I want to speak to Santana, I want to tell her everything, how I am so pissed off at Tina, how I couldn't stop thinking of her while that other girl decided to hit on me. I want to tell her that I love her. I've decided it, I will tell her. I need to. I can't stop the feelings and I just want her to know she's the only one for me. I want to share it with everyone. I want to show Tina that I don't need anyone but Santana to make me happy. I pull out my phone and text her.
Santana: Hey baby, can we meet now? I need to tell you something important. :D
I instantly get a text back from her.
Brittany: I'm sorry, I have a meeting somewhere. I'll be done soon though, meet you later?
Santana: Of course! xox
I decided to do something right, so I marched over to Tina's house ready to give her a peace of my mind. Now usually I was a passive person, someone who doesn't like to fight and just likes to keep the peace but this time Tina had really gone to far. I just couldn't take it with her anymore. This was the last straw, I loved Santana and even if I hadn't told her that yet, she was the only one for me and Tina couldn't get in the way of that.
I had, had enough and that's why I decided I was going to go over there and end this friendship or whatever you call it now, that I had with her. I was done, I couldn't take it anymore. Her and I were soon to be ex friends. I get why Tina had set me up with a bunch of guys before she knew I was dating someone. But now that she knew, I couldn't believe she was still trying to set me up with someone.
As I approached her house I went over in my mind what I was about to say, because I had never really bitched out at someone I didn't really know what to do or how to act but I guess the rage I felt inside of me was a start. I decided to take some of Santana's skills as go a lima heights on her ass as she would say.
Tina's door came into sight and I pounded on that thing, I pounded on it so hard that if she was sleeping she would have heard it. I waited for a couple of seconds and started to grow impatient because I was so angry so I banged on her door again. Suddenly I saw the doorknob turn and Tina was standing in front of me giving me one of her I'm better then you smirks. The sight of her made me cringe, I was tired of her, I was tired of everything.
"Brittany, how are you, please come in," Tina said with a cheeky voice, I really didn't like it.
"No Tina, I am here to tell you something and set you straight," I say in a harsh tone hoping that she would catch onto how angry I was.
"Shouldn't I be the one to set you straight," Tina giggled.
"Please stop talking Tina, I need to tell you something," great even when I try to be angry I still have to be polite.
"Well, go on then," she says to me.
"This has gone on to far, I hated when you tried to set me up with guys, when I told you not to and now, you send girls to hit on me! I told you that I'm with Santana, I don't want anyone else and I can't deal with you anymore," I say hoping that I'm clear enough... apparently not.
"Oh Brit Brit, when are you going to learn that she's not good for you," Tina said.
"No, you're not good for me! Santana's been nothing but sweet and caring, you on the other hand don't listen to a thing I say and don't care for that matter. And don't you ever call me Brit Brit again, only Santana gets to call me that," I'm pretty sure I got this angry thing right now.
"That's pathetic," Tina scoffed.
"Shut up!" I yell.
"Oh, getting sassy on me now are we," I felt so angry inside, I felt like a volcano was going to erupt inside me. "Brit, you don't want Santana, she's a bitch, a whore and she's got so many problems. I bet she's already cheated on you, she's probably slept with half the school by now and do you know why, because she doesn't want some stupid little ass hanging on her every minute of the day. She's obviously using you as a sex toy, wake up and see what's really going on here!" I was taken back from the comment, that wasn't true. I know it wasn't.
"Don't call me stupid," I say. "I'm not, and Santana doesn't sleep around with people, she would never do that. You're just making things up."
"I wish I were Brit," I look at her confused. "Do you know why I sent that girl out on you after your class today?" I shook my head. "It's because about an hour before that I was informed that Santana was lonely. I heard that she needed someone to fuck her brains out. You obviously weren't around so she went to take care of things. I bet she's even still there now."
"She wouldn't do that." I say.
"But she did. Think about it, has she canceled on you at all today or done anything funny?" Tina said.
Then it hit me, I had texted Santana before I came her telling her I needed to say something, she said she couldn't come. But she was just busy right? She would never do anything to hurt me. She wouldn't do that, she's changed since then, I know she has. I thought about it more, she didn't even put a heart or anything in her text. It was cold, like if she was avoiding me or with someone else. I looked up to Tina and she looked at me.
"She has hasn't she," I slowly nodded. "I thought so."
"But she said she had a meeting," I say.
"And do you believe her," I do... I did. Tina's making me all confused now I don't know what I believe.
"I..." I don't know what else to say.
