Previously...

"Or we can ditch the meeting and run away." I suggested grinning, and successfully improving his mood.

"Where would we go?" He asked playing along, his gold eyes shining.

"Texas of course." I said immediately, giggling at the surprised look off his face.

I had just caught a vampire off-guard.

I smirked inwardly, feeling pretty accomplished.

"Why exactly?" Jasper questioned, his eyes serious and probing now.

"Because Jasper, even If all your memories from there aren't good it's still where you were born. Well that and...I've always secretly wanted to learn to ride a horse." I confessed expecting laughter from him. He didn't disappoint.

"As much as I would love to continue talking about our escape to Texas, Carlisle is will be at the door in a few seconds if you don't head down to his office." He said, standing and opening the door for me.

"Oh right. Well talk to you later Jasper." I called turning and walking down the hall.

"Bella."

I turned back around, from where I stood half way down the hallway.

"I might just take you up on that idea of yours." He said winking at me before disappearing back into his room.

BELLA POV

"Sorry if I interrupted anything Bella." Carlisle apologized, as I took one of the seats across the desk from him.

"After the chaos the last to meetings caused, I decided it would be best to converse with you alone." Carlisle continued, a small, wry smile on his lips.

"About what?" I asked, even though I had a pretty good idea what he was talking about.

"Since your change into one of us is inevitable, the only thing that needs to be discussed is the timing. I know you planned on being turned after the first week of your honeymoon, but now that things have changed, I was wondering how you wanted to go about this. Because frankly, I don't want to have to replace the television again."

"If things were to go on as planned, I would be changed on Sunday. And I want to continue as we arranged. I want to be changed tomorrow." I answered resolutely.

I knew that this was my home. This was where I belonged. And no matter how much I had to give up, it would be worth it if I still had the Cullens. My family.

"I had a feeling that you wouldn't change your mind about the change, but you really want it to happen that soon?" He asked seriously, looking only mildly shocked at my request.

"I don't see any reason to put off the inevitable." I answered, making it clear that I wanted to live the rest of my life as a vampire with them.

I was really glad Carlisle wasn't asking if I was sure I wanted to be changed. I had been asked that enough now, and I'm not changing my mind. But why his surprise about how soon I want it to happen is understandable.

"Okay then. I assume you don't want Edward to change you anymore, is that correct?" He asked cautiously, an apologetic look on his face.

I nodded, reigning in my emotions.

"Do you know who you would prefer to change you? I know it would probably be safest if I did it, but it's your choice if the vampire you want to change you agrees."

"I...I'm not sure." I answered in an unsure voice.

"Don't worry you have plenty of time to think about it Bella. A whole...24 hours."

I had many difficult decisions to make and so little time to make them. My change has seemed like a distant hopeful dream that would never occur. And now it's happening in just 24 hours. Half of which I'll probably spend sleeping.

"You should go somewhere quiet where you can have some peace. You have a lot to think about." Carlisle suggested, standing up and opening the office door for me, a reassuring smile on his face.

"Thanks Carlisle. Really." I said gratefully, before exiting his room and going to search for a private place where I could be alone with my thoughts.

ALICE POV

How could this happen? Why did this happen? I can't believe I could be so stupid to really think that Edward wouldn't tell anyone. How could anyone be so naive and impulsive?

And I shouldn't have listened when Edward told me not to look into the future the night of their honeymoon to give them some privacy. I had listened to him though and studiously avoided all visions of my brother and best friend, but only because I never expected him to do anything like this! But I knew right when I saw Bella that he had told her; the hurt and betrayal was written clear as day on her face. And that was the first time I truly felt guilty since right after Edward and I cheated. The look on Bella's face would have brought me to tears, I had been able to cry.

And I had wanted to make amends with Bella, until I saw how close Jasper was becoming to Bella. Edward and I make a mistake and suddenly it's like we're in an episode of wife swap! How dare Bella think she can move on to Jasper now that her and Edward broke up! She has no claim on Jasper whatsoever! They barely even spoke up until now and suddenly they're comforting each other, confiding in each other, spending time together...what is Jasper thinking? How could he try and replace me with Bella? She is just a mere human! Does he honestly think that they can form a friendship when her blood calls to him? He already tried to bite her once, who's to say he won't lose it again?

But despite my anger at them...I don't want Bella to get hurt. I don't want her life to end, I just don't want her living my life. With my husband. I don't want them anywhere near each other after what I've seen going on between them and my visions.

I thought that maybe this camaraderie between the two of them wouldn't last this long. I'm not a fool though. I knew Jasper wouldn't automatically forgive me when he found out. At worst I thought he run off for a couple of days. But this...this is worse. Every time I see them together, or even look at each other...it makes my blood boil. And the worst part is that he knows it too. Jasper I mean. He knows how angry it makes me that he is getting closer to Bella, but when he first noticed it he didn't apologize or back off. He warned me to stay away from Bella and that I had already hurt her enough.

Way to twist the knife in deeper you bastard. God, what am I going to do? I wouldn't be worried if I knew Bella wasn't going to be changed. If she stayed human she could only amuse him for so long before he got bored or she died of old age. But she still wants to be a vampire! What is wrong with her? She broke up with Edward, so what desire for eternity does she have left? Why in the hell would she want to live forever with an ex who cheated on her and lied about it for year?

All I know is that I have to try everything possible to stop her from being changed. I can't let her become a vampire, because that would make my chances of getting Jasper to realize that we belong together even harder than it already is.

I heard a gasp and turned my head toward the noise.

What is it? I asked Edward in my head.

He opened his mouth but was incapable of speech.

Edward you better tell me what's going on! Why aren't you saying anything?

"Carlisle." Edward said in a deathly calm voice.

