Chapter 10

Next time I'm pissed, I'll lay my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won't be no next time!
I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I'm just gonna...

Puck groaned as he stretched out on Rachel's bed, "Baby, I'mma take a nap." He muttered wondering how he could be so tired when he hadn't even had a football practice that day. It had been three weeks since they'd started this video project and they'd been running nonstop. They'd finished filming, edited and spliced and done the voice work...and then Artie had decided they needed more scenes, more romance, little moments of sweetness and one of implied violence with Puck grabbing Rachel by the shoulders and shaking her.

That had been terrifying and it had been the last scene they'd done today. He'd been literally afraid to touch her, afraid he'd hurt her, it had taken forever for them to get it right. "Noah stop worrying," Rachel's voice drifted over him like cool water. "I'm fine. You didn't even put a bruise on me. The only thing that still aches now and then are my ribs and I didn't even feel a twinge."

He felt her sit on the bed next to him and stretch out beside him, her body cuddling into his, "You sure I didn't hurt you." Puck opened his eyes and stared into hers. "Hate to think about how much you were hurting these past couple weeks."

Rachel's hand stroked through his mohawk and she smiled into his eyes, "Noah I'm fine." She drew closer and he could feel her breath on his skin, he knew if he kissed her she'd taste like the raspberry cough drops she used for her throat. "I'm better than fine, I promise."

"Yeah?" Puck slid his arm around her waist, turning towards her, letting his other hand push into her hair, so silky and soft against his fingers. "How're you feelin' 'bout what we talked about few weeks back?"

"Impatient," Rachel's smile was sweet. "These last three weeks... I love spending time with you. And Artie's great, but the second week when we were editing and singing, we weren't..." She sighed, "I missed you touching me Noah. We didn't have any scenes, no excuse for me to kiss you or for your hands on me at all...I was almost grateful when Artie wanted more shots this past week."

"Yeah, me too, except for the shaking you part," Puck sighed. "I guess I just... I know you're probably not ready for anything...too, well, too..." He groaned, not sure how to say what he wanted without sounding like a jerk or a pussy. "Baby I know you're probably not ready for sex. I wouldn't blame you if you never wanted it again. I'd be depressed as hell about it but I wouldn't blame you." He gave her a half smile when she giggled a bit over that, "See that sound, I love that sound. Love makin' you laugh Rachel."

"You're right and you're wrong Noah," Rachel smiled. "I'm ready but I'm not." She pressed a kiss to his neck and inhaled deeply.

Puck let his arms pull her a bit closer, close enough that she was almost lying on top of his body and looked up at her, "Well if I'm right and I'm wrong." He said quietly, "Do you think maybe you'd like to go out with me? Like to be my girl? Not to get over anybody else or to distract ourselves, but because I really can't go another week without knowin' that someday you might wanna be with me? I want you to be my girl Rachel. I want you to order me around and hang calendars in my locker and demand that I take you places like you did with Finn. I wanna see you wearin' my number at games. And I wanna go to your dance recitals and your talent shows and holler for you." He was stopped from saying anything else by her lips on his, soft and sweet and so goddamn good it was like fire rushing through him.

"Hmmm..." She made that delicious lazy sound in her throat. "I told you that you were right and wrong, so now that I've got your attention I'll tell you why." Puck nodded as Rachel looked down at him seriously. "You're right, I'm not ready for sex with just anyone," She said quietly. "But I want to have sex with you. I'm ready for you. I want to know what it feels like to have someone touch me because he can't stand to not be with me one more second. I want to feel...as if I'm beautiful and that's how I feel when you kiss me, and touch me. I want you Noah, inside me, showing me...everything." She tilted her head and pressed a soft kiss to his lips, "I want that more than anything."

"Fuck yes," Puck groaned as he kissed her, "Oh fuck yeah baby." He wrapped his arms around her back and slid them up to play with her hair and neck, "Don't gotta do anything now but if I don't get to kiss you when it's just you an' me and no damn camera." She tasted so damn good, raspberry and Rachel and her tongue was in his mouth, rubbing against his until he captured it between his lips and sucked on it. Her moan went straight to his cock, it felt like he could bust through his jeans between the exquisite pressure of her breasts on his chest, her hips pressing to his, her pussy rubbing against his dick.

