Today was the big d o the concert and i was pratically ok for a bit, but something had told me that I wasn't going to make it through the whole concert, I sat up on the marble floor of the practice room and my breathing began to breath heavily, it was time to take my medicine and cintinue with practice before the concert.
No one could really tell I wasn't going to make it to my welcoming to the academy, the butler went into the room and looking at my determined look as he came to give me my meds, I took them and looked at my cards I was gonna use and picked them, to me matching was everything, we got into the car and went to the stadium and i held on to those cards really close to me as we stopped and said to myself "I have to keep going no matter what I missed my fans and I missed my music enjoy yourself keep calm and let everything lift from your body and have fun no matter what." The time I got in there all my co-workers smiled at me as I returned the favor nodding and being me.
Most of them were worried because of my condition, but either way happy that I was okay and I hummed a new song in my head that I called Ichimatsu no Deshou and went into the changing area and placed the cards into the correct spots and the door opened, as I went through I kept thinking to myself stay calm and forget about your condition and think of your fans think instead of yourself your back onstage with your fans think of them instead of yourselfand when I walked onto the stage and saw everyone there are my fans are important then myself think of them think about having fun, I closed my eyes and took a breather.
As the music started to playing they never heard of it and I asked "This is a new song for all of you to welcome the freshmen of Idol Academy are you ready to hear it?" They scream out the top of their lungs, then I started singing Ichimatsu no Deshou and danced to it doing about ten different special appeals and something stopped me from doing another one, I felt numb and that I was about to puke up blood that build up in my throat, my condition was getting worse, but i couldn't stop now that I had started I thought again about teaching them the true meaning of being an idol.