A/N: So, I literally don't even know what this is. Like, wasn't it meant to be just some fun smutty stuff? Yeah... Nah nah it's still fun, just starting to add a bit more depth... And ok ok ok can I give you a warning? If you don't like Kogan... you're not going to like this... Ok? Ok.
But hey, if you read it you'll see that just because its very Kogan focused atm, it's not necessarily going to stay that way...
Ok anyway, I feel like this chapter is sort of bad or whatever, but keep letting me know what you think! I love you all!
P.S Ignore my shitty proof reading you know the deal.
Chapter 5 - Rock Me Like A Hurricane.
To a bystander, Kendall probably looks like he's being kidnapped. Almost as if he should be mouthing "help" to the people around him, needing to convey with his eyes that these two boys are going to do horrible, awful things with him.
Kendall is getting almost shoved through the restaurant, Logan's fingers curled painfully tight around his wrists pulling him along, and James behind, a hand hovering over his lower back; almost as if he's trying to stop Kendall from running if he tries.
Rosie the waitress opens her mouth as they walk past the front table, ready to ask if everything is ok, but her jaw soon snaps shut when she sees the burning in their eyes; the want, the lust, the anger. It's not until they're out the door she realises she never actually saw the blonde at the table.
"What are you –"
"Get in the car" Logan grunts, opening door to the backseat of James' Range Rover and shoving Kendall inside. "James, you drive"
"Logan, I swear to god, if you –"
"Just fucking do it James" Logan growls, getting in next to the blonde boy and slamming the door shut.
Kendall doesn't say a word, sinking back into the leather as James climbs into the driver's seat. Kendall's so fucking on edge, he could scream. At this point, he doesn't know if they're going to take him to a dark alley and fuck him, or take him to a dark alley and beat the shit out of him.
When the engine purrs to life and James pull out from the curb, Kendall almost screams in shock when Logan pounces. Logan shoves Kendall up against the door, hands fisted in his shirt and not hesitating to bring their lips smashing together. Kendall gasps into Logan's mouth, Logan swallowing the sound and using the opportunity to find Kendall's tongue with his own.
"God damn it Logan" James mutters from the driver's seat, eyes flickering between the rear vision mirror and the road.
Logan's not listening, ripping the buttons of Kendall's shirt and tearing it off his shoulders. Kendall's hands wrap around the back of Logan's neck, tugging at his hair and drawing him in closer.
"Fuck me" Kendall groans against Logan's lips, dragging his teeth across the brunette's jaw.
"Oh, I intend to" Logan breathes heavily, undoing Kendall's belt and pulling it through the loops with one swish.
"No!" James shouts, "No sex whilst im still driving!"
"Well then pull over!" Logan replies in annoyance, not breaking his focus from Kendall, from those full blown green eyes, those parted plump lips, that whole fucking face Logan is beginning to love more and more every second.
The car could have stopped stop, the world could come crashing down around them, and Kendall wouldn't know the difference. All there is in this moment is Logan's hands on his skin, Logan's breath on his tongue, Logan Logan Logan.
Kendall grunts when Logan pushes away from him, his head hitting the glass of the door and his vision blurring.
"Im pissed off at you" Logan says slowly, voice laden with heavy breath, "so I'm not going give you what you want... yet"
Kendall's confused, which is nothing new, the feeling growing when Logan grabs James by his jacket, pulling him onto the back seat. Kendall squishes up against the door, making room for all three of them and instantly groans when Logan brings his and James' lips smashing together.
Logan pushes James back into the back seat, straddling his waist and fisting brunette hair in his fingers.
"Logan, ugh, god" James moans, grabbing the shorter male by his waist and drawing him in closer.
As clothes are thrown all over the car, mostly in the direction of smacking Kendall in the face, James and Logan soon find themselves bare, naked skin hot, on fire, and burning to be touched. The moans are loud, the gasps needy, and all Kendall can do is stare in shock. He wants to reach out and touch, he wants those hungry lips on his, he wants the attention.
Kendall loves attention. Craves it.
Kendall whines in frustration, dragging the zipper of his jeans down quickly and pulling his jeans and boxers from his hips. He sighs in slight relief when his fingers grip his length, not wasting any time in begin to pump his fist up and down.
Logan breaks his lips from James', looking over at Kendall with angry eyes when he sees what the blonde is doing. Logan doesn't think, doesn't care when he slaps Kendall harshly across the face, making the tall boy scream out in pain.
"No touching yourself. If you do, I won't hesitate in hitting you again"
Kendall nods feebly with wide eyes, trying not to whimper, and trying not to touch himself. He can't handle this, can't handle watching them wrap their hands over one another's cocks, jacking each other off hard and fast. Logan's forehead rests against James', the breaths deep and heavy as they breathe one another in, looking into one another's eyes and not breaking that hold for a second.
