Previously...
"NO!" I don't know where it came from but it did. And it made everyone stop and look at me, waiting for me to carry on. I sighed and opened my month to try and talk.
"I don't need my mom… I don't need aunt Abby, I am fine. It's only been 2 days since I came home ill. It might just be a sickness bug"
Bex, Liz and Macey looked at each other confused, Zach just kept his eyes focused on me as he said softly, "It's been a week since you came back, Gallagher Girl"
Oh so great, Now memory loss?
Well I had already forgotten what I did most of my winter, but I wasn't too bothered about that at the moment… I was more bothered that I couldn't remember this week! But of course I did… I remember CoveOp's today… Even though according to macey, today is Sunday, and CoveOp's was Thursday… Meaning I don't remember Friday and Saturday, not to mention the days before Thursday. Man, my mind really was messed up.
"Cammie, can I ask you something?"
The fact that Zach used my real name instead of Gallagher girl let me know it was important whatever he wanted to ask me. We walked into the library on the Monday morning (and it definitely was Monday, I checked with Bex) when he asked me this question. I nodded of course.
"Are you sure you haven't been drinking… You can tell me if you have? I don't mind" He held my hands looking into my eyes. First rage coursed through me at the fact that he didn't believe me the first time I told him I hadn't been drinking, then I realised he was only asking me because he was just looking out for me.
"Zach, I promise you I haven't. Plus there is no-where to get alcohol in the school"
Zach gave me a strange look like he thought I knew something I obviously didn't.
"What, Zach?"
"Nothing Cam"
"Zachary"
"Cameron"
"I'm serious, Zach. Please tell me"
He sighed then finally gave in "Dr. Fibs had some alcohol in his cabinet in his room and 2 bottles have went missing."
I took my hand's away from him, Hurt and annoyed. "And you think I took them? Unbelievable. Just because I feel a bit ill-…"
"Cammie! When you came back to the academy you stunk of whiskey. You left me in Nebraska with your grandparents for 2 weeks before we were due to come back and then I find you outside of josh's house when I got back!"
I felt the tears fill my eyes, but refused to let them fall. I just pushed past Zach and started to make my way toward my dorm room.
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All I can remember is opening my eyes and being in his lap. His green eyes boring into me.
When on earth did this happen?
I was laid in his lap… In my mother's office. I lifted myself up, removing myself from Zach's lap and looked around.
"Why am I in here?"
Zach just looked at me. He looked disappointed and worried… for me? It made no sense so I asked again, this time more angrily.
"Zach, Why am I here?!"
The next thing hurt. He looked away, disgusted in me. Running his hand through his hair. I grabbed his arm stopping him.
"Answer me, Zach!"
"You were passed out in your dorm from drink!"
"How would you know it's from drink?"
"Well you were laughing constantly, acting like an idiot and you stink. Not to mention the bottle for Dr. Fibs office found next to you."
Everything he said, was with a hint of disgust in his tone. Everything he said, left a hint of hurt on me. I looked down at my hands then felt it. The headache again. I really didn't know what was going on.
I began sobbing without control "What day is it?"
"Friday"
I had missed day's again… What was happening?
I felt my head fall into my hands.
It felt strange. I had the worst headache-slash-migraine ever, felt like throwing up constantly, felt confused and annoyed at myself for leaving Zach again… Yet I felt numb.
Right then, when my head fell into my hands, I went numb. I felt nothing.
Nada.
It felt nice. Relaxing. Like I didn't have to care anymore. I felt free. I had no feelings. Never thought about Zach who was now saying my name over and over again. Never wondered where my roommate's where. Never even cared that I didn't know why I was in my mother's office.
I lifted my head up to see Zach gone. I never even felt the couch we were both sat on move as he got up. I never heard the door shut as he walked out.
That was how out of it I was.
I didn't know what was going on, and why I was like this. But for some reason, I didn't want to know. It was like as if I did already know, only I was hiding it from myself. That was why I lifted myself up and walked out the office. I walked outside in the pouring rain and made my way to the P&E barn which was now empty.
I opened the large door's whilst I entered. My wet drowned shoes making squeaking noises against the dry floor. My hair dripping on the floor. I crossed my arms and went and lay in the middle of the barn, looking up through the skylight to the moon. By this time I was shaking, but I didn't care.
I let myself shiver and I let myself drift off to sleep.
A/N: I now know where I am going with this! Haha, I already had a brief idea but wasn't sure of how to get there. I'm trying to finish this now though before I go back to school as I have another story plot in my head that is Non-Spy.
And this is the last chapter i shall upload today :P I have been uploading about 3 a day so far haha :P That's why i am on chapter six when i started writing them yesterday! Anyway you will be very surprised what you will find out in the next chapter as she start's to investigate where she was :D