It didn't turn out the way I wanted it too, but it's been in my head for some time. I blame school.
Will work on requests whenever time becomes available.
OMG A KISS. OH SNAPZ! SO OOC OF KANDA! BUT, Xanie WANTED A KISS IN A REVIEW SHE POSTED, SO YEAH. THIS IS FOR YOU I GUESS. :D
I hope this isn't very confussing. D: Enjoy I guess. (writers block/school is never good.)
Everything
They had just returned from a mission, him, the Moyashi, Link, and Miranda. It seemed as though everything had aggravated him; from Miranda being Miranda, to Link daring to ask him to repeat himself. Most of all, it had been that Moyashi. Suspicions were arising of him having a connection to this "14th". He hadn't known much about it, but it was frustrating and he hadn't managed to put his finger on what exactly bothered him about the whole situation.
Although he hadn't wanted to admit it, his mind had been debating on whether or not she had anything to do with it. Actually, it was her. Ever since Allen Walker had come, she had acted as though he was her obligation. At first he had assumed that she was just being the way she always was, friendly and everything else that makes a person so human, the opposite of him.
He himself hadn't felt too well. The thoughts of that someone returned and he found himself lost in them. Where was this certain someone now and what were the chances of ever finding that someone? He attempted to shake those thoughts off; of course the search would be hard but he won't allow himself to die until then.
He stopped pacing and lay on his bed, staring at the ceiling. He hated it how Lenalee managed to enter his mind when he thought of his purpose in life, whenever he was upset, and whenever Allen Walker had anything to do with it. It was one of those things of the day that had aggravated him. It was so unbearable to see her act as a mother protecting her child that he left straight to his room.
He recalled the days that he, Kanda, actually had someone there for him at all times. Although he wasn't sure that he was there for her as well before, he was now assured he was due to her telling him a while ago. He assumed then that even their ways of "comforting" were opposite.
Although at times he would admit that her worry was annoying, it wouldn't have helped in the past if he made an 8 year old girl cry, even if she had mistaken him for a girl. At times, she had cried because of him, and he felt that he should punch himself right then and there. Back then, she wouldn't have let him even if he tried.
Nothing was like it was before. They are rarely assigned on missions anymore, and he longed for her reassuring voice and even that smile he claimed to dislike. Although he didn't want to admit it, he missed her, and for some odd reason, he needed her.
What did Walker have that he didn't? Was he smarter? Was he stronger? To the conclusion, it all irritated him.
It was as if her world revolved around Walker.
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Lenalee stood by the door of Kanda's room. She wondered why she hadn't knocked his door yet. She shifted from foot to foot, wondering why all of a sudden her heart had been racing. There was no reason for her to be nervous, it was Kanda after all.
She took a deep breath, cleared her throat, and then knocked.
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He heard the knocks at the door, and ignored them. He didn't want to see anyone, not like this. He took a deep breath, and continued staring at the ceiling.
Another knock was heard, and he directed his stare to the door, only this time glaring. Whoever it was clearly hadn't known him well enough to realize he wasn't exactly the people type; especially when he was peeved.
The knocking continued, and this time, the person barged in. The person he hadn't wanted to see had been a few feet away from him. He looked at her and she hadn't looked all that happy. He assumed that she would have been happy, considering she was with that Moyashi the last time he saw her.
He stood from his laying posture. Why had she been in his presence now of all times? She was the last person that he had wanted to see at the moment. He crossed his arms, and the two found themselves staring at one another.(Kanda, slightly glaring) Lenalee, seeing herself as rude decided to have the first word. "Kanda, are you okay?" 'Of course he isn't okay! Why else would he have stormed off?'
"What, you actually give a damn." He replied, more like a statement rather than a question. 'If she doesn't leave soon…'
"Of course I do!" She walked up to him, a worried face arose, "Why wouldn't I?"
"Get out." He sternly said, pointing to the door as if she hadn't known where it was.
"What's wrong with you?" She refused to leave, something was up with him, and she wanted an answer, now. She placed her hand on top of his in an attempt to get his hand down from pointing to the door.
"Get out." He repeated.
"Not until you tell me what's wrong!"
He had desperately wanted her to leave him alone. Why now of all times had her worried mode gone max? He literally shoved her to the wall, an inch away from his face, both his hands blocking her way out on both sides. "What's wrong with me?" he inched closer to her face, "Why do you give a damn? You shouldn't care." He paused as he examined her face. Was she honestly glaring at him at the moment? Had she finally been angered with him for keeping his business to himself?
Good.
She was about to more than likely scold him for raising his voice, for keeping his own business, for everything. She looked just about ready to explode with frustration in him not telling her everything that bothered him. No way was he going to let her start.
In a hoped attempt to keep her from making his day worse, his lips had met hers, and her eyes widened. He pulled away after a few seconds, and the expression on Lenalee's face had been what he had wanted it to be, surprised. So surprised that she forgot what she was going to say.
He received what was expected, a slap. "What is the matter with you? I come to your room while I'm supposed to be helping my brother with his work, and you yell at me, denying me from your personal life, and then you kiss me?" Her face had been burning at that moment. "And yes Kanda, I do care! Why else would I be here? Sometimes you just…" She stopped. He had just kissed her, her first ever kiss. The reality of what had just happened just hit her.
"And you kissed me…" she placed her fingers on her lips.
"And it meant nothing at all." He walked towards his door, opening it, "Now leave."
And she did, but not without slamming Kanda's door shut. 'So it meant nothing…just a way of shutting me up…' she frowned as she glanced at his door. Her face had still been burning and her heart racing.
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Kanda glanced at his door, wondering why he had done that to her. It was nothing was what he kept on trying to convince himself. It was just a way of hushing her.
No matter how many times he had repeated that, it narrowed down to him desiring to do so. He mentally slapped himself for telling her that it meant nothing, and maybe that would have been the time to tell her. He finally realized something, and she probably hated him now.
She was more to him than he had originally thought.
A/N-
Reviews are the stuff. :)Please forgive me for making Allen the "enemy". Someone has to be it...ha ha. j/k