done with her clothes, she walked back to the bathroom. The stench of blood was strong, making Kagome gag. She got on her knees and began clean up her mess. All of this blood reminded her some of her friends. Friends that committed suicide.

Sephora N'Sapo, Annika Reed, and many more. They are just a few the friends that did the so called "dirty" deed. She found Sephora and Annika dead the stalls at school. They died together. They bleed out together. They were best friends.

Tears began to burn the back of Kagome's eyes. They were her best friends too. Why didn't they tell her that they had problems? She would have done anything for those girls. She would do anything for her crew. She loved them. They were the family she never had. Fat, wet tears rolled down her face as she silently sobbed for her fallen friends.

Once she was done cleaning up, she hid the towels under a small floorboard, and went back to her room. There's a mirror on the back of her door. She stares at it. Ugh. Her hair was wet, dull, and stringy down her back. She looked for shapes in her face. "I'm so ugly." she whispered to herself. She had black bags under her eyes, and deathly pale skin. Her nose was mouse like, small and nimble. Her lips no longer had their rosy red color. They now were very light pink.

She just stared at the mirror. It's was almost like she saw millions of Kagome's. Kagome took the mirror off the wall and put it in the back of her closet. She shut the closet door, and walked over to her bed, and laid down. She laid there, wide awake. She sighed. She got up out of bed and went back over to her desk. She pulled out her iPod, grabbed a drawing pad, her pastels, and walked out to be welcomed by her flames.

She sat in the middle of the floor, and put her ear buds in. She opened up her iPod, and began playing the Wretched and Divine: The Story Of The Wild Ones. She closed her eyes and let Andy's rugged voice run through her veins. She grabbed her pad, a pastel, and began to draw.

Her hands flew over the pad, Andy's voice influencing her brain on over drive.

In The End, As You Fade Into The Night!

(Oo, Whoa!)

Who Will Tell The Story Of Your Life!?

In The End, As My Souls Laid To Rest,

What Is Left Of My Body?

Or Am I Just A Shell?

I Have Fought,

And With Flesh And Blood, I Commanded An Army.

Through It All,

I Have Given My Heart For A Moment Of Glory!

(Chorus)

In The End, As You Fade Into The Night!

(Oo, Whoa!)

How Will Tell The Story Of Your Life!

(Oo, Whoa)

And Who Will Remember Your Last Good Bye!

(Oo, Whoa)

'Cause It's The End And I'm Not Afraid,

I'm Not Afraid To Die!

I'm Not Afraid!

I'm Not Afraid To Die!

Born A Saint,

And With Every Sin I Still Want To Be Holy!

I Will Live Again!

Who We Are,

Isn't How We Live We Are More Then Our Bodies!

If I Fall,

I Will Rise Back Up And Relive My Glory!

(Chorus)

(Guitar Solo)

(Chorus)

Who Will Remember, This Last Good Bye!?

(Oo, Whoa)

'Cause It's The End,

And I'm Not Afraid, I'm Not Afraid To Die!

I'm Not Afraid,

I'm Not Afraid To Die,

Not Afraid,

I'm Not Afraid To Die!

(In The End, By Black Veil Brides)

Kagome opened her eyes, coming back from her colorful coma of music. She looked down at her picture, and her eyes widened in surprise. It was a Shadow. The thing from the cover of The Wretched and Divine album. Except it had Hojo's face. Kagome was in front of him, wearing a mask.

She was staring up at him in fear. She shook her head, and closed the pad. She looked up at all of her candles. The were low. "Guess it's time to buy new candles." She whispered to her self as she blew them all out. Once it was dark in the room, she walked back to her room.

She got into her bed and laid down. Her eyes drooped shut and she went to sleep, thinking about her picture and how hot Christian Coma was.

Hey guys! Writer's block is a bitch! You guys should thank Black Veil Brides new album, Wretched and Divine. It's the shit! Anyway, review, and I'll see you in the next chapter :-D