Im on holidays so im trying to update as much as i can, thankyou all for the reviews and the follows :)
Hope you all enjoy this next chapter.
-A

"Rose what did you do?" Adrian studied my face as best he could whilst he drove.
"I wasnt going to lie to him Adrian, I just couldnt" I watched the passing streets and my head leant against the window.
"you know now he will find you, your plans of avoiding him are gone".
"I know" I replied. I think on some level I always wanted him to know, Elena needed to know her father and it wasnt fair for Dimitri not to know his own daughter, but that wasnt my doing, he left me. He left and now I inevitable welcomed him back into my life when I wasnt even sure I was ready to truly speak to him.
We arrived at the Council, Adrian took Elena and put her straight to bed, I however went straight to Lissa to explain how my world was just spun out of control.

"You did what! Are you kidding me Rose?" Lissa was shocked she was pacing up and down her living room.
"i dont get it, he walks out, you see each other and give him a reason to walk right back in. Rose sometimes your not very smart" Christian joined it.
"watch it Ozera" I warn.
"Rose, you know he wont let this go, this is Dimitri, he will find a way. Not only that but you cant expect him to not want anything to do with Elena. What are you going to do?" Liss voiced everything I had already thought of.
"I dont know, I'm not ready to allow him access to her, he is her father and I wont deny that but I just cant, not yet, not to mention it will just confuse her". I sigh and sit down on the couch, well slouch actually.

We discussed possible options the rest of the night until I went home, as I checked on Elena I couldnt help but feel horrible, the first two years of her life she has been fatherless, I knew what that was like, why should she. Im her mother I should shield her from these things, not watch and sit back.

My phone woke me up just after three am. Sleepily I rolled over and answered it.
"Guardian Hathaway, this better be good" I spoke, attempting to mask the affects of a disrupted sleep.
"Rose how could you not tell me?" Dimitri's voice shot me up out of bed.
"Dimitri, its three thirty am, I dont have time to talk to you about this now".
"and I suppose you had no time in the last two years either then huh?" he was clearly hurt and angry, then again, now so was I.
"You know what Dimitri, no I didnt have time, I was busy putting back the pieces of myself after you left, again, then I was busy being Lissa's guardian and oh yeah thats right, raising YOUR child alone whilst you were living it up I Russia, so forgive me if I was lacking time to drop in a phone call or email" I was fuming, seeing red was an understatement. How dare he!
"you should have told me." he sighed.

" Oh and how would I do that, with the address or number you left in your letter? No thats right because there wasnt one, you left so dont come to me and throw all blame on me, you have no right to" I let out the breath I didnt realise I was holding.
"Dammit Roza, your not listening, I thought I was doing more harm then good being with you, but I would have never left you if I had known" Elena started crying at that moment.
"Stop it! Its done the past is the past I have to go because my yelling at you has woken up my child. Goodbye Dimitri"
"Rose, dont hang-" I ended the call and through my phone across the room.
I picked up Elena and brought her to my room, I didnt want to sleep alone and she loved sleeping in my bed.

Adrian was watching Elena for the rest of the trip whilst I worked.
The day, well night was boring, just a bunch of Meetings with Lissa that I would listen to from the wall where I was keeping watch. It dragged on to the point when I got to my room I was about to pass out, that was until there was a knock at the door.
" Adrian what now" I spoke as I opened the door, however it wasnt Adrian that pushed his way through.
"Where is she, I need to see her" He was looking around the room, but even so he was barely up right.
" Its eleven pm she is asleep... are you drunk?" I grabbed his arm and turned him to me. "you cant just barge in here drunk demanding to see my child Dimitri, you should go" I remained calm though my heart was pounding from the closeness.
Dimitri sunk to the floor with his face in his hands. " I just, I just want to see her, I missed so much I dont want to miss more" if I didnt know better I would say he was crying but I couldnt see his face.
"get up" I stood and commanded him to follow as I made my way to her room, I opened the door so he could see her asleep in her cot.
"There she is, but your not getting closer, your drunk and a mess, she isnt to be around that."
he was definitely crying now, he grabbed the door handle and closed the door, walking back to the lounge.
" im sorry, this is wrong. I just, I need to talk to you and you wont let me" he pulled me to the couch next to him. I waited.
" I have these", he pulled a stack of letters from his duster,"read them when I leave, there is one from every day I was gone, I wrote but never sent. After you were shot rose I couldnt bare to see you in pain, I didnt want my karma to get you as payback for all the wrong I did as a strigoi, all the wrong I did to you. I have never loved anything as much as you. It kills me to know I left you alone with a child, that I wasnt there. Im sorry, im so so sorry" Dimitri started speaking in Russian,
"Dimitri I dont get what your saying stop. Look thank you for explaining, but it doesnt change anything, im sorry you regret your decision to leave, but theyre just words, actions would have been better, but there was none, you couldnt even send a letter or phone me. I think its time you went home." I put the stack of envelopes down and went to the front door, Dimitri stood and stumbled his way to it.

Great, he was in no condition to leave, I wouldnt doubt that he drove here and I wasnt going to let him kill himself going home. "Wait, your too drunk, you can stay on the couch but after the morning you leave" he nodded in response and I think thanked me in Russian.
I found blankets in a linen cupboard and made a bed for him.

"goodnight Roza" he whispered.
"goodnight Dimitri" I mirrored his whisper.