The good we do for others is not for others at all. In fact, the good we do for others can quickly turn into the good we do for ourselves. Eventually the others are forgotten.

(P.s This is the last day of Narcissas' second year and Lucius' fourth.)

I have mentioned before that I have made many mistakes; I have also mentioned that I am a man who is meant to be hated. I have done many horrible things, to all means of people, even those I love the most. So, dear reader, be prepared to hate me again and don't forget that I'm on the same side as you.

"Another year gone." Cissa said quietly, as she packed.

I nodded. "I promise I will write you."

"You can't, my parents monitor the mail now." She closed her suitcase. "They aren't as forgiving as your father; Papa still hasn't forgotten the past or his hate for your family. Not to mention Andromeda would be upset with me."

"Well, you won't have to worry about her much longer." I whispered.

"Pardon?"

"Nothing, Cissa. Look, if you ever need anything, contact me by floo. I will always be there. You could also use Severus as last resort."

She smiled. "You don't need to baby me, Lucius. I am not a child."

I brushed a piece of hair from her face. "I know I just worry about you, Cissa."

"What are you playing at, Lucius?" She slapped my hand away, good naturedly. "I think you should go, Piper will be waiting for you."

I groaned.

"If you really dislike her so much, why are you with her?"

"Because Voldemort chose her, because she's a fellow death eater, because she's the logical choice." I thought. "It's complicated, Cissa."

She shrugged. "It doesn't have to be."

I sighed and shook my head. "Let's go, Cissa."

I found myself remembering that day often over the summer as I waited for Cissa's call.

I knew that after I made my threat to Andromeda, it was only a matter of time before she left the Blacks. I had no need to tell them of her relationship; she would do all of that for me.

I had planted an idea in her head. In thinking that I would tell her parents, she would beat me to the punch and leave on her own. Thus, leaving me free to be with Cissa without any further interruptions. Bellatrix has just finished her final year, Rodolphus couldn't care less about Narcissa's life, and Andromeda was about to be blasted out of her life completely.

Yes, all I had to do was wait.

This would be the best decision I ever made, planting that idea in Andromeda's head. Narcissa would be free, free from that mud-blood loving, over protective, scum. She won't even be upset, not upset in the slightest. Or so I thought.

The fire place burst into green flames as a disheveled Cissa stepped out.

"Lucius…" Her voice was barely a whisper.

I jumped from my bed, pretending to be surprised. "Cissa!"

She sat in the chair nearest the window, her posture ridged, and her face stony and cold. "Something terrible has happened."

My smile faded, this was not the reaction I was hoping for. Anger at her sister, hate for what she had done, I could have handled that. But this…This was not what I was expecting.

"What happened?"

She turned her eyes from the window, looking directly at me. "I have just lost a sister."

My heart sank as I realized her eyes were once again clouded over. I said nothing.

"Andromeda has left our family." She began to fidget with her hands in her lap.

"But Cissa…You should be glad. She was poisoning your blood, with her muggle loving ways."

Her eyes narrowed.

"This is a good thing, it may not feel like it now, Cissa but it is. You will be happier without her in your life. It's people like her that are destroying all we hold dear." I finished with a smile, repeating exactly what the Dark Lord would have said.

Cissa's eyes darkened and her lips pursed. "So, it's true then." She smoothed down her dress and crossed her legs, primly. "You're one of them."

"I can explain..." I stuttered.

"Don't you dare, Lucius. Don't you dare try to defend yourself."

I gulped. I had never seen Cissa this angry. Never.

"How could you lie to me?" Her tone was quiet, deadly.

"I didn't think you needed to know this information."

"All this time, Andromeda was trying to protect me from you…" She stood and faced the window, her back to me. "You wanted her to leave didn't you?"

I said nothing.

"Didn't you?" She whispered, fiercely.

"I was doing what was best thing for you…For us."

I saw her shoulders tense. "No, Lucius. You were doing the best thing for you. Not for me. And don't even pretend that there was an us."

I felt my temper rise. "You stupid girl! Everything I do is for you!"

"Really? In what way have I benefited so far, Lucius? All you've done is hurt me."

"Open your eyes, Cissa! I am on the right side! You're just too naive to see it. You're just a silly little girl!"

"Better a silly little girl with a heart in her chest than a beast with a hole in his!"

Silence.

Narcissa picked up her cloak and began to leave.

"Is that it then? You're just going to leave me? After all I have done for you? Don't…Don't you love me?"

She turned to face me, her face cold and stony, giving away no emotion. "Who could ever love a beast?"

With that, she was gone.

END OF PART ONE

-Okay, the Hogwarts portion of their lives is over! The next chapter will jump to when Lucius is 20 and Narcissa is 18, just graduated from Hogwarts. How will Lucius reconcile? Hmmmm..Ideas if you have any :D PLEASE REVIEW! I'M DESPERATE HERE!-