Hello! Soooo sorry that it takes me sooo long to update. I even promised that I wouldn't take forever anymore and I still did. I'm awful. This chapter gave me a bit of trouble because it lacked direction for awhile but it finally went somewhere. I hope you enjoy and I'll see if I can do better with updating! I hate to leave you all hanging! haha

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Jeff opened the door to his room to find Nick face-down in his pillows, obviously sobbing. The sight made Jeff sick to his stomach. He hated seeing his best friend so upset and he hated himself even more because he knew he was the reason why. He closed the door and sat down on his own bed facing Nick.

"Are you going to say something?" Came Nick's muffled voice after a long silence.

"I…I don't…really know what to say." Jeff hesitated.

Nick turned his head so that he was looking at Jeff. God he looked awful.

"Well given the recent events, it appears that you should have a lot to talk about."

Jeff looked down at his hands.

"Nick, I'm so sorry."

"For what Jeff?"

"For everything." Jeff started to say but Nick wasn't finished.

"For not telling me that you're gay? For telling Sebastian? For kissing Sebastian and God knows what else the two of you have done? For making me feel like an idiot? I thought we were best friends Jeff…" Nick trailed off as he turned back to his pillow to hide the fresh tears.

"Nick, I…I don't know what I'm doing."

"Oh, I think you do Jeff!"

Sure Jeff hadn't exactly been honest with Nick but he didn't see why Nick was so upset and it was starting to make Jeff a little angry.

"Fine. Do you really want to know the truth? Here ya go Nick!" Jeff said with hot tears in his eyes.

"I started to have these feelings, feelings that I might be sexually attracted to guys. I was so scared but I wasn't sure. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to think that I might suddenly be attracted to you or something and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. I didn't want to make it awkward. So I went to Sebastian."

"Why Sebastian?" Nick interrupted. "He's nothing but a pretty face."

Nick was a little hurt now.

"For your information Nicholas, he is so much more than that!"

Jeff wasn't quite sure why he was getting so defensive.

"At first that's all I saw too but that's why I knew he'd help me. He seemed like he'd do anything just to get a little action. But as I got to know him, I found out he isn't like that at all actually."

"Oh, so are you guys dating now? Are you in love with him Jeff?"

Nick hated the way he said that and he wasn't sure that he actually wanted to hear the answer but there was no turning back now.

"What? No! I mean…I don't know what's happening Nick." Jeff suddenly looked really sad.

"Jeff, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to say it like that."

"See, this is why I didn't want to tell you. I don't even know what's going on with myself. How am I supposed to explain it to someone else?

"Remember I've been there Jeff." Nick was still angry but he also couldn't help but feel for the other boy.

"I know Nick. I know. I never wanted you to find out that way. I was going to tell you but I wasn't ready yet. I'm still not…" Jeff realized.

Jeff knew he wasn't ready to have this conversation with Nick yet so with one final 'I'm sorry' look, he got up and left.

Nick was now lying flat on his back with tears rolling down the sides of his face.

"Why can't I stop loving you?" Nick whispered to himself.

Jeff didn't have to walk far down the hallway before he found Sebastian. He saw the tears on Jeff's face and was immediately at his side.

"Let's go to my room." Sebastian said softly.

Jeff nodded and followed.

Once they were situated on Sebastian's bed, Sebastian asked what happened between Nick and Jeff. Jeff recalled their whole conversation including the part where Nick asked if he and Sebastian were dating and in love.

"I couldn't bring myself to tell him that you're in love with Blaine and I don't know why." Jeff confessed.

"Jeff, I've got to ask you something."

Jeff looked up to say go ahead.

"Do you think that maybe you couldn't mention Blaine and had a hard time explaining things to Nick because you might have feelings for me?"

There was a long pause.

"I…I don't know Sebastian. I definitely feel something when I'm with you but I'm not sure if it's because I actually have feelings for you or if it's because you're the only guy I've ever kissed and it feels right."

"I've got to be honesty with you Jeff. I might have feelings for you as well but I'm also not sure if it's because I actually have feelings for you or if I've been so lonely wanting Blaine that I'll fall for anyone who will give me any sort of feelings in return. I'm so sorry."

"What should we do?" Jeff asked.

"I really don't know." Sebastian admitted taking Jeff's hand in his.

The two boys stared at each other for a while before they began to move closer together. When their faces were just inches apart Jeff whispered "I'm sorry" which was followed by a "me too" from Sebastian. Their lips met.

What Jeff felt when he kissed Sebastian was an amazing feeling but there was also something wrong about it too. He thought that maybe it was because kissing another guy wasn't exactly normal according to some and definitely an unfamiliar experience for him but he wasn't quite sure if that was it. He also thought that maybe it was because he didn't really have feelings for Sebastian, his brain just let him believe that and he felt guilty, but he wasn't sure if that was it either.