"What if I want to do something now," Rachel's hands were clutching at his shoulders, drifting down to rub at his pectorals. "Noah, what if I want to have sex with you today?"

"Aww Rachel," Puck groaned and dropped his head back. "You know I don't wanna say no to that. Want that more than anything but you're..."

"Noah I've never felt like this with anyone else," Rachel glared at him. "Seriously, you make me feel...gorgeous, wanted and so...ready I could explode." She tilted her head, "You told me nothing he did could make me less than beautiful to you. I want you to prove it to me. Please Noah. For once I want this to be my choice."

"All right," Puck nodded, "Then tell me, anything they did, you didn't like?"

"Apart from me always feeling uncomfortable," Rachel shrugged. "I feel more...aroused by you kissing me than I did when Jesse put his mouth on me. The only thing I'm worried about is when we change positions. With Finn he was so big I could hardly move, so he was in charge and that didn't work well since he didn't know what he was doing. And with Jesse...he was..." She shrugged again, "He never waited for me to catch up to him."

"So we don't change positions," Puck smirked and sat up so Rachel was straddling his legs. Pulling off his shirt he grinned as she blinked and her mouth fell open a little, one of her hands touched his nipple, slightly misshapen from his ring being torn out in juvie, caressing the sensitive flesh. "I always like it when you tell me what to do Rachel," He reminded her with a wink. "I think you'll get off on being on top. When you're ready we'll try something more traditional."

Rachel's tongue slicked over her lips and she looked at him incredulously, "You'll really, I mean let me... but Noah..." She tilted her head and her other hand caressed his shoulder as if she couldn't stop herself from touching him.

"What? You really think my ego can't take a girl bein' in charge?" Puck nearly chuckled at the look on her face, "I want to feel you coming around me baby. I want to watch you come apart riding me. And someday I'll have you under me, feel you wrap your legs around my waist and buck up against my cock." He let his hands move towards her shirt and began to unbutton it, smoothing his fingers over her skin, his thumbs rubbing under her breasts. He groaned as she began to fumble with her skirt zipper. "Tell you what baby, lemme help you with that, we'll get our clothes off, see how you're feelin' then. All right?"

Rachel tilted her head at him, "Noah, I'm feeling like I could break out of my skin I want you so badly, the way I'm feeling its like we've had three weeks of foreplay." She took his hands and put them on her hips while she shrugged out of her shirt and unhooked her bra, "Just take my clothes off me, and get your jeans off of you."

Puck chuckled and tumbled her off of him, she was on her back again as he began to tug off her skirt and tights. Now she wore nothing but her panties and he couldn't stand it, he hooked his fingers on the waistband and watched as she lifted her hips so he could drag them down her legs. "God Rachel... you're so fucking beautiful." He groaned, "You make me wanna taste you baby."

"You want to put your mouth..." Rachel blushed and he watched fascinated as the color seeped down her throat to touch her breasts. "Oh my god Noah."

"Yeah, that's what I want to hear," Puck groaned and pulled off his jeans and shorts. "And I'm gonna hear it when I got my mouth on your sweet pussy Rache." He slid back onto the bed and kissed her, "You trust me baby?"

"Hmm..." She was nervous, he could tell, but she was so responsive, felt so good in his arms, soft skin pressing against his. "I do yes. I'm just...you're important Noah. I don't want to disappoint you." Her hands pressed to his skin, moving down towards his cock and he groaned as she gripped him.

"Oh baby you keep that up an' I'm gonna disappoint you," Puck shuddered. "You got talented hands," He covered her mouth with his, nibbling on her lips until she moaned and parted her lips, her tongue rubbing against his in unspoken demand. He couldn't stand not touching her anymore, palming her breast carefully, her nipple scrapping against his palm, "Oh my god Rachel."

"Noah," She moaned and arched up to his hands. "I... oh God Noah," Her fingers tightened around his cock and Puck dropped his head down to her other breast, his tongue flicking out to tease her nipple, pert and erect against his flesh.

"Baby you're so good," Puck groaned and let his mouth surround the tight bud, sucking gently on it. "So fuckin' good Rachel," He moved to her other breasts, "Does it feel good Rachel? Like it baby?"

She was shivering, her hand stroking his cock while her other hand gripped the back of his neck as if to keep his mouth on her tits, "Yes. Please Noah, yes." Her voice was a gorgeous moan of pleasure, "I love it Noah. Oh more, please more, please... harder."