"Listen, I talked to the girl after, she told me! I'll even give her you number if you don't believe me. She'll tell you she did," I swallowed hard.
Tina got some paper and wrote down the girls number and then handed it to me. I felt dizzy, like at any moment I would just drop to the floor. Santana wouldn't cheat on me right? She wouldn't do that. But at the back of my mind I felt a little bit unsure. I looked down and stared at the paper. I know I shouldn't believe her but a small part of me does.
"Think of everything she did to you in high school, why would she suddenly want to be nice now? Brit, I'm just looking out for you," I look into her eyes and it doesn't seem like she's lying.
"But I..." I chock on the love her part.
"You love her? Brit don't do that to yourself, she doesn't love you. She's using you, don't give into her," Tina said.
"She wouldn't," I say, but this time I don't say it to her, I say it to myself.
"Call, I could be wrong, but at least call," she tells me.
I pull out my phone and begin to dial the number. This was not what I was expecting to happen. I didn't want to call, I wanted everything to be normal again, but something inside me was feeling doubt. I finished dialing and looked up at Tina still unsure if I should call. She nudged me and then I hit the call button. It rang, it rang for an awful long time but then I heard a voice on the other end, and it broke my heart.
"This is Chelsea's phone, Santana speaking," I felt the tears well up in my eyes as I kept the phone pressed to my ear. "Hello? Hello?" Santana said on the other end.
I couldn't do anything, I just held the phone up to my ear and stood there in complete shock. I felt my heart move into my throat, I felt sick. The tears were rolling down my face now and I felt like the whole world just had come crashing down on me. Tina pulled the phone away from my face and turned it off, she looked at me with sad eyes. I couldn't express how I was feeling in this moment. Devastation, tragedy, betrayal, just every emotion was running through me now.
"Brit what happened?" Tina asked.
"S-she answered it," I chock on the last word and fall on the ground as I break into tears. My sobs grow stronger and I have a hard time breathing, I can't process everything that's happened, I can't take it. Tina moves so she's hugging me now, I just can't believe Santana would do this to me. After everything we've been though.
I begin to feel alone, depressed, like nothing matters in the world anymore. I feel like my heart has been shredded to pieces, like someone took a shotgun and shut shot a whole through my heart. I feel my breath hitch and I feel like I can't go on. I begin to shake, I can't control my crying. I'm crying lying on the ground, in Tina's arms feeling so helpless.
"Shh, Brit, I'll always be here to protect you." Tina says as she holds me on the ground.
It's been a week since I've last talked to Santana, she text me after I left Tina's house but I didn't answer. It hurt too much, I couldn't do it. Knowing where she was, what she was doing, I couldn't text her back. I felt angry but mostly I felt sad and used. Tina was right I am stupid. I was too stupid to realize that something good could come out of the world, that Santana was good. I was too stupid to see that she hadn't changed.
Santana had been texting me non stop for the past week asking me where I was, and why I wasn't answering. I spent the week at Tina's hoping to get away from it all. Even Rachel texted me telling me Santana had come by, but she gave her the cold shoulder and told her to go fuck herself. I was happy to know my friends had my back. After a while I stopped readying Santana's text. I couldn't deal with the pain anymore.
Just this morning I got a call from her, actually I got a bunch of calls from her but I decided not the answer. I deleted her messages, if I heard her voice I knew I would break down and that was something I couldn't do. But somehow this morning, there was a text from her, a text that I happened to read telling me she was confused; she didn't know why I was ignoring her.
She hadn't found out that I knew she was using me, once I was strong enough I would give her a piece of my mind. She made me happy, I loved her and she broke my heart. I couldn't get by the day without thinking about her, without crying about her. I knew my tears weren't worth her time but I couldn't stop them.
Today was the day I had decided to get out of bed and go to one of my classes, I knew I would have to. I missed way too much school already, so I got ready and dragged myself to my class. That's where I am now. I pack up my things ready to leave the building, to go back into my bed and cry away my feelings. I can see the door but suddenly I am blocked by a figure. A short figure and when I see her face my heart breaks even more, I can't do this now, I can't face Santana.
"Britt, can we talk?" Santana's voice is shaky, quiet, she looks like she's been crying, but I can't feel bad. I can't let it get to me. I try and be strong, I try to fight my feelings.
So I realized if I make the chapters shorted I can update quicker because I won't have to spend that much time on each. So hopfully expect quicker update on this story.
I know it was a sad chapter and Tina is a bitch! But let me know what you think, what do you think will happen between Santana and Tina? How much of a shit despterber is Tina? Hope you enjoyed it. It will get happier eventually don't worry.