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Here is chapter 4, hope you guys enjoy :)
-A

During the early morning I felt the bed move and a small body crawl beside me, it must have been 5am, Elena's wake up time, her cot couldnt contain her, every single bed she has ever had she was always able to crawl out of.
"Mummy, who is the man on the couch?" she whispered into my ear.
"Hmm, what sweety?" I opened my eyes to see her watching me intently, "Oh uhm, just an old friend" I kissed her forehead and hoped she wouldnt go back out, with 2 more hours until I had to be up I fell back asleep easily.

When I awoke Elena was not in the bed, but I could hear her laughing, the sound coming from the kitchen. I jumped out of bed and practically sprinted to the kitchen, but stopped at the corner when I saw them. Father and Daughter, Dimitri making Elena toast and Elena sitting on the bench laughing at what ever he was saying. I stood there, peeking around the corner and suddenly felt stupid, why was I so worried about them together? Elena needs her father and Dimitri wanted to know her, I shouldn't stand in the way. My thoughts were intercepted as Dimitri noticed me watching.
"Good morning Rose, I made you breakfast" Dimitri nodded to the table and smiled but I noticed just for a second he was unsure of what I was going to do.
"Thanks" I replied and sat down and dug into my freshly cooked omelette.
"Mummy are you working today?" Elena asked.
"Yes I am so when your done pick out what you want to take to Adrian's"
"I dont want to go to Adians, cant dimitri stay?" Elena whined. I was caught off guard, and clearly so was Dimitri by his jaw practically on the floor, before he put his poker face back. I could still see the grin behind his eyes.
"I dont know-" I began to say but was cut off by Dimitri.
"I would love to... Rose?" Dimitri spoke the words to me with just a look. Let me know her.
"okay then, I suppose one day wont hurt. Dimitri can we talk quickly." I motioned for him to meet me on the deck.
"Sure" he nodded and followed.

We stood outside silent for what seemed like forever, until I began.
" Look I know you want to be in her life, but im not ready for her to know who you are, not yet" I paced the deck thinking
" I get that Rose, I wont say anything, but I also wont just walk away, she is my daughter too and 2 years is more than enough time missed, I cant back away" Dimitri had his mentor de meaner on, something I though was gone a long time ago.
"In the end it is my call, whether your her father or not, at the moment the truth is your just a name on her birth certificate." I almost regretted the words after seeing the hurt on his face...almost.
" Roza, about last night, im sorry, it was wrong and stupid for me to come here. im glad I did but I wish I didnt come intoxicated, I just dont know how to act around you, your so different, and i've made mistakes, I just want to make it right" he sat on the deck chair and continued.
"I know you have heard it every single time this week that we have spoken and I understand your hesitance but now that your so close and here I cant let you go" Dimitri stood up and closed in on me, until I was backed against the wall. " I can read you Roza, we're connected, I will always find you. walking away was stupid, but right now, to stay away would be unimaginable" He stared at me, not breaking eye contact, my heart was racing from the proximity of our bodies, my brain and mouth weren't connected I couldnt speak.

Dimitri's hand came to my face and he kissed me, his hands at my waist, at my back, wondering. Just as mine were, in his hair, on his back. He wasnt just kissing me but I was kissing back, Thats when I broke it and pulled away.
"Dimitri, I cant, you were right, we are connected and always will be...through Elena. That doesnt change what I have been saying all week, walking away for you was stupid, for me it was the worst thing you ever did, when you did the things you did as a strigoi, that hurt but I knew you werent yourself, when you left you were you, there is no excuse other than being a coward. Dimitri Belikov, the one who walked away. It didnt sound right and still doesnt, but you did and no matter what there was or may still be between us I cant let that go, I cant forget and right now I cannot move past it" Dimitri staggered back, I continued. "Of course you can be in her life, and when im ready I will tell her who her father is, but right now I wont, its too fresh, too new" I turned to walk inside when he spoke.
" Can I still watch her today?" he asked.
"Of course, just keep me updated if you leave or anything" . I left to my room to get ready and also to call adrian and tell him he wasnt needed today.
I said my goodbyes and left for Lissa's room.

My head was spinning, it only just hit me what had happened, Dimitri practically declared he still wanted me, and I refused. Wasnt this what I spent so long wanting... Him back? Apparently somewhere between the last 24 months I went cold, to the point where I now pushed the only man I have ever loved away.

"Rose! Finally! Sit down and tell me everything" Lissa demanded, pushing me into the seat.
" uh, what?" I was confused at first, but it didnt take me long to realise being queen had its perks.
"Dont, 'what' me, you know exactly what" Dimitri...
"well..." I dived into the story of what happened, last night or well day when he came over and then this morning, finally ending in who Elena was now with.

" Thats so romantic! He wants you back, and he regrets leaving and he wants to be with Elena" Lissa apparently didnt see the bigger picture as I did.
"No its not Liss, he wants me back because he left, he wants to know elena because he left , everything he wants now is because he regrets his choice to leave. I cant let him back in, especially after he hurt me and now its not just me he can hurt, its Elena too."
Liss and I sat and discussed Dimitri and my issues until we had to leave, todays events where the same as the days before, boring Moroi meetings, the highlight of the night was the patrol I took at the end of the night.

I got home to Dimitri reading a book on the couch, the rest of the house silent.
" She's in bed" he spoke when I looked around.
" Oh, thanks. Usually she doesnt go down until the 3rd try" I laughed.
"Well then, one more time and she should be good" he grinned as he saw her running down the hall to me so I picked her up.
"Mummy guess what I did today?" she beamed.
"what?" I asked.
"Went to the zoo with Daddy" she grinned. My mouth fell open, as did Dimitri's.

With Daddy...