A/N: Okay here's the chapter 15! Hope you guys like how it goes! And thanks for all the reviews on the last chapter! We past six hundred total you guys! YAY! Happy April Fools Day!!

I Can't Stand It- Never Shout Never

Previously…

"Don't go after Jacob Black."

I stared at him in surprise.

He thought I would leave the second I heard that Jake was missing? Did he listen to anything I said earlier?

"Jasper! How could you think that after everything I told you at the waterfall? I am not leaving you. Ever."

"I believe you now, but what happens the next time I screw up and bite a human?" He asked bitterly.

He sounded like he was already setting himself up to fail.

"As long as I'm here you won't. I believe in you Jas." I said confidently, letting him feel the determination and trust I had for him.

"You know what you were saying at the waterfall about me?"

"Yes."

"I feel the same way about you."

BELLA POV

Five days. That's how long the Denali's have been here. I would be a vampire by now if they wouldn't have shown up.

I laid in the guest bed reflecting on the last few days and how awful they have been. It is morning but I the longer I stay in bed the less time I have to spend with the Denali's, Alice, and Edward.

Tanya wasn't that bad, in fact I almost think we could be friends. Almost. I remember how Edward went on about how she was after him but honestly she wasn't as bad as her sisters. Several times I have been close to begging Esme to get them to leave…especially Irina.

Every time Jasper and I are hanging out in his room or the guest room she barges in and joins us uninvited. And then I get shoved aside and end up making some excuse to leave the room. She completely monopolizes his attention and I can see that Jasper doesn't encourage her, but he doesn't discourage her either. He's too polite to outright rebuff her like he should. Damn southern hospitality. But since they have been here I haven't gotten to spend any time with Jasper at all and I miss my best friend.

"Ah, and sleeping beauty is awake."

"Jasper!" I said gleefully my eyes drawn to the sound of his voice to where he stood at the door.

"Well it looks like someone needs some company." The blonde vampire said with a smile as he entered the room.

You have no idea.

"Not that I'm not happy to see you, but what are you doing in here?" I asked shocked at his appearance.

He never came into the guest room where I stayed because we usually just hung out in his room. I wonder what made him come in here this early.

"Carlisle thinks we should go ahead with your change because we really have no idea how long the Denali's are planning on staying and he knows how long you've been waiting."

"Really?"

I held my breath.

"Of course…and it probably helped that I faithfully kept reminding him about it every second I could."

"Thank you so much Jasper!" I said excitedly hugging him tight to me.

I completely forgot about the horrid past few days and was lost in my thoughts about being a vampire.

"Which means that I'll need to go hunting as soon as possible."

I frowned and pulled away to look him in the eyes.

"Just hurry up, okay?"

He laughed and let go of me, stepping away towards the door and heading downstairs.

I sighed contentedly and squealed into my pillow.

Thank god I wouldn't have to wait any longer and wonder if I would ever even be changed. Now that my mood is improved I decided to head to the living room and see what was going on and what the Denali's reaction was to this announcement.

I threw on a pair of skinny jeans and a black sweater and started down the stairs after him.

"I'm going hunting; Nothing too far so I'll be back in an hour or so." Jasper said walking towards the back door.

"Now that you mention it I could use an afternoon snack." Irina said hopping off the sofa from where she sat in between Kate and Emmett. "I'll go too."

"Okay, let's go then." Jasper replied smiling a small smile at her, which she returned enthusiastically.

The smile was wiped off my face.

Irina brushed past me towards where MY best friend stood by the wooden door, not even sparing me a glance.

Jasper opened the backdoor and Irina swept through the door past him giggling and saying something about him being a gentlemen.

I watched as they left through the window, their silhouettes becoming blurs in the distance.

"Bella?" Esme questioned coming up behind me.

"I'm going for a drive." I muttered mustering up a pathetic smile for her and grabbed my keys off the counter.

Gritting my teeth I stomped outside to my truck and started it, slamming the door shut behind me.

I started the old truck and backed out of the driveway, my hands trembling with anger; my eyes welling up with angry tears.

What is he doing? Why is he with her alone? Have I been so naïve that I mistook the times Irina joined Jasper and I as uninvited? When I had been her feelings had seemed one-sided, but maybe when I wasn't around they were getting closer. I mean, I sleep ten hours at night. That's ten whole hours that she has him to herself without me there.

Doesn't he still consider me a friend?

I got about ten miles before I realized where I had been unconsciously driving: La Push.

I slowed down as I approached the La Push city boundary before making my decision and continuing on.

Wait, why am I letting this affect me like this? Jasper and I are friends; I should support him getting over Alice. Instead I'm throwing a tantrum like a child, god what's wrong with me?

I pulled into the driveway and jumped out of the car, approaching the house determined to talk to someone.

I knocked on the door and waited.

There was a crash from inside the door and finally it swung open and I was met with a sight I wasn't expecting.

It was a girl about my age. She had shoulder length curly black hair that was pulled back into a loose ponytail. I must have interrupted her sleeping or something because she was barefoot in a pair of shorts and a loose tank, both of which were rumpled.

My brown eyes met her light blue one's and I noticed that she was just as confused as I was.

"Um…hi? Who are you?" She asked finally breaking the silence.