With their hands intertwined, the two boys rested their foreheads together.

"You're beautiful. Did you know that?" Sebastian said softly.

Jeff blushed as Sebastian set one of his hands free to brush some stray hair out of Jeff's eyes. His hand lingered on Jeff's face and his thumb slowly moved back and forth.

"So are you." Jeff replied.

There was a long meaningful silence before Sebastian took Jeff's hand in his own again.

"Would you like to get some dinner?" Sebastian asked.

"I'm really not very hungry." Jeff said. "And I don't really want to run into Nick or any of the other guys at the moment."

"How about I take you out? It will be like…a date." Sebastian gave a little wink making Jeff smile.

Jeff still looked a little weary.

"Come on. I'm buying."

Sebastian slid off his bed and made his way to his closet where he found a pair of jeans, a polo shirt, and a cardigan. He then grabbed another pair of jeans, a t-shirt, and his Dalton lacrosse hoodie and threw them at Jeff.

"Get changed." Sebastian ordered as he made his way into the bathroom.

When Sebastian returned to his room, Jeff was standing there dressed in Sebastian's clothing.

"Damn Jeff! My clothes almost look better on you than they do on me!" Sebastian winked.

That wink got Jeff every time. Also, Jeff oddly felt safe wrapped in Sebastian's sweatshirt. It smelled like him and it was comforting. Sebastian grabbed his keys and escorted Jeff out to his car.

"Where are we going?" Jeff asked once they were on the road.

"It's a surprise." Smirked Sebastian.

After what seemed like forever, Sebastian pulled into the parking lot of a small café.

"What is this place?"

"It's my favorite spot. Sometimes I come here when I need to do some thinking. I thought you'd like it too."

The café was the corner building in a series of attached small shops and restaurants just outside of downtown Westerville. The large windows revealed a two level seating area. A soft glow shown from the inside as night fell on the street below. The inside was very cozy with small tables and chairs alongside the windows and out into the middle of the floor and it smelled of soups and pastries. The waiter led the boys to the table in the corner of the second level, overlooking the street.

"This place is great." Jeff smiled. Sebastian smiled back.

As the boys waited for their dinners of soups and sandwiches to arrive, Sebastian told Jeff how he would sometimes come to the café to read or do a little homework or just simply to grab a coffee and a muffin when he was having a bad day.

"Not a lot of people know about this place which is what makes it so quaint. Don't go around telling everyone you know now." Sebastian giggled.

"You're secret is safe with me." Jeff replied with a smile.

Their dinners arrived and as they started eating, the windows were dotted with a cool autumn rain. When they were finished, they decided to go explore some of the shops next door despite the continuing rain. There was a book store, an antique shop, and a pizzeria among other things. Once the boys started getting pretty wet, darting in and out of shops, they decided they'd better head back to Dalton.

When they arrived in the parking lot near the entrance to the school, it began to rain harder. They boys got out of the car and started to run for the doors but realizing they were nearly soaked already they just stopped and started laughing.

"Give me your hands!" Sebastian yelled over the rain.

Jeff laughed as Sebastian took his hands and started spinning them in circles. They weaved through the parked cars, becoming more and more drenched. Jeff ran and jumped into a puddle, pulling Sebastian with him.

"Hey!" Sebastian said kicking water at Jeff's legs.

The boys looked up at each other, still laughing. The laughter ceased as their eyes met. In unison, Sebastian wrapped his arm around Jeff's neck and Jeff placed his arm around Sebastian's waist and their lips met. The two stood there for a few minutes without a care in the world, just happy to be in that moment with each other as the rain fell upon them. Finally they broke apart, taking in the fresh air.

"We should probably go inside." Jeff said softly.

Sebastian nodded.

The boys ran for the door, hand in hand. Once inside, they shook their heads letting the water from their hair spill all over. Then they headed towards the dormitories.

"I think I'd better sleep in my room tonight." Jeff said.

"Are you sure you'll be alright?" Sebastian asked slightly worried.

"Yeah, I mean things aren't totally okay between Nick and I, but they are okay enough for me to sleep in my own bed tonight."

"You're right." Sebastian smiled with reassurance.

"Thanks for tonight though. It was a lot of fun." Jeff said looking at Sebastian's shoes.

"I had a great time too." Sebastian smiled as he lifted Jeff's chin and gave him a quick kiss before turning to walk down the hallway.

"Goodnight."

"Goodnight."

Thank you so much for reading this story! Reviews and such are more than welcome but definitely not expected. Hope to see you next chapter!