A/N: I know it's been forever since I have updated but here's this next chapter. Don't hate me. lol. And also, I'm changing the name of this story. Sorry for the inconvenience I just found the perfect song lyrics that fit the story completely. Seriously they're beautiful lyrics. So as of now the title of this story is My Beautiful Rescue. It's named after a song by this band called This Providence. Check them out and enjoy this chapter!

Italics= Memories

I Want Something to Live For- The Rocket Summer

Previously…

"Carlisle, what's wrong?" I murmured, moving closer to the brunette on the sofa and feeling for a pulse.

She has a pulse, so why isn't she reacting to the change?

"I'm not positive, but my best guess is that is has something to do with the morphine she has in her system. It could have possibly numbed her from the pain." He responded, his entire being alight with excitement.

God, I hope Carlisle's right. I hope she isn't suffering right now. Bella has been through enough pain to last for the rest of her existence.

I scooped the girl who had grown to be an important part of my life into my arms and carried her to the bed so that she would be more comfortable when she woke up.

As I laid her back down I heard Carlisle moving around in the living room and figured he was cleaning up.

"I would give anything to know what you are going through." I said quietly, brushing her long hair back from her face.

BELLA POV

Everyone had said that pain would be unbearable. I had no idea how right they were.

I took all my self- control to not cry out in agony; to beg someone to end my misery.

"I would give anything to know what you are going through." I heard someone say quietly, through the haze that seemed to have clouded my brain. Jasper.

I tried to open my eyes to see his face. Wait. Why can't I open my eyes? I strained to move my hand, my head, anything. What is happening?

Is this normal? No one mentioned anything like this. Is this because of all the morphine that was pumped into my body?

My thoughts were lost as another surge of fire rushed through my body. The pain was so strong I couldn't even tell what parts of my body were actually feeling the burn.

The only thing that kept me sane was thinking about my family and hanging onto my memories like a lifeline. Because really, what else did I have now when it felt like the fire was all I had ever known?

"Who are they?" I asked, my eyes drawn to a group of students as they walked into the lunch room.

"They're the Cullens." Jessica answered my question. "The buff guy is Emmett and the blonde next to him is his girlfriend Rosalie. The short girl with black hair is Alice and she's with Jasper, the tall blonde. The last one is Edward, he's single, but he doesn't date. Apparently no girl is good enough."

"Hey Bella are you playing?" Emmett called as Edward and I approached where the family was waiting by what looked like a baseball field.

"Um…sports aren't really my thing." I said hesitantly.

"That's probably for the best, my family can get pretty competitive" Edward said pulling me towards where a bench by the sideline was. ''You can ref with Esme."

I sat and watched as the group of vampires set of for the game. I watched them talking and separating into teams, interested even though I couldn't hear what was being said. I laughed lightly when I saw Rosalie hit Emmett, making him grimace when she turned back around.

While I was laughing I looked up and caught eyes with Jasper.

Not knowing what else to do, I lifted my hand in a small wave. His response was a quick grin and a small wave in return before he returned his focus to the game.

"Bella I was wondering if you would like to help me with me with my gardening?"

"Of course Esme!" I beamed, standing up from where I had been sitting beside Emmett.

"Oh come on! We were just about to finish this game." He protested, trying to put the controller back in my hand.

"Go get Jasper to play or something." I replied, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Hey, don't drag me into this." The blonde vampire said appearing at the bottom of the stairs. "I get sick of him whining for rematches after I kick his ass."

"I do not whine!" Emmett argued, turning to Jasper.

"Now is our chance." I whispered to Esme as we slunk away before they remembered that we were there.

I glanced up over the book I was reading and looked at Jasper.

I'm surprised he even let me come into his room. It seemed like a really personal place he kept private. I mean, even the first time I ever was at the Cullen's house and was given a tour I wasn't brought to this room. And Jasper had said that anyone hardly ever came in here for a long period of time.

"Well either that book you're reading is extremely boring or I have something on my face." Jasper interrupted wryly, a smirk on his face.

