I stepped out of the cab making my way to my door room still in a daze from the information that I had leant a few days ago. I couldn't believe it, it didn't seem real, nothing did at this point. I noticed I had let a few tears roll down my cheeks so I quickly whipped them away before anyone noticed my tears. I picked up my bags and made my way to my room. I felt like everything was moving so quickly.
As I reached the door to my room I struggled to find my eyes, they were somewhere deep inside my bag and I was having trouble finding them. Once I finally got them I opened the door only to see Santana waiting for me on my bed. She sat up straighter looking at me with a worried expression. My phone had broken a few hours after my sisters surgery from me throwing at the wall and I hadn't been able to replace it yet. I managed to email Santana but I wasn't sure if she got it because I hadn't had the time to check, I was busy with my family.
I put down my bags and continued to stair at Santana. Rachel must have let her in before she went of to class, I was thankful for that, I needed Santana, and I missed her. She got up and wrapped me up in a big hug and then I let the tears flow, it felt good to let them out. It felt good to hold Santana, everything felt right.
"She made it, she's alive!" I said as happy as I could. I couldn't believe it when my mum told me the news that my sister had made it out of the surgery and was going to make a full recovery. That was the best day ever. Santana hugged me tighter and kissed me on the cheek.
"I'm so happy for you! I told you everything would be okay," I kissed her hard of the lips and had so many feelings come rushing into me. Kissing Santana made me feel home, safe it gave me hope every time I kissed her lips.
"Thank you, for everything," I said to her, as I looked her in her bright brown shining eyes. She then kissed me on my forehead, I loved how she always seemed happy for when I said anything to her.
"I'll always be here for you ok," Santana said.
"And I'm sorry, for not calling you and stuff," I said to her looking at the floor.
"Don't worry about it, your phone broke, not your fault," she said as she kissed my lips.
"Thanks." I tell her.
"I'm glad everything is okay," She tells me and it makes me smile.
"Me too," I say as she kisses me again.
I loved her kisses. I felt so safe and at home with her at my side. Her tongue ran across my lips until I parted them, her tongue skated across mine and caused me to moan. I then wrapped my hands around her neck pulling her closer as she wriggled as I continued to pull her in closer to me. I was starting to lose my breath but nothing was better then Santana, I wanted more of her, I needed more of her.
My heart was beating rapidly that I thought it would pop out of my chest, I felt my breathes get heavier needing to suck in air. As she pressed her whole body against me and I tangled my fingers into her hair. She was so hot. I struggled to gain dominance in the kiss, but then Santana shifted, pressing her leg between my thighs, and I whimpered at that. She smirked, delving her tongue deeper into my mouth as her hands worked her way down against my sides and eventually rested on my thighs.
She then broke the kiss to move to my jaw placing little kisses there. Her tongue felt soft and smooth against my skin, she then eventually found her way down to my neck and began to interchange between kisses, soft little bites and sucking. She felt so good against my skin I felt dizzy and if it wasn't for her holding me up my legs would probably give out. I couldn't help but moan against her touch, and as I did I felt her smile against my skin. My breathing got heavier each time and I felt the wetness between my legs grow stronger.
"Santana!" My gasp was muffled by her lips. Her hands drew up to my face, pulling me in closer. I couldn't contain myself for much longer, I needed her desperately. I felt her moan against my mouth as we continued to kiss and knew she needed me as much as I needed her at this moment.
I felt my legs hit the back of my bed and realized that she had moved us from the door over here. I ran my fingers down her sides to the bottom of her shirt slowly reaching inside so I was touching her bare skin. I felt her shutter against me. I wanted to rip her clothes off of her but still I was scared, I opened my eyes wearily to meet her glowing eyes. She looked at me so frustrated, she looked so cute.
She looked back at me giving me the permission I needed to continue so slowly I bought her shirt up over her head and admired her beautiful toned body. I couldn't keep my eyes off of her, she was so perfect, so beautiful, I don't know how I got so lucky. She rose her hand up to my chin and smiled at me, then continued to pull me back into a kiss which instantly began to heat up again. I ran my fingers over her shoulders, stomach, everywhere enjoying the new contact.
I then began to get too hot for myself, I needed to take everything off. Santana obeyed and helped me take my shirt off only breaking the kiss for a second. Feelings her roaming her hands all over my body made me groan, she felt so good. I moved to her neck kissing and sucking on it leaving my mark.