Kendall wants to claw his eyes out, or maybe punch himself in the face, he doesn't know, he just needs something, and he can feel his sanity slipping away with each passing second.
"James, I'm c-close" Logan whispers, kissing the tall boy and swallowing his moans.
James grunts in agreement, quickening the pace of his wrist and digging his fingers into Logan's hip, hard enough to bruise.
"Oh fuck!" Logan groans, thrusting up into James' hand and finding his second release for this evening.
Logan's cum runs over James' rock hard abs, that alone enough to have James falling over the edge, wishing to make Logan's stomach match.
Kendall watches them come down from their orgasms, his own begging to be released. He thinks they've forgotten about him for a second, until they simultaneously turn their heads and grin at the writhing blonde.
"Well" Logan breathes out, pushing himself up off James' chest but not moving from the brunette's lap. "That was very fun, and now? Time to go home"
"What?!" Kendall retorts instantly, "What about me?!"
Both boys laugh, Logan reaching for Kendall's shirt and wiping it over his stomach before he does the same to James.
"Hey that's my –"
"Oh shut the fuck up" Logan sighs angrily, rolling his eyes and throwing it in Kendall's face when he is done.
Kendall wants to cry. He's never felt so out of place with them, never felt so unwanted. They're going to leave him, take him home and drop him off like trash. Just when he thought they were starting to like him too. Kendall needs to stop being so naive, and stop fucking telling himself something is real when it's not.
James and Logan dress quickly and carelessly before moving to the front. James retaking the drivers seat and Logan sitting next to him in the passengers.
Kendall feels like he doesn't exist, the only thing letting him know they haven't forgotten about him all together is the fact James drives in the direction of his house. They laugh, they chat, they sing along to the radio, acting as if nothing has happened and leaving Kendall to let a single tear fall down his cheek. He wishes he had never gotten involved with them, wishes he didn't listen to them that afternoon on his first day, wishes he never moved to this town.
Logan's eyes flicker in the rear vision mirror, not missing the blonde's hunched shoulders or his sullen expression, and he almost yells at James to stop the car when he sees Kendall start to cry. But he tightens the hard line of his lips, keeping quiet and listening to James, laughing and smiling when appropriate.
When they pull up to Kendall's house, Kendall mutters a quick goodbye before he jumps out, not wishing to be stuck in that car another second.
"Kendall wait!" Logan calls, jumping out of the car and quickly catching Kendall.
"Logan what the hell! Are you coming?" James yells from the car.
Logan grabs Kendall's wrist, stopping him from going any further before he looks over his shoulder at James. "Nah I want to talk to Kendall, you go home. Its fine, I promise"
"Logan..." James warns, not needing to say more than the boys name to get across what he is trying to ask.
"James, please, I just want to talk to him"
"How will you get home?"
"I'll get my Mom to come get me, its fine"
"Fine. Whatever. Call me when you get home" James grunts, rolling the window up before speeding off from the curb.
"Look, Logan, I don't know what you want –"
Logan silences Kendall with his lips, framing the tall boys face with his hands and kissing him so sweet it takes Kendall's breath away.
When Logan pulls back his breath is deep, resting their foreheads together and forcing Kendall's eyes to look into his own.
"I'm sorry" Logan whispers, "Please forgive me"
"What are you –"
"No. Just. Please" Logan almost pleads, kissing Kendall gently, and then kissing him again... and again, and again... and again. "Can we go inside please? I need you"
Kendall's head is spinning; he thinks he might pass out. "I think we need to talk about whatever is going on right now because –"
"No. No talking. Just... not yet"
Logan pushes them backwards up Kendall's driveway, lifting up on his toes to kiss the taller boy and kiss him hard.
"Wait wait wait" Kendall says quickly, fishing his keys from his pocket, "My Mom's here, I don't think, uh, I don't she'll want to see this"
Logan grins, kissing Kendall softly one last time on the doorstep before letting them fall through the door.
"Mom?!" Kendall calls out, throwing his keys down on the table by the door.
"Hi honey!" She calls back, her footsteps starting to echo down the hall.
Logan lets his eyes rake over Kendall, the urge to just shove him up against the wall and take him almost reaching a breaking point.
"Crap!" Logan says quickly, shrugging off his jacket and handing it to Kendall.
"What what?" Kendall asks, shocked by Logan's outburst.
"You've got my cum all over your shirt" Logan almost laughs.
Kendall can't get the jacket on quick enough, covering himself up as much as he can, ignoring the slightly too small size.
"You look cute" Logan smiles, leaning up for a kiss but Kendall quickly stopping him as his mother rounds the corner.
"Hi Kendall how was – oh, hello!"
Jennifer Knight stops in her tracks, taking Logan in and suppressing her shock.
