Here is Chapter 2, I hope it lives up to your expectations.
Jac's P.O.V
I'm running, running so fast. I don't know why and I don't know from what but I know that I am scared. So scared. I trip and land hard on the floor, rolling onto my back I look up and find the person that I am running from looking over me. Myself. I'm grabbed and I struggle. I struggle to try and free myself from my tight hold. I want to be free. Let me be free. I'm crying now but all of sudden it's all gone. No-one is holding me and I'm in a bright room. Looking around, I'm confused. I can hear someone calling my name, a male voice. Jonny. Oh how I wish I hadn't have messed our relationship up. I'm too far gone, my whole life has collapsed and I can't do anything about it. I'm hysterical now but all I can hear is my name, like a chant all around me and soon I'm pulling away from the dream world, my nightmare following me into reality. But the first thing I notice when I wake up is strong male arms holding mine above my head. I panic.
Jonny's P.O.V
I'm awoken by an elbow in my side, I grunt as I look over at the clock. 4 am. Sighing I notice what had woke me up. Jac must be in the middle of a nightmare, thrashing about and crying. I start to call her name but it's making no difference. I try to calm the hysterical woman in my arms but it's becoming too difficult. Grabbing her arms, I pin them above her head before she injures herself or me. With one final shout of Jac she opens her eyes with a jolt and screams. I have never ever seen her like this, so out of control and to be honest it scares the hell out me. I lower her arms and gather her into my own. I try to calm her down; I'm shushing her and rocking her back and forth and eventually her cries subside until all I can hear is hiccups.
"Jac sweetheart, its okay I'm here. I'm not going anywhere, I'm here. C'mon show me those beautiful eyes, let me see your face". Slowly Jac raised her head and I nearly cried myself. Her face was bright red and her eyes full of sorrow. I lean forward and press my forehead against hers. I don't know how long it was until she uttered the first words but hearing her voice made the hairs on my arms stand up. She sounded so small and so fragile, not like the Jac I knew. I was going to fix that.
Jac's P.O.V
After I had calmed down, I noticed two things. Not only was I being rocked by a man, but that man was Jonny. I am so confused, why was he here? He was talking to me and I followed what he said and looked at him. So handsome. He pressed his forehead against mine and I closed my eyes to saviour the moment. I just want to stay here forever but I know I can't, I decide to break the silence with the only words that I need to say.
"I love you"
Jonny's P.O.V
"I love you". It's like music to my ears. It's only the second time she's said it, and despite all that has happened to us over the past few days; it's the only words I truly wanted to hear. Sighing I gently lay us down on the bed and manoeuvre the quilt over both our bodies. Making sure she is settled comfortably in my arms I begin to talk.
"I was lying in my bed just thinking. Wondering whether you were in bits over what had happened or asleep without a care. I needed answers, I need to ask so many questions. I came over here just to see you, I had to. I used the key you gave me and found you in ball on your bed. I just wanted to comfort you, you were so small and I just wanted to wrap you into my arms and leave you there forever.
I knew I had made the wrong decision when I walked away from you, but I'm sick of it Jac. I'm sick of all the lies and the deception. I cannot let you go again; I want to be with you forever. I love you too much to just walk away. You need to start telling me the truth, tell me what's going through that head of yours. I am prepared to just forget about everything, from today to start a new life. Me and you, the past is no more and we can be together forever. But that all depends on you Jac. Talk to me, make me understand."
Jac's P.O.V
Hearing Jonny speak and spill his heart out, I know two things. One I have been given such a crucial lifeline and two I am going to make things right. I lean up on my arm and look over the body of the man I deeply love and up to his face. Staring into his eyes, I tell him everything.
"I love you so much Jonny, more than I could ever think. There was a man before you, a man you probably heard the rumours about. He was called Joseph Byrne. I messed his life up, slept with his father to better my career and tore his family apart. I lied and I didn't care. But when he left and asked me go with him, I refused. Yes I was upset but I wanted to stay at Darwin and continue with my career. I thought he was the love of my life but now looking at you, the love I felt for him is nothing compared to the love I feel for you. I don't understand it but you got under my skin and into my heart and I don't want you to leave.
I'm sorry about the way I have treated you and the lies. I'm scared Jonny so scared. I want to be your wife; I want to be the mother of your children. I thought I could be you know, pregnant, when I was having those pains in my stomach. I did a urine sample and it was clear, I went to Serena with an ultrasound from a fake patient and she didn't know and then I found out the truth. I have endometriosis. It's very unlikely that I can have children and I was scared to tell you. I thought you might leave if you knew, but that didn't matter did it. I still made you leave. I want you to know I love you so much and I want to so much forget about everything that has happened and start afresh. But I need to know Jonny so desperately. Do you still want to be with me knowing that I might be unable to give you children? Can you honestly tell me please? I need to know."
I hold my breath as I wait for the answer.
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