"You are so beautiful," she said to me making my heart flutter even more. I sat down on the bed quickly moving my way up to the top as she followed and continued to kiss me. I didn't know when she did it but I then found that my button to my jeans were unbuttoned and were beginning to come off me. I raised my hips helping Santana get the extra clothes off me as quick as possible. She then quickly continued to rip off her jeans and craw back on top of me.
I pressed my hands into her back so that I could feel her chest against mine. Her heart was beating so hard and fast, she then tried to press harder into me but I flipped us around first so now I was on top. I looked at her taking in her gorgeous body, I rose my hand brushing a stand of hair off her face and behind her ear.
I then went back to kissing her neck, letting my tongue trace circles on her skin. I pulled my tongue back in my mouth and then gently nibbled just below her ear when I heard her let out a small moan, I smiled and continue to nibble. I went back to kissing her, as I trailed my hand up her side. She was pressing her thigh between my legs which cause me to let out a gasp, I then saw her smile and go back to kissing me.
"Britt please," she managed to get out. "I need you." I slowly went back to kissing and sucking her on her neck where her spot was as I lowered my hand. As I slowly slipped my hand under her underwear I added a little bit of pressure cause her to raise her hips a little, rocking her leg up against me. I kissed and sucked on her neck feeling her soft skin there. I then started moving my fingers in a circular motion, and she let out a louder moan so I slowly and cautiously let a second finger slid into her.
"Babe!" She called out. I held her close and kept moving her fingers, in and out. She started to move her hips faster against me and I realized I was rocking with her. It didn't take very long for the pleasure to build up from the friction of my fingers. We both were breathing heavily, she felt amazing and she was all mine.
"Fuck Britt!" She called out as I helped her ride the rest of her organism. I looked into her deep brown eyes and she smiled back at me. She then raised her hand to my cheek and pulled me down, kissing my forehead, and then made her way to my lips.
"You are amazing," she told me, she was so cute and sexy so I kissed her again. She made everything feel so amazing.
"You're the amazing one," I told her. "Was I okay?" I asked a little unsure of myself.
"You were perfect, you are prefect," she said giving me the biggest hug. I cared about her so much, I knew I loved her but I still wasn't sure is Santana felt the same way so I decided to keep quiet for now.
We stayed cuddled up for a little while, she held me tight to her chest and I couldn't help but think it would explode at any moment with all the Santana I got today. Her skin was so soft, every touch felt so good and lying on her right now with this skin on skin contact felt unreal. I finally got Santana, and she was my everything.
We must have fallen into a quick sleep because I got started awake when I heard Santana's phone start to ring from the corner of her room. I felt her shift as she reached out the grab it, she was trying to be carful around me, I think she thought I was still asleep. I let her think that as I moved closer to her and felt her, I heard her chuckle and start playing with my hair. She then picked up her phone to keep me from waking up.
"Hello?" She said in a whisper. " No I'm kind of busy right now. Can I talk to you later?" She asked. "Great, bye." She placed the phone back on the desk and then continued to play with my hair.
I stirred a little bit and slowly began to open my eyes, she must have seen that I was awake because she kissed me on my noise and then my lips which made me smile.
"Hey there sleepy head," she said to me.
"Hey," I said as I looked up at her and put a strand of her hair behind her ear. She was covered up by the sheets but still looked so beautiful and pretty.
"You have a good nap? I nodded.
"You're incredible," I said to her making her blush. She was so cute.
"I wish could just lie in bed with you all day," Santana told me, I thought the same thing. Just lying here, being all wrapped up in each other felt so good. I nuzzled into the crook of her neck and kissed her there.
"Then lets do that," I mumbled from her neck making her laugh.
"I wish but you have class in an hour," I made my pout face to her and she just laughed and tapped me on the noise.
"I can skip it," I said to her as we shared a long kiss.
"No you can't, I won't let you miss it because of me," She was so caring and great.
"Yes you can. You're worth it," she laughs and then flips so she's on top of me and gives me a quick kiss.
"Nope, time to get up," she rolls off of me and I grown. I miss her warmth. She grabbed her shirt from off the floor and put it back on her and then proceeded to throw mine at me. I groaned again and then flopped back onto my pillow.
"Can't we lie in bed a little longer?" I ask while doing my famous pout that I know Santana can't stand.