"Hmm..." Puck groaned against her skin, "Whatever you want Rachel." He fixed his mouth to her breasts and began to suck and tease, obeying her desperate cries for more until she was shuddering under him and he had to touch her more. "Baby, is it still good?" He cupped her pussy in his hand and petted the swollen mound. Her skin was slick and soft and hot against his fingers, she'd had a wax or something so she had barely any curls, just a little strip and he looked down at her unable to believe it for a minute.

"Yes," Rachel nodded frantically and he couldn't help it, he pushed himself up and found her mouth with his. She moaned as his body covered hers and wrapped his arms around him, "Please Noah, please I'm so..."

"I wanna eat you Rachel," Puck muttered. "Wanna feel you comin' on my face," He couldn't stop kissing her, pressing his mouth to hers, then to her neck and the soft flesh of her shoulder. "Want you ridin' me, takin' everything you want baby."

"I want you Noah," She was almost begging. "Please, just touch me...whatever you want...please." She was flushed and warm and so beautiful, her eyes almost black with need, breathless and clutching at him because he was who she wanted. Puck wasn't sure if he could stand it much longer, wondered if he should excuse himself and jerk off in her bathroom so he could be sure of controlling himself. And then she took his hand and pressed it between her thighs, "Please Noah. I want you to touch me."

"Yeah, an' God do I wanna touch," Puck agreed with a moan. "I wanna taste Rachel. Can I? Please baby?" He kissed her again and let his fingers slide into her hot wet folds finding her clit and stroking it with his fingertips. Her moan came out with a shudder of pleasure and he groaned as her hand tightened on his cock. "Baby unless you want me to shoot all over your stomach," He shuddered. "Maybe ease up on me a bit. Already nuts about you Rachel, but feelin' you like this...I'm gonna go crazy."

Her fingers loosened around him and she whimpered, "I want you to feel good Noah." She kissed him, her hands on his hips, "Please Noah, let me..." She kissed his shoulder and tried to move downward, "I want to make you go crazy."

Puck groaned, "This is for you baby." He kissed her gently, "Afterwards, you do whatever you want to me. But the first time Rachel, I want you to enjoy it." He kissed her again and looked at her, "Baby, I promise, I promise, I'm all yours. But this is our first time and I...I really want to make sure you want to do it again."

Her giggle was like a caress on his skin, "Noah, even if it's a disaster from this point onward, I'm going to want to try again. You've made me feel so good..." She smiled up at him and kissed him, "And I'm really curious about what you're going to do next."

"I'm gonna make you come," Puck grinned and began to kiss his way down to her slit, loving how she moaned at every touch of his mouth and stilled in shocked pleasure when his breath hit her clit. Sliding his hands up her thighs from her knees he pushed her legs apart and draped her thighs over his shoulders. Her hands were fisted in the fabric of her bedspread as he surrounded her clit with his mouth; she shuddered and the low startled moan she made was the best sound he'd heard yet.

She tasted like raspberries, that was his first thought. How Rachel Berry contrived to make her pussy taste like raspberries he didn't understand but he fuckin' loved it. He kept his hands on her cute ass and squeezed holding her body to his mouth as indulged his hunger for long licks of her slit and sucking on her clit until she was thrashing on the bed. Her words completely gone except for a long wonderful scream of his name when she finally clutched at his mohawk and bucked up to his mouth coming hard under his lips and tongue. She was panting and shivering when he climbed back up her body and wrapped her in his arms.

Puck hadn't thought she could get any hotter, she was so fucking sexy when she came but she draped her arms around his neck and kissed him, licking into his mouth like he had her slit and sucking on his tongue. He groaned and rolled so he was on his back, pulling her over him so her pussy was rubbing against his cock and kept kissing her. "You're so fuckin' hot baby," He knew he sounded like an idiot but he was so hard he felt like he'd lose his mind.

"Hmm...I want you to fuck me Noah," Rachel whimpered into his mouth. "Please. Noah. I want to feel you inside me."

"Got a condom in my wallet," Puck muttered and was surprised when she began to fumble for her nightstand drawer. "Rachel?"

