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Beast and Beauty

He glanced towards the night sky, and frowned. It wasn't as if he had wanted to land in this situation, for so long he had this secret-a secret that if anyone knew may feel sorry for him. He wasn't one to take pity, not at all.

Of all people Lenalee Li had been the detective who solved this "case". Why her of all to find out all of a sudden? He would have preferred anyone else, even that rabbit.

"Kanda, answer me!" Lenalee pleaded as her tears became frantic. She had known something had been wrong with him. This whole time, he had been alone. Her friend had been alone, when she could have done something. He should have told her, rather than her following him everywhere. "Please…answer!" She averted her eyes toward the lotus in the glass shaped sand-clock. Three petals had been at the bottom, and although she had assumed the worst, she couldn't help but stare at its beauty.

He continued to stare at the night sky, avoiding her question. He didn't want her to feel burdened with knowing such a secret. She didn't have to know. She could guess until the end of time for all he cared, and although she overheard him, he preferred her to believe that he had gone mad, "It's none of your concern."

She couldn't believe how stubborn he was. Why not answer her question about what he had recently been speaking to the lotus himself? Was this truly his lifeline? Was he truly left alone this whole time? His back had been turned to her, and she couldn't help but hug him from behind, tightly.

And this had come to a surprise to Kanda.

"Kanda…I don't care if you don't want to answer me…" She started, her face buried into his back, he felt her tears on his back sinking in. "I just want you to know that you aren't alone, and that this is my concern! You're my friend Kanda!"

He turned to face her, "No it's not." He glared her down; no way was he going to let her get involved. It was his business, nothing that should even concern her. He would prefer her to hate him before she felt pity upon him.

"I don't understand you…why won't you trust me? You don't have to tell me anything, just let me help!"

"Get out."

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It had been over two hours since he had last talked to her, his last words being "Get Out". He lay on his bed, and stared at the ceiling, and thought. He thought long about this secret he had been shielding from everyone else. This secret that would make everyone believe he needs help. He just so happened to be perfectly fine. The only reason he had been talking to the lotus was because there were suddenly three petals rather than two.

'Why the hell do I feel bad? It's none of her business.' He lifted himself up, and glanced at his doorknob. Sighing, he walked towards his door, opened it, and went next door.

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He silently opened Lenalee's door, being careful not to make a noise. She had been asleep, and her tear-stained face reveled that she had managed to cry herself to sleep. It amazed him how she perfected the art of crying herself to sleep without anyone realizing she did so.

It couldn't be helped that he felt drawn in at her beauty as she lay there, breathing in and out like a steady rhythm. He stood at her side and watched her sleep, dazzled by her beauty, and whispered, "Why do you care so much? You're suffering for no reason." He caressed her face; his cold fingers met her warm face.

Her lips had at that point had been tempting, and he whispered, "You tempt me even when you're asleep." He tried putting all temptations aside for they were full of sin. His lust for her had been overwhelming, but her innocence had managed to keep it slightly tamed.

After all, he was a mere beast, and she was an innocent beauty.

He kissed her, and quickly ended it. His heart had been pounding, and he knew he was taking advantage. He backed away, and reminded himself that she would never be his, for he was a mere beast and she was the innocent beauty.

At that point he decided that he would stay on the sidelines, where he belonged. It was better to quit what he had been feeling before he lost control to her. He heard a distant echo in his mind, reminding him, that he was a mere beast, and she was a beauty who would never return what he had felt at that moment to a beast known as he.

A/N- I was actually planning on making a doujin on this maybe?? Sorry about being dead and stuff. ha ha Oh and this kiss he gives her is basically just a peck. Cause Kanda's a gentleman. :)

Reviews rock. :) btw, thanks for them. I smile each time I read them. And thank you for the pm's you guys send me. I may not reply due to being busy, but they mean a lot to me.

I actually like the idea of Kanda liking Lenalee, but he's not going to be selfish about it. *shot* Short drabbles ftw. (sorry it's real short, but I had to let you guys know I was alive.) /ENDREALLYLONG A/N