Previously...
"I am so sorry... I dont know-.." before i could finish, he interrupted me, confirming what i feared...
"You saw Catherine again, right? She's not here... don't worry."
Josh knows.
My first response was to lie.
"Catherine? Who?"
Only as I mentioned before, I wasn't being a very good liar right now and unfortunately, Josh noticed.
"Circle of Cavan Catherine... that dude Zach or whatever's mom..."
My heart physically stopped.
I had to headcount what I know he knows.
He knows Catherine somehow.
He knows she is in the circle.
He KNOWS the circle.
He know Catherine is Zachs mom...
Then it hit me
He remembers...
He must remember everything I told him that summer. The tea must have worn off like the CIA feared.
How he knows about the circle however when originally I never knew, I don't know.
"Oh... how do you-..." he cut me off again, which may I add, is EXTREMELY annoying.
"You told me...? In summer? After her coming? Do you not remember?"
Now I can finally see the confusion.
It's the first thing he has said where he ACTUALLY shown any emotion.
Whatsoever.
"To be truthful, no"
And now I am telling a citizen who could be a potential threat as I highly doubt he has the clearance to know what small information I already know he knows, the truth.
There is one thing about this business you should never do, and that is trust people who you know you shouldn't.
I seem to be doing that a lot lately however...
"The drink must have got to you... so you don't remember anything? At all?"
I paused and didn't answer, I just shook my head slowly.
Trying to remember, trying to force myself to regain my memory.
But it was the same as the summer, it just didn't work.
"We can talk about it then... I'll help. It's a shame because we did so much!"
That's when his hand moved.
Not just his hand, his arms.
And his fingers.
As he moved them all to my hand, grasping it an pulling me into his bedroom.
"It's going to takes a while though... but it will be worth it..."
I just smiled softly while inside I just had an urge to knock him out and run.
Which is nothing like me...
He then turns his head looking at me. He showed a betrayed expression and sort of hurt as he watched me.
"You should come back a different time... you know, when you can actually trust me to come on your own and not with your stupid back up"
I don't know how he knew but it scared me.
He sounded like a spy.
Was he a spy?
I just looked away and nodded.
Trust today to be the day for me to have nothing to say.
"An tell your little boyfriend over your communication unit that he doesn't need to see me as a threat... or you know, get jealous."
This wasn't Josh.
This was an arrogant know it all.
A bit how I saw Zach at first, only without the attraction.
"He won't get jealous and he won't see you as a threat, if he did, he would be In here by now."
I then turned walking down the stairs to the door, Josh following me and when I opened it, there stood Zach and Townsend. Both stood identical to each other and sharing the same blank expression.
I pushed through them both walking to the car, not turning round to see if they followed or what they did.
"You know, I am really interested in knowing how he knows about everything."
I was lost In thought by the time I heard Zach as he was climbing into the back of the car.
I also got offended by the way he said why he said and turned my head and snapped.
"Yeah, so would I but it seems your mom likes making my life a living hell."
The silence from then on was painful.
He didn't bother replying when I just turned looking out the window realizing what I just said.
I wanted to apologize but I couldn't.
I don't know why, I just couldn't.
He never looked at me the whole time we drove back to Gallagher and when we pulled up outside he got out and walked inside ignoring me.
I just stood in the entrance watching him go upstairs taking two steps at a time, sighing and rubbing his forehead.
I couldn't help but feel terrible.
I had just pushed the one person who I trusted the most away.
And I couldn't even stop myself from doing it.