A/N: Okay after I read all the reviews I got for the last chapter I realized that I probably shouldn't have spoken negatively about my story when I commented that the wolves have yet to be seen. Lol. But be patient they WILL be in the story. Not as major a part as the Cullen's of course, but they will be there. And speaking of the reviews, thanks again for taking the time to review; you guys rock…especially since I haven't updated in what- a month? Just to let you guys know I will go back to updating at least every other week, I just really had trouble with the last chapter. 3

Song: Do You Feel? –The Rocket Summer

Previously…

After a slight hesitation he put his arms around me loosely as to not crush me.

This is what I would miss throughout the change. Wait. What would happen to Jasper while I was changing? Would…would he feel the horrifying pain too? The Cullen's said that when the venom was traveling through your body that it caused excruciating pain….like you were being burned alive. Would Jasper have to go through that again? No, I can't let him! I can't let him go through that at my expense!

I would never forgive myself If I put Jasper through that…

Bella POV:

What does one wear to their death?

I sifted through all the clothes that Rose had bought for me while she and Emmett were at the Port Angeles mall, trying to find anything that looked remotely appropriate.

Am I supposed to dress for comfort? Or formal? I mean, this is a huge deal so dressy clothes might be okay; but on the other hand it sounds kind of strange to 'dress up' to die.

I groaned and threw the khaki skirt and polo I had in my hands on the floor.

This was all so overwhelming. I need to calm the heck down and focus on one thing at a time; like the fact that I'm going to be changed in a matter of hours. Jasper is with Carlisle in his office, Carlisle speaking to him about the easiest ways for this to happen I assume. God, I can't believe this is really happening.

It seems like I have been waiting my whole life for this. I mean, The first time I realized that I truly did want to spend the rest of eternity with this family was the night that Alice and Edward dragged me to the dance. It feels like so much time has passed since then. And I guess that's what happens when so much takes place in so little time.

"Bella, what on earth are you doing?" Rose said from the doorway.

I looked at her sheepishly. "Picking out something to wear?"

She shook her head. "Who are you and what have you done with the girl who would throw on whatever her hands touched first."

"Hey, for all you know I could have carefully planned out all those outfits." I quipped.

"Yeah…but you didn't." She concluded. "And that is a good thing."

Before I could even try and decipher what she meant she was striding into the room and going through the mountain of clothes.

"Since this isn't going to be the most pleasant thing ever you should definitely dress for comfort. And you will want to make sure not to dress too warmly, the heat will get kind of…stifling." She advised, before grasping my shoulders in her hands.

"It will be okay." She said seriously. "Jasper won't let anything happen to you, especially by his hands…or teeth I guess."

I laughed and, unthinkingly, pulled her into a hug. Rose was turning out to be the greatest sister and best friend a girl could hope for.

"Well, well, well. What do we have here?" Emmett asked, announcing his entrance, his entire frame taking up the whole doorway.

"Just having some sisterly bonding Emmett. Nothing you would understand." I retorted jokingly.

"Can I watch?"

Rose narrowed her eyes at Emmett, her hands on her jean covered hips. "What was that Emmett?"

I flamed red, catching his meaning, which was probably his intention.

"Nothing Rosey. Just wanting to say bye to my little sis."

She nodded, choosing to forget what he really said. And then she walked over to him, taking his hand in hers.

The action sent a small pang through my heart. I missed that. Not Edward particularly, just affection and having someone there.

"So you finally convinced one of us to bite you huh?" He said, grinning, and earning another one of Rose's glares.

"She didn't have to convince anyone. It was her choice all along." Rose disagreed vehemently.

"Okay! Okay! Jeez woman." Emmett grumbled.

"…"

"Okay…Um I'm going to go now. Bye Belly, see you on the other side." The brawny vampire winked at me before disappearing from the doorway, Rose right behind him.

I sighed, my brief distraction gone, and grabbed a pair of navy sweatpants and a teal v-neck Tee.

Placing all the clothes back in the closet I tidied up the room since I wouldn't be back for awhile. Is Carlisle planning on me staying away until I get control of my bloodlust? Or is he bringing me back here?

Just after I threw my hair up in a messy ponytail I heard a knock on the door.

"Come in!" I called, coming out of the bathroom connected to the guest bedroom I was using.

Alice came into the room, shutting the door quietly after she entered.

"Alice!" I exclaimed, taken aback. What is she doing here? She is the last person I want to talk to right now. After everything she did to Jasper, I'm shocked she even thinks she can waltz in here like nothing happened! She better be here to apologize!

"Hey Bella. I know you are probably wondering what I'm doing here."

"Yeah." I interrupted. "Because frankly Alice I don't really have anything to say to you."

"Well then just listen." She said, determined to talk to me.

I crossed my arms over my chest and waited for her to start talking.

"I know we aren't on the best of terms, but I need you to do me a favor."

My jaw dropped. Was she kidding? She was asking for me to do her a favor? Has she forgotten that I was completely pissed at her for betraying Jasper and I?

"I need you to tell Jasper you have changed your mind and want Carlisle to change you." She said calmly, like her request was reasonable.

"And why would I ever do that Alice?" I asked, sarcasm slipping into my tone.

"Because I know things you don't." She replied, tapping her head.