"My name's Bella. I'm-"

"The one who hangs with vampires." She finished disdainfully.

"Well, I was going to say Jake's friend but okay." I said smiling slightly at her…one that was not returned.

Okay…So I guess I wasn't everyone's favorite person around here.

"Look I just came to find out more about Jake. Do you know anything?"

"Do I know anything?" She repeated scathingly. "No shit. I'm one of the people who didn't abandon Jacob. What are those people called again?...Oh yeah. Friends."

I blinked astonished at her tone. And then I was pissed.

How dare she talk to me like this after all I have been through! She has no freaking idea.

"You have no idea what my relationship with Jake is so don't patronize me. And unless you have anything to tell me about Jake I really have no reason to talk to you because all I want to know is if he is okay." I said firmly, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Well I'm not telling you anything honey. So you can just hop back in that piece of crap and run back to your vampires." She said harshly, squeezing her eyes shut and clenching her fists, a shudder running through her body.

Oh shit. I forgot she was a freaking wolf! Where's an empath when you need one?!?

"Leah, who is it?" Someone called coming up behind her, their eyes widening when they saw me.

"Bella? Bella Swan?"

"In the flesh." I joked smiling at Seth.

"Not for long." The dark-haired girl in front of me muttered moving out of the doorway.

"Ignore her." He said brightly. "What are you doing here? Oh. Edward told you about Jake, huh?"

I nodded, swallowing back fresh tears.

"Do you want to come on in?" He offered motioning over his shoulder. "We're watching the house while Billy's on some fishing trip."

I glanced behind him and saw Leah watching me with a curious and still upset look on her tanned face.

"No thanks. Can we take a walk though?"

"Sure thing. Be back later Leah." He called ignoring the displeased look she sent him.

"Is there any news?" I chocked out, my voice unsteady, as we walked down the driveway.

He shook his head sorrowfully. "I'm afraid not. The last time we saw him was at the wedding."

Seth glanced down at my empty left hand and his brow furrowed in confusion.

"What-"

"To make a long story short, things just didn't work with Edward and me so it's over. I'm an unmarried woman again." I said the word sounding unfamiliar on my tongue.

It was hard to believe that just two weeks ago I was married to who I thought was the love of my life. And now I'm right back where I was before I moved to Forks except I have a real family now.

Seth was quiet a moment before he spoke.

"You ever go cliff-diving?"

I laughed and shook my head at him incredulously. "You never heard the story of my grand cliff-diving escapade?"

He shook his head and I dived into the story of how Jake saved my life. He had saved my life in more than one way. He brought me back to life when Edward left, and now I was giving my life up again to become a vampire.

Would I ever be able to do anything right by Jake and the Cullen's?

I don't know how long Seth and I sat there but soon enough we realized that we had been out long enough.

"I promise as soon as I find anything out I'll let you know."

We exchanged numbers and I gave him a quick hug thanking him for his help.

We walked back to the house making small talk and saw Leah sitting on the front porch waiting.

"I better go calm her down. Nice seeing you again Bella." He said waving at me before jogging up to his older sister.

I was really grateful that Seth didn't harbor hostile feelings towards me because of Jacob's disappearance. If I had known him being at the wedding would have been that hard for him I would have told him not to come. I know now that I can't have it both ways.

I can't have my life with the Cullen's and one with Jake. And I really have already made my choice. Right now everyone is preparing for Jasper to change me and I'm sitting in this old truck in front of my werewolf friend's house where no vampire can go and I'm out of Alice's sight. I really should think before I act, but I just needed to get away from that house. Away from everything. Everyone.

I heard a tap on the glass window and jumped.

Rolling down the manual window I gaped at the person on the other side.

"Leah?"

"Listen Bella and just don't talk. I'm sorry I was so harsh earlier; it's just that Jacob being missing has really messed everyone up. I didn't mean to take my frustration out on you when it's myself I'm really mad at." She said quickly her eyes sincere and guilt-ridden.

"What do you mean?"

"He asked me to go with him." She said bluntly, her eyes hard. "And I said 'no'."

"What?" I gasped. "Why would he do that?"

"I caught him trying to sneak off and threatened to tell Billy, so he told me to go with him." She explained patiently, her remorseful eyes staring over my shoulder as she remembered. "I should have gone or changed his mind."

"No Leah you couldn't have done anything. His mind was made up." I reassured her, my voice sounding strained and foreign to my own ears.

"There is always something." She interrupted fiercely. "Always."

I bit my lip and watched as she took a deep breath and gathered herself.

"Anyways, I just thought you should know." She continued breezily. "I'll have Seth give you a call if he turns up."

I nodded and wiped my clammy hands, from gripping the steering wheel, on my dark jeans.

I backed out of the driveway and headed back to the Cullen's. Back to my life.

Next chapter…

"Where have you been?!?"

Nice to see you too Rose.

"What do you mean?"

"Exactly what I said." She replied her face livid. "Where did you run off to? You've been gone hours and we've all been worried sick! Especially Jasper."

A/N: Good? Bad? Amazing? Horrible? Let me know! And thanks for reading guys!

And I know this chapter had more of the wolves but I thought they deserved their time in the story. And next chapter will solely include the vampires! We'll find out just what happened while Bella was gone.