A/N: Thank you all so much for your reviews! You guys are seriously hilarious! I read each and every one of them, and they help fuel my inspiration to write! This is an early update, as of right now it looks like I'll be updating on Saturdays (: To answer a question left by an anon, The family didn't realize that Bella passed out, because she didn't, what happened was her 'inner animal' for lack of a better term, came out to fight, and she doesn't remember what she did. Like a small case of amnesia. And the family knows about it (: hope that clears it up. Also if you haven't yet, you might want to check out my new default photo, it is a picture of Jasper in "Major mode" Now on to the next chapter (:

Warning: Lemon, so if your sensitive, skip the part labeled -flashback-

Chapter 2: Memories

I Ran through the woods at a blinding speed, I had no idea where I was going. I just needed to get away from here. I allowed myself to feel the emotions I had tried to shut off for two years. Pain. Rage. Pain. Regret. Loss. Hatred. Pain. Pain. Pain. I felt my knees go out as the most incredible pain I have ever felt seared through my flesh, white hot. I clawed at my skin trying to get it out of me, and watched as venom flowed out of the deep scratches I had made in my marble skin. It burned. I tossed my head back and let out a scream, crying out my mates name in agony.

Why wasn't he here?

Why did he leave me?

Why hasn't he contacted me?

Where was he?

"JASPER!" I screamed his name out as if expecting him to run out of the density of the pine trees, asking me what was wrong.

If I closed my eyes I could almost picture him beside me, rubbing my back in comfort.

I sighed as the burning pain slowly started to ebb away. This happened often. I had concluded that it was my punishment for not finding him. It had to be. The longer I went without thinking of him the worse it got. Only easing as I tortured myself with past memories of us.

The pain started to fade as I forced myself to remember memories I have kept buried inside of myself for two years.

o.O.o.*JD2*o.O.o

-flashback-

"Bella?" I heard Jasper call from outside. "Why don't you join me?" I smiled to myself as I quickly finished vacuuming up the mess that Emmett and Peter had made while play-fighting before they chased each other off into the woods. Quickly putting the vacuum away, I headed out to meet my mate.

He was in the river, floating on the water with his hands behind his head, his eyes shut basking in the sunlight. I took an involuntary breath in as I admired his beauty. The sun was reflecting light off his skin, giving him the illusion of sparkling. His lips were set into a small smile as he softly hummed an unfamiliar tune. His normally light blonde hair was darkened by the water, slicked back and revealing a handsome, well defined jaw line. His biceps were fully visible. It was clear that he was well muscled, but not grossly over so. More on the lean side. I allowed my eyes to gaze lower at his well-defined abs from his human years in the army. A light trail of blonde hair leading down from his belly button. I stopped my wandering eyes just before they reached the most impressive cock I had ever laid eyes on. I felt myself getting wet at that train of thought.

I quickly pulled my clothes off so that I was as naked as he, and slowly walked into the water until I was standing right next to him, so close to touching him, but not.

I watched as his smile grew the closer I got to him, and couldn't help but place a soft kiss on his lips. He immediately responded, but I pulled back before he could deepen it. A look of confusion crossed his face and his eyes fluttered, threatening to open.

"Keep them closed." I whispered, and he immediately complied. A small smile tugged at my lips as I took my hand and put it so close to his cheek that I was almost touching it, but not quite. Slowly, as if it had its own mind, my hand moved from above his cheek, so that it ghosted above his lips where I had just kissed. I moved on to his neck, lightly brushing against the mating mark I had made, enjoying his visible shudder before moving again to his collar bone, down to his nipples where I stopped to brush against them lightly, feeling the way the hardened beneath my touch.

"Bella" he moaned softly, the sound going straight to my warmth.

"Shhh. No talking." I almost chuckled at the way his eyebrows furrowed in disappointment.

I lightly spread my hands over his stomach, feeling the tight muscles beneath his skin. I heard him groan softly as I worked over his muscles with my hands. As I moved to his sides I noticed him stiffen and a look of pure concentration crossed his face.

No way! I thought to myself.

I quickly moved my fingers against his side and was rewarded with a quick chuckle before he put his hard mask up again.

But it was too late. "Ticklish?" I asked him softly. He shook his head. "We'll see about that" I mumbled quickly, and dug my fingers into his sides, tickling him before he had time to react. He immediately started roaring with laughter and splashing around as he tried desperately to get away from me. "Bella… please… no more… no more… stop…no more!" He cried out between fits of laughter.

Somehow he had managed to drag us to land, and tried to get up and run from me, but I wasn't having any of that. I quickly got to my feet and tackled him, rolling our bodies so that I was on top. I could feel his hard erection pressing against my ass. I placed my hands on his chest and leaned down to capture his lips in a passionate kiss.

Jasper immediately picked up on the shift of my emotions, and placed his hands on my hips holding me in place. I lifted my hips and felt the tip of his hardness press at my opening. With a groan he tightened his grip on my hips and helped me slide slowly down him, until he was completely sheathed inside of me. We locked eyes as I started to slowly move up and down, the slow pace torturing us in the most delicious pleasure. I leaned back to place both my palms flat on the ground between his legs for support, breasts on full display for my mate. Not missing a beat Jasper got the hint and sat up, taking one of my nipples into his mouth, rolling it around and occasionally nipping lightly, the whole time never breaking eye contact. I could feel him helping me move faster and faster and I knew he was getting close. I moved forward again capturing his lips as I came, pulsing around him. Jasper quickly flipped us over so that he was on top and started slamming into me with no restraint at all. With a final moan of my name he released inside of me.