"Hi" Logan says shyly, reaching out his hand for hers, "My name is Logan"
"Hi Logan" She smiles in return, clasping his hand momentarily before letting go.
"Kendall, you're back early, I thought you would try and defy my 11pm rule?"
"I didn't want him to get in trouble" Logan interrupts, Kendall shooting him a thankful smile.
"Aw well aren't you sweet?" Jennifer laughs. "Kendall, I thought you were going out with a few friends?"
"Yeah I did, ah, James just dropped us off"
"Oh. That's nice. Is Logan staying the night?"
Kendall looks to Logan quickly, only to be met with a sheepish and maybe a hopeful smile.
"Yes?"
"Yes" Logan says quickly, "If that's ok?"
"Sure" Jen smiles, "Good to see you making new friends"
"Thanks. Um, well, we'll just go to my room"
"Ok sweetie, have fun!"
"Mommm" Kendall groans, cheeks turning red as he starts to walk away.
His Mom simply laughs, before tilting her head to the side and looking at Kendall's retreating figure. "Wait, Kendall, that's not your jacket?"
Kendall stops dead, turning back to give her a weak smile and mutter, "Yeah I got cold, its Logan's"
Kendall can't handle the look she gives him next, just like she... like she knows. Instead of saying another word, Kendall grabs Logan's wrist, dragging him up the stairs and to his room.
The door has hardly been shut two seconds before Logan has Kendall shoved up against it, lips on his and kissing him hard. Kendall grabs Logan's shirt in his fists, pushing himself off against the door and stumbling forwards until the back of Logan's legs hit his bed. Logan grins against Kendall's lips before falling backwards and pulling the taller boy with him.
"I know you're mad at me" Logan breathes heavily, crawling backwards on the bed and Kendall positioning himself between Logan's legs. "But, I just, I need you now, please"
Kendall doesn't say anything, simply nods, straddling Logan's waist and pulling the jacket off his shoulders before ripping his shirt over his head.
Logan eyes drag hungrily over the pale boys' skin, memorising every line, every mark, every freckle; he wants to memorise them with his lips. He leans up kissing every inch of skin his lips can reach, hands pressing into Kendall's back and pulling them flush together.
"Logan" Kendall breathes out with trembling fingers, keeping them still by locking them through soft brunette hair.
"Kendall, I'm such an asshole, I just" Logan murmurs against Kendall's skin between the soft presses of his lips, "You need to understand – I can't – I'm – I'm so sorry"
Kendall leans back to press his finger tips to Logan's lips to silence him before he lets the same hand cup Logan's cheek gently. "No talking now, remember?"
Logan nods, pulling Kendall down to bring their lips back together and let them fall backwards into the pillows.
As clothes fall to the floor, so does Kendall's fear, letting it melt away as he melts into everything Logan is, every press of skin, every grip of fingers, ever whispered promise of forever and a day. Kendall doesn't know what this means, doesn't know what's going to happen, but all there is, is right now. All there is, is Logan.
"I don't need preparing, please" Kendall whispers breathlessly as he lies on his back, wrapping his long legs around Logan's waist and dragging him in closer. "Please Logan"
Logan nods, running his fingers through Kendall's hair and leaning down to kiss him soft and sweet as he presses in slowly.
"Ngh, fuck" Kendall gasps, "Yes, please, yes, Logan"
Logan swallows Kendall's sounds with his mouth, both knowing they need to keep quiet, the thought of Kendall's Mom walking in being simply too horrific to even comprehend.
"Harder" Kendall pants, digging his heels into the back of Logan's thighs, "Harder, Logan, please"
Logan complies, who is he to deny this boy? This beautiful, breathless boy that makes him smile like nothing else.
"Fuck, Kendall" Logan grunts against his lips, angling his hips in that perfect perfect way that has them both biting on their screams.
"Right there, yes, right there". Kendall's finger nails drag down Logan's back, hard enough to mark, hard enough to break skin. He needs more of Logan, he needs all of Logan, needs to feel like this forever, needs to hold this moment forever.
"Touch me, please" Kendall moans, biting down on Logan's bottom lip as Logan's hand drags down his chest.
Logan's hand works in time with his thrusts, knowing that the blonde is absolutely crumbling beneath his touch, falling apart, cracking at the seams, ready to come undone.
"Let it go" Logan breathes against Kendall's skin, "Let it all go"
Kendall throws his head back into the pillows, eyes scrunching shut tightly, breath erratic, chest heavy, mind in pieces. "YesLoganyesfuckohmygodyesLog an"
It takes everything Kendall has not to scream, biting down almost impossibly hard on his bottom lip and holding Logan close to him with the brunette's lips press to his throat. As Kendall cums, his legs fasten around Logan's waist, constricting almost impossibly tight, tight enough to have Logan seeing stars and shouting against Kendall's pulse point.