"If you think that you can scare me into telling Jasper that I don't trust him enough to change me then you are clearly mistaken. " I said, irritated with her.

Her eyes dimmed, and her mouth set in a frown. And for a split second I wanted to hug her. For a split second she looked like the old Alice that wasn't manipulative and who didn't betray people.

She sighed. "Fine. Just know that it doesn't mean anything. Jasper is only agreeing to this because he feels sorry for you. And you practically begged him to."

Never mind then. She is a scheming vampire, who I am sick of. I can't even stand to look at her right now.

"Get out of my room." I said infuriated with her, and holding back angry tears.

She smirked and waved before leaving the room.

I groaned before collapsing onto the bed facedown.

How could one person be that horrible? What happened to the girl whose cheery attitude could uplift anyone? Had she really changed this much, or was this the true Alice all along?

I curled up on the bed, my fatigue catching up with me, and closed my eyes. One last sleep to remember for the rest of my eternity.

"Bella. Bella wake up dear."

I murmured something intelligible and groggily opened my eyes, and met Esme's gold ones.

Suddenly, I wasn't very tired anymore.

I sat up and rubbed the sleep out of my eyes.

"How long was I sleeping?" I asked, embarrassed.

"Not long. Only an hour." She reassured me. "Jasper and Carlisle are waiting, but they felt that you would be more comfortable if I brought you there. And I heartily agreed."

I slid out of bed and straightened my clothes.

"Thanks Esme, really."

"Of course honey. I know this is a very stressful time for all of us, and I just want things to go as smoothly as possible." She replied somberly, before cheering up again. "Now come on. We don't want to keep them waiting!"

She led me downstairs and to the back door of the house.

"I take it were running then?" I asked lightly, unable to help but remember the first time a vampire took me running.

I had gotten used to the feeling of the wind in my face and the disorienting view from the speeds they traveled at, so I wasn't worried.

She nodded and gingerly lifted me onto her back. She asked if I was okay and when I reassured her I was, she took off.

"Where are we going?" I asked, keeping my voice at a normal volume, knowing she would hear even with the fierce wind.

"A little house just around the outskirts of our property. I designed it myself, and even though it's simple I think you'll find that it is quite lovely." She gushed, pride in her voice.

I smiled at her obvious excitement and couldn't help but feel a little giddy myself.

Jasper was going to change me. He was really going to do it. And then I will be able to quit being the liability in the family. No more having to be careful not to cut myself, or staying at home while my family went off to fight for my protection. I will be able to take care of myself. I will be valuable to this family. To my family.

"Here we are!" Esme exclaimed, setting me back on my feet.

I turned and my jaw dropped open when I saw where I would be staying during my change.

A few feet in front of me was a house from a fairytale. It was a little stone cottage, with honeysuckle vines growing up the sides and front of the house. There was a small flower garden with purple and red flowers there in front of the cottage, under the two windows on either side of the wooden door.

"Do you like it?"

"Esme, it's amazing! You did all this?" I answered in amazement.

"Yes." She replied, pleased that I was impressed. "When we first moved here I designed, and had it built."

"Why do you guys have this here? I mean, you already have the huge main house, why build another house in Forks?" I asked, hoping I wasn't sounding rude, just honestly curious.

"Because there was nothing she could possibly add to the main house." Jasper answered wryly, a small smirk on his face as he approached us.

"Jasper." I said with a sigh, stepping forward and wrapping my arms around his middle in a hug.

Even though I had only been away from Jasper for a few hours, it felt like it had been weeks. This thing with Alice and Edward has brought me and Jasper closer, which is something I would have never expected. Before this, the most contact I had with Jasper was when he told the story of how he became a vampire. Just thinking about his past now makes my heart ache, how could someone be so cruel as to put someone as amazing a person as Jasper is through something so horrible. When i'm a vampire and if I ever get my hands on the one who did this to him i'm going to make sure their last thoughts are one's of regret.

"Howdy there ma'am." He joked, exaggerating his Texan accent.

I turned my face into his chest to smother my laughter. "All you need is a hat cowboy." I teased, wearing a foolish grin most likely.

"Actually I think I have one around here somewhere." He commented with a shrug as we both pulled back from the embrace.

"Well I guess you'll have to show me in three days huh?" I asked, addressing the one thing no one seemed to be able to.

"About that…" He started hesitantly, running a hand through his tousled blonde hair.

My heart plummeted. You have got to be fucking kidding me. Was he honestly about to try and talk me out of it? Oh hell no. If Jasper wasn't going to change me, than I would get Carlisle to because I am sick and tired of being rejected and having this put off. I know this is my destiny, and no matter how much I want Jasper to change me, if it has to be another vampire's venom running through my veins then so be it.

"Hold on there, angel." Jasper interrupted my inner breakdown. "Let me finish."

I exhaled a breath I wasn't aware of holding and let my eyes meet his, not daring to hope.

"This is entirely up to you now, but I think you should know…"

Then Jasper said the worst possible thing he could at the moment.

"…that there's a complication."

A/N: DUN DUN DUN!!! Okay hopefully that chapter held up to yall's expectations. ENJOY! And thanks for reading!! Comments and suggestions are greatly appreciated!! hinthint. lol.