"I love you Bella, I will never let anything happen to you." He whispered softly to me before placing a soft kiss to my forehead.

-End of flashback-

o.O.o.*JD2*o.O.o

I was snapped out of my memory at the sound of something rushing towards me with a frightening speed. Faster than I could even think it my body leapt to its feet and crouched down letting out a warning grown at the intruder.

The sound of running feet slowed, but did not stop as the vampire came into view.

"Edward?" My eyes must be playing tricks on me. He wasn't supposed to be here. Last I knew he was in Italy.

He smiled that crooked smile that use to make my knees go weak and my heart speed up. But now all I felt was weariness at his presence. I straightened up out of my crouch but kept my muscles tense. I still viewed him as a threat.

I took a second to take in his appearance. His hair was slightly shorter, but maintained that 'just got out of bed' look. He was wearing all grey, a simple pair of charcoal grey slacks, a light grey tee shirt and a matching scarf, with an unbuttoned deep grey coat that stopped just above his knees. He looked about the same, but different somehow. It took me a moment before realizing it was all in his eyes. They were pure black, and wild. He had an air of maddening darkness that clung to him, seeming to move as he did.

"Bella, it is good to see you again." Oh how badly I wanted to slap that stupid smile off of his face.

"What are you doing here Edward?" I wasn't falling for his bullshit. If he was here that meant he wanted something.

"Can't I just stop by to say hello?" he began to slowly walk around as if taking in the scenery of the snowy pine forest.

"Enough with your bullshit, what do you want?" I kept my eyes trained on him, never letting them stray for just a moment. I don't trust him.

"Where is Jasper?" He inquired, avoiding the question.

I tried to cover up my wince at his question. But he still noticed it. Before I could react he had me by the arms and bent down to where Jasper had marked me nearly three years ago, and took a deep breath in. I struggled to pull back, fearing he was going to bite me, but he was stronger than I was and kept a hold on me.

"Calm down Bella, I'm not going to hurt you. I just-" he cut off and took another deep breath in through his nose. "You smell nothing like him. His scent from where he marked you is nearly faded." The pain of hearing someone recognize and say this was deep. I had noticed his scent fade before a month of his absence had passed, and it had only continued to grow weaker the longer he was missing. "Did you two have a fight?"

"That's none of your business Edward. Let me go." I did not feel comfortable informing him that Jasper wasn't here.

"Just answer my question Bella." His black eyes focused on mine. He looked like he was concentrating. How the hell was he so strong? I felt venom begin to pool in my mouth from the danger my body was sensing.

I did not hear the other set of feet approach and jumped as the loud voice spoke. "Let her go Edward before I kick your ass."

We both whipped our heads to the side to face Emmett. I had never seen him like this, not even when Peter broke every Xbox game he owned. His features were dark and protective looking. His eyes were pure black full of rage. I could see his muscles flex and relax as he fought to restrain himself from pouncing on Edward.

"There is no need for that, Emmett. I was merely asking Bella a question." He kept his eyes on Emmett, never looking away for even the slightest second.

"And why does that require restraining her? Look at her, you're hurting her. Let her go." Emmett spoke through clench teeth. I knew he had not attacked Edward yet for fear that one of them might accidently hurt me in the process.

I saw the corner of Edward's mouth twitch up in a small smirk. "Why so protective Emmett? Afraid I might hurt your girlfriend?" His tone was teasing but his face was serious. Did he actually think that we were together? Or was he just trying to provoke Emmett?

Emmett growled. "Last time I am telling you. Let. Her. Go."

Edward seemed to pay no attention to him as he turned to face me. "That explains why you don't smell of Jasper. You've been fucking him." He nodded towards Emmett, and before he could say anything else I spat the venom that had been pooling in my mouth directly into Edward's eyes. He immediately let go of me, his hands flying to his face as he cried out in pain. My venom was burning his eyes, temporarily rendering him blind and providing a distraction as Emmett leapt towards him, easily pinning him to the ground.

"Dude I don't know what the fuck is wrong with you, but you better shut that stupid trap of yours before I rip your face off." It was hard to make out the words Emmett was making through his growling and snarling.

Edward laughed. He actually laughed.

Yep he's crazy. I thought to myself.

"Crazy? No Isabella, I'm not crazy. I'm powerful." I must have voiced my thoughts, and I watched as Edward through Emmett easily off of him, as if Emmett was no stronger than a human. Edward quickly got to his feet, brushing himself off as Emmett quickly pushed off the ground and charged at Edward, who quickly dodged. "You always did have trouble containing your thoughts. Especially when sparring." Edward kept that fucking smile on his face as he dodged everyone of Emmett's blows.

I could almost feel the ground shaking at Emmett's anger. "Shut up Eddie and fight me. Stop dodging and take it like a man you pansy." He tried to grab Edward to keep him still, but he was too slow.

Edward let out a bark of laughter. "This is getting quite boring Emmett. Let's see what's on that brain of yours you are trying so desperately to hide from me.

I let out a gasp and took a step forward to assist Emmett. If Edward found out about Jasper's absence there was no telling what he would do in this state of mind. But before I could reach them a hand clasped over my mouth, and pulled me back away from the fight.

A/N: Have you missed my cliffhangers? Haha I am truly evil. Speaking of evil what's up with Edward? I mean we all knew he didn't have all his marbles before, but that could have been written off to Keegan's influence. But now it seems as though someone just took the whole bag of marbles and emptied them all over the floor. And how about that lemon-memory? Let me know what you all thought of this chapter, it was a lot of fun to wright, and I hope you all enjoyed reading it as well -Zee