"Stop that. That's not playing fair," She says to me which only makes me smile. She then moves towards me and runs her hand up my thigh and kisses me long my jaw line and works her way to my neck causing me to shutter. I instantly feel my heart start race and my breathing get heavy. She has such an effect on me. She's even better then ducks. I'd much rather stair at her all day. She starts to suck at my neck when suddenly she stops and moved away from me to the other end of the room.
"Tease," I tell her but she just shrugs at me and gives me a wink.
"Maybe if you behave we might finish that later," She tells me which only makes my heart race more. We defiantly have to finish that later.
I went to my class, which was completely boring, I had trouble understanding what was going on and I was completely bored. I hated it. I was happy it was over with and now I was heading back to my door room to talk to Rachel. Apparently she had some kind of meeting with an upper year student. I was wondering what it was about, she was going to tell me all about it.
I entered my room to see Rachel sitting on the bed doing some of her homework. I closed the door behind me and she jumped up in shock scream out and putting her hand on her chest like I gave her a heart attack or something. She was always a drama queen and this was just one of her ways of expressing that. I couldn't help but chuckle at her reaction but then she turned to me and gave me a death look. Obviously she didn't like it that I laughed.
"So how'd it go?" I ask her as I put down my backpack and sit on my bed.
"Pretty good, she is supposed to help me with my upcoming performance for my acting class. I really don't know how she is going to help me because I'm so talented but we'll see.," I couldn't help but chuckle.
"Tell me about it," I tell her.
"She was nice, and pretty. She had blonde hair and is in Santana's year I think. Her names Quinn." I wonder if Santana knew her, maybe I would ask her about it later because I knew that she lived with a girl named Quinn. It would be funny if they were the same person.
"Did you figure out what song you are going to sing?" I ask.
"Not yet, we have to sing it together, it's part of the assignment. An upper year has to sing a sing with a first year. We had such a hard time deciding what song to sing, she didn't even want to do Barbra! Who doesn't want to do Barbra!" Rachel rolled her eyes thinking about Quinn.
"Maybe you guys could compromise," I tell her.
"No, I don't do that. The only good thing that we figured out is that she was willing to eat my vegan food." I laugh because hardly anyone can put up with Rachel and her vegan food. "But enough about me, tell me about you and Santana." I instantly smile.
"She's great. She really gets me." I say smiling, I can't help but think of what happened a couple of hours ago.
"What's that smile I see?" She asks me.
"Nothing," I say with my head down, I never was a really good liar.
"Oh my god, you two totally had sex! Oh I'm so proud of you!" I slap her of her arm and am pretty sure I'm blushing furiously. I look down again to contain the smile that's on my face. "So was she good?"
"I'm not telling you about my sex life," I tell her.
"Come on, I know you want to talk about it. Tell me!" She's pretty forceful and I know she's not going to let this go until I give her an answer.
"She's amazing. Everything was so great." I said as I realize that I'm blushing again.
"That's cute!" She tells me.
"She's pretty great," I tell Rachel.
"So I guess everything's all good in your life then," she says.
"Yeah," I say but soon after something flashes into my eyes and I have something else going on.
"What's wrong?" She asks me.
"Tina, she keeps setting me up with guys and I don't want them, I just want Santana but if I tell Tina I'm dating her she'll have a fit. You know how much she hates her," I say and Rachel just nods along processing everything.
"Well if she can't handle it, why are you friends with her," she asks me.
"Because we were close, she was my best friend," I tell her.
"Was, your best friend. If you ask me I don't know if she's worth it anymore. You have to ask yourself, who means more to you, Santana or Tina," that was the easiest question someone had ever asked me. I didn't have to think about it, I knew right from the start who it would be.
"Santana of course," I say, she makes me feel safe, she doesn't bring me down and she's always there for me. She's the best person I could ever ask for. I can be myself around her and I don't feel like I constantly need to impress her. It's a great feeling, I feel free when I'm around her and with Tina I always feel like she's pushing at me. She doesn't get me, I remember all the times she would call me stupid and it hurt. Santana has never once called me that.
"Then you have your answer right?" Rachel was right.
"Yeah."
"Good, cause I like you two together, you and Santana. I'm rooting for you guys," I laugh at that. I hear a sound and it's my phone going off. I smile when I see its Santana calling. "Answer it, go on."
"Hey baby," I say smiling.
"Hey you! How was class" She asks me, she's always concerned about everything and that's what makes her so special.