"You found out." Carlisle sighed, his eyes disappointed in himself for not guarding his thoughts well enough.

"You were going to hide it from me?" Edward questioned, in an unnervingly calm voice. His dark eyes fixed on Carlisle.

"It's not my story to tell." Carlisle answered after a second's hesitation.

"What are you guys talking about?" I demanded, standing up from the couch.

"I have a right to know. She's my wife!"

"You lost that right when you chose to break her heart son." Carlisle responded sadly. "And I know you're sorry, but Bella is sure of her decision. And it is solely her decision now."

He can't be talking about-

"I won't let her be changed Carlisle, especially not this soon. Why are you thinking listening to her? She's a human Carlisle. She doesn't know what's best for her." Edward said darkly, his eyes filled with anger.

"No." I hissed. "No. No. No. She can't do that! It's not fair! This isn't supposed to happen."

All my fears were coming true. No. It can't be too late. I still have time to fix this before she is changed.

"She wants to be changed...tomorrow." Edward said to me after hearing my thoughts. "Fuck." He cursed pinching the bridge of his nose and breathing deeply. Probably so he wouldn't explode in anger.

I froze. No fucking way. There is no way that can happen. I won't let it happen. She will not worm her way in between Jasper and I.

"Too late." Edward said lowly, to himself. But I heard.

"Just because it's too late for you to salvage your marriage, doesn't mean it's too late for mine." I hissed, glaring at him.

"What are you going to do?" Edward asked, his eyes alight with some emotion I couldn't name.

Find them.

BELLA POV

"You're being changed tomorrow."

"Oh. You heard." I stated. "Does-"

"Yeah Edward knows. I heard him and Carlisle talking about it downstairs when I was in my room, so I came to find you first." Jasper interrupted, knowing what my question was.

Great. Edward knows about my decision before I even get to tell anyone, or even think about it. They were right about not having any sense of privacy in that house. But I am glad Jasper found me before anyone else did.

"Why?" Jasper asked suddenly, drawing my attention back to him.

"Huh?"

"Why do you want to be changed tomorrow?" He repeated patiently.

"Well..." I started slowly. "I don't see any point in waiting any longer. I want to be a part of this family. I don't want to die and know that after a few decades I'll just be a distant memory for you guys."

"You know that's not true, as if anyone could forget you. Now what's the real reason?"

"I told you Jasper. I want to be a part of the Cullen family." I repeated, getting aggravated with him. Why couldn't he just leave well enough alone?

"You are already part of this family Bella. No amount of venom will change how important you are to us all." He responded, sounding just as frustrated as I did.

Why was he annoyed? He was the one asking questions and then not accepting the answers I gave him. And they were all true.

"Are you accusing me of lying?" I asked incredulously.

"No, I'm not Bella." Jasper sighed. "I'm just trying to get past the walls you put around yourself and figure out the real reason you're pushing so hard for the change to be tomorrow. So don't give me any more bullshit about not being a part of this family until you're changed, because you know that's not the reason."

"Well you sound like you don't believe me." I snapped. "So either accept my answer or not, I don't care. Just stop acting like Edward."

I froze, my eyes wide.

Shit, had I just really compared Jasper to Edward?

"You really think I'm acting like him?"

"Jasper, I-"

"I am nothing like him." Jasper growled, his gold eyes fierce. "I'm not the one who left you Bella. I'm not the one who lied to you and slept around behind your back. I think you need to get your facts straight before you start hurling accusations."

"I- I'm sorry." I said, my voice breaking. "I'm just really not over what Edward and Alice did I guess. But I shouldn't take it out on you and I'm sorry. I'm so sorry."

"It's okay Bella." Jasper said, his eyes softening. "No matter how alone you feel, you have to remember we're in the same boat here. And that you're not alone because I'll be here for you as long as you want me to be."

Then I was in his arms.

"Shh...It's okay Darlin'. I'm here."

"You're right Jasper. Your completely r-right. About everything! I want to become a vampire because I d-don't want to be alone!" I confessed through my tears.

"Bella what are you talking about?"

"Everyday I get older and my life get's shorter, Jasper. Everyday I get closer to dying and you guys stay the same. And what happens when you all have to move again? You guys are probably moving soon because people are not going to believe that Carlisle is 40." (A/N: Idk how old he's pretending to be in Twilight but in my story he's pretending to be about 35ish currently.)

"And then I'll be here alone Jasper. Renee has her own life, and I can't live with Charlie forever. I'll have to move on and start a new life, and I don't want to do that! I can't do that! My life is here with you guys and everyday I'm in danger of dying. Death is uncontrollable and omniscient and you never know when it's going to take you. I mean, I could get hit by a car tomorrow and lose the rest of my life with you guys. And I can't bear the thought of that because I love you guys. You're my family." I confided, burying my head in against his chest in mortification.

God, Jasper probably just wanted me to shut up. He probably thought that I was some soppy girl that burst into tears at the smallest problem. We'd only just started becoming close friends and I'm probably already scaring him off.

"That won't happen." Jasper said, after a moment's silence.

"What?" I wiped the few tears on my face with my shirtsleeve, rolling my eyes in embarassment

Jasper put his hands on either side of my tear-stained face and brought his face level with mine so that we were staring straight at each other.

"I will stay by your side until your heart beats its last beat if I have to Bella, because I want you to be with us forever. I need you to be with us forever." He said sincerely, his light gold eyes staring into mine. It sounds really cliché, but in this moment...it feels as if he's seeing straight through me. As if he's looking into my very soul.

"Thank you." I whispered to him.

He froze and his eyes hardened suddenly.

"What?" I asked, my heart rate increasing.

What was with his sudden change of emotion? Did something happen?

"We've got company."