"I've got condoms," Rachel told him as she reached into the drawer. "I don't want to use one though. I'm clean Noah. I swear. And I'm on the pill. I have been for six months, please." She looked at him pleadingly.

"I'm clean baby," Puck whispered. "I promise. I'm clean. I won't get you sick, but we gotta use one...just in case. Gotta have good results for a year before I'm safe for you." He grabbed one out of her drawer and rolled it over his aching dick while Rachel's hands petted his skin. Puck looked down at their bodies and moaned, "Rachel I wanna be inside you so bad. Put me there baby."

"I don't know how," Rachel squirmed against him, "Please Noah." She was straddling him and Puck groaned and put his hands on her hips lifting her slightly.

"Its okay Rache," He assured her, "You just lift yourself up slightly like I'm holding you now, got those great legs, so fuckin' sexy." Puck groaned as she did as he instructed and held herself over his body, "Fuck you're hot." He took her hand and put it on his cock, helping her to line his body up to hers. "Just like that baby, an' you ease yourself down onto me..." He looked up at her face and smiled, she was so beautiful and sweet and nervous. "It's okay baby, you're so beautiful, and you're in charge of this. I don't do anything here you don't want."

"I want this," Rachel told him steadily. "I want you Noah Puckerman. I want you inside me, moving in me and showing me that you think I'm beautiful. And I want to feel you, your cum shooting inside me, I need you. I need you Noah." She began to slowly lower herself down onto his cock, gasping in surprise. "Oh...Ooohhh...god Noah," Rachel's face was astonished and ecstatic and Puck gasped as she surrounded him with her tight wet heat.

"You're so tight baby," Puck groaned, "God Rachel you feel so good." He shuddered as she shifted and moved and struggled not to take over and fuck her hard and fast. "Oh fucking goddamn baby, Rachel," It was his turn to fist his hands in the bedspread.

"Noah, you feel so good..." She moaned, "But I...I want to...move...please, how do I..." Rachel bent down slightly and kissed him, "Noah help me."

Puck smirked and put his hands on her hips, "All you gotta do is move how you want." He told her with a groan. "How do you wanna move Rachel?" He couldn't help rubbing the soft skin over her thighs and rotating his hips slightly. Her moan was intoxicating.

"Oh God," Rachel's body clutched around him and she caught her breath. "Noah, oh..." She moved her hips experimentally and Puck moaned at how good she felt. "Noah, help me move, please god help me."

He couldn't take it anymore, "Okay baby." He sat up and pulled her knees forward so she was forced to lean back a little, "I'm going to put my hands on your hips and help you move." Puck kissed her, unable to resist the taste of her again. "You feel so fucking good Rachel," He groaned into her mouth. "Gotta move though baby."

"Yes, please Noah," Rachel shuddered and he felt her clenching tight around him as he began to move her hips. "Ohhh..." Her hands clutched his shoulders and she kissed him, her mouth like fire as he helped her rock her body onto his.

God help him she was so tight, slick and hot until he thought he'd lose his mind, "Touch your clit Rachel." He tore his mouth away from hers, kissing her neck, "Put your fingers on your clit, touch yourself...want you to come good baby." He kissed her neck and sucked on that sweet spot behind her ear, "Rub your clit while I fuck you Rachel. God you feel so fucking good."

He could hardly think she felt so good, so wet his balls were damp from her juice, and she kept getting tighter and tighter. She was moaning into his ear, slid her fingers down between their bodies and he could feel the moment she touched her clit, "Noah, ohhh...Noah, you feel so...I need..." She shuddered around him and her mouth fastened to his neck. He could feel her fingers moving, her body so tense, and her voice moaning into his ear.

"I know what you need baby," He felt her begin to flutter around his cock, felt his balls getting tighter. "God Rachel, god, so good sweetheart," Puck pulled her body onto his a bit harder and felt her fluttering intensify. "That's it," He groaned, kissing her neck, her breasts, "Let go baby, come for me."

"Noah, oh God... Noah," Her voice had risen to a scream again as her body convulsed around him and Puck lost it, his control completely gone as she came around him.

"Rachel," He groaned and jerked her on and off his cock hard and fast, her pussy a tight, hot, wet heaven he couldn't stand to leave for more than a second before he shuddered, stiffened and shouted her name as his orgasm hit him like an explosion in the base of his spine. "God baby," He muttered into her hair and wrapped his arms around her, helping her pleasure weakened body lie down on top of him. He was still inside her, could still feel the aftermath of her orgasm trembling through her. She still felt like heaven.