"Oh shut up." I shot back, grabbing a pillow off his couch and throwing it at him.

I don't know how much time passed. I didn't have a sense of time, only of the waves of pain that flowed through my body constantly.

Jasper POV (because honestly, how much can I write about Bella feeling pain?)

"Rosalie says to bring Bella to the house as soon as she's awake and under control." Carlisle said returning from another visit to main house.

I nodded idly, not letting my eyes stray from Bella's face.

I'm glad we ended up having Bella's change here for exactly that reason. Everyone would forget that Bella is a newborn and with that many vampires in one place it is more than likely that Bella would feel threatened and intimidated.

For the past three days I had kept my gaze on Bella's closed eyes.

Newborn vampires tend to be unpredictable and unstable when they first wake up and through their first year as vamps. They have to adjust to their heightened senses, the lack of constant pain, and their new physical abilities and appearance.

Between Carlisle and I we're going to have no trouble keeping Bella as calm an under control as possible. And hopefully, her choosing the change and preparing for it will help her keep a somewhat clear head.

My thoughts cut off abruptly as I heard Bella's heartbeat speed up erratically.

Any second now.

I slid back from the occupied bed a few steps and Carlisle followed my lead as we waited for the newly turned Bella to open her eyes.

And then even after her heart stopped completely she remained stock still.

I stood just as unmoving as she was, unsure of how to react to her not waking up.

Is the change complete? Her heart stopped but maybe she hasn't even registered that the pain is over?

Just as that thought passed through my head her left hand moved slightly.

I heard Carlisle exhale heavily in relief and Bella's body stiffened up and in the next second she was off the bed and crouched in a defensive posture, her face guarded and confused.

I remained where I was and searched her face for any sign of recognition. I had seen vampires awaken from their change and not have one memory of their human life. I hoped with all by being that Bella was not a victim of that.

"Jasper?" She uttered, erasing all my fears with one word.

I felt my lips turn up in a smile, unable to keep the joy off my face as I tried to formulate a verbal response.

She must have taken my facial expression positively because the next moment she was standing directly in front of me with her hand resting, light as a feather, against my cheek.

I closed my eyes, only to open them again when she spoke.

"You stayed."

And then she was in my arms.

I slipped my arms around her slender- and slightly taller- form, and pulled her closer to me.

After I got over the shock of her not being in a blood thirsty frenzy currently, I let her go and held Bella by her shoulders in front of me.

She may have gotten taller- maybe 5'7, but I still had quite a height advantage on her being 6'4 myself.

Observing the radiant smile on her face I allowed my eyes to take in the results of her change.

Damn. If Bella was beautiful before- and she was- then now she was absolutely breathtaking.

Her form was slim in a perfect hourglass shape, with her legs and stomach noticeably more toned then before. Her chest was obviously bigger, and I quickly forced my eyes to move up to her face.

Her face was more slender then three days ago, and her hair had lightened up to a lighter brown, and of course her eyes were bright red. The only things that really bore any semblance to human Bella was her full lips, her big eyes, and her small nose.

"So, is it everything you thought it would be?" I asked after I regained control of my brain and my wandering eyes.

"So far? It's better." She replied cheekily before leaning forward and letting her pouty lips graze my cheek.

My breathing stopped as I felt her hair against my cheek and her breath against the side of my face as she spoke.

"Thank you for making my life something to live for."

A/N: Okay I'm actually FINALLY happy with this chapter and hope you readers are also. More to come soon i hope. Poor Jasper…Bella doesn't even know the effect she has on him.

NEXT CHAPTER:

"Everyone is so anxious to see you back at the house." Carlisle said raising his eyebrows questioningly.

"Oh. Well..." I started before glancing at Jasper.

The look on his face strengthened my resolve. I would stand up for myself and NOT be told what to do just to please others.

"Well they've been waiting three days. Another one isn't going to kill them."

Jasper's surprised grin made my response worth it.