"Kendall, oh god, Kendall" Logan pants, letting his hips still and pulling out before he collapses down on the tall boys chest and taking comfort in the loud thumpthumpthump of Kendall's heart.
"Logan that was... Fuck" Kendall can barely speak, his voice trying to die in his throat.
Logan moves to the side, pulling Kendall with him until their positions are switched, Kendall now on top of Logan, smiling as he crosses his arms over the brunette's chest and rests his chin on his hands.
Logan runs his fingers down the side of Kendall's face, smiling mostly to himself as he brings Kendall forward to press his lips to still hot pale skin.
They lay like that for awhile, looking at one another, sharing soft and simple kisses, taking refuge in the peaceful silence. But they can't stay silent forever.
"I wasn't angry with you" Kendall says finally, locking their emerald and chocolate gazes and speaking quickly before Logan can get the chance. "I was just... I just... I just don't understand you and James"
Logan sighs, his chest raising and taking Kendall with it before it falls back down. "Kendall... You have to understand... James and I... It's complicated"
Kendall scoffs. "Tell me about it. I'm starting to think you have bi polar or something. How do you go from slapping me across the face one second to... this?"
"I know you probably don't believe this Kendall, but I care about you, I really, really do. More than you know. I found myself drawn to you in the first two seconds we met, and I couldn't even explain it. I'd never been attracted to another guy apart from James. I thought I was straight, just with the exception of James"
"James-sexual?" Kendall chuckles softly.
"I guess" Logan laughs in return. "James and I started sleeping together quite awhile ago. I don't even really know how it started. It was just one of those things, it just happened. And the thing is... I love James. I do. We've been best friends since before I can remember, and I trust him more than anyone"
"But he's... he's such a... a..."
"A bastard? A dick head? An asshole? Yeah. But. So am I. I know it seems like he's some super bad guy who's got me under his influence, and without him I would be a lot better, but that's not true. We're just as bad for each other really. We've spent so many years needing nothing but each other, taking anything we want and giving nothing back"
"But... Logan... You're so different. You're a different person when you're not with James. I know you and James have done some pretty bad things to me so far, but I wanted that so I'm not complaining, but afterwards... You're the one who truly cares, who actually looks at me like I'm worth it..."
"You're so worth it" Logan smiles softly, kissing Kendall gently. "And I know what you're trying to say, and I'm not going to try and defend him, but James just shows affection differently to most people... I know he seems like an asshole but he's been there for me in so many ways and I will always hold a special spot for him in my heart. I know you don't believe this, but I think James actually does care about you"
"Ha" Kendall laughs, rolling his eyes. "Sure"
"No, he does. I think that's why he gets so aggressive. Because he wants you all to himself"
"I find that hard to believe. I think it's more the fact he wants you all to himself. I don't think he likes to share you"
"You'd be surprised..." Logan murmurs. "James' mind is a weird and wonderful place. And hey... I know he'd be pissed, but he'd understand if you wanted to stop all this. If you... if you just wanted to be with me?"
Logan looks so hopeful, and Kendall can't help but smile. "The thing is though Logan... I really, really like you, like, it scares me how much I like you. But... and I have no idea why... but I like James too"
"I get it" Logan sighs, "James has just... something about him, and no matter how hard you try, you can't stay away"
"Trying to stay away from both of you is proving to be almost impossible" Kendall grins.
"Even when I slap you across the face and make you watch as James and I jack each other off?"
"It was kind of hot..."
"Even though you cried? I saw that"
Kendall can see the pain in Logan's eyes; he wants to kiss every ounce of pain away. "No no it wasn't... I don't know. I just felt like you guys didn't want me anymore. Like, you'd had your fun and then you were done, ready to throw me out and move on to the next person. And to be completely honest... I'm terrified of losing you. Which is ridiculous because I barely know you and yet I feel like I've known you forever and that sounds so lame but –"
Logan kisses Kendall hard on the lips, holding them there and hoping he can convey everything he will never be able to say right.
"As long as you want me to stay, I will" Logan says finally, holding Kendall's face in his hands.
"Stay for tonight, please"
"Of course" Logan whispers, placing a kiss to Kendall's lips softly. "But can I make a request?"
"Yes, anything"
"We didn't eat dinner, and I'm starving"
Kendall laughs, sitting up off Logan's chest and the bed, taking the short boys hand in his and pulling him up. "Come on bossy, put on some pants and I'll make you the Kendall Knight specialty"
"And what would that be?" Logan grins, wrapping his arms around Kendall's waist and closing the gap between their bodies.
"Toast" Kendall says with a toothy grin, like a small child, so proud of his achievements.
"You're dumb" Logan smiles, reaching up on his toes to kiss Kendall's nose gently, "but I like you."