"Noah..." She murmured his name hesitantly, her hand over his heart.

"Yeah Rachel," He didn't care what she asked, if it was stupid or insecure, he was going to make sure she knew how damn important she was to him.

"Was I...any good," Rachel's voice was shy, uncertain and Puck rolled so that she was beneath him and let her feel how much he wanted her again, his body ready and willing, already craving the feel of her around him again.

"Rachel I've never..." Puck kissed her nose affectionately, "Ever felt like that in my life. You're perfect baby. You're so fuckin' perfect." He rolled his hips against hers, "You feel so good I want you again. I'm a stud baby but I don't get this worked up for just any girl."

She giggled up at him and kissed him, "So since we're in the position, maybe you can show me how this method should be done right?"

Puck rolled his hips again, "Yeah maybe we should try that out...an' if it don't work... well...you know I'm a big believer in ladies first. And you are a lady Rachel." He kissed her gently, "Wanna try something though baby. How 'bout slow..." He took slow sweet sips of her mouth, "An' sweet. You're so sweet Rachel."

"Hmmm..." It felt like she nearly melted into him, "I bow to your expertise Noah."

He almost gave himself a heart attack but he did manage slow and sweet with her, and when she came he felt like God she was so passionate; the power of her orgasm was like a storm through her. When he finally let himself come Puck felt like he was dying, Rachel's legs wrapped around his waist, feeling her moaning and writhing under him before the tsunami crashed over them both.

She felt so good, Puck rolled again, pulling her back on top of him and patting her gorgeous ass when she moaned, in protest. "Sorry baby, just don't wanna flatten you," He muttered once he'd gotten rid of the second condom. "How're you feelin'?"

"Hmm...so good," Rachel moaned against his neck. "God Noah...I'm really wishing that I'd let you seduce me when we were dating."

"Yeah me too," Puck laughed and shifted slightly so he could look into her eyes, "I gotta tell you something baby." He shook his head when she looked alarmed, "Its not anything bad, guess my timing could be better. I guess guys aren't really supposed to say stuff like this, during or after sex, but I..." He couldn't stand it, he had to touch her, cupped her face in his palm. "Artie figured it out before I did... but I couldn't deny it. I'm in love with you Rachel."

"You didn't want to say that before we had sex because that's what they did," Rachel whispered and smiled at him. "I adore you Noah. You're my best friend." She looked down and then up at him, "You know I can't say it back right now. You know I love you..."

"Yeah baby," Puck smirked. "You don't wanna swell up my ego." Part of him had selfishly wanted her to say it back right now. But this was his girl, she needed to feel safe for a while before she was that vulnerable. Sex wasn't nearly as important as her heart, "I get it Rachel. I know you love me or you wouldn't have ever let me into your bed. Just...don't kick me outa your life. I'll wait forever for you to say it back."

"Oh Noah," She kissed him gently. "I don't think you'll be waiting long. Just don't give up on me."

Puck couldn't stand it, she was so fucking perfect, he had to tell her so, "Can't take it. You're just so damn beautiful." He kissed her again, "So you're my girl now right?" He groaned into her mouth, "You never said if you'd go out with me baby. You said yes to sex but you didn't say you'd date me."

"Yes Noah, I'm your girl," Rachel giggled into his mouth and that was the best taste, her laughter in a kiss. "I think I've always been your girl."

"I can live with that," Puck grinned and kept kissing her.

Author's Note: So in reality...Rachel probably wouldn't have had sex with Puck so soon. Victims of abuse tend to go in one of two directions, they become promiscuous using sex as a weapon or method of control, punishing themselves or others or they shun all contact, become withdrawn and have problems embracing their sexuality.

With therapy and help and a loving relationship both of these difficulties can be overcome but its not easy. I figured that Puck is still a teenager even if he does want whats best for Rachel he wouldn't have the knowledge or the willpower to resist her if she threw herself at him. And Rachel might have fallen into the trap of thinking sex is no big deal if she'd chose anyone but Puck for her partner. So just by being himself he'll forestall some of those repercussions. And he's not a total idiot.

Plus her dads, also not stupid as we'll see in the next chapter.