"So boring, I'd rather of spent the time with you," I say and can hear her chuckle on the other line.
"I have a question for you, how would you like to come out to a concert with me tonight? They're a band here at the university and are playing at the concert call here but it should be good and exciting, if not then I understand but it's going to be really good and we can do something after, I donno and yea but like..." she was rambling. I didn't know what she had to be nervous about but it was cute.
"San, I would love to go," I said as I cut her off.
"Really? Great! It starts at eight so I can pick you up then," she tells me.
"Yeah that's great! I can't wait." I say.
"Me either! I'll see you soon, I miss you," I notice the biggest smile creep up on my face and I know Rachel see's it too because she looks away and just shakes her head.
"I miss you too, but I'll see you in a few hours." I tell her.
Great! See ya, bye," she says as she hangs up the phone.
"Got a date with Santana?" Rachel asks me and I nod quickly.
"Yeah, help me decide what to wear?" I ask her, and she immediately gets up and makes her way over towards my closet looking through every single thing I own. I see many clothes fly out of there but then I remember something, this is Rachel I'm going to for fashion advice. Her fashion has gotten way better since high school, she's even a little bit slutty but I still don't think it will be good enough for Santana. I decide to give her a chance because she might pick out something good.
I look at my clothes for at least an hour and finally come up with something good to wear, and I have to say Rachel picked out better clothes that what I was going to wear. I wanted to pick out my ducky shirt along with my leg warmers and jeans but she picked out a nice shirt and boots. I would have to say I was ready for my date.
Santana comes a little early to my door and I'm happy to see her, she looks so amazing, so hot I can't believe she's my girlfriend. She's wearing a white shirt that fits her perfectly and her jeans are tight making her hips and ass stand out. I like this outfit. As we walk to the concert hall she takes my hand and I feel a rush of warm energy flow within me, she makes me so happy but she's fidgeting with her other hand and I know something's up.
"You alright?" I ask her.
"Of course, never been better." She says to me but for some reason I don't believe her.
"Ok," I know not to push her but I can't feel like it was something I did. Maybe it was the sex. Maybe she didn't like it and was regretting it. Maybe I wasn't good enough. I feel a sudden sink in my stomach and wonder if it was me that did something wrong. I decide not to let it get to me right now and to focus on the concert that we're going to see.
The concert hall is jammed packed with people, I stay close to Santana as I hold her hand making sure that I don't get lost. I want to stay close to her. She brings me closer up to the front and I can hear the music, it's so great it makes me want to dance in front of everyone. I smile at her and she smiles back at me, suddenly all my past worries go away and I couldn't feel happier.
"You like it?" she asks me.
"I love them, they are so good!" I yell because I can't really hear myself good over the loud music that's playing.
"Good, I thought you might!" She yells back at me so I can barley hear what she's saying.
A little more into the concert, I'm standing next to Santana holding my drink and she's holding the same one as me. I look at her and she seems very into the music, or seems a little distracted from me. I can't tell if she's actually listening so clearly to the band or just trying to make it seem that way so I won't ask any questions. I look down at the floor feeling a little concerned. Santana tells me what's on her mind and now I feel like I'm out of the loop.
We listen to a few more songs and exchange a few kisses here and there but she still seems distracted. I feel my throat start to get a little dry like I need water. I look around and see a little bar at the corner; I motion to Santana to tell her I'm going to get a drink, she nods at me and turns to look at the band again. For a second I thought she might come with me but she doesn't so I turn away from her and go get some water.
I look at the bar man and finally he brings his attention toward me so I can get a drink. There are a bunch of guys around that are staring at me, which is kind of freaky so I try to ignore them. I see one of them come up to me and I only wish that he will go away.
"Hey there beautiful," this one guy says to me, but I roll my eyes and look away. "Can I get you a drink," he asks me.
"No thanks," I tell him and go back to drinking my water.
"Please, I think you could use one," he says to me as he rubs his hand on my thigh. I push it off and right now I wish Santana were here, she would put that guy in his place but she's on the floor instead watching the band.
"Look I'm really not interested. I'm here with my beautiful girlfriend and I really don't want to be here with you right now," he looks at me and then looks at another girl and scoffs.
"Fine be that way," he says and goes to someone else. I roll my eyes, I can't believe how guys can be such big pigs.
After I finish my water I make my way back to Santana, I am excited to see her again, I after I saw that guy at the bar I really need to be with her right now even if she seems a little distracted. As I make my way through the crowd I see her hair and then her body and her face until... no this can't be happening right now. I feel the tears well up in my eyes. I've been crying so much for the past couple days I don't need to cry again.
I can't believe Santana would do this, here I see her in front of me, kissing another girl. I can't, this can't be happening. I try my best to hold my tears in but I still feel so broken. Santana stops kissing the girl and looks up to see me looking at her, I just stair because I don't know what else to do.
"Britt," she says softly but I don't care, I can't deal with her right now. I feel like I'm about to start crying and I don't want to cry in front of her so I quickly try and get away from her. I push my way through the crowd trying to get out. I can hear Santana behind me, calling my name but I try to ignore it.
I make it outside until I can't hold back my tears anymore, they pour out of me while I start to shake and cough because it's all too much for me to handle. I whip the tears away from my eyes but they still keep coming, I have no control over them. I feel so broken right now, I feel so stupid. I can't believe I fell for her, I can't believe she would do this to me, I feel like my heart had just been stomped on by a thousand pound elephant.
"Britt," I jump in shock as hear the voice behind me, it sounds sad and broken but I don't want to turn around. I don't want to talk to her right now.
"Go away," I tell her, I don't want to see her.
"Please Britt, let me explain please!" I turn around to face her and see her face breaks when she see's that I've been crying.
"I don't want to hear it Santana," I tell her coldly. I'm proud of myself, I never thought I had this much power to stand up to her when I'm in this state.
"Please Britt, you gotto let me explain. That girl she mean nothing to me, please Britt you're my everything." She tells me.
"Obviously not. You know you could just told me you weren't happy instead of kissing some other girl," I tell her, I'm so hurt now but I try to hardest to be strong. For my sake.
"No Britt, it's nothing like that. I'm so happy with you," she tried to tell me.
"Ha! God how could I be so stupid!" I yell at myself, maybe everyone is right, maybe I am stupid. "God it's true, I'm so stupid!"
"No Brittany you're not! You're not stupid so please don't call yourself that!" Santana tells me, I used to believe her but now, I don't know what to think anymore.
"I knew it, I knew something was going on, you've been acting weird since we had sex. If I wasn't good then just tell me, because anything's better them this. It's better than anything," I tell her, I can't take this right now. My emotions are everywhere because of everything I have been though in the past couple of days. I really don't need something else to pile on top of that.
"It has nothing to do with that! It was so great! You were amazing! You're beautiful and smart and are so brave. You mean everything to me," somehow I don't believe her.
" Stop lying okay! Just break up with me then. You've been ignoring me and being all weird and stuff, I just can't do this then! So leave me along," I say and only after I finish realize that I'm completely out of breath and sobbing.
"I don't want to break up with you Brittany. I never wanted too," I roll my eyes at that.
"Oh please..." I say when she cuts me off.
"It's true, I don't want to break up with you, and you know why? Because I love you! I fricken love you and this is not how I wanted to say it! I was so nervous because I wanted to tell you that I love you! And now it's ruined because of that girl! I wanted it to be all special, but it's all been ruined," I was taken my complete surprise. I didn't know what to think about that.
"Then who was that other girl?" I ask.
"Some random girl that was so drunk at the concert. I didn't even kiss her. She kissed me! I didn't kiss back I swear. She caught me by surprise."
"Did she?" I asked.
"Yes she did! Please believe. She started talking to me and I told her I wasn't interested but out of the blue she kissed me! I pushed her away, I only want you. I wanted when I said I love you to be special. I was so nervous, I didn't know how you would take it but I love you Britt, so much. It's just you Brittany, it's only been just you," she says to me and I literally feel like my hearts going to explode. I look at her in the eyes and can see she's telling the truth.
"You love me?" I ask question.
"Yes! I love you so much, so, so much Britt." She looks at me pleadingly.
"I love you too," I say whipping my eyes and I see the biggest smile appear on Santana's face. She moves towards me and moves my hair back from my face and then gives me the best, passionate kiss ever. I feel every inch of my body busting with love and in this moment I feel so happy.
"I'm sorry, I never want to hurt you ok. I'm so sorry," she tells me and I nod and understand.
"I know," I tell her.
"I love you," she tells me again.
Hope you all liked the chapter! Tell